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i'm so fucking sick of being the caring person that bends over backwards to make others feel good husband fucking so gd sad all the time because he's been fucking up forever and i finally told him about it told him about many things in fits of honesty trying to work things out but everyday we've got to go through these emotional peaks and valleys that are just driving my compassionate self into a frustrated ball of stress now today a good day in the area of marital progress but still it's fucking depressing when my honesty sends him fucking Viagra bound good god now i'm fucking scared he's going to want a damn 4 hour fuckfit when i'm already feeling like i'm just accomodating to get throught a difficult time and it's only been 2 fucking weeks of relative nonhardness why can't he just give it more time lovefucking shouldn't be rushed pushed forced and i want lovefucking not just rubrubrubrub til i'm wet and here we go fuckfuckfuckfuck til he's done then rubrubrubrub to be fair fake it so he'll give the fuck up cause i need more than mechanics we've only just arrived at the corner to changing the way our marriage works so what's the fucking hurry i feel like i'd be better off by myself even the kids seem to prefer him these days since i'm the bitch who put her foot down and said things have to change i've wanted a good cry all friggin day but no privacy no time just keep smiling and encouraging 'we're gonna work things out' i'm sick of working on it let it fucking happen for godsake so i'm fucking ranting to a gd bunch of relative strangers cause there's no one else to fucking listen no fucking friend when your family is your life and the one friend isn't around and seems to not understand the occasional need for a pat on the shoulder or whatfuckingever no wonder aloneness looks so good now when a house full of fucking people does not a fuck for me and i feel alone and trapped and wishing for blessed solitude now it's finally fucking here and i'm so pent up i cant let the tears flow so wtf ranting like a bitch when i'm not and i don't really fuckin g care what you people think anyway since none of you really fucking care anyhow so you can read my indulgence and make fun if you want
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