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[mrtnmoon]

mmm - i've recently come to learn that sometimes just one little thing has to change (well - i shouldn't say little 'cuz it always feels so overwhelming) for the outcome to change.

i always have the same response to confrontational (& sometimes they're just confrontational in my head...) situations - i feel backed in to a corner & wanting to defend myself...

so lately i wonder why this response? maybe it's time so get out of the corner and stop defending myself & instead say... this is just how it is!

anyways - am glad you & mom are a little bit better. take care!

what you're saying probably makes sense if I wasn't loopy.
thanks for the good wishes.

 

[Guest]

oh, I see how it is.... you're trying to get rid of me. lol.

hell no {{{{hugs}}}}

 

[mrtnmoon]

hell no {{{{hugs}}}}

it's ok if you were.... sometimes I wish I could get rid of me. lol. *hugs* back and what's up with the av? any chance you'll put my favorite one back up any time soon?

 

[Guest]

it's ok if you were.... sometimes I wish I could get rid of me. lol. *hugs* back and what's up with the av? any chance you'll put my favorite one back up any time soon?

which was your favorite?

 

[purrbaby]

Moonie! Hey sorry I haven't been on lately, I don't want to explain here, I will whenever I can. I promise. And I didn't forget my other promise lol...

I just wanted to let you know I saw your email in my mailbox buuuut it won't open. None of my mail will. I have no idea why. I'll give it a little longer and see if they fix the glitch, it's really messing up work I had to do today too.

Hope you're feeling better sweety ::hugs and kisses:: Thinking about you and your mom.

 

[kinkikittyn]

well... I guess if I was smarter I'd learn something. I just seem to keep doing the same things over and over. maybe it's not really a case of not learning, exactly.... it's more like hoping for a different outcome. in a way, tho, it's like watching a movie you've seen many times before and hoping for a different ending anyway.

just recognizing a pattern in the choices you make good, it gives you an opportunity to understand why you do it. Sometimes you don't even need to understand the why and just change the bahavior. ie. Perhaps you will decide you don't like the way the movie ends and make your own ending rather than hoping for a different ending. I know easier said than done but give yourself credit though for the changes you have already made and know that you can continue.

PS. would you prefer mrtnmoon OR what initials would you use from that?

 

[mrtnmoon]

which was your favorite?

I've told you a couple of times.... if you don't remember, that's ok.

 

[mrtnmoon]

just recognizing a pattern in the choices you make good, it gives you an opportunity to understand why you do it. Sometimes you don't even need to understand the why and just change the bahavior. ie. Perhaps you will decide you don't like the way the movie ends and make your own ending rather than hoping for a different ending. I know easier said than done but give yourself credit though for the changes you have already made and know that you can continue.

PS. would you prefer mrtnmoon OR what initials would you use from that?

since I'm feeling pretty down right now and it's the result of something that a certain someone keeps doing to me, I'm guessing that the ending of that movie ain't gonna change today. I wish I knew how to just let things or people go..... she's hurt me so much and not only can't I not let it go, I can't stop caring about her and wanting her. moron.

hey... that kind of answers your ps, too... all those letters are in mrtnmoon, so just call me moron. seriously, whatever you want is fine. I probably did ask MSL at one point not to call me moony, but it doesn't matter. some call me moony, some call me moonie, some call me moon. if I was speaking to myself I'd call me mr because that would be the easiest to type. it's up to you, I'll answer to anything.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Moonie! Hey sorry I haven't been on lately, I don't want to explain here, I will whenever I can. I promise. And I didn't forget my other promise lol...

I just wanted to let you know I saw your email in my mailbox buuuut it won't open. None of my mail will. I have no idea why. I'll give it a little longer and see if they fix the glitch, it's really messing up work I had to do today too.

Hope you're feeling better sweety ::hugs and kisses:: Thinking about you and your mom.

not doing too good today, but it's not physical. mom is holding steady. I guess she's getting better, it's just taking longer than we thought it would.

I hope it's nothing too serious, re: the reason you haven't been on. if it is, I hope things are better soon. as for the e-mail, it was nothing important, just a teasing reminder of that promise you mentioned. I'm gonna go watch tv or take a nap or something. take care. *hugs*

 

[mrtnmoon]

not doing too good today, but it's not physical. mom is holding steady. I guess she's getting better, it's just taking longer than we thought it would.

I thought she was holding steady.... in some ways it seems like she taken steps back. my bro says it seems like she doesn't have the will to keep fighting and working to get better, I dunno...

I haven't been to see her since I had my surgery because I thought the jostling of the ride to the hospital would be too painful. I'm going today, tho, even if I have to carboload painkillers to do it. (don't worry, bro's driving.) everybody always jokes about how I'm her favorite, so maybe I can help get her cheered up.

 

[buckeye007]

Just popping in to say "hello" sorry to hear about your difficulties right now...hope it all works out soon, have a great weekend bud.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Just popping in to say "hello" sorry to hear about your difficulties right now...hope it all works out soon, have a great weekend bud.

thanks. you do the same.

 

[mrtnmoon]

saw mom today. she slept a good portion of the time we were there, but my bro said that when she was awake she seemed more alert and in better spirits than she was yesterday. I got her to laugh a little bit when I was feeding her some of her lunch.... I did the ol' "here comes the airplane, open up the hangar" bit. good to see her laugh. one of her nurses said mom did a good job today of standing on her own when they got her up out of bed for breakfast.... signs of good things to come, I hope.

 

[buckeye007]

Glad to hear it moon...day by day brother!!

 

[Buttah]

saw mom today. she slept a good portion of the time we were there, but my bro said that when she was awake she seemed more alert and in better spirits than she was yesterday. I got her to laugh a little bit when I was feeding her some of her lunch.... I did the ol' "here comes the airplane, open up the hangar" bit. good to see her laugh. one of her nurses said mom did a good job today of standing on her own when they got her up out of bed for breakfast.... signs of good things to come, I hope.

Good to know she can laugh ... I'm still praying for her Moon... err sorry I know you hate that name.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Moon... err sorry I know you hate that name.

thanks for the prayers, parkay. I'm trying to remember telling you I hate the name moon. there must have been a communication breakdown somwhere, because it doesn't bother me at all. besides... I'd answer to anything for you.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Glad to hear it moon...day by day brother!!

thanks, mr. bond.

 

[cheekygirl]

psst... empty your pm box....

 

[Buttah]

thanks for the prayers, parkay. I'm trying to remember telling you I hate the name moon. there must have been a communication breakdown somwhere, because it doesn't bother me at all. besides... I'd answer to anything for you.

I read it in one of your threads ...

 

[mrtnmoon]

I read it in one of your threads ...

I honestly don't remember saying it, but if I did I'll give you the same reason I gave MSL about being called moony. if it bothered me, it's probably because it made me think about "the girl" because she called me that. I think about her anyway, tho, since I see her so much at work... it really doesn't matter anymore what anyone calls me.

and, I meant it.... you can even call me Al, if you want. lol

 

[mrtnmoon]

psst... empty your pm box....

I saw this and I thought you had to be joking, because I really don't get that many PM's. I forgot about the fact that every time you send one it gets saved and that counts against your total. maybe I should change my name to "moron".

on the way to empty now.

 

[cheekygirl]

I saw this and I thought you had to be joking, because I really don't get that many PM's. I forgot about the fact that every time you send one it gets saved and that counts against your total. maybe I should change my name to "moron".

on the way to empty now.

You can change it in your profile to not save... I've had the same problem!

No moron....

 

[mrtnmoon]

You can change it in your profile to not save... I've had the same problem!

No moron....

thanks, I'll have to check that out.

 

[Buttah]

I honestly don't remember saying it, but if I did I'll give you the same reason I gave MSL about being called moony. if it bothered me, it's probably because it made me think about "the girl" because she called me that. I think about her anyway, tho, since I see her so much at work... it really doesn't matter anymore what anyone calls me.

and, I meant it.... you can even call me Al, if you want. lol

Omg I love that video with Paul Simon and Chevy Chase! Al it is!

 

[mrtnmoon]

Omg I love that video with Paul Simon and Chevy Chase! Al it is!

let's just hope I remember I told you that. you may have to remind me.