Renegade

The Nitelight

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Her I understand.
She's hurting and vulnerable, and she needs a friend.
You could have been her friend.
She thinks you are.

But you?
Your recent posts indicate a glaring insensitivity at best and a rampant opportunistic streak at worst.


I'm leaning toward the worst.
I think you're the lowest form of snake.


You hurt me yesterday.
And she knows it.
You were just a touch too gleeful.
Not smart.


She'll figure you out.
Hopefully soon.



Thanks, Friend.
You brought me back when nothing else would.
 
:( Renegade can't hold a candle to some of the snakes we've had on the board. I'm the #1 snake hater, remember? If anything, I'd say Renegade is just young and makes mistakes of youth. He'll learn, as most of us did.

Nitelight, I wish you'd answer your PMs.
 
Re: Cheyenne

I know, Nitelight. But there is snake venom antidote. It won't kill you unless you let it eat you from the inside out. Let the rest of us be your antidote.

I don't believe anyone here wishes you OR BB any ill will. Including Renegade, even if his words hurt you. And neither you or BB seem to wish anything but the best for the other, which is really cool. I hope I'm reading that correctly from the posts here. I see pain in both of you, but no real bitterness. Not everyone handles those forks in the road of life that well. Both of you are great people! Don't lose that now.
 
Cheyenne

In the great scheme of things, Renegade is insignificant.


The Beauty and I have problems that we need to work through.
But we always do.
Even if we are not meant to be together, we'll work through them and emerge as friends.


That's actually not the point of this thread.


Our breakup was cordial, with each of us being more concerned with the other person than we were with ourselves.



BlondeBeauty is a wonderful person. She truly deserves nothing but the best. Even if she doesn't think so herself.


So while I was hurt, I wasn't angry. And I didn't become angry until I started coming to the Board and reading the young and mistake-ridden posts of our man Renegade. I didn't get angry until I came to the Board and started reading the wink-wink, nudge-nudge posts of the title character of this thread.


Who by the way, has been around for every step of our well-documented relationship.
And That's what I find particularly troublesome.


This isn't some newbie fresh off the street throwing things out to every woman on the Board trying to get laid.

This is someone who has claimed friendship to both of us.

He's lost mine.

She's still free to choose.
I hope she chooses wisely.
 
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*sigh*

Okay, I guess I haven't read the posts you're talking about, and I'm not going to go look for them. I don't think I want to see them.

Maybe the most important thing is what you wrote yourself:
"In the great scheme of things, Renegade is insignificant."

Friendships change, they come and they go. Maybe it is just time for you to let this one go.

Time for me to head to work. I really do wish you the best, Nitelight. I hope to some day enjoy your "snide" comments on the bb again.
 
So that's what's going on these days. Damn that sucks. You two were wonderful together. Yeah, I know, this from the anti-nightlight.

Renegade is a young'un with nothing substantial to say. This is the way he's been from day 1. If he ever had anything substantial to say, I'd probably fall out of my chair. Unsubstantial people are shallow and they hurt others more effectively than trolls like me ever could because they get you to thinking that you're their friends when they aren't deep enough for true friendships. At least online. I like Ren for the most part, actually. He says some funny things and he's usually a good kind of guy.

Don't worry, or at least try not to too terribly much, I think that BB knows who her friends are and who they aren't. I think that she's hurting, but she knows where to get the people that will help her get past it. Unfortunately, she's also finding out where she can't.
 
Nitelight

First off, I'm really sorry that you're hurting in all of this. If nothing else, please believe that much. And I know which posts you're talking about. Let me tell you right now that I do apologize for them hurting you in any way. It was just me being the goofball that I am at times around the board. Nothing more. And I'm truly sorry for hurting you in any way that I did. In the future, I'll try to think more before posting.

But, I'm not going to lie either. Yes, BB and I have been talking a lot for awhile. She's a great girl and we've been close friends during the last couple weeks. You know that. And, yes, there's a possibility of more. Time will tell. Me and her have talked a bit about what's going on between you two, as one friend to another. You might not believe me, but I did nothing to try and persuade her to making the decision she has.

It's how she feels, Nite. She doesn't want to hurt your feelings, she cares about you, but she's just not happy anymore. Know that you love her, but do you want her to stay in a relationship where she's not happy? It's not fair to either of you. Believe me or not, I wanted things to work out between you two. I've always had nothing but respect for your relationship in the past. I'm sure you've seen me say that several times on the board.

That said, even if you and I can't be friends anymore (which I'm hoping isn't true), I hope that you and I can both agree that we want the best for BB. When me and her started talking in IMs, I already liked her a lot from our PM conversations. She's been a good friend, and I care about her. Even if she were to decide that being with you again was the best for her, I'd be happy for her, long as it's what she wanted.
 
I know that you've been talking.
But I don't know what you've been talking about.
I never asked.
I trust her.


But I know that she went to you as a friend, seeking a sympathetic ear.
A fair, unbiased ear.

And seen in this new light, I wonder if you were ever truly that.
Revealing a clear, selfish, self-interest, I then have to wonder how badly I was undermined.


Food for thought.
For me.
And for her.


BTW: Goofball was a poor choice of words.
And the 'Just me being silly old Renegade' defense is getting a bit stale.



You're no long term threat.
I'm just concerned about the damage you can do in the short term.
 
The Nitelight said:
I know that you've been talking.
But I don't know what you've been talking about.
I never asked.
I trust her.

But I know that she went to you as a friend, seeking a sympathetic ear.
A fair, unbiased ear.

Then ask her if I've been unbiased or not. Many times I tried to approach this with a "Things will work out, just you watch" attitude. But I'm not going to try and talk her into staying with you when she was obviously having such strong second thoughts.

And seen in this new light, I wonder if you were ever truly that.
Revealing a clear, selfish, self-interest, I then have to wonder how badly I was undermined.

Self-interest? You may never believe me, but the only interest I had going into this was to try and help a friend. Don't think there's anything I can say to help you see that, but I hope you will.

BTW: Goofball was a poor choice of words.
And the 'Just me being silly old Renegade' defense is getting a bit stale.

Wasn't meant as a defense. I admit that my posts were in bad taste. And I'm sorry for that.

You're no long term threat.
I'm just concerned about the damage you can do in the short term.

You're partialy right there. I'm not a long term nor short term threat. The only threat to the relationship is you. Do you even realize how much you've hurt her at times? You might not mean to, but you have. Yes, I've not heard your side, but I do think you need to take a step back and cool it. These threads you've been starting the last two days isn't helping things either.
 
If a BB thread is the way to address this,

which I realize is something of a custom or tradition here:
 
Over 140 views by the time I post this?
Pardon my choice of words, but that sucks.
This is making me sick to my stomach.

I have no interest in airing dirty laundry here on the GB. That's partially the reason that I didn't make a big stink about our split-up. Many of the things that we've discussed should remain solely between you and I, Nite. I thought we had sorted things out last night in IM's, but it appears I'm wrong. Quite frankly, I'm disappointed that you would stoop as low as this. A PM wouldn't have cut it?

As for calling Renegade "insignificant", I believe that each of you is very, very wrong. He's been a great friend to me, and a shoulder to cry on. We talked as friends, and he did provide an unbiased ear for listening. Nite, he admires and respects you, and would never bad-mouth you. To do this to him on the board was cruel, and unfair. He never once influenced my feelings or decisions, he just helped me through the tears. I admire that, and I owe him one. Not many guys would stick around to talk to a weepy girl, especially one that was a relative stranger from the boards. That shows truly great character.

And as for the flirty posts? I don't think there was anything wrong with them. They were meant to be silly and trivial, to make me grin or giggle. Yes, I did find them funny. Sometimes the silly little posts are the ones that brighten your day. It helps to be able to laugh through the tears.

Future conversation can be done through PM's or IM's. I've seen all that I want to here.
 
PM's don't provide documentation.
I wanted this noted for future reference.
That's how you see patterns.
 
As for sticking around for a weepy girl who was a relative stranger, I can think of at least one other.
 
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