Have you ever . . .

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Crying is good for you IMO. I need to do much more of it.

Have you ever been hungry and had nausea at the same time?

Actualy yes, it happens to me when I am REALLY hungry or when I am damn tired, then I have a nausea.

Have you ever been hungry and still too lazy or just simply not bothered at all to make some food untill you felt really so sick you just had too?

I am like that quite often lately. I usualy eat just once max twice a day. When I lived with my man it wasn't even possible to eat more. Now it is, but I or don't have the need to eat more or I am just not bothered to fix me something. I cook just when my lil girl is home with me for the lunch, thats usualy only weekends. On days when she's in school and have a lunch there I don't cook. Cannot be bothered to cook just for myself.

 

[Perfect_Trust]

Yeah, I cried on the phone tonight. So bloody sressed with work, kids, Xmas. Then He rang telling me not to worry about any of it, that he'll help me out at the weekend before he de stresses me in a more fun kinda way.

How could I not cry?

 

[chelleb]

Have you ever been so happy you cried?

all the time!

 

[FurryFury]

Actualy yes, it happens to me when I am REALLY hungry or when I am damn tired, then I have a nausea.

Have you ever been hungry and still too lazy or just simply not bothered at all to make some food untill you felt really so sick you just had too?

I am like that quite often lately. I usualy eat just once max twice a day. When I lived with my man it wasn't even possible to eat more. Now it is, but I or don't have the need to eat more or I am just not bothered to fix me something. I cook just when my lil girl is home with me for the lunch, thats usualy only weekends. On days when she's in school and have a lunch there I don't cook. Cannot be bothered to cook just for myself.

Yes, I do that all too often.



Have you ever had a day go so differently from what you planned and thought you wanted but somehow, though less happened, better?

 

[Jezebel77]

Have you ever had a day go so differently from what you planned and thought you wanted but somehow, though less happened, better?

I had an entire vacation like that. We had a list of all these things we planned on doing and seeing, but we just ended up fishing, drinking and playing backgammon on the patio most days. It was the most relaxing trip ever.

Have you ever had something important that needed to be done but absolutely no motivation to start working on it?

 

[FurryFury]

I had an entire vacation like that. We had a list of all these things we planned on doing and seeing, but we just ended up fishing, drinking and playing backgammon on the patio most days. It was the most relaxing trip ever.

Have you ever had something important that needed to be done but absolutely no motivation to start working on it?

That sounds like a great vacation except for the fishing part cause that totally turns me off.

Oh yes, so many, many times. I HATE myself when I get like that.

Did you ever throw a party and no one came?

 

[FurryFury]

Did you ever feel like shit, drop all the polite happy shit and let it all hang out?

What the hell happened Little Mary Sunshine?

LMAO!

 

[FurryFury]

Have you ever been up late cause you were sick and find yourself thinking evil thoughts?

 

[EmpressFi]

Did you ever feel like shit, drop all the polite happy shit and let it all hang out?

What the hell happened Little Mary Sunshine?

LMAO!

Yes.. and usually that's when people stop, do a double take and say, "what is wrong with YOU?"

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Have you ever been up late cause you were sick and find yourself thinking evil thoughts?

Its being up to 6 am late enough for you??

I do that quite often and uhmm those evil thoughts just follow.

 

[FurryFury]

Yes.. and usually that's when people stop, do a double take and say, "what is wrong with YOU?"

People usually laugh because even when I've had it I make it funny, usually!

 

[FurryFury]

Its being up to 6 am late enough for you??

I do that quite often and uhmm those evil thoughts just follow.

Yeah, that's waaaaay too late!

I'm so sorry!

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Yeah, that's waaaaay too late!

I'm so sorry!

Have you ever really want to spend your time with someone and when you actualy could and did you just totaly fucked it up and spoiled everything possible you could think of. Ended wishing you were just fukin sleeping instead if you knew you were just about to dissapoint someone you love very much????

 

[FurryFury]

Have you ever really want to spend your time with someone and when you actualy could and did you just totaly fucked it up and spoiled everything possible you could think of. Ended wishing you were just fukin sleeping instead if you knew you were just about to dissapoint someone you love very much????

*hug*

I've certainly felt that way but it usually turns out to be a situation in which I'm being too hard on myself and not exactly perceiving reality.

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

*hug*

I've certainly felt that way but it usually turns out to be a situation in which I'm being too hard on myself and not exactly perceiving reality.

Thank you for the hug FurryFury!

I wasnt too hard on myself tho, think I am just better all quiet sometimes.

 

[FurryFury]

Have you ever passed out in a public place, scaring your children, been helped by strangers, gotten looked at by paramedics and kept vomiting uncontrollably?

 

[FurryFury]

Have you ever had trouble sleeping because you weren't sure if you'd wake up again?

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Have you ever had trouble sleeping because you weren't sure if you'd wake up again?

Yup.... I was scared for a purpose tho, took too much of antidepressants one day when I felt like I have enough. I really wished not wake up anymore that day. I just let a goodbay SMS in my mobile for my mum and was falling alseep crying knowing I get pwned by life.

It was fucked up day..... I am glad I woke up tho. My ex maybe doesnt needs me as I wished, but theres still at least 2 people who does. Thing is when I get this low I dont mind even of those who truly cares about me.

This saying is very true "The way we see ourselves is often colored by blues of our depression." I am okay right now, but I am still too easy to fall back into this depressive state of mind. I am taking a good care of not falling too low now tho. I felt this shit when I trusted wrong peeps, so its something I just dont do anymore. I got few friends but thats it. Not intrested in serious relationships at all. I am falling down too easy, too fast and too hard.

There was days when I felt like totaly no one knew what was going inside of me. Even my own family, except my mum who saw me crying most of the time, so she knew, but she didnt know how to help me tho and I didnt know how to help myself either. Too often, our cries for help are silent ones. Unheard. Unheeded. I think the best thing you can do for yourself is to depend/trust/ and believe in yourself cuz people will always let you down. Yourself is the best thing you have, only thing you can be sure of I would say.

I cant say I hate my friends or my family cuz they wasnt here for me when I needed them, I love them very much actualy, but I dont expect anything from anyone anymore. When I go thro hard times I know I am on my own. Once you stop expecting things from people you dont have to deal with so much of dissapointement. Thats what works for me, I dont expect anything from anyone.

My mum is only person about who I am 100% she would help me no matter what. If she didnt few months ago I would be living on the street right now, pregnant and with a 6 yo girl. My mum is amazing and very loving person. She would help anyone in need, we are alike in this. She took care of me and as long as I live I will take care of her. She wont ever have to worry about being alone cuz wherever I go she goes with me.

 

[FurryFury]

I'm glad you woke up and were okay. I'm also glad you and your Mum are so close and good to one another.

I had a good reason to fear as well. Maybe not as good as yours though.

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Have you ever feel like you should just lock yaself somewhere and throw away the keys?

 

[SweetCherry]

Have you ever feel like you should just lock yaself somewhere and throw away the keys?

Generally, about three times a week.

 

[cherokee_dove]

Cried because someone was unexpectedly nice to you?

Fury

Yes, this morning. My youngest sons bus driver handed me a note and a present to give to him this afternoon.

The note said that today would be her last day as a driver for our school system, due to their family moving away.

My baby is 11, and is fully autistic and a very loving caring happy child; and always willing to help others when he can.

The note read, "I have so much enjoyed getting to know R (my son) and watch him grow and mature. He is a very special young man. One important reason he is such a good young man is because of the love and devotion you give him as a mother. I have watched the two of you every morning for the past two years and I can see how much you love each other. You are a very special mother, and R is very lucky to have you."

That bus driver has always been special to him. He is all the time saying things like "She is my bestest friend, mommy. I luv her." And things like that.

She has made a big difference in his life, and for that; i am going to miss her greatly. So went and got her a special gift and delivered it to the school for R to give to her, from both of us.

So now i sit, in the quiet of mid-morning; thinking of what she said; with tears running down my face.

 

[FurryFury]

Yes, this morning. My youngest sons bus driver handed me a note and a present to give to him this afternoon.

The note said that today would be her last day as a driver for our school system, due to their family moving away.

My baby is 11, and is fully autistic and a very loving caring happy child; and always willing to help others when he can.

The note read, "I have so much enjoyed getting to know R (my son) and watch him grow and mature. He is a very special young man. One important reason he is such a good young man is because of the love and devotion you give him as a mother. I have watched the two of you every morning for the past two years and I can see how much you love each other. You are a very special mother, and R is very lucky to have you."

That bus driver has always been special to him. He is all the time saying things like "She is my bestest friend, mommy. I luv her." And things like that.

She has made a big difference in his life, and for that; i am going to miss her greatly. So went and got her a special gift and delivered it to the school for R to give to her, from both of us.

So now i sit, in the quiet of mid-morning; thinking of what she said; with tears running down my face.

Wow! I don't blame you! That's a wonderful note to get!

*HUG*

 

[TigerClaw]

When you are going down the wrong path.

You are very lucky if life confronts you with the path you are on. At that point you have a decision to make, do you continue, or turn away. It is the lucky person that is given that choice and chooses the good side.

 

[FurryFury]

Have you ever feel so tired and felt so crappy that you wished someone would just put you out of your misery?