The moment you decided

[bisexualsmoker]

Was there actually a defining
moment when you
actually decided that for sure
you were going to try gay sex
for the first time, after always
thinking you never ever would?
And if so,what were the circumstances that brought about
this choice?
How long then was it until you actually
did have gay sex for the first time?

 

[MoleskineScribbler]

Never thought that I wouldn't, just didn't know exactly when I would, when I'd allow myself to. When I eventually did it was because it felt comfortable.

 

[priapusone]

i loved it when i watched my cock get hard!

 

[bisexualsmoker]

Nice

Never thought that I wouldn't, just didn't know exactly when I would, when I'd allow myself to. When I eventually did it was because it felt comfortable.

I bet your glad you did.lol. Myself,
I never even thought about gay
sex until I moved out on my own.I
then started reading the gay personals which I could never
do at home.
I then began calling gay lines and
having phone sex with guys. I hid
this from everybody for the longest time.
One afternoon I was standing alone in my bedroom and began
thinking about the gay personals,
and then my cock just got really
hard and I got super excited.
It just slowly crossed my mind,
"I'm going to have gay sex. I want to.I will."
I just ripped open my jeans and had the wildest masterbation
session.
I guess about a year after that it
finally happened.

 

[Thenewerpenguin]

Didn't know until I put the pieces together. When watching porn, I loved seeing a big hard cock, paying particular attention to the cum shot. I would fast forward until I got to a blowjob scene or an anal scene. Then I'd skip to the money shot. I began fantasizing that it was me sucking the cock and getting fucked. I found a willing party to experiment with and the rest is history.

 

[MoleskineScribbler]

I bet your glad you did.lol. Myself,
I never even thought about gay
sex until I moved out on my own.I
then started reading the gay personals which I could never
do at home.
I then began calling gay lines and
having phone sex with guys. I hid
this from everybody for the longest time.
One afternoon I was standing alone in my bedroom and began
thinking about the gay personals,
and then my cock just got really
hard and I got super excited.
It just slowly crossed my mind,
"I'm going to have gay sex. I want to.I will."
I just ripped open my jeans and had the wildest masterbation
session.
I guess about a year after that it
finally happened.

Yes I am.

 

[Afterhours22]

I guess when I saw..

my best friend's hard cock for the first time.... I wanted to touch it, feel it throb in my hand.... then taste his hot flesh in my mouth... yeah I was hooked then.

 

[jdee1]

I haven't yet, but I am in the same place looking at personals and really starting to seriously want to find someone and organise a meet. Just the thought of it makes my pulse fly.

I think I would want a cd meet as my first, I find it such a sexy thing. Hopefully soon I will find someone on line that I can trust and get to know. Most of the people on here are not from the UK so it's not easy.

When it does happen it will be incredible.

 

[pcarp]

Was there actually a defining moment when you actually decided that for sure you were going to try gay sex
for the first time, after always thinking you never ever would? NO, there was not.

And if so,what were the circumstances that brought about this choice?Circumstances? Yeah, she wanted to watch me suck another guy and watch him cum on my face or in my mouth.
How long then was it until you actually did have gay sex for the first time?

I never, ever, ever had any desire to have any contact with another man.
But I had a g/f that went out of her way to satisfy my ever fantasy and at the same time introduced me to her "kinky" desires such as cumplay and using a strapon on my ass along with a little panty wearing and a bit of humiliation (like letting the clerk know I would be wearing the larger size panties) and having me submit to her desires. For the last several years I never came anywhere that I didn't lick up my own cum and share it with her. Our evenings always ended with her trying to decide where she wanted me to cum. She had me cum in her (creampies), on her tits, her feet, her ass, in her hands, in her mouth (snowballs), in my own hand, in a glass, on her strapon and anywhere else she could think of, just to make me lick it up and kiss her so we could share it. That led to her talking of eating her after another guy came in her, which I never had a problem with.. Then she wanted me to lick her WHILE she was getting fucked and eating his cum out of her. This one I resisted, telling her she needed some one who liked dick to do it, because there was no way to do it without licking him too. This debate when on for years and her fantasy changed from me licking her while he fucked her, to me licking THEM while he fucked her, to me licking her and me licking him, to her and I sucking him and her taking his load and snowballing it with me, to eventually me sucking him taking his load and sharing with her. I was like "wait a minute", how did this change? She begged and begged. One day she called me and said she was in a hotel with a co-worker and asked me to join them. This wasn't totally out of character and I did. I was eating her (yes he had already cum in her prior to my arrival) while she was sucking him. She looked at me and asked "why don't you come up here and help me with this?" That was the first time I ever sucked another guy. It was basically a non-memorable experience except for the look on her face when she asked me to come help her and when she saw me suck him. I thought that I was done, it was over but it wasn't. She wanted a better performance with a much more enthusiastic participant. I declined for a long time, finally agreeing just as soon as she found another woman to join us (we hadn't had a FFM 3some in years, since her single friend married and moved away). I figured I was safe since she had been wanting to share another woman again and had been unsuccessful in her search. I was wrong.

We were supposed to meet someone from here one day and he stood us up. Suddenly she jumped up yelling "Bart". It seems an ex of hers was in town on business so she called him and asked if he wanted to join us for a 3some. He said yes and she asked if he would have an issue with me sucking his cock. He said he would let anyone suck him as long as he got to fuck her and wasn't expected to reciprocate. She said that she and I would be doing all the sucking and she couldn't wait to feel his dick in her. She also told him that every time he wanted to cum he had to cum on my face or in my mouth.

We continued to meet him every 3 months or so when he traveled to town for business. I spent a years telling myself I was only doing it because she wanted me to. One time when he came to town she was recovering from a surgery and told him to call me. She called me and told me to expect his call. I asked why I would want to meet him without her, and asked what I would get out of the situation since he never reciprocated. . She said I would do it because she wanted me to and that I would get what every good cocksucker got, a mouthful of cum. After that time, whenever he came to town she and I would meet him once or twice and he would come to my house once or twice just to get a blowjob.

At some point, and I truly do not know when it happened, that I actually began to anticipate his business trips. I realized that I enjoyed submitting to him too and I also enjoyed sucking his dick and making him cum.

She eventually moved away. He and I saw each other online on occasion and chatted but that was it. One day we were chatting when he said he was in town and asked if I was interested in giving him a blowjob. So, he and I went back to the once or twice a week blowjobs when ever he came to town.

Well, he has since moved back to town. It is harder for him to "sneak" away now, but he still calls two or three times a month, stops by to let me suck a load or two from his dick and leaves.

 

[jdee1]

Fantastic experience. Thank you for sharing.

 

[terri222]

hope this answers your questions

I was fifteen years old and a virgin. I was spending the summer with my oldest brother, his wife and my nephews in a sleepy town an hours drive from Chicago. One day, I remember listening to the radio and heard of a underage club with live music. I decided that it would be a fun way to spend an evening and maybe I might meet some girls. The only problem was that I didn't drive and there were no buses so the only option was to hitchhike the fifty miles to the club. On the day I chose to go it was a typical hot summer day when I set out on my journey, and what a journey it was. I started out about four that afternoon hopeful to make it there by seven when the doors opened. Right on time and ready for some fun, I began to mingle with the young , cute chicks. I did manage to meet some girls and danced with a couple when I was invited to go with a group to a nearby burger joint . I gladly excepted and was soon was sandwiched between two girls in the back seat of an old Ford Fairlane. Some beers were handed out and soon some kissing and groping went on with me and the two girls. I thought for sure that this was the night that I would lose my virginity, but by ten o'clock the night was cut short and all I had left to show for it was a stiff one.
I finally gave up and began my trip back, getting a handful of rides but still a long way to go. It was now after midnight when this older guy stopped to offer my a ride the rest of the way, I got into his car and he drove on. He was a nice guy and we talked almost the entire way. He was curious to know what I had been doing that night and I was honest about what my intentions were and also about the outcome. That's when he began to ask me about my interest in girls and whether or not I was a virgin. He started talking about sex after hearing that and I found it to be very interesting, I was starting to get turned on as I had never talked with an older person about sex . Anyway he asked me if I had ever gotten a blowjob and I replied no. That's when he offered and that's when I accepted.
By then we were well out of the city and into farm country when he pulled of the highway and found a dusty dirt road and soon pulled over. By now I was rock hard. dripping with anticipation . He suggested we get out of the car and so we did and found a grassy place near the cornfields. There I was on a starry night with the temperatures still in the nineties and not sure what I was suppose to do. He came around the car and placed his hand over my cock and said he was looking forward to sucking my cock. That's when he dropped to his knees and began to remove my pants.
It wasn't too long before he had my entire cock in his mouth. It felt so good, better than I ever imagined it could be. He removed my cock only to say "You like this , don't you" to which I replied, " I sure do"
It was then that I wondered for the first time in my life, what it would be like to suck cock. Never before had a gay thought ever been present in my mind but now it was front and center. I wanted to try it , I wanted to suck his cock too.
And so it was, my introduction to sex. It would be another year and a half before I had sex with a girl and another forty years before that desire to suck cock returned.

 

[schaum_m]

When I was little I experimented with other boys a few times but never had any penetration. My middle school and high school culture was rabidly homophobic so I suppressed my attraction for men for years.

When I was 22 I got to talking to a man in a headshop when I was purchasing some cigarette papers. He was nice, a little older than me, maybe 35 and had short hair as opposed to my shoulder length hair. I had been in his shop several times and he asked me if I'd like to play some pool have a beer after he got off work. It was a normal thing for me to go out with other guys to look for girls so I accepted not realizing at all what his intentions were (I probably wouldn't have accepted due to my own fear). We talked at the bar and really didn't pay attention to the women but I hadn't gotten lucky in a long time anyway and was pretty sure that it wasn't going to happen that night anyway. He was interesting (and handsome) and I enjoyed talking to him, since I was short of cash he had told me before we went that he would pick up the tab. Each time he ordered a beer for me I couldn't help feeling a little like I was being pampered and I enjoyed how it felt. After a few beers he invited me to his apartment. He had a studio apartment with one room so we sat on his bed at watched TV and talked. While we were talking he laid his hand on my inner thigh and it was at the moment I first realized what was going on. He hadn't been paying attention to the girls at the bar because I was his girl. I felt so naive at not recognizing what was going on. I felt at that point that he wanted me to be his homosexual lover and even though I was in the habit of suppressing my attraction to men I kind of wanted to see where this would go. He smiled at me as he moved his hand up my inner thigh and I was a little frightened not knowing what he wanted from me but at the same time it turned me on to be actually sexually attractive to him. I smiled shyly at him and he snuggled closer to me and put his hand down my pants. I totally expected him to grab my cock but instead to my delight he started to finger me and it was at that moment that I decided that everything was alright and I was going to really enjoy this homosexual experience. He made me feel sexier than anyone had ever made me feel before. I wanted to much to be his girl. After he had fingered me for awhile I got so aroused that I started fumbling at his zipper but I was too nervous to get his pants open. He happily helped me by removing his pants and underwear. His cock was so nice. It was bigger than mine and had a smooth silky feel. I started sucking it and twirling my tongue around the tip of his cock. I was totally enjoying his cock when he asked me if he could fuck me. That was the first time in my life that anyone had asked me to fuck. I eagerly agreed and he laid me on his bed and licked my hole. I had licked pussies before but this was so great having him prepare me for fucking. When I was ready he got some lubricant and lubed my hole and his cock and then slid his cock into me. Feeling his cock deep inside me was like heaven. I reached under me to feel his cock sliding in and out of my hole with my fingers. He was so gentle and loving and I came almost right away but it didn't matter because he was still fucking me. Even though I was on my stomach I wrapped my legs around his to give him leverage. I was moaning from pleasure, it felt so good. After about 20 minutes he came inside me.

 

[Blue_Duck]

Was there actually a defining
moment when you
actually decided that for sure
you were going to try gay sex
for the first time, after always
thinking you never ever would?
And if so,what were the circumstances that brought about
this choice?
How long then was it until you actually
did have gay sex for the first time?

My defining moment for me was watching my wife suck my buddy's cock while I fucked her in the missionary position. I became pretty turned on watching his cock slide in and out of her eager mouth. I felt pretty committed to giving his cock a taste. When she took a rest from sucking him I leaned down licked the end of his cock. It must have felt pretty good because he reflexed and shoved his cock forward sliding it into my mouth. I really was not expecting him to do this (we were best friends and had never even hinted about sucking cock). Once his cock was in my mouth I kept going until he came. He pulled out just before shooting his load onto the floor. Before getting to this point with my wife (then girlfriend) and best friend, we had hung out together on the weekends very often. Being teenagers, we were pretty comfortable with heavy petting around each other. My buddy and I often went on double dates. Familiarity with our girls, especially the heavy petting, turned into mutual hand jobs from my girlfriend, then blowjobs, and finally her getting fucked by us both. I sucked my buddy's cock on several occasions after that first time. We never got together alone just to suck each others cock, but I always sucked him when we fucked my girlfriend. Sadly, it has been a long time since we have played like that.

 

[kindahorny]

wow

My defining moment for me was watching my wife suck my buddy's cock while I fucked her in the missionary position. I became pretty turned on watching his cock slide in and out of her eager mouth. I felt pretty committed to giving his cock a taste. When she took a rest from sucking him I leaned down licked the end of his cock. It must have felt pretty good because he reflexed and shoved his cock forward sliding it into my mouth. I really was not expecting him to do this (we were best friends and had never even hinted about sucking cock). Once his cock was in my mouth I kept going until he came. He pulled out just before shooting his load onto the floor. Before getting to this point with my wife (then girlfriend) and best friend, we had hung out together on the weekends very often. Being teenagers, we were pretty comfortable with heavy petting around each other. My buddy and I often went on double dates. Familiarity with our girls, especially the heavy petting, turned into mutual hand jobs from my girlfriend, then blowjobs, and finally her getting fucked by us both. I sucked my buddy's cock on several occasions after that first time. We never got together alone just to suck each others cock, but I always sucked him when we fucked my girlfriend. Sadly, it has been a long time since we have played like that.

that was so hot, thanks for sharing

 

[AmberFemXD]

For me it was an 'Always' thing : )

 

[load69]

I never, ever, ever had any desire to have any contact with another man.
But I had a g/f that went out of her way to satisfy my ever fantasy and at the same time introduced me to her "kinky" desires such as cumplay and using a strapon on my ass along with a little panty wearing and a bit of humiliation (like letting the clerk know I would be wearing the larger size panties) and having me submit to her desires. For the last several years I never came anywhere that I didn't lick up my own cum and share it with her. Our evenings always ended with her trying to decide where she wanted me to cum. She had me cum in her (creampies), on her tits, her feet, her ass, in her hands, in her mouth (snowballs), in my own hand, in a glass, on her strapon and anywhere else she could think of, just to make me lick it up and kiss her so we could share it. That led to her talking of eating her after another guy came in her, which I never had a problem with.. Then she wanted me to lick her WHILE she was getting fucked and eating his cum out of her. This one I resisted, telling her she needed some one who liked dick to do it, because there was no way to do it without licking him too. This debate when on for years and her fantasy changed from me licking her while he fucked her, to me licking THEM while he fucked her, to me licking her and me licking him, to her and I sucking him and her taking his load and snowballing it with me, to eventually me sucking him taking his load and sharing with her. I was like "wait a minute", how did this change? She begged and begged. One day she called me and said she was in a hotel with a co-worker and asked me to join them. This wasn't totally out of character and I did. I was eating her (yes he had already cum in her prior to my arrival) while she was sucking him. She looked at me and asked "why don't you come up here and help me with this?" That was the first time I ever sucked another guy. It was basically a non-memorable experience except for the look on her face when she asked me to come help her and when she saw me suck him. I thought that I was done, it was over but it wasn't. She wanted a better performance with a much more enthusiastic participant. I declined for a long time, finally agreeing just as soon as she found another woman to join us (we hadn't had a FFM 3some in years, since her single friend married and moved away). I figured I was safe since she had been wanting to share another woman again and had been unsuccessful in her search. I was wrong.

We were supposed to meet someone from here one day and he stood us up. Suddenly she jumped up yelling "Bart". It seems an ex of hers was in town on business so she called him and asked if he wanted to join us for a 3some. He said yes and she asked if he would have an issue with me sucking his cock. He said he would let anyone suck him as long as he got to fuck her and wasn't expected to reciprocate. She said that she and I would be doing all the sucking and she couldn't wait to feel his dick in her. She also told him that every time he wanted to cum he had to cum on my face or in my mouth.

We continued to meet him every 3 months or so when he traveled to town for business. I spent a years telling myself I was only doing it because she wanted me to. One time when he came to town she was recovering from a surgery and told him to call me. She called me and told me to expect his call. I asked why I would want to meet him without her, and asked what I would get out of the situation since he never reciprocated. . She said I would do it because she wanted me to and that I would get what every good cocksucker got, a mouthful of cum. After that time, whenever he came to town she and I would meet him once or twice and he would come to my house once or twice just to get a blowjob.

At some point, and I truly do not know when it happened, that I actually began to anticipate his business trips. I realized that I enjoyed submitting to him too and I also enjoyed sucking his dick and making him cum.

She eventually moved away. He and I saw each other online on occasion and chatted but that was it. One day we were chatting when he said he was in town and asked if I was interested in giving him a blowjob. So, he and I went back to the once or twice a week blowjobs when ever he came to town.

Well, he has since moved back to town. It is harder for him to "sneak" away now, but he still calls two or three times a month, stops by to let me suck a load or two from his dick and leaves.

Great story, it sounds like getting a hard cock in your mouth is enjoyable now. I have never gotten the chance to get a cock in my mouth but if the opportunity comes I hope I take advantage of it.

 

[JaxRhapsody]

I was experimenting with a friend when I was a kid. I get hard thinking about being fucked in the ass, yet I dont have anal orgasms, I jusy do it because I like it and it makes them happy.

 

[BelaKarloff]

The moment I decided I was bisexual was when I was sitting in a high school classroom, bored, and then noticed the boy in front of me had a really tight ass that was straining through his corduroys. His round bubble butt was so hot that I couldn't help but think that I'd enjoy fucking it as much as I would enjoy fucking a girl up her ass.

The moment I knew I would have gay sex was when my best friend in high school(right around the same time I noticed the other guys butt) was at my house on a snow day, so we had the day off. We had been shoveling snow, and getting all hot and sweaty. When we walked in my empty living room, we sat on the sofa. There was a commercial on for a movie about Abe Lincoln. In the commercial there was a line where a girl goes up to Lincoln and puts her hand near his beard and says "can I touch it?". My friend and I looked at each other and giggled, but then he said matter of factly "Can I touch it?". I squirmed uneasily, trying to act like I didn't hear him. He said it again, adding an emphatic "please?". He sat close to me, put his hand down my pants and then started stroking my cock. I was embarassed but very excited.

He said throatily "You could do the same for me" and I put my hands down his pants and started stroking him off. He was very excited and shot his load in my hand. I followed shortly after. We went in the bathroom, washed our hands, and didn't mention it again. That is, until a few days later when we wanted to repeat the experience, only this time nude, and with more than just masturbation involved.

That was the first of many adventures; I had so much gay sex in my early years that I wondered if I was gay, but I was too attracted to girls to not want to be with them too. Now I sleep with women exclusively, but the trips down memory lane I've been taking on this site are bringing back some of the old feelings I had for guys.

 

[woman_inside]

One time when I was 17 I was riding the subway, there was a sort of power failure so the train stopped and most of the lights went out, it was crowded, a guy's hand brushed past the front of my jeans, I got a massive erection and when he felt it, he started fondling my cock thru my jeans. I didn't "decide" anything then, but I *knew* for sure I'd have gay sex eventually - that one day I wouldn't resist gay lust and would actively seek cock, or give in to some man's advances, that it was just a matter of time, I knew it was perfectly possible some other stranger would fondle me or something and it would lead to me bending over. That's also when I knew I was a bottom - even though my cock was being fondled, the images in my head were of me sucking his cock, or me getting fucked. It was scary as hell at the time - I'd occasionally lusted after males before, of course, but I'd always sort of dismissed it before, but this time I knew I'd try gay sex one day.
It was years before I actually had gay sex - there had been times when I'd nearly done it, and then I just got fed up with these near-first times, I decided I would, if this makes sense, force myself to allow myself to go thru with it - I put on an online personal for what I wanted, and a couple of days later I was getting fucked - missionary position, my shaved legs on his shoulders. I roleplayed his maid.

 

[dougsan]

I was 9. My friends and I were playing a lot of circle jerk -- boys form a circle and jerk off the boy next to them. It wasn't a gay act, but little more than a bunch of horny boys who had no other outlet. Girls in those days (1950's) did not "play".

Before a circle jerk one day it was suggested that we suck off each other. All of us afterward said it was not something we liked. But, I liked it a lot. I didn't like any boy but I liked sucking on a cock and continued doing it for 55 or so years. I am married and have a grown child. None of my family or friends ever knew about my bi side.

 

[nudeguy76]

One time when I was 17 I was riding the subway, there was a sort of power failure so the train stopped and most of the lights went out, it was crowded, a guy's hand brushed past the front of my jeans, I got a massive erection and when he felt it, he started fondling my cock thru my jeans. I didn't "decide" anything then, but I *knew* for sure I'd have gay sex eventually - that one day I wouldn't resist gay lust and would actively seek cock, or give in to some man's advances, that it was just a matter of time, I knew it was perfectly possible some other stranger would fondle me or something and it would lead to me bending over. That's also when I knew I was a bottom - even though my cock was being fondled, the images in my head were of me sucking his cock, or me getting fucked. It was scary as hell at the time - I'd occasionally lusted after males before, of course, but I'd always sort of dismissed it before, but this time I knew I'd try gay sex one day.
It was years before I actually had gay sex - there had been times when I'd nearly done it, and then I just got fed up with these near-first times, I decided I would, if this makes sense, force myself to allow myself to go thru with it - I put on an online personal for what I wanted, and a couple of days later I was getting fucked - missionary position, my shaved legs on his shoulders. I roleplayed his maid.

It makes great sense! You have to make some effort and follow through once you decide you want m2m sex. Take that step if you are thinking about what its like to suck cock. If you're thinking about it, you want to. And i bet you will love it and do it again(and again!).

 

[coati]

I never fantasized about having sex with another man until I was seduced by an older guy in my early 20s. So, it all happened suddenly. I had great inner turmoil during this encounter until the very moment I decided to quit worrying about it and start enjoying the sensation. I can distinctly remember making an internal decision.

I've enjoyed sex with men and women ever since.

 

[bottomshooter]

For me, I decided I could have sex with a man after a long weekend of indulging in gay porn, IMs, using a dildo a lot, and masturbating a lot. I used to have inner turmoil about exploring these fantasies and about how much they turned me on but once I had my first orgasm using just a dildo and not touching my cock, I came to the realization that I needed to quit worrying about it. Men turn me on period. Now I am just hoping for the right one to land in my lap so to speak.

 

[yorker85]

I had a gay friend in high school that let me know there was always that option but I didn't take him up on it. As I got older I thought about the idea of a man wanting me and it intrigued me.

While my marriage was falling apart I started posting/chatting here and found that I wasn't horrible or ugly. Men and women of Lit boosted my self esteem when I needed it. The men seemed to really like to chat about gay sex with me so I entertained them at first and then started to enjoy it.

Post divorce I have a GF who couldn't believe I never did anything with a man when I was younger. I told her I was too busy being monogomous and married. She told me that she really wants me to try M2M sex. She loves watching and thinks it would be a good experience. She and I live far apart now and she has made it clear that while she doesn't want me sleeping with any women, a man would be acceptable.

I've decided it's time to try. Not sure how I will feel about it afterwards but I am confident I will enjoy the act and so will he. Now I just need to find the right partner.

 

[woman_inside]

It makes great sense! You have to make some effort and follow through once you decide you want m2m sex. Take that step if you are thinking about what its like to suck cock. If you're thinking about it, you want to. And i bet you will love it and do it again(and again!).

I've sucked cock, too, just not that particular time. I'd thought about oral years before I did anything with a guy - in fact my very first gay sex fantasy involved sucking.