Thank you, Elle.I'll consider it. Cost really isn't a problem, just comfort and fit. And I may be one of the few women on the planet who hate to shop[/B
My God, it's like I'm looking in a mirror. This has been me exactly, for a very long time. All the walls I've built to protect myself... I'm trying to trust again, but it is not easy.
Your new av is lovely Jezzi. Is your hair still red. I cannot tell in that picture
My new boots that have had me excited arrived this week and I have been breaking them in. My left ankle feels really tender from being pushed my boot. G is very excited by over knee boots, even though they are flat. Makes me giggle a bit. I can tell already they are going to be better than what I have been wearing though.
Yes.
Picture?
Never!
Cute new av
I fell out of love with shopping when I stopped seeing value in my own appearance.
I know at least one other person on literotica who I think treats other people better than treats themselves.
In seeing this I have realised that at some point this has to change, and whether its the self love, which I have to refoster, or the treating myself with love, comes first is not so important. So I am starting with the 'dress for success'. I have bought some clothes, i am starting to enjoy buying lingerie more, I enjoyed being brave to experiment with my hair colour, and bought some make up. Buying boots instead of making do because ' it doesn't matter for me' .....its all part of the picture.
Its important to differentiate between comforting myself with buying stuff, that's not happening, but Rather I am saying 'well, no, I am not who I was when I was x age, and not who I thought I would be now, but this is who I am, so let's make the best of it' not wait for a future that may or may not happen.
So I bought beautiful boots. I'm not keeping things for best anymore so much either.
I was being a bit dramatic, making my lament about invisibility rather difficult to see. it's not very like me, but I was in a bit of a mood at the time.
As to why I would... it's probably something that would seem silly to most people, and it is in the grand scheme of things. I probably should've just kept it to myself, but I didn't in the moment, so I'll just apologize for not being more open about it now.
I'm one of those few, too.
I agree that it doesn't matter which comes first: loving yourself or treating yourself lovingly. I think that treating yourself lovingly can certainly help you get to the point where you do feel it. Fake it until you make it, is an idea that works, I think. Love and acceptance of myself has been something I've struggled with all my life. I make more peace with me as I get older, but some days are harder than others, and there are some lessons that have to be learned more than once. It's inspirational to hear how you're refostering that love for yourself for who you are now. And, I'm glad you're not saving the best stuff for later as much.
When you don't have much of an opinion about yourself, I think you're more likely to choose people unwisely.
My God, it's like I'm looking in a mirror. This has been me exactly, for a very long time. All the walls I've built to protect myself... I'm trying to trust again, but it is not easy.
I am not sure what color I am going to....Maybe dark burgundy?
Shopping got done. I started overdosing on people, though. Too much madness for me today. Parking was the most unpleasant part, so not bad, really.
Your generosity is inspiring.
Also, show us the decorated cast!
I learned to be alone long before I learned how to be in a relationship. I think it gave me oddly high standards for someone who didn't think very much of herself. hehe
Glad you finished, parking is always such a pain in the keester....unless I take my mom, she has one of those handicap parking placards...
I think lots of you Calli! I am glad to call you friend.
Respect and kindness.....must.
I like this thread
You doing magic tricks again?
oh and no you are still here!
