jodarby
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Smoking, that is.
I kicked last week. I have to admit I was a pretty irregular smoker. Sometimes it might be three in a day, sometimes half a pack. But it is all bad in the end and it wasn't something I did in front of anyone except maybe a few close friends. I never smoked during school and even in university, I think there may have been a few time socially where the guys were smoking some ridiculous cigars that I partaked.
Perhaps it was in the final year of university that I'd be at the bar with the guys and we'd smoke cigarrettes socially. You know the type. Don't smoke any time except at the bar. That was me. The rest of the time I could care less for them. I was busy at school, playing team sports and the like so it wasn't a big deal. Plus, smoking was definitely being squeezed everywhere you looked. It wasn't exactly respectable to be doing it and the places you could do it were being limited.
I went to work in Japan and so the times that I did smoke (which back home used to be maybe twice or three times a month for a night at the bar) became nearly every night. Talk about a change in atmosphere. Cigarettes were sold everywhere, in vending machines right by my apartment. At the bar, which Japanese seem to be every night, it was a smoking paradise. Hell, they had smoking commercials with Pierce Brosnan!
Certainly I didn't start right away with the smoking but within six months, I was fully indoctrinated. Stupid, really. Sort of thought I was at one big party and the repercussions would be light.
When I did get back home after living there for a number of years, I briefly tried to quit but didn't feel motivated enough. That, and the addiction to nicotine.
The weird thing is that if i was working or doing something, I didn't feel compelled to smoke at all. Unlike some people, I didn't need to have a cigarette first thing in the morning not last thing at night.
I guess this was a good thing because after several years not of this irregular but steady smoking, I decided to quit once and for all.
Since January I have been eating better, getting more rest and coinciding with my quiting, I started a new exercise program to make sure that I don't let myself fall to inactivity.
The last several weeks though I have also spent too much time fretting about the war and its aftermath. I resolved late last night to not watch anymore of the war news. I also am studiously going to avoid the war threads here. It just ends up in circular arguments with nothing really achieved, no one convinced and usually someone insulted or doing the insulting.
Anyway, I have been feeling better the last several days and the quiting and starting the new exercise program has helped. Trying to do more positive things now.
I kicked last week. I have to admit I was a pretty irregular smoker. Sometimes it might be three in a day, sometimes half a pack. But it is all bad in the end and it wasn't something I did in front of anyone except maybe a few close friends. I never smoked during school and even in university, I think there may have been a few time socially where the guys were smoking some ridiculous cigars that I partaked.
Perhaps it was in the final year of university that I'd be at the bar with the guys and we'd smoke cigarrettes socially. You know the type. Don't smoke any time except at the bar. That was me. The rest of the time I could care less for them. I was busy at school, playing team sports and the like so it wasn't a big deal. Plus, smoking was definitely being squeezed everywhere you looked. It wasn't exactly respectable to be doing it and the places you could do it were being limited.
I went to work in Japan and so the times that I did smoke (which back home used to be maybe twice or three times a month for a night at the bar) became nearly every night. Talk about a change in atmosphere. Cigarettes were sold everywhere, in vending machines right by my apartment. At the bar, which Japanese seem to be every night, it was a smoking paradise. Hell, they had smoking commercials with Pierce Brosnan!
Certainly I didn't start right away with the smoking but within six months, I was fully indoctrinated. Stupid, really. Sort of thought I was at one big party and the repercussions would be light.
When I did get back home after living there for a number of years, I briefly tried to quit but didn't feel motivated enough. That, and the addiction to nicotine.
The weird thing is that if i was working or doing something, I didn't feel compelled to smoke at all. Unlike some people, I didn't need to have a cigarette first thing in the morning not last thing at night.
I guess this was a good thing because after several years not of this irregular but steady smoking, I decided to quit once and for all.
Since January I have been eating better, getting more rest and coinciding with my quiting, I started a new exercise program to make sure that I don't let myself fall to inactivity.
The last several weeks though I have also spent too much time fretting about the war and its aftermath. I resolved late last night to not watch anymore of the war news. I also am studiously going to avoid the war threads here. It just ends up in circular arguments with nothing really achieved, no one convinced and usually someone insulted or doing the insulting.
Anyway, I have been feeling better the last several days and the quiting and starting the new exercise program has helped. Trying to do more positive things now.
