My first little crush?

[BiCuriousWriter]

Through the years I've started playing with toys up my ass and later live-sized cock-shaped dildos. I became very interested. Watching shemale porn, then solo guys with nice hard cocks, then MMF and gay. I've had a good first experience (see my First Time story) with a guy and want to explore more.

But I've always felt hetero romantic and bi sexual. Never felt anything more for a guy.

Until recently. A new colleague joined our team. Late 20s (I am in my 50s), not very masculine but also not feminine. He always mentions partner instead of girlfriend or boyfriend. I find myself thinking he was cute. And I surprised myself by realising I might be feeling a little crush. I'm thinking of him regularly and he's in my fantasies often. I never thought I'd be interested in kissing a guy, but him I would.

I have no problem with the feeling. I also know nothing will happen. He's a colleague, both have partners, and he is so young. But I'm enjoying the feeling, and still find it positively surprising I have a bit of a crush on a guy.

Just wanted to share that. Here is the only place I know of that I can.

 

[Kuriousnomore]

I don’t want to kiss every guy, but yeah, some I really could.

 

[BiCuriousWriter]

I guess the fantasy that is forming in me mind could be structured and put into a story...

 

[whiteasianlvr]

So much of our attraction and sexuality is in our minds - that psychological space in our heads and hearts where we call home. While "getting off" is the physical end of it - the rest is so much deeper. So enjoy your head space as long as your longing doesn't hurt you!

 

[BiCuriousWriter]

So much of our attraction and sexuality is in our minds - that psychological space in our heads and hearts where we call home. While "getting off" is the physical end of it - the rest is so much deeper. So enjoy your head space as long as your longing doesn't hurt you!

Great way of putting it to words, thanks.
Yep, enjoying it as long as it does not hurt. The guy is in another office, we hardly ever meet, but online.

 

[jimfix44]

Good luck and keep us updated. You never know what can happen.

 

[BiCuriousWriter]

Good luck and keep us updated. You never know what can happen.

I think a story about my fantasies will be finished before anything will ever happen.
But we do visit the other office now and then. I hope to get a little more personal...

 

[Simplyafemme]

Mmm, it doesn't happen often, but when it does - wow!! Can't keep your eyes off him, want to stand near him, you try not to show how much you like him, but can't wait to see him again. Then a thrill when you realize - I think he likes me. You fantasize about him kissing you, wanting you, but you're scared to make the first move. Oh yes, been there.

 

[BiCuriousWriter]

Mmm, it doesn't happen often, but when it does - wow!! Can't keep your eyes off him, want to stand near him, you try not to show how much you like him, but can't wait to see him again. Then a thrill when you realize - I think he likes me. You fantasize about him kissing you, wanting you, but you're scared to make the first move. Oh yes, been there.

It's a bit soon for most of that, the feeling is there, not overwhelming.
But you're right about the rest, yes.
Being scared about making a move has more to do with us both having a partner than anything else.
I am quite convinced he has a male partner. Would love to meet them both, feel the atmosphere when I can slip into the conversation a hint about being bi.

 

[Simplyafemme]

I remember in my late teens having a huge crush on an older married man. He was handsome, and seemed so safe and strong and I couldn't get him out of my mind. I was conflicted then with my sexuality then but couldn't deny the feelings. He could tell how I felt but wasn't Bi, but was very kind to me and friendly, so I felt okay with my feelings, but I sooo wanted him to hold me and I fantasized over and over about him teaching me sexually. Even now my memories of him are warm and very hot.

 

[OlderBtm4U]

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Just wanted to share that. Here is the only place I know of that I can.

Thanks for sharing

 

[dingdongditchding]

Through the years I've started playing with toys up my ass and later live-sized cock-shaped dildos. I became very interested. Watching shemale porn, then solo guys with nice hard cocks, then MMF and gay. I've had a good first experience (see my First Time story) with a guy and want to explore more.

But I've always felt hetero romantic and bi sexual. Never felt anything more for a guy.

Until recently. A new colleague joined our team. Late 20s (I am in my 50s), not very masculine but also not feminine. He always mentions partner instead of girlfriend or boyfriend. I find myself thinking he was cute. And I surprised myself by realising I might be feeling a little crush. I'm thinking of him regularly and he's in my fantasies often. I never thought I'd be interested in kissing a guy, but him I would.

I have no problem with the feeling. I also know nothing will happen. He's a colleague, both have partners, and he is so young. But I'm enjoying the feeling, and still find it positively surprising I have a bit of a crush on a guy.

Just wanted to share that. Here is the only place I know of that I can.

hot, good luck. I talked to a young adult today who was very femme

 

[Easyroll]

Mmm, it doesn't happen often, but when it does - wow!! Can't keep your eyes off him, want to stand near him, you try not to show how much you like him, but can't wait to see him again. Then a thrill when you realize - I think he likes me. You fantasize about him kissing you, wanting you, but you're scared to make the first move. Oh yes, been there.

Been there too..! .. Most of my life

 

[TryGuy35]

Mmm, it doesn't happen often, but when it does - wow!! Can't keep your eyes off him, want to stand near him, you try not to show how much you like him, but can't wait to see him again. Then a thrill when you realize - I think he likes me. You fantasize about him kissing you, wanting you, but you're scared to make the first move. Oh yes, been there.

So fun and thrilling feeling, finding reasons to walk by them and catch their attention. See what eye contact you can notice. Cock jumps with the thoughts of what could/might be

 

[ColtonWrites]

It's a bit soon for most of that, the feeling is there, not overwhelming.
But you're right about the rest, yes.
Being scared about making a move has more to do with us both having a partner than anything else.
I am quite convinced he has a male partner. Would love to meet them both, feel the atmosphere when I can slip into the conversation a hint about being bi.

If nothing else you might make a new friend. Its really hard for gay guys to make friends sometimes with men, especially straight men, and he might appreciate knowing he's got a fellow non-het in the workplace.

 

[BiCuriousWriter]

If nothing else you might make a new friend. Its really hard for gay guys to make friends sometimes with men, especially straight men, and he might appreciate knowing he's got a fellow non-het in the workplace.

Well, it is a lot more lbgtqi+-friendly here than in many other countries. In an office of 20 we have 2 women and 1 guy (and another woman coming soon) openly talking about their same-sex partners (married and living together) without any problem. But I know what you mean.

 

[nassauguy_2001]

So much of our attraction and sexuality is in our minds - that psychological space in our heads and hearts where we call home. While "getting off" is the physical end of it - the rest is so much deeper. So enjoy your head space as long as your longing doesn't hurt you!

Amen my friend!!!