Masculine cocksucker problems...

[Burstplayer]

I find myself in a very narrow band. Masculine cocksucker, but not submissive or sissy AT ALL. Not into guys AT ALL, just the acts. I find myself gravitating to Gloryholes to scratch that itch or Gay tops who don't need reciprocation. BI guys like myself are almost never a match. Most are like me, and though I'll recip on occassion, they tend not to.

 

[cuckoldbill]

A number of years I had an arrangement with a guy. I would dress in stockings suspenders, panties and a camisole.
When he arrived he would inspect me than we would kiss and grope. He would push my head down until I was on my knees. I would unzip and ease his cock out. Give him a bj. When he came would shoot it over my face. Order me to lick his cock clean. He would zip up and fuck off.
I loved it. Made me feel like the complete slut.

 

[ZacharyFagg]

A number of years I had an arrangement with a guy. I would dress in stockings suspenders, panties and a camisole.
When he arrived he would inspect me than we would kiss and grope. He would push my head down until I was on my knees. I would unzip and ease his cock out. Give him a bj. When he came would shoot it over my face. Order me to lick his cock clean. He would zip up and fuck off.
I loved it. Made me feel like the complete slut.

Mmmm I love this. I travel constantly and I am always willing to host in my room. I'll dress up and let any man who wants me use me as their cum dump. Just walk in, and do whatever, then leave.

 

[sonicor]

I'm in the same boat. So many guys want a sissy, but I'm not that guy.

This here.

I think there is an inherent fear that we will be judged one way or another, in ways that the guy may not be ready to face yet?

I don't want to put words in anyone's mouth so I'll just speak for myself. In a number of occasions I got chances to fuck a woman while her husband watched. Inevitably, be it after the second or tenth time, the husband would work up the courage, or be encouraged to lick me clean or finish me off, and having these very male looking middle aged men between my legs, in very close proximity to my ass was disconcerting. Did I enjoy it? Yes. Was I able to get lost in the moment? Absolutely not. My first rim job came from one of these sessions and while having a tongue probing my ass was an out of body experience I'd never forget, but so was the anticipation that he may at any second scoot up on the bed and try to fuck me.

So maybe the tearing down that the OP mentions is related to this, a need to tear down the masculine out of OP to feel safe to enjoy it? And I wager that the one person he did have a good experience with was probably someone more self-assured and comfortable with his sexuality to not feel threatened by a masculine guy enjoying cock.

Food for thought?