curvacious
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i just needed to vent so that i might actually get some sleep tonight.
So I just meet this new guy. He's great so far and I'm basically in lust. The problem is that he reminds me of my first love. Just a basic on the first one---I loved him so much and our love (seemed to be) was more pure than I've had since (now I'm more cynical about love and suspicious). Anyway he cheated and i got rid of him but i took him back eventually. I moved to college while he stayed home. I called and he was back with the girl he cheated on me with the first time. I wrote nasty letter and was very pissed. Guy killed himself. So yep--I have felt guilt about it but I know it was his choice so I'm better in that department. However I spent a good year if not 2 "looking" for him or someone who could be him.
So now the new guy (btw, this is 6 years after the guy killed himself) reminds me of the first one in his looks, build, smell, and taste. Don't get wrong --I know who I'm kissing and everything and the thoughts of the first are few and far between when I'm actually with the guy. I can tell the differences between the two and I genuinely like this new guy. I just don't want him to think that i like him only becuase he reminds me of someone i once knew.
Also those feelings of jealousy and general unease have resurfaced and i think it's because i want to trust the guy about everything he says but he's new in my life and people can lie. I don't want those ugly feelings getting in the way of something that could turn out to be good.
ok--enough of that i think i can sleep now that it's off my chest.
So I just meet this new guy. He's great so far and I'm basically in lust. The problem is that he reminds me of my first love. Just a basic on the first one---I loved him so much and our love (seemed to be) was more pure than I've had since (now I'm more cynical about love and suspicious). Anyway he cheated and i got rid of him but i took him back eventually. I moved to college while he stayed home. I called and he was back with the girl he cheated on me with the first time. I wrote nasty letter and was very pissed. Guy killed himself. So yep--I have felt guilt about it but I know it was his choice so I'm better in that department. However I spent a good year if not 2 "looking" for him or someone who could be him.
So now the new guy (btw, this is 6 years after the guy killed himself) reminds me of the first one in his looks, build, smell, and taste. Don't get wrong --I know who I'm kissing and everything and the thoughts of the first are few and far between when I'm actually with the guy. I can tell the differences between the two and I genuinely like this new guy. I just don't want him to think that i like him only becuase he reminds me of someone i once knew.
Also those feelings of jealousy and general unease have resurfaced and i think it's because i want to trust the guy about everything he says but he's new in my life and people can lie. I don't want those ugly feelings getting in the way of something that could turn out to be good.
ok--enough of that i think i can sleep now that it's off my chest.
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