Jacking-Off Log

[Hester]

That epiphany post of yours, Hester ... fuck! I can feel my brain lighting up all over the place.

I always said I was not into pain, but reading something in that experience made me so aware: I'm not into pain as a script - as something done to turn me on. Lacks brutality. But if something happens to hurt, and if that turns him on, the cruelty of that is so hot it burns. that's it - I don't want to do a roleplay.


Cheer
Grab her, shove her, she's in shock
Bend her forward, slide in cock
Grab her curls to arch her back
Now she's gasping. Jack Jack Jack.
Go Rosco

i lol'ed!! good work!

i agree with you regarding pain as script or roleplay. neither of those work for me in just about any context. but a genuine desire to inflict, or even the desire or willingness to accept, rocks my socks off. i like extremes and emotional intensity and painful honesty. cold, premeditated pain doesn't do it for me. it's not the pain itself but what is behind it that's really what works for me most of the time.

it's hard finding someone you are attracted to who is on the same page and, even moreso, who is trustworthy on multiple levels. very rare beast.

 

[Olivia_Yearns]

i lol'ed!! good work!

i agree with you regarding pain as script or roleplay. neither of those work for me in just about any context. but a genuine desire to inflict, or even the desire or willingness to accept, rocks my socks off. i like extremes and emotional intensity and painful honesty. cold, premeditated pain doesn't do it for me. it's not the pain itself but what is behind it that's really what works for me most of the time.

it's hard finding someone you are attracted to who is on the same page and, even moreso, who is trustworthy on multiple levels. very rare beast.

I wonder if I will ever find out how far this can go.

Met someone this weekend, but he's very hard to read. Still trying to appear too nice, but I'm not sure what might be behind that. I'll see him again to see if there is any sign of a capacity to be sexually powerful. Reserved is sometimes a good sign at the start, as long as there is something behind it.

I don't think the cheer was a good idea, 'cause I hardly know Rosco. Not the same as posting one for you.

Ok, I'm gonna wank now. The problem lately is that I'm too quick. I don't get to the big ones.

 

[Hester]

i've never found out how far i can go---never been with anyone who was really interested in pushing. and in the long run that may not be a bad thing.

good luck with the new dude.

 

[MechaBlade]

After being jack-free for an entire day I fell victim to the shower again. Once my thoughts graced a certain girl who had taken an interest in me, only to lose it, I couldn't resist my desire to imagine her bent over screaming as I penetrated her cinnamon ring. I came picturing her in either of two of my favorite submissive positions: rimming me or taking my dick up her ass.

Then I had some hot "assrape" sex on gabbly with bg, which everyone thought was hot at first but soon lost their interest. I, on the other hand, was randier than "Macho Man" Savage, so I abused myself to a video of this round black chick taking it up the ass from a Frenchman. Most notable thing about this video: after he cums on her face, he grabs her face and asks her if she thinks he's done.

"Um hmm," she says.

"Not yet," he says as he slaps her cum-covered face lightly. Then he proceeds to fuck her up the ass again.

Awesome!

 

[Hester]

late day jack. read some stories. been a while since porn got me off well, so this has been nice.

 

[rimmy]

this has been the week of the epiphany jack. i'm blaming it on recidiva.

was doing my usual pre-bed activity and my mind started to wander to my most recent long-term lover, thinking about past events. i had a slow, leisurely jack reminiscing about my time with him; the memories came to me almost in vignettes.

he pursued me aggressively for a few months before i gave in. he was a nice enough guy, no major observable deformations, smelled good, but just didn't interest me. but i never saw anything in him that made that switch of interest turn on. one day he was helping me around my house and asked me what he should do with some electrical wire. i joked around and told him he should tie me up with it. he said slowly and incredulously "you want me to tie you up?" for a split second, his face flashed, and i saw the animal within. it was self aware, very intense, and totally in control. in an instant, the switch clicked on, and i brought him in my house, unzipped him, and sucked him off.

we were lovers for a year and a half after that. he was the most natural top i'd ever been with, but he hadn't ever been with a woman who was okay with it. so i walked him through each doorway, giving him permission to go further and further. it was great. even better was that he was okay with letting me top him once in a while. he had a way of being sadistic with me that really, really worked for both of us, but didn't like receiving pain, so i could control but not hurt. most often, we'd end up with him pinned down and me riding him so violently i don't know how i never injured him. he'd either lay there, eyes closed and smiling, or be laughing. i almost always squirt that way. given how ingrained his impulses for control and sadism were, i was always was surprised at his enjoyment. i was maintaining the jack and meditating on my own need to top at times and how i could only truly enjoy sex, either as a top or a bottom, with someone as or more controlling and aggressive than i. this has always perplexed me, but at that moment had an epiphany, and came hard to my realization.

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i went this morning for acupuncture and was laying on the table. with all of the needles in me, i couldn't move. although i couldn't make any gross movements, i'll often contract my inner thigh muscles and stimulate myself that way. i can't cum doing that, but can work myself into a frenzy without moving or having anyone notice. i lay there, thinking again of this former lover, twitching my inner thighs, and getting worked up. more vignettes. the time he came over drunk, woke me up, and against my will insisted i have sex with him; we broke the bed that night. the time he was fucking me hard and we got into a position that really delivered pain on each thrust. it wasn't a good pain, and when i told him he was hurting me, it turned him on ever more and he went at it harder; this seriously pushed some buttons for me and i am embarrassed at how much i got off on the fact that he got so much enjoyment from hurting me. the time in my yard one summer night that i lay on his lap as people unknowingly walked past us and he fingered me violently in the dark as i begged him to fist me. and on and on.

i hadn't seen him in many months and i began to wonder why i was missing him all of a sudden. then i realized i didn't miss him. at all. but i missed what i had with him. the sheer magnitude of my objectification of him hit me at that moment with such force and self-disgust it knocked all the sexual impulse out of me.

If I wasn't already married....

 

[Recidiva]

this has been the week of the epiphany jack. i'm blaming it on recidiva.

I Am So Proud.

 

[spagester]

Just been looking at delpdJune's pics. I think I will right now.

 

[Hester]

I Am So Proud.

self actualization through masturbation

who'd have thunk it?

 

[Hester]

If I wasn't already married....

 

[rimmy]

Being married, I seldom have occasion to jack but reading some of these posts is enough to get me all worked up and then some.

Between Rosco, Mecha, Hester and Olivia their posts are better than most stories. Kudos to you all.

 

[MechaBlade]

Being married, I seldom have occasion to jack but reading some of these posts is enough to get me all worked up and then some.

Between Rosco, Mecha, Hester and Olivia their posts are better than most stories. Kudos to you all.

Thanks, rimster.

 

[rimmy]

Thanks, rimster.

No, thank you all.

 

[Hester]

Being married, I seldom have occasion to jack but reading some of these posts is enough to get me all worked up and then some.

Between Rosco, Mecha, Hester and Olivia their posts are better than most stories. Kudos to you all.

we do it for the bean....

 

[rimmy]

we do it for the bean....

In which case I still thank you.

 

[rosco rathbone]

i wish there were a way to just drain off the sexual energy at times so i don't have to fight with my orgasmic response and my tired, uncooperative brain. some kind of miniature bleed valve.

This is the jacker's conundrum known as popping the orgone bubble.

Cheer
Grab her, shove her, she's in shock
Bend her forward, slide in cock
Grab her curls to arch her back
Now she's gasping. Jack Jack Jack.
Go Rosco

Picturing 3 R. Crumb "Devil Girls" dressed in 1950s cheerleader outfits doing tumbling stunts and handstandings on my shoulder, with those conical megaphone things. They have to make a human pyramid so that one of them can cheer into my ear, then they all fall down in a heap with pleated skirts over heads and bottoms exposed.

this sent me thinking of 70s dance shows, solid gold, then dance fever, and now i have denny terrio on the brain

That plus Kenny Banya from Seinfeld and you've about got it.

Being married, I seldom have occasion to jack but reading some of these posts is enough to get me all worked up and then some.

Between Rosco, Mecha, Hester and Olivia their posts are better than most stories. Kudos to you all.

Save up the seed for a week and let's see some jacks from you, sir.

 

[MechaBlade]

Picturing 3 R. Crumb "Devil Girls" dressed in 1950s cheerleader outfits doing tumbling stunts and handstandings on my shoulder, with those conical megaphone things. They have to make a human pyramid so that one of them can cheer into my ear, then they all fall down in a heap with pleated skirts over heads and bottoms exposed.

If you guys don't stop with the cheerleaders, I'm going to have to go for a hat trick.

 

[rimmy]

Save up the seed for a week and let's see some jacks from you, sir.

How come I don't get a nickname?

 

[MechaBlade]

How come I don't get a nickname?

no jacks logged.

 

[Recidiva]

self actualization through masturbation

who'd have thunk it?

Me! Meeeeme!

I would! I've thought it! Oooh!

 

[naughtygirl69s]

Yeah! I had a successful solo jack (no phone partner, no vibes). I ALMOST gav e up and got my vibe but I hung in there and humped my pussy into my pillow with fury! I finally just relaxed for a minute and decided I was just going to feel the "good feelings" and not try to focus on cumming so much. It worked!

It was a very nice O, not quite as intense as the previous phone jacks.

 

[Hester]

morning jack, VERY strong and intense O. been a while since i've had one like that. shook for a while afterwards.

 

[Recidiva]

morning jack, VERY strong and intense O. been a while since i've had one like that. shook for a while afterwards.

I love those. One of my favorite parts is the first free movement, the change of position, sinking back into relaxing muscles. Like fresh linens on my mind.

 

[rosco rathbone]

I love those. One of my favorite parts is the first free movement, the change of position, sinking back into relaxing muscles. Like fresh linens on my mind.

I call that moment loss of vitality and I almost always regret it; unless I'm so tightly wound that I need release. The problem with compulsive jacking is that my jacking hand tends to write checks that my balls can't cash. It's a fundamental difference in the male and female wiring.

 

[Recidiva]

I call that moment loss of vitality and I almost always regret it; unless I'm so tightly wound that I need release. The problem with compulsive jacking is that my jacking hand tends to write checks that my balls can't cash. It's a fundamental difference in the male and female wiring.

Oh, that would suck.

The main thing that is difficult for me is that girl wiring I have that makes me almost preternaturally docile sometimes. Frozen or unable to move, unwilling chemically.

Had a hamster that would fight tooth and nail and rip any male near her to bloody shreds...but if she was in heat, she'd just take anything. He could drag her around, bite, she'd just be frozen.

Saw that and something in me clicked. "That's what that is. Huh."