Looking out the window.

sch00lteacher

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Schools out! I live about two houses down and across the street from my town's elementary school. I just watched the little ones being walked to their car's by moms and dads. More moms than dads. The older ones walking home alone, or in groups of twos or threes, they are the 'big' kids, proud of the fact, you can see it in their step.

For a few minutes the street was busy with people coming and going. All the little ones with backpacks. This year's cool cartoon character emblazoned upon the back. A few of them grasping brightly colored pictures they drew today. Being brought home to show mom and dad. Holding tight, the wind is blowing. Cheeks a little red. It doesn't get cold here, not that often, but the winter wind can be chilly.

They are so small. So damned small. And so adorable. I watch the moms and dads as well. They are all young. So damned young. With the weight of the world on their shoulders. Some dressed for work, faces stressed a bit as they rush their children home from school and off to what ever practice or meeting they have after school. Some dressed in sweatpants, ball caps pulled over uncombed hair. Remember to grab a gallon of milk. The cars are gone, the kids are gone. It is quiet now. It will be until tomorrow morning. It will all happen in reverse then.

About thirty minutes ago my son got off of his bus. His girl was wrapped around his arm. She lives just across the street and down the block two houses. You can see her house from were I am sitting. I am looking at it now. They stood on the side walk, kissing, whispering love to each other. Telling each other how desperately they will miss each other until they are again in each other's arms. Young love. Remember it? There is nothing stronger.

Hell she'll be over here in about an hour, as soon as her homework is done. I'll have to chase her home later tonight if she doesn't leave by ten. We plan on her being here for supper when we buy our groceries. She is scared of me. But her and my wife get along great. Isn't that always the case?

Just yesterday my son was running home with a picture in his hand, barely able to wait, wanting to show it to me and hear my praise, good job son. His Ninja Turtle backpack bouncing on his back. Inside, his Ghostbuster lunch box. Inside, the remnants of a peanut butter and jelly lunch.

Monday my son turns 17. Monday, my son turns 17.

Where did the little boy go? Where did the man come from. I can't believe this. I mean I can remember each and every year that has passed. But how could they have passed so quickly? People tell you that time passes by faster as you get older. They warn you to make use of your time. Enjoy the time you have… You think you are. But then your son turns 17. My daughter will be 16 this summer. Daddies little girl. Asking mom if she can get her lip pierced. Mom telling her she has to ask me first. End of conversation. Daddy ain't gonna let her. Not his baby girl.

Take this for what you will. Like everyone else, I am trying to warn you. Time passes so quickly. It is almost like you can stand back and watch life take place around you. Time is going to pass no matter how hard you try to stop it.

Before long my children will be gone. 'Old' like most of you, college students. Wise and young. Full of fire and spit. Ready to take on the world. Ready to pick up your child from the elementary school.

Be warned. Monday, my son turns 17.

All I did was sit and look out the window. I think I will do it again tomorrow.
 
Wonderful observations. Wonderful wisdom. Few "see" before it's too late. Thank you for sharing.
 
Life is short

Original observation by George Bernard Shaw:

Better keep yourself clean and bright; you are the window through which you must see the world.
Thanks, teach.
 
sch00lteacher,

Your written words are ripe with meaning. They are my sentiments exactly.

My son is 13 years old and lately I've been thinking about how the time has gone by so quickly. I can remember like it was yesterday that I was holding him close singing him a lullaby. Now, I have to hug him on the run....and sing to myself. lol

Thank you for sharing this and many other things. I don't want to think about him leaving home. He's already talking about where he wants to go to college. I keep telling him that it's too far away - that I was thinking he could go to school right down the road. lol I don't think he will fall for that one.

Enchanted
 
yeah, hug 'em a love 'em while you can...my daughter had just turned 3 when her mother and i divorced and for reasons i won't go into 18 years passed before i saw her again....we have a wonderful relationship now and i love her more than life...but she just turned 23 and i mourn missing all the in between...well written sch00lteacher..i was there watching it with you..
 
Thanks. The story was true. I was just sitting here looking out at the world passing by. When my son got off the bus with his girlfriend, it was like I didn't know him, he was a stranger. I didn't like that feeling. At all. He came into the house, went to his room, and closed the door. That was about it for us yesterday.

I know I could have knocked on his door, and talked with him for awhile. I didn't. God I hope there never comes a time when I wish that I had.
 
I moved out of my parents house about a year ago. My sister and I both left within 3 or 4 months of each other. She a few towns over, me halfway across the country. I think I probably stayed longer than most, since I went to school a couple towns over. Never had a good relationship with my family. Not with my mom because, well, I don't know. It wasn't bad, I'm just not a people person. And not with my father because for most of my life we never got along. Whenever I was in the house, it was in my room. Quick stops out for food or to use the bathroom. I probably passed no more than 50 words with my parents, a day, combined. I didn't mind, but I know they did. I wouldn't have minded if they'd made more attempts, but I guess they knew it wouldn't do anything to enhance our relationships. My mom gets how I am more than he does, maybe because he and I are too similar. He tried, really hard, once. We went for a drive, parked in a parking lot, and he tried to talk to me. About anything. About nothing. Just trying to get a few words. I'm a hard guy to know. So is my dad, I guess, but in the past years, he's worked on that greatly, trying to get closer to me, yet I resisted based on a lifetime of our squabbles. We're very much alike. My mom shows her..seperation anxiety more than he does, but I know it's affected him too, having 2 of his 3 children leave so close together. Back in September, when those fuckers took down the Towers, I got worried. My dad worked there, sometimes in his other New York office. After hours of phone calls and such, I found he was in the other. So for about a month or two, we talked a great deal. About stuff, about nothing. Talking, not so much father and son, but two guys. But only for a couple months. Now, it's an email if something comes up, but otherwise, it's back to me in my room all the time, only now my room is in an apartment in Chicago.


People are funny like that sometimes.
 
Very nice reading here in this post...........Excellent observations on life...............At Christmas time I stayed with the x and the kids.......I watched the procedeings like an interloper.............It was then that I realized that the kids were grown.........and how much I had missed..........How much they had missed..........:(
 
I find myself in your nice written thread.
Time is passing so fast and before you can
think the children are grown up.
Enjoy every little moment.

Schumi
 
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