The Isolated Blurt BDSM Thread

[minx1]

scared for tomorrow.

Please let it be ok

 

[ecstaticsub]

scared for tomorrow.

Please let it be ok

<<HUGS>>

 

[unregistered]

 

[Netzach]

infusion day, you are here none too soon

 

[graceanne]

infusion day, you are here none too soon

*hugs*

 

[the captians wench]

More and more I wish I had the balls to just quit my job and see what happens.

I'm too fond of security and the freedom (or rather the money) to travel.

 

[ultramarineblue]

.....

 

[chy_girl]

Sometimes I'm almost positive that I was a very good Catholic in a recent past life and certain characteristics carried over.

 

[chy_girl]

It occurred to me tonight that the criteria for what makes a really cool bruise has not changed throughout my life... ever. Coloring, healing patterns, deep tissue bruising... it's exactly the same things that make it a kick ass awesome bruise as it was when I three and hit every branch on the quick way out of the tree.

Then it occurred to me that the qualifications for what made a game a really good game hasn't changed either... It's just a game till someone (*cough*me*cough) gets hurt... and then it's fun enough to send me home with a smile on my face. Even better if there's a scar to remember it by.

I think I've been a masochist all my life. It just presents itself in a more specific variety of games now.

Talk about your not so average "OH!" moment.

 

[minx1]

<<HUGS>>

{{Minx}}

Thanks guys and Rida too

Have just had an absolutely crap time of it the last couple of weeks. am fed up to my back teeth.
Today I had to go for an ultrasound on the lumps in my neck this time. I am beginning to think I am just one huge lump . I ache all over and I cant tell if its just the stress I am under at the moment or the fact that I just ache all over lol. That and lack of sleep and the huge stress in another area of my life is making me very anxious at the moment. I got myself so worked up and had to go to the appointment on my own as usual. I actually cried when I got in there i was that anxious lol
I am just sick of my body and the friggin stuff its been doing lately. I wish it would give me a break and just be normal for a while.

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

I really wish I could follow my own advice.











GodfuckingdamnitshitfuckasscuntwhorefuckfuckfuckfuckfuckARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

scared for tomorrow.

Please let it be ok

/me does away with the hugs and just sends more wine

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

Being awake all night = stellar day at work in the making.

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

It occurred to me tonight that the criteria for what makes a really cool bruise has not changed throughout my life... ever. Coloring, healing patterns, deep tissue bruising... it's exactly the same things that make it a kick ass awesome bruise as it was when I three and hit every branch on the quick way out of the tree.

Then it occurred to me that the qualifications for what made a game a really good game hasn't changed either... It's just a game till someone (*cough*me*cough) gets hurt... and then it's fun enough to send me home with a smile on my face. Even better if there's a scar to remember it by.

I think I've been a masochist all my life. It just presents itself in a more specific variety of games now.

Talk about your not so average "OH!" moment.

This is a very cool post.

 

[Cattypuss]

A momentary suspicion today that maybe I am stronger than the shit life keeps throwing at me.

Blink and you'd have missed it, but for a nanosecond there it was a positive feeling.

 

[ultramarineblue]

I'm relieved and sad today is over.

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

I honestly, truly need for my efforts and struggles to be acknowledged and appreciated.

If I have that, it gives me the confidence to keep going. Because I want to do these things for *him* and I need him to know that.

I don't know if that makes me submissive, or just plain clingy.

 

[Kitty_Schrödinger]

I hate when sluts forget their places and are trying to boss me around or manipulate. Whiney wanker.
Good luck with that

 

[Primalex]

hng = horny net girls

 

[CurlyKat]

This whole job search thing needs to hurry up. Unemployment is boring!

 

[ultramarineblue]

I'm so tired of all the uncertainty. I'm working really hard right now and if my position is going to be cut, at least have the decency to let me know so I don't have to do unnecessary work. I'll still work hard but my focus will change.

 

[Cattypuss]

OK.

That's it.

FINALLY, this worm has turned. Emotionally, he is out of the picture. I realise I actually no longer love him (which is a hell of a relief) and when he contacts me tomorrow I will tell him how the land lies.

If he wants to see me platonically he can (we became great hill-walking buddies over the months).

If he wants a short-term no-strings fuck-buddy out of me, he can have that too (on the understanding that I will also be sleeping with my old FB, who I am now back in contact with, at the same time, and on the understanding that when I have lost another 15 or so pounds of fat I will rejoin dating sites and dump him).

I was allowing him to treat me selfishly, emotionally, because I loved him and because I find it hard to love people, so that made him a rare find. But this last year has done something important - it has proved to me that I AM still capable of loving someone. I am now going to take that knowledge forward, away from emotionally-toxic him and into new relationships in the future.

I feel liberated and empowered and (and I know this is childish) I'm looking forward to witnessing his reaction when I explain to him, calmly and in a friendly way, what parts of me are available to him and on what terms. He is going to be so shocked to find that I in fact don't love him unconditionally and that in fact he has now irretrievably fucked up something that was making him very happy.

 

[Cattypuss]

OK.

That's it.

FINALLY, this worm has turned. Emotionally, he is out of the picture. I realise I actually no longer love him (which is a hell of a relief) and when he contacts me tomorrow I will tell him how the land lies.

If he wants to see me platonically he can (we became great hill-walking buddies over the months).

If he wants a short-term no-strings fuck-buddy out of me, he can have that too (on the understanding that I will also be sleeping with my old FB, who I am now back in contact with, at the same time, and on the understanding that when I have lost another 15 or so pounds of fat I will rejoin dating sites and dump him).

I was allowing him to treat me selfishly, emotionally, because I loved him and because I find it hard to love people, so that made him a rare find. But this last year has done something important - it has proved to me that I AM still capable of loving someone. I am now going to take that knowledge forward, away from emotionally-toxic him and into new relationships in the future.

I feel liberated and empowered and (and I know this is childish) I'm looking forward to witnessing his reaction when I explain to him, calmly and in a friendly way, what parts of me are available to him and on what terms. He is going to be so shocked to find that I in fact don't love him unconditionally and that in fact he has now irretrievably fucked up something that was making him very happy.

 

[chy_girl]

*applause and catcalls for Cattypuss*

Yeah for you, luv! Let him have it...

 

[neci]

i am ready for a six hour drive. i am ready for a six hour drive. i am ready for a six hour drive. if i can just manage to get out of the house, it would help.