I consider myself rather unobtrusive, so often I won't post until I feel I can really contribute something to the conversation. Well today I feel like shareing my recent troubles with all of you.
On Feb 22 I deployed to Kosovo with the 101st Airborne (Air Assault) Division. It was a standard six month deployment. Well the begining of June my wife hit me with a desire to divorce, then shortly after cheated on me. You see we got married when I was 19 and she only ten days 18. She had never known a life without me, since we dated all though high school. Well we attempted to work out our problems on the phone, but they just got worse. My unit, the 187th Infantry (worst unit in the Army according to the Army Times last year), was not helpful at all, telling me to forget my problems and just continue with the mission. I asked to return to the states, a prevliage granted to anyone expecting a child or having family medical problems, but my unit would not allow it. I felt that I had no control of my life. Often strange men would answer my phone in my house when I called to speak to my wife. One morning I called and got no answer and no answering machine. I feared my wife had hurt herself over the night, she had mentioned it the night before. I asked a friends wife to drive by the house. She came back to tell me a "friend" of mines car was there, the same one who had fucked my wife. I felt so much lack of control, so alone. I did the only thing I could think of.
I tried to kill myself. I would have succeded had a good friend of mine (who was quicker than I thought) grabbed control of the weapon before I could flip the saftey and pull the trigger. His name is Andrew and I owe him everything.
I was then flown to Landstul, Germany and treated for my problems. It turns out I have no persanality, just a couple of disorders. ADHD (attention deficate hyperactivity disorder) and an Obsesive Compulsive personality. Great. So after convinceing the doctors I was sane and just had a stress induced pshycological breakdown I was sent home.
My wife and I have since gotten back together, and are in marriage counseling. We have made so much progress and things are still getting better. We have come out stronger than before, just a little more distant due to our both matureing (I sure feel older than 21!).
Our sex life has suffered though. She has less intrest than before. Thats not a big problem, it's just how I found Literotica. I was trying to "amuse" myself. You see she says I am a lot more kinky than she, and she doesn't like to play games with me as often as I would like. So I try not to burden her, so I found this site. I did not expect to find all of this however, I was just looking for stories.
Well enough of this rambling. It was nice to get this off my damn chest to someone other than a shrink.
P.S. I am a punk (punk rocker). I am not supposed to do shit like join the Army. Well I believe this country's goverment is shit, but baby it is the best thing going out there today. That is worth my efferts to persevere.
Oh yeah! And I'm bi, so's my wife but she never comes online. Sorry.
On Feb 22 I deployed to Kosovo with the 101st Airborne (Air Assault) Division. It was a standard six month deployment. Well the begining of June my wife hit me with a desire to divorce, then shortly after cheated on me. You see we got married when I was 19 and she only ten days 18. She had never known a life without me, since we dated all though high school. Well we attempted to work out our problems on the phone, but they just got worse. My unit, the 187th Infantry (worst unit in the Army according to the Army Times last year), was not helpful at all, telling me to forget my problems and just continue with the mission. I asked to return to the states, a prevliage granted to anyone expecting a child or having family medical problems, but my unit would not allow it. I felt that I had no control of my life. Often strange men would answer my phone in my house when I called to speak to my wife. One morning I called and got no answer and no answering machine. I feared my wife had hurt herself over the night, she had mentioned it the night before. I asked a friends wife to drive by the house. She came back to tell me a "friend" of mines car was there, the same one who had fucked my wife. I felt so much lack of control, so alone. I did the only thing I could think of.
I tried to kill myself. I would have succeded had a good friend of mine (who was quicker than I thought) grabbed control of the weapon before I could flip the saftey and pull the trigger. His name is Andrew and I owe him everything.
I was then flown to Landstul, Germany and treated for my problems. It turns out I have no persanality, just a couple of disorders. ADHD (attention deficate hyperactivity disorder) and an Obsesive Compulsive personality. Great. So after convinceing the doctors I was sane and just had a stress induced pshycological breakdown I was sent home.
My wife and I have since gotten back together, and are in marriage counseling. We have made so much progress and things are still getting better. We have come out stronger than before, just a little more distant due to our both matureing (I sure feel older than 21!).
Our sex life has suffered though. She has less intrest than before. Thats not a big problem, it's just how I found Literotica. I was trying to "amuse" myself. You see she says I am a lot more kinky than she, and she doesn't like to play games with me as often as I would like. So I try not to burden her, so I found this site. I did not expect to find all of this however, I was just looking for stories.
Well enough of this rambling. It was nice to get this off my damn chest to someone other than a shrink.
P.S. I am a punk (punk rocker). I am not supposed to do shit like join the Army. Well I believe this country's goverment is shit, but baby it is the best thing going out there today. That is worth my efferts to persevere.
Oh yeah! And I'm bi, so's my wife but she never comes online. Sorry.
