I'm a racist!

[BLoved]

The very same is true for the term "asshole". It does not mean assholes don't exist though. So unfortunately your quote proves nothing.

I consider either a litmus test for maturity.

Those most mature have no difficulty talking to children.

Those with thin skins are revealing far more than they imagine.

~smile~

 

[DVS]

I can't believe how swamped the unemployment office if where you are. Seb is unemployed now, as are quite a few other New Yorkers, and he started getting his benefits the same week he filed. There must be some serious mismangement going on in the unemployment office of your state... or something. Wow.

I don't know what the problem is. I live in Kansas, but because I worked in Missouri, I have to file there. It does seem strange that they would be a month behind in their paperwork.

I got a letter yesterday (Saturday) that my discharge appeal has been received. I FAXed it to them a week ago Friday afternoon, so they might be getting a wee bit faster. It only took them 5 working days to view my appeal and send me a confirmation letter.

But, just like the last confirmation letter, this one says I will receive another letter telling me the date and time of the hearing. So, I guess I wait another week or maybe two, and when that letter arrives, the appeal will be at least another week or so beyond that.

I don't know if it's mismanagement or just the state government in action. In most government jobs, they have a limit to the number of employees and also a limit to the payroll. It could be the state just can't afford more people or they already have their quote for employees. And it sometimes takes an act of congress to get something changed.

I know they don't seem to be apologetic at all about their back log. The lady I talked to didn't act like they were swamped or working feverishly, night and day. She just said it would take 4 weeks for my initial claim to get processed. When I asked why it would take so long, she said it was just because there were so many people filing claims.

You'd think this would be news worthy for the local media. Maybe I'll call a local TV station and ask if they were aware of such a government bottle neck. If nothing else, I might write to someone in the state government about it. If there are really that many unemployed people in Missouri, and they're as close to bankruptcy as I am, something needs to be changed.

 

[DVS]

Considering that there are far more black people in jail than white people and that the justice system generally deals with them more harshly, I fail to see how it "sympathizes" with them.

In some instances, it depends who's involved. Many crimes are black on black, so no matter who is to blame a black person goes to jail. And, in many cases, because the crime is committed in the inner city area where everybody is poor, they don't have the money for a good lawyer and the public defender isn't always the best choice.

Whites can be in the same situation of no money, but I think some whites can almost buy their way out of jail with a good lawyer and some fancy plea bargaining.

But, I do think it's true that our government as a whole seems to give minorities preferential treatment in certain areas, just to be politically correct. Many government jobs have a minority quota that must be fulfilled, no matter who is better equipped for the job. In most cases I don't have an issue with that, because minorities are the same as whites in that there are both good and bad.

But, there will always be some who will use the way the system works to their advantage. And it really has nothing to do with race. It's not a color thing. If whites were the minority race, the same thing would be going on. It's just a certain personality that looks for ways to get by while doing the minimum requirements.

And when the government requires a certain percentage of employees be minorities, what do you expect? I'd take advantage of it, too, if I were a minority. Trust me, it's not easy finding a job. But, the people who use the system against itself are very much a problem.

I consider those who complained that I was a racist are among that group. If they weren't aware of it before, they now know the power they have. And I think they might use it again.

 

[DVS]

We're not in the 60s. I seriously think the justice system should stop sympathizing with blacks. It is no mystery that a lot of black people lie about being discriminated against. why can't the justice system see that? They often accuse of white people to be racists, when in fact the blacks are more racist recently. and can someone tell me why nobody will believe, including the justice system if a white person feels discriminated against? they have feelings too, you know.

All in all, this sucks. i hope you get over it.

I'll never get over it. This has changed me. Like I said in another post, I now look at color when I didn't before. Now, I feel like a racist or at least I'm worried I will say something offensive.

I know all blacks aren't the blame for this. I don't think all backs would use the EEOC to complain, without good reason. This was a personality flaw within someone who hates others enough to take advantage of the government's political correctness to damage someone's life. Yes, he knew what would happen because someone coached him in what to say. And he made the decision to go through with it.

It's similar to how a death in the family affects you. You get past it, and you go on with life. And as years go by you think about it less. But you never get over it.

I hate thieves more than I care to say. I've been on the victim side of that too many times. I still get a sick feeling in my stomach when I think of what I've lost to thieves and because of theft. And this situation has stolen a part of my personality and actually attempted to tarnish my name.

I've calmed down quite a bit, but I'm still very mad. I'm mad at the people who lied and I'm mad at the people who listened to them. I'm mad at the people who didn't even attempt to find the truth and decided firing me was the way to fix their problem. I'm mad that I've been put in a position where I might have to claim bankruptcy, and I'm mad about what that could do to my good credit as well as future employment prospects.

I'm mad that I don't sleep well at night. I'm mad that I've applied for probably 50 or more jobs and I've only had two calls for interviews. LOL, I guess I'm just mad! Of course, if I get a job and actually have some money coming in, I'll feel a lot better about things.

I'll get through this. And if it's true that what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger then I'll be stronger because of this. This won't kill me physically, but I think it has killed something inside.

 

[DVS]

I had a problem with getting my unemployment a year ago......I was given one excuse after another by the unemployment people......again and again they said my info wasnt going in the computer correctly.....they were saying when they put my hours , the computer would delete my quarterly wages. I documented every call......18 total calls.....including date...time.. name of the person I spoke with......almost 3 months later still nothing and yet they assured me every call that I was entitled, I had even spoke with 2 supervisors and still not resolved.

Finally I got on the governors website and sent an email to him detailing what I had been going thru......the next day I got a call from a representative of the governors office who apologized for the trouble I had and took the details of my ongoing effort.......the next day he called me back and assured me the problem was taken care of........the following day I got a call from the unemployment people who apologized and told me all my back money was going in my checking account that night......next day there it was.....got a call from both the governors office and the unemployment people to make sure it was in my bank account.

Dont know if that will help you or not.........hope it does........its the only thing that got them processing my claim correctly.

Good luck

I will keep this in mind. You never know what will help, sometimes. I know I can't be the only person affected by this unemployment delay, so I wonder why someone else hasn't already spoken up.

 

[DVS]

... or someone they understand and simply do not like.

It is the internet equivalent to n****r, applicable to all races.

Seriously, I think you're giving the word troll more power than it really has. So, you're calling it the T word?

Well, the difficulty with your caveats is there will always be someone who will say they've been offended in the manner you describe. Some people have remarkably thin skins and others simply use the accusation for political gain.

No one ever calls them on it. I'm sure you are familiar with being the target of misinformation for personal gain.

I hope you're not trying to relate my situation as a freedom of speech issue. I could have sued and easily won, because he defamed my name. Freedom of speech does not give someone the freedom to lie.

And as for someone saying they've been offended when you don't think you offended them, there are always two sides to that argument. Actually, you can offend someone even though you don't intend to or don't care enough to watch what you say. You said the word troll is the Internet equivalent to the N word. I think there might be a few people that would have an issue with that statement. Freedom of speech can get you into trouble. You could even be labeled as a t***l.

When it comes to bdsm, challenging the ethics behind a particular paradigm can produce similar results.

On paper I'm a clumsy cannibal who only partly devours his victims and then allows them to escape so they can spread rumours about me on the internet, or so one of my detractors once claimed.

Well, I don't know anything about your views on BDSM. Personally, I don't try to be like anybody else. And I'm sure my views on BDSM could be seen as very different from someone else. If you have been called "a clumsy cannibal who only partly devours his victims and then allows them to escape so they can spread rumors about you", you must have engaged in a conversation with someone where you both had different views on something. BDSM is an all inclusive term so what you believe might not be the same as what others believe. So what? It doesn't mean either of you are wrong.

And rumors are just rumors. Do you really care what a stranger says about you? Perhaps your skin is kind of thin, too. I don't care what strangers say about me. They can't say anything about me that can hurt me. It just shows their own personality flaws.

Canada, actually. Unlike America we embraced our British heritage and retained English spelling standards.

We had our reasons for separating ourselves from British rule. And think of all of the toner and key strokes Americans save by leaving that unnecessary U out of words.

As for the source of trolls ... I think the Republican party has a factory somewhere churning them out by the bucket-full. Just look for those who think they're Ann Coulter .

Just for the record, I'm an independent with conservative leanings.

 

[DVS]

~smile~

Not as long as you are willing to use it regardless of the race involved.

Unfortunately there is a trend in society away from the noble and honourable ethics and towards a more corrupt system of ethics. Can't say I know where it began, tho' McCarthyism was certainly a catalyst.

I noticed it first in the 70's and have been tracking the developments ever since.

The prognosis isn't good.

As you say, some will try it once too often. But too many will get away with it to reverse the trend.

Rome wasn't destroyed by the barbarians ... it was ruined from the rot within.

The barbarians just adminstered the coup de grace.

I assume you're using McCarthyism not in the pure definition but in the more broad use that's current today.

~smile~

And I don't know if I follow your post or not, but are you saying minority races have been breaking down the core ethics of our culture and corrupting values throughout the years to the point that some day our great country will crumble from within?

 

[FurryFury]

I have no idea what you are trying to say here. Perhaps I'm just tired but this post seems to have nothing to do with anything up to this point on the thread.

I analyze the ethics behind the casual 'bdsm' paradigm, and find no ethical justification for the practice.

And thus far, none who advocate tolerance for the practice have managed to provide one.

I care not who is engaged in casual 'bdsm'. To me that is unimportant. Every person is free to make whatever choice they wish, with or without justification.

But for those who feel ethics matters when it comes to bdsm, more than a few have found it troubling that my challenge goes unanswered.

They are even more troubled by the immaturity of the advocates.

When we cannot even question the ethics of a practice which actively seeks to censor out all opposing views, one can only conclude that casual 'bdsm' requires a degree of fanaticism that denies any abuse, any fault, any problem and is capable of manufacturing any 'truth' required to sustain itself.

More than a few novices will choose a love-based bdsm where ethics matter over a practice that cannot justify its lack of ethics.

 

[FurryFury]

Those quotas are there for a reason and I think it's a good one.

That doesn't mean that people should throw around accusations like what happened to you. What did they get out of it? It's just so stupid to do what they did.

There will always be people who abuse any system and don't care what it does to others. That's just a horrible thing.

In some instances, it depends who's involved. Many crimes are black on black, so no matter who is to blame a black person goes to jail. And, in many cases, because the crime is committed in the inner city area where everybody is poor, they don't have the money for a good lawyer and the public defender isn't always the best choice.

Whites can be in the same situation of no money, but I think some whites can almost buy their way out of jail with a good lawyer and some fancy plea bargaining.

But, I do think it's true that our government as a whole seems to give minorities preferential treatment in certain areas, just to be politically correct. Many government jobs have a minority quota that must be fulfilled, no matter who is better equipped for the job. In most cases I don't have an issue with that, because minorities are the same as whites in that there are both good and bad.

But, there will always be some who will use the way the system works to their advantage. And it really has nothing to do with race. It's not a color thing. If whites were the minority race, the same thing would be going on. It's just a certain personality that looks for ways to get by while doing the minimum requirements.

And when the government requires a certain percentage of employees be minorities, what do you expect? I'd take advantage of it, too, if I were a minority. Trust me, it's not easy finding a job. But, the people who use the system against itself are very much a problem.

I consider those who complained that I was a racist are among that group. If they weren't aware of it before, they now know the power they have. And I think they might use it again.

 

[DVS]

I have no idea what you are trying to say here. Perhaps I'm just tired but this post seems to have nothing to do with anything up to this point on the thread.

I was wondering the same thing. I think he must be running for political office.

 

[DVS]

Those quotas are there for a reason and I think it's a good one.

That doesn't mean that people should throw around accusations like what happened to you. What did they get out of it? It's just so stupid to do what they did.

There will always be people who abuse any system and don't care what it does to others. That's just a horrible thing.

I don't disagree with the quotas either. But quotas had nothing to do with what happened to me. Political correctness had more to do with what happened to me as well as the lack of balls between the legs of the HR department of my former employer.

They said it wasn't their job to decide if the claims were true or not. That statement bothers me, because I ended up being the fall guy while they cowered to political correctness.

Who's going to stand up against false claims? Claims should be investigated by a non bias third party. And it shouldn't be so easy to say something that can't be proven as true. The more this happens, the more common it will become, if it hasn't already become the norm. Only when people stand up and require evidence to accompany statements of racism, will this bullshit ever stop. And if evidence isn't there, there should be a price to pay.

What did they get out of saying I was racist? All they got out of it was a sense of power over a supervisor that was not letting them do whatever they wanted. Essentially they wanted to run the shift. Maybe there was a turning point some where that should have been a red flag. I didn't see it, so that's why I think it was just a suggestion by someone who he knew, someone who knew it would work.

Like I said, it's a special kind of hate that fuels this sort of thing. If I had done something to cause his hate, maybe I could understand it better. But, I didn't do anything. I thought we were all getting along fine as people, except that he and a couple others didn't want to do their job.

We were on the night shift, so I guess they thought I was the only connection with management. He thought I was "snitching" about his insubordination and although there were 3 cameras watching his every move, he didn't think anybody was viewing the camera data.

Little did he know it wasn't me snitching on him, as he frequently accused me of, but I was being informed by my supervisors of what he was doing when I wasn't around to see it. And the client said it didn't take long to see him doing something wrong and that's when he had him removed from the post.

It was up to the company to either fire him or just move him. The company knew he had made false claims against me because there was no record of me saying racist comments of any kind in the 8 years I worked for the company. And they also should know he very likely will do it again if he finds it handy. But, he's a minority and covered as such by the EEOC. They were probably worried that he'd claim wrongful termination if they fired him. So, they cowered to his minority power and just moved him to another spot.

And don't think he doesn't know his minority status helped him and my white Anglo Saxon male status did just the opposite for me. He really didn't get hurt much by the move. I know where they moved him. He didn't lose any pay or any medical insurance coverage. Everybody just wimped out and I paid for it.

So, he did get a little satisfaction out of his false claims. He got rid of me. But, ultimately, it blew up in his face when he found out there were people watching the cameras...just like I continually tried to tell him. I thought he would stop acting like an idiot, if he knew supervisors were watching him. I was trying to help him keep his job but I guess he was too dense to listen to me.

The irony of the whole thing is I lost my job because I'm a white male. He failed to follow the chain of command with his claim. The company stresses an open door policy to any employees if they feel they have been a victim of any kind of abuse or slander. If he'd done that, I might have been given a reprimand of some sort, but I'd still have my job.

I'm sure someone told him NOT to follow the chain of command for that very reason. He wanted the ultimate power of getting back at me for being the snitch he thought I was. The only way to effectively accomplish that was by going to the EEOC. From that point on, everybody shakes in their boots from fear of the wrath of the EEOC.

It's sad, but crying racism to the EEOC is too convenient for certain people to pass up because it always works. But it's also quite costly for the victim of the unjust claims. What ever happened to equal rights under the law?

Shit, it kind of sounds like I'm running for some political office, too.

 

[BLoved]

Seriously, I think you're giving the word troll more power than it really has. So, you're calling it the T word?

I think you are giving the N word more power than it deserves.

Both are terms that attempt to prejudice the reader.

I hope you're not trying to relate my situation as a freedom of speech issue. I could have sued and easily won, because he defamed my name. Freedom of speech does not give someone the freedom to lie.

Actually, it does, and it happens all the time.

The limits on free speech are narrowly defined and do not include deceit except within those limited situations such as defamation, libel, slander and yelling "Fire!" in a movie theatre.

In all such cases one would need to demonstrate the individual involved was aware that what they said was a lie.

Having an erroneous opinion is not the same as deliberately deceiving others.

And as for someone saying they've been offended when you don't think you offended them, there are always two sides to that argument. Actually, you can offend someone even though you don't intend to or don't care enough to watch what you say.

There have been those who have approached me with a romantic interest which I did not feel for them. Some were offended that I had no interest.

There are others who are offended that I do not share their cherished beliefs in casual 'bdsm'.

In what way should I feel responsible for their feelings?

You said the word troll is the Internet equivalent to the N word. I think there might be a few people that would have an issue with that statement. Freedom of speech can get you into trouble. You could even be labeled as a t***l.

~shrug~

There are those who believe freedom of speech itself is offensive and would (and do) censor anything they do not like.

I am not about to bite my tongue because thinner skins might feel offended.

Challenging the status quo often offends those invested in the status quo. The antebellum south was so offended by the free speech regarding slavery permitted in the north that they censored the mails and eventually left the Union.

Should the northern states have censored those who opposed slavery to avoid offending those who supported it?

Well, I don't know anything about your views on BDSM. Personally, I don't try to be like anybody else. And I'm sure my views on BDSM could be seen as very different from someone else. If you have been called "a clumsy cannibal who only partly devours his victims and then allows them to escape so they can spread rumors about you", you must have engaged in a conversation with someone where you both had different views on something. BDSM is an all inclusive term so what you believe might not be the same as what others believe. So what? It doesn't mean either of you are wrong.

I think it safe to say the individual involved was indeed wrong regarding my food choices, and the desperation of the accusation demonstrates their awareness of the weakness of their position with regards to bdsm.

Why make such an accusation if a reasonable argument in support of one's position was readily at hand?

And rumors are just rumors. Do you really care what a stranger says about you? Perhaps your skin is kind of thin, too. I don't care what strangers say about me. They can't say anything about me that can hurt me. It just shows their own personality flaws.

~smile~

Agreed.

 

[BLoved]

I assume you're using McCarthyism not in the pure definition but in the more broad use that's current today.

Correct.

And I don't know if I follow your post or not, but are you saying minority races have been breaking down the core ethics of our culture and corrupting values throughout the years to the point that some day our great country will crumble from within?

No. I am not referring to race at all.

I am speaking of the disregard many feel towards the truth and honourable conduct.

When a society reaches a point where the average citizen is encouraged, either directly or indirectly, to practice deceit and other forms of disreputable behaviour that society has achieved a degree of corruption where it cannot be saved, as the qualities which originally bound citizens together in mutual support are replaced with the 'me, me, me" paradigm and fellow citizens are viewed as the enemy and are thus demonized.

The greater the competition for the benefits society bestows, the more divisive the society becomes as factions fight for those benefits.

We live in a society of factions fighting to either obtain or retain benefits. We have reached a point where anything goes, where the rules of honourable conduct have been tossed aside.

I see it in forums like this all the time. Average citizens engaging in deceitful conduct in order to obtain or retain their popularity.

More than a few times I've watched newcomers to a forum jump on the bandwagon of insulting behaviour simply because it is obvious those more popular will reward them by including them in their cliques.

As concepts such as truth and honourable behaviour are discarded so as to achieve benefits such as popularity, those who retain such concepts are left in a minority where they are unable to achieve such benefits.

It is what I call the Rule of Mediocrity. It might also be called Mob Rule.

 

[BLoved]

I have no idea what you are trying to say here. Perhaps I'm just tired but this post seems to have nothing to do with anything up to this point on the thread.

You asked "Yes. I'm well aware of what McCarthyism is. I was just not clear which side of it you felt was the beginning of societal ruin."

Clearly you are asking me whether I am in favour of or opposed to witch hunts.

I believe my answer addressed that question.

 

[Etoile]

This is a thread about a real world problem.

Internets grievances are over there.

I was going to say the exact same thing.

This thread is not about BDSM. It is about a longtime member of the community here who is going through extremely tough times. Leave the bullshit at the door.

 

[BLoved]

I was going to say the exact same thing.

This thread is not about BDSM. It is about a longtime member of the community here who is going through extremely tough times. Leave the bullshit at the door.

Since DVS and I are exchanging points of view in a civil manner, I have to wonder about the real reasons behind your uncivil objection.

 

[Etoile]

Since DVS and I are exchanging points of view in a civil manner, I have to wonder about the real reasons behind your uncivil objection.

Don't wonder too hard, I'm barely paying attention...

 

[BLoved]

Don't wonder too hard, I'm barely paying attention...

So you issue insulting objections that would interfere with a discussion involving DVS?

I can see your concern for DVS does not run very deep.

 

[Etoile]

So you issue insulting objections that would interfere with a discussion involving DVS?

I can see your concern for DVS does not run very deep.

It's interesting how you assume I was talking about you, too.

 

[BLoved]

It's interesting how you assume I was talking about you, too.

~smile~

 

[FurryFury]

It's wasn't and isn't clear to me which side you are in favor of.

You asked "Yes. I'm well aware of what McCarthyism is. I was just not clear which side of it you felt was the beginning of societal ruin."

Clearly you are asking me whether I am in favour of or opposed to witch hunts.

I believe my answer addressed that question.

 

[FurryFury]

I agree that what has happened to you is terrible. HR departments are very scared of doing much of anything these days. They are so scared of litigation and such but honestly, the decisions they make based on those fears are often ludicrous because litigation can occur either way. So they are choosing to do something on a basis that is false to begin with.

Who was it that said something to the effect that for evil to flourish, good men must stand by and do nothing?

I don't disagree with the quotas either. But quotas had nothing to do with what happened to me. Political correctness had more to do with what happened to me as well as the lack of balls between the legs of the HR department of my former employer.

They said it wasn't their job to decide if the claims were true or not. That statement bothers me, because I ended up being the fall guy while they cowered to political correctness.

Who's going to stand up against false claims? Claims should be investigated by a non bias third party. And it shouldn't be so easy to say something that can't be proven as true. The more this happens, the more common it will become, if it hasn't already become the norm. Only when people stand up and require evidence to accompany statements of racism, will this bullshit ever stop. And if evidence isn't there, there should be a price to pay.

What did they get out of saying I was racist? All they got out of it was a sense of power over a supervisor that was not letting them do whatever they wanted. Essentially they wanted to run the shift. Maybe there was a turning point some where that should have been a red flag. I didn't see it, so that's why I think it was just a suggestion by someone who he knew, someone who knew it would work.

Like I said, it's a special kind of hate that fuels this sort of thing. If I had done something to cause his hate, maybe I could understand it better. But, I didn't do anything. I thought we were all getting along fine as people, except that he and a couple others didn't want to do their job.

We were on the night shift, so I guess they thought I was the only connection with management. He thought I was "snitching" about his insubordination and although there were 3 cameras watching his every move, he didn't think anybody was viewing the camera data.

Little did he know it wasn't me snitching on him, as he frequently accused me of, but I was being informed by my supervisors of what he was doing when I wasn't around to see it. And the client said it didn't take long to see him doing something wrong and that's when he had him removed from the post.

It was up to the company to either fire him or just move him. The company knew he had made false claims against me because there was no record of me saying racist comments of any kind in the 8 years I worked for the company. And they also should know he very likely will do it again if he finds it handy. But, he's a minority and covered as such by the EEOC. They were probably worried that he'd claim wrongful termination if they fired him. So, they cowered to his minority power and just moved him to another spot.

And don't think he doesn't know his minority status helped him and my white Anglo Saxon male status did just the opposite for me. He really didn't get hurt much by the move. I know where they moved him. He didn't lose any pay or any medical insurance coverage. Everybody just wimped out and I paid for it.

So, he did get a little satisfaction out of his false claims. He got rid of me. But, ultimately, it blew up in his face when he found out there were people watching the cameras...just like I continually tried to tell him. I thought he would stop acting like an idiot, if he knew supervisors were watching him. I was trying to help him keep his job but I guess he was too dense to listen to me.

The irony of the whole thing is I lost my job because I'm a white male. He failed to follow the chain of command with his claim. The company stresses an open door policy to any employees if they feel they have been a victim of any kind of abuse or slander. If he'd done that, I might have been given a reprimand of some sort, but I'd still have my job.

I'm sure someone told him NOT to follow the chain of command for that very reason. He wanted the ultimate power of getting back at me for being the snitch he thought I was. The only way to effectively accomplish that was by going to the EEOC. From that point on, everybody shakes in their boots from fear of the wrath of the EEOC.

It's sad, but crying racism to the EEOC is too convenient for certain people to pass up because it always works. But it's also quite costly for the victim of the unjust claims. What ever happened to equal rights under the law?

Shit, it kind of sounds like I'm running for some political office, too.

 

[the_outsider]

I'll never get over it. This has changed me. Like I said in another post, I now look at color when I didn't before. Now, I feel like a racist or at least I'm worried I will say something offensive.

I know all blacks aren't the blame for this. I don't think all backs would use the EEOC to complain, without good reason. This was a personality flaw within someone who hates others enough to take advantage of the government's political correctness to damage someone's life. Yes, he knew what would happen because someone coached him in what to say. And he made the decision to go through with it.

It's similar to how a death in the family affects you. You get past it, and you go on with life. And as years go by you think about it less. But you never get over it.

I hate thieves more than I care to say. I've been on the victim side of that too many times. I still get a sick feeling in my stomach when I think of what I've lost to thieves and because of theft. And this situation has stolen a part of my personality and actually attempted to tarnish my name.

I've calmed down quite a bit, but I'm still very mad. I'm mad at the people who lied and I'm mad at the people who listened to them. I'm mad at the people who didn't even attempt to find the truth and decided firing me was the way to fix their problem. I'm mad that I've been put in a position where I might have to claim bankruptcy, and I'm mad about what that could do to my good credit as well as future employment prospects.

I'm mad that I don't sleep well at night. I'm mad that I've applied for probably 50 or more jobs and I've only had two calls for interviews. LOL, I guess I'm just mad! Of course, if I get a job and actually have some money coming in, I'll feel a lot better about things.

I'll get through this. And if it's true that what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger then I'll be stronger because of this. This won't kill me physically, but I think it has killed something inside.

You're hurt more than i thought. I've never been in a situation like yours. So, i have/had no idea how you felt/feeling. But i know one or two things about life. And amongst those, is the fact that time heals all sort of wounds. As you've stated in your post, you calmed down a bit. that is a step forward. Hang in there buddy, in time you shall be alright.

PS: i hope you do fine a job. One that is better than your previous job.

 

[DVS]

You're hurt more than i thought. I've never been in a situation like yours. So, i have/had no idea how you felt/feeling. But i know one or two things about life. And amongst those, is the fact that time heals all sort of wounds. As you've stated in your post, you calmed down a bit. that is a step forward. Hang in there buddy, in time you shall be alright.

PS: i hope you do fine a job. One that is better than your previous job.

Well, I am doing better today. I had my first interview with the national retail chain store. They have a part time job that pays $12 a hour. I think that's pretty good, considering I thought I'd end up getting something like $9.50 or less.

I go back for a second interview tomorrow afternoon. Now, the interview I'm waiting for is tomorrow morning. That job pays better than my previous job and if I get that position and can work part time at the other job, I'll be repaying debts pretty quick.

I don't have either job, yet, so I don't want to get excited. But just the idea that I might have a job in a couple of weeks is helping my outlook on life.

I've received all of the loans I think I'm going to get. The end of May is where my money will run out. I do have another job that's suppose to be a sure thing starting in June. A friend guarenteed he could get me hired. Benefits won't be the best, but in my position, you take what you can get.

Now, if I get the job I interview for tomorrow morning, I think my problems would soon be over. That interview is not crucial but it would help with my sleep habits and that queasy feeling that's been in my stomach for the last couple months.

It's funny about life. You lose something of value or something is stolen from you, and you don't feel whole again until that is replaced. When my car was stolen, I was pissed until I found another one. But while I was looking and the rental bill kept going up, I couldn't stop thinking about what I'd like to do to the guy that stole my car.

For the things I've had stolen and never got replaced, I still have issues, when I think about the thief that took them. I lost a coin collection my grandmother left me, when she died. I lost very old Indian head pennies that were not only worth money but sentimental. I also lost quite a few silver coins, quarters, half dollars and silver dollars. Most were from the 1800s. The pennies were even older. That was in 1983 and I still get pissed when I think about it. Whatever they got for that wasn't near what it was worth to me. They probably got a rock of crack cocaine out of it.

So, if i get a job that pays more than my last job, I'll feel somewhat vindicated. This unemployment crap I'm dealing with is still there and I'll have to complete it if I ever want to see any of the money I'm owed. But, I won't be as desperate about the outcome, if I have a job.

Right now, I feel empty. I can't tell you how many times I've told my story and I always get the same reaction. I know that some day I'll look back at this thread and laugh. Well I hope so. Time will tell.

 

[subish2009]

Well, I am doing better today. I had my first interview with the national retail chain store. They have a part time job that pays $12 a hour. I think that's pretty good, considering I thought I'd end up getting something like $9.50 or less.

I go back for a second interview tomorrow afternoon. Now, the interview I'm waiting for is tomorrow morning. That job pays better than my previous job and if I get that position and can work part time at the other job, I'll be repaying debts pretty quick.

I don't have either job, yet, so I don't want to get excited. But just the idea that I might have a job in a couple of weeks is helping my outlook on life.

I've received all of the loans I think I'm going to get. The end of May is where my money will run out. I do have another job that's suppose to be a sure thing starting in June. A friend guarenteed he could get me hired. Benefits won't be the best, but in my position, you take what you can get.

Now, if I get the job I interview for tomorrow morning, I think my problems would soon be over. That interview is not crucial but it would help with my sleep habits and that queasy feeling that's been in my stomach for the last couple months.

It's funny about life. You lose something of value or something is stolen from you, and you don't feel whole again until that is replaced. When my car was stolen, I was pissed until I found another one. But while I was looking and the rental bill kept going up, I couldn't stop thinking about what I'd like to do to the guy that stole my car.

For the things I've had stolen and never got replaced, I still have issues, when I think about the thief that took them. I lost a coin collection my grandmother left me, when she died. I lost very old Indian head pennies that were not only worth money but sentimental. I also lost quite a few silver coins, quarters, half dollars and silver dollars. Most were from the 1800s. The pennies were even older. That was in 1983 and I still get pissed when I think about it. Whatever they got for that wasn't near what it was worth to me. They probably got a rock of crack cocaine out of it.

So, if i get a job that pays more than my last job, I'll feel somewhat vindicated. This unemployment crap I'm dealing with is still there and I'll have to complete it if I ever want to see any of the money I'm owed. But, I won't be as desperate about the outcome, if I have a job.

Right now, I feel empty. I can't tell you how many times I've told my story and I always get the same reaction. I know that some day I'll look back at this thread and laugh. Well I hope so. Time will tell.

You may not laugh, but hopefully you'll at least see it as the road you had to take to get to a better place.

Good luck with the interviews tomorrow. We'll be thinking of you.