The Gay Urge

We are still together and she wants me to remain faithful. The love I have for her means I adhere to that, for her sake, although I think it is in conflict with my true nature. It's a tough call and ultimately is a bit of a sacrifice.

The urges are getting stronger again and I find myself being so tempted to have a gay hook up........I know I'll feel shit afterwards if I do, but I can't deny I'm getting nearer to succumbing.
So although our paths and desires are a bit different, When I decided to commit with my partner, I didn't know how I would deal with the lifelong pull of that "taboo" desire you describe.
She desired monogamy, I told her I may need her help to work through figuring out how I can find a healthy outlet to work through this with her in a way she could enjoy it and I could have an outlet that might diminish that fetishist pull I have.
I actually bought a really hot dildo, And played out some fantasies alone with it.
She also helped, although not as often as I would have wanted initially...she really was a great sport, and we have some fun role play stuff with a dildo or even hot talk.
For me that's actually become hotter than most of the experiences I had, and my fetish has shifted a bit so she is now part of it. So I feel like I control my "urges" now rather than them controlling me.
I'm not sure if that's even an option for you. I hope you're able to figure out out in a healthy way for everyone.
 
Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?
 
Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?
I don't find men attractive at all. In fact I think they are kind of repulsive lol. However I am a total bottom for my beautiful trans girlfriend. So there you have it.
 
Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?
That's fairly typical among bi-curious guys. Some move past that with experience or the right guy, some don't.
 
So many like me…

I LOVE women! The female body gets me like nothing else. Boobs, ass and the pussy area of a woman are heaven on earth. Happily married for almost 30 years!

Although, something changed a few years ago. I am curious. What does a cock feel like, limp and as I play with it to get hard? What does it taste like? My wife and I do a lot of anal play, from fingers to her dildo. This has led to many conflicted feelings for myself. What would a cock feel like in my ass? How amazing would the feeling of a massive cumshot in my ass be? Even experiencing frotting. A 69? Mutual handjobs. The list goes on.

No, I have zero interest in hugging, or kissing another male. I’m the furthest thing from feminine. I don’t want anything other than a little pleasure and sexual satisfaction from time to time. I even went so far as to create a Sniffles account, but chickened out when it started to get serious with one user. I thought about my role in public and the city, how visible I am, and closed the account. Now, I’m left with sexual urges, to play with a cock, stroke it, suck it, and potentially have it gently shoved in my ass until I am completely filled with cum.

Oh if my wife only knew. I’m scared beyond words to tell her I have these feelings. Until then, I read a lot on here, pleasure myself with gay porn, and manage these Gay urges the best I can.
This could have been written by me
I completely understand
 
Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?
100%
 
Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?
Definitely me. Am obsessed with it and constantly masturbating to this fantasy.
 
I knew at age 19 that I wasn't completely straight after I got turned on reading a Penthouse Forum Variations letter about a cocksucking cowboy (and I happened to be working as a cowboy at the time).

But thanks to societal, religious and familial messages, I spent decades running away from that. But driving things into the shadows is no way to be.

After some life trauma, I told my wife four years ago that I was bi, or at least not 100% hetero, and was not "naturally non-monogamous." I've gotten really good at the communication thing after decades of personal work and therapy, and I took great care in how and when I told her. I told her I was simply exhausted keeping parts of myself hidden (many more parts than just sexuality, some quite simple) out of shame, and I wasn't asking for anything to change.

She still reacted poorly, going into a fear place. I was careful to never, ever lose my cool when she would go back to the fear place and come at me with frankly terrible and homophobic comments. I was patient.

Over time, thanks primarily to my creative sexuality (I'm a writer, used to do some acting) and love for roleplay and fantasy, she gradually came around over time. Today, she's shed almost all of the fear-based homophobia and such, and we have the best, most open, most fun sex we've ever had. We are ethically non-monogamous (she has complete agency to enjoy her sexuality, with whomever she likes; I'm more restricted, but we go to adults-only resorts where she is comfortable letting me express my full sexuality).

In practice I'm 98% straight, but I hope to lower that percentage if she continues to get more comfortable (she has a guy she had sex with at the resort she likes to call her "bf," and we've had some hot video or sexting threeways; he's not bi, but is totally down for a mmf scene at the resort next time we go in the fall, and my wife is now actually turned on when I lick her pussy while fucking her with "his dick" a dildo, and when I pop it out and suck it).

In fantasy and imagination, I'm much more bi. My favorite porn remains bisexual mmf stuff, hotwife, things like that, but I also really get off seeing older married men enjoying cock in various ways, especially with certain kinds of men.

I propose that moving toward bisexuality/gay as an older married man is so common that it should be considered somewhat "normal." I have theories about that, but won't expound here (happy to, if someone asks).
I’m very interested in learning about your thoughts.
 
It's a perfectly healthy situation for two male friends to mutually work off their natural sexual energies by regularly sucking each other's cocks without having to bother their womenfolk, while the girls can happily get on with sharing the things that they enjoy, such as watching the shopping channel or discussing events on their latest TV-reality show
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It definitely seems like the urge gets stronger as I get older. Or maybe it’s just that I never really embraced that part of my sexuality when I was younger. I suspect this might be the case for a lot of bi men who fell into straight relationships, but never got to explore their bisexuality for whatever reason. I’m not sure whether I will explore now or not, but I know that urge isn’t going away.
 
Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?
No, You are not minority, We are a lot what we think like you, me too
 
Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?
There are many like you and I am one of them. This feeling confused me at first but Literotica and SilverDaddies showed me that I was not alone.
 
Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?
I understand how you feel and recommend pursuing your desires. You might be surprised as you meet guys and explore these desires you will realize you have a preferred type guy who you want to explore with. Then you may find you want to explore kissing, cuddling etc.
 
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