The Gay Urge

[BBCfan]

Fascinating thread and variations on the "gay urge".
My first sexual experience was on my knees for a hung guy, Details of how it unfolded aren't really that important anymore, But it left me confused As although it wasn't what I thought I wanted, it was enjoyable somehow.

Once women became attainable I never thought of it again, Even turned down a few offers with zero desire or interest.
However it really began emerging Later as a growing curiosity and urge that became obsessive and overwhelming.
I acted on it as an adult and I had a few enjoyable experiences, what eventually became aware to me was the mental thrill of the pursuit and desire was far more arousing than the actual act.
Everything for me is extremely specific in the fantasy and arousal. If it doesn't meet those requirements I have zero interest, and was never aroused when I was performing, Even if a guy wanted to reciprocate I could not get aroused.

Thankfully I never married during the most confusing era, As it felt unsafe to share and I didn't want to lead a double life. I rarely acted on it but it did not go away and only got stronger If I tried to completely close Pandora's box.

I am open with my partner now about it, and actually haven't felt the urge to act on it in years. Though I fantasize and relieve some of those memories, which is very exciting. Things have more transitioned fetish wise to things to do with my wife.

Maybe 1 day I'll want to pursue it again, but for now it's actually fine just to fantasize and have outlets I enjoy but don't obsess about hopefully.
Wishing everyone peace and fulfillment in what can be a very confusing journey at times.

 

[BBCfan]

We are still together and she wants me to remain faithful. The love I have for her means I adhere to that, for her sake, although I think it is in conflict with my true nature. It's a tough call and ultimately is a bit of a sacrifice.

The urges are getting stronger again and I find myself being so tempted to have a gay hook up........I know I'll feel shit afterwards if I do, but I can't deny I'm getting nearer to succumbing.

So although our paths and desires are a bit different, When I decided to commit with my partner, I didn't know how I would deal with the lifelong pull of that "taboo" desire you describe.
She desired monogamy, I told her I may need her help to work through figuring out how I can find a healthy outlet to work through this with her in a way she could enjoy it and I could have an outlet that might diminish that fetishist pull I have.
I actually bought a really hot dildo, And played out some fantasies alone with it.
She also helped, although not as often as I would have wanted initially...she really was a great sport, and we have some fun role play stuff with a dildo or even hot talk.
For me that's actually become hotter than most of the experiences I had, and my fetish has shifted a bit so she is now part of it. So I feel like I control my "urges" now rather than them controlling me.
I'm not sure if that's even an option for you. I hope you're able to figure out out in a healthy way for everyone.

 

[vivomivida]

Me encantaría conocer a un hombre casado que me hiciera el amor románticamente.

Me too

 

[Hitchiker69]

I'd love to meet a married man who would make romantic love to me.

Me too. To be made to feel appreciated and desired enough that he wants to seduce me, slowly building up from hugs and kisses to passionate, caring, loving and fucking...

 

[Hitchiker69]

I'd love to meet a married man who would make romantic love to me.

So would I. I would respond eagerly with a passion to encourage him. He could have me anyway he wanted and I'd reward him with all the best sex I had to give.

 

[MrMannson]

Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?

 

[BillyWalrus]

Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?

I don't find men attractive at all. In fact I think they are kind of repulsive lol. However I am a total bottom for my beautiful trans girlfriend. So there you have it.

 

[TallOne]

Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?

That's fairly typical among bi-curious guys. Some move past that with experience or the right guy, some don't.

 

[guns4444]

I have a date set to suck my second cock!!

 

[bobb_sledd]

I have a date set to suck my second cock!!

Second of many if you're lucky. Enjoy!!

 

[DirtyGranpa66]

So many like me…

I LOVE women! The female body gets me like nothing else. Boobs, ass and the pussy area of a woman are heaven on earth. Happily married for almost 30 years!

Although, something changed a few years ago. I am curious. What does a cock feel like, limp and as I play with it to get hard? What does it taste like? My wife and I do a lot of anal play, from fingers to her dildo. This has led to many conflicted feelings for myself. What would a cock feel like in my ass? How amazing would the feeling of a massive cumshot in my ass be? Even experiencing frotting. A 69? Mutual handjobs. The list goes on.

No, I have zero interest in hugging, or kissing another male. I’m the furthest thing from feminine. I don’t want anything other than a little pleasure and sexual satisfaction from time to time. I even went so far as to create a Sniffles account, but chickened out when it started to get serious with one user. I thought about my role in public and the city, how visible I am, and closed the account. Now, I’m left with sexual urges, to play with a cock, stroke it, suck it, and potentially have it gently shoved in my ass until I am completely filled with cum.

Oh if my wife only knew. I’m scared beyond words to tell her I have these feelings. Until then, I read a lot on here, pleasure myself with gay porn, and manage these Gay urges the best I can.

This could have been written by me
I completely understand

 

[guns4444]

Second of many if you're lucky. Enjoy!!

Im rock hard thinking about it

 

[DirtyGranpa66]

Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?

100%

 

[Sissyforu2]

This could have been written by me
I completely understand

Me too. Something clicked a few years ago and I'm so turned on by the thought of playing with, stroking and sucking cock. It's almost all I think about.

 

[Sissyforu2]

Am I the minority?

I want to explore what another male cock feels like, and tastes like. To play with it, rub mine against it, and eventually feel a cumshot in my ass.

I don’t, however, want to kiss, cuddle, hug or anything like that with another male. I don’t find men attractive at all, just want a little exploration.

Anyone else like me?

Definitely me. Am obsessed with it and constantly masturbating to this fantasy.

 

[tristantrotsky]

So would I. I would respond eagerly with a passion to encourage him. He could have me anyway he wanted and I'd reward him with all the best sex I had to give.

So I'm guessing that giving a quickie one-off blowjob to a friendly stranger is out of the question...?

 

[Rickki]

I knew at age 19 that I wasn't completely straight after I got turned on reading a Penthouse Forum Variations letter about a cocksucking cowboy (and I happened to be working as a cowboy at the time).

But thanks to societal, religious and familial messages, I spent decades running away from that. But driving things into the shadows is no way to be.

After some life trauma, I told my wife four years ago that I was bi, or at least not 100% hetero, and was not "naturally non-monogamous." I've gotten really good at the communication thing after decades of personal work and therapy, and I took great care in how and when I told her. I told her I was simply exhausted keeping parts of myself hidden (many more parts than just sexuality, some quite simple) out of shame, and I wasn't asking for anything to change.

She still reacted poorly, going into a fear place. I was careful to never, ever lose my cool when she would go back to the fear place and come at me with frankly terrible and homophobic comments. I was patient.

Over time, thanks primarily to my creative sexuality (I'm a writer, used to do some acting) and love for roleplay and fantasy, she gradually came around over time. Today, she's shed almost all of the fear-based homophobia and such, and we have the best, most open, most fun sex we've ever had. We are ethically non-monogamous (she has complete agency to enjoy her sexuality, with whomever she likes; I'm more restricted, but we go to adults-only resorts where she is comfortable letting me express my full sexuality).

In practice I'm 98% straight, but I hope to lower that percentage if she continues to get more comfortable (she has a guy she had sex with at the resort she likes to call her "bf," and we've had some hot video or sexting threeways; he's not bi, but is totally down for a mmf scene at the resort next time we go in the fall, and my wife is now actually turned on when I lick her pussy while fucking her with "his dick" a dildo, and when I pop it out and suck it).

In fantasy and imagination, I'm much more bi. My favorite porn remains bisexual mmf stuff, hotwife, things like that, but I also really get off seeing older married men enjoying cock in various ways, especially with certain kinds of men.

I propose that moving toward bisexuality/gay as an older married man is so common that it should be considered somewhat "normal." I have theories about that, but won't expound here (happy to, if someone asks).

I’m very interested in learning about your thoughts.