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Dear x

why does that always happen.

I wish you werent here. Its just that seeing you post took a little shine off my day. And it was a really great day.

I know its not your fault, but that doesnt stop me wishing you would go.

Its probably bad timing...this week with all the discussions around this and now seeing you. Lol talk about sods law :rolleyes:

Sometimes I am tempted to ask...but I dont. I wont for a variety of reasons...not least me. I deserve a break.

I'm not threatened by you. I am more threatened by myself.

But I wish you would go all the same.

Thanks.

Me
 
Dear N,

I never meant to hurt you. I am what I am. I know that you thought you could surrender, and that you love me and want to have something work out. However, I don't think you understand. You are holding too much back. I tired to tell you that it wouldn't always be wine in roses in this type of relationship.

Just because you have taken to being willing to call yourself a slave does not make it so. You may want me to be your master, but I am seeing too many serious issues on the horizon.

The disrespect that you showed me tonight reinforced just showed me that you are not ready. The fact that you can disregard everything I say, and claim that it is is about who you are, cries loudly a complete lack of understanding and surrender. The fact that our disagreement centers around a former boyfriend of yours only serves to exacerbate the situation. You may not realize the inherent disrespect of placing his needs above my wishes.

Taking the journey into slavery is a very strong commitment. It is one that I had questions on your reactions, but I have given you some benefit of the doubt. However, at this point, as much as you think you love me, you are likely much better off finding a Dominant who is not as as sadistic as I. I keep myself held back as I have tried to teach and guide you into a place where you are ready for more. However, I am growing weary of your resistance.

I don't play act at this lifestyle. I am willing to make some compromises, and have a certain amount of flexibility, but there are things that I NEED. I cannot compromise my needs and be happy.

I wish you nothing but joy.
Love,
M.P.

P.S. I am not a Christian.
 
Dear Ex,

Why the fuck did you have to be all bitchy about things? I tried to be calm, and reasonable and you just went on the defensive accusing me of all sorts. I know its over, and yes we are both moving on, but its a shame that you resent me that much for stuff that you are exaggerating. Its not my fault you are crap with money, yet I am being punished for being nice and lending you some to help out and now I get the blame for your money issues too. Then you tell me you have no spare money, yet can still afford a holiday. I just wish you could of been reasonable about it so we could come to an agreement instead of you just flying off the handle. Its just sad that 4/5 years counts for nothing, especially since now it would seem you resented me for most of it. Like I said, learn to accept responsibility for things and stop blaming others otherwise you will end up hurting other people who care/cared for you too. If you think its fair you don't pay it back, then I don't have much choice. You just need to live with the fact it might not be as fair as you think. I was an idiot for caring so much and having you scar me :(

Dear D,

Thank you for being there for me yesterday. I know its hard for you to hear me talk about the past, and the last thing I should of done was dragged you into it, but having you listen and be there for me really meant a lot. You really make me feel loved and happy and I am so lucky to have someone so wonderful in my life who is helping me learn to trust again and forget the demons from the past. I cannot thank you enough.

I love you..

Me :rose:
 
Dear Daddy,
Today is another day where my heart just falls to pieces when i think of you and how hard it is not to miss you. Tears fill my eyes every day when i think of how much i just miss seeing your face or listening to you tell me something important or you explaining to me something i dont understand. I can't tell you how many times since i left B i wanted to pick up the phone to call you and ask you what i should do. You were never wrong ya know, (even though i would never admit that to your face... you knew) and your advice was very important to me.
You would like him, my heart knows that, but it is hard to not be able to hear and see that approval.
I am never going to get over losing my father no matter what I do and I am understanding that better now with the support and simple understanding without judgement i get from him. I think you would be proud of the choices i am making for both my mind and my soul these days and i really wish you were here to see it all.
I miss you, I love you, and i can't wait to one day see you again.
Your favorite,
P
 
Dear History Professor,

If you are going to teach history, then when talking about a major holiday that is coming up and you don't know it then please do not open your mouth and make me feel like you are an idiot and shouldn't be teaching history.

Thank you and have a pleasant day,

Abi
 
Dear Daddy,
Today is another day where my heart just falls to pieces when i think of you and how hard it is not to miss you. Tears fill my eyes every day when i think of how much i just miss seeing your face or listening to you tell me something important or you explaining to me something i dont understand. I can't tell you how many times since i left B i wanted to pick up the phone to call you and ask you what i should do. You were never wrong ya know, (even though i would never admit that to your face... you knew) and your advice was very important to me.
You would like him, my heart knows that, but it is hard to not be able to hear and see that approval.
I am never going to get over losing my father no matter what I do and I am understanding that better now with the support and simple understanding without judgement i get from him. I think you would be proud of the choices i am making for both my mind and my soul these days and i really wish you were here to see it all.
I miss you, I love you, and i can't wait to one day see you again.
Your favorite,
P

(((Callista)))
 
Dear anyone who has the answer,
Should I feel like maybe i could be sorta kinda really begining to start to feel like im almost falling.....
in love
with somebody so soon in a relationship?
Should i be telling him what i think i might soon really feel?

Where is my logical mind when I truly need it and is losing it a part of the in love thing i think im taking the first steps toward?

help,
me
 
Dear anyone who has the answer,
Should I feel like maybe i could be sorta kinda really begining to start to feel like im almost falling.....
in love
with somebody so soon in a relationship?
Should i be telling him what i think i might soon really feel?

Where is my logical mind when I truly need it and is losing it a part of the in love thing i think im taking the first steps toward?

help,
me

Callista,

Who are we to say when it is right to tell someone how you feel? When is the right time? I told my husband of going on 7 years that I loved him after a short time of only 3 weeks. I did love him and I still love him now.

The only suggestion is are you in love? How do you think he feels about you? Does he care? If the answer to these are all positive then I would say tell him when you are ready.

Abi who apologizes if I assumed it is a him and the person is a her.
 
Dear x,

I wish it wasnt happening because I fear what it will do to us.

Is it a fear of the unknown as you asked? Yes, in some respects it is. But it is also fear of the known....the known being this, since I know I am finding it increasingly difficult and it hasnt even started properly yet.

I wish you hadnt chosen it. With all my heart I wish that.

Me
 
Dear anyone who has the answer,
Should I feel like maybe i could be sorta kinda really begining to start to feel like im almost falling.....
in love
with somebody so soon in a relationship?
Should i be telling him what i think i might soon really feel?

Where is my logical mind when I truly need it and is losing it a part of the in love thing i think im taking the first steps toward?

help,
me
KC, trust your instincts, darlin'. I know the ah made you doubt yourself in SO many ways, but you *do* have good instincts. Have *almost* as much faith in yourself as I have in you, and know that that faith is not misplaced.
 
Dear S,

I'm sorry I've angered you.
I probably should have kept those thoughts to myself until I had calmed down enough to figure out what was bothering me. I should know better than let my mouth (in this case fingers) run unchecked.

I wonder thou if you did not find a little truth in my words and that is what angered you the most ...

But it is too late now and I'll take the punishment you see fit.

I'll make sure in future to keep myself within my boundaries.

part timely yours
 
Dear Xs,

I don't think I know how to be big anymore. I hope that's ok.

~Your Little Girl
 
Dear Bad K,

I'm sorry I locked you in the basement during the cleanse. But, look, let's face it, I give you far too much leeway as it is. Shall we discuss all the mischief you get us into?

Yeah, that's what I thought.

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed your fun ski weekend and all the goodies I fed you. Now, please try to get along with all the other alter egos including Sheba the Dancing Queen of the Desert. (I know she's a little silly but she's fun at parties).

Hugs and kisses,
Good K
 
Dear self,

Stop trying to sabotage yourself. You did it before and you can do it again. Plus this time you won't let medication pull you so far down again. I know you're feeling down because of the major setback in progress but just keep going moment by moment. You'll get there again.

You can get everything going in a positive direction at the same time.
 
Dear Bad K,

I'm sorry I locked you in the basement during the cleanse. But, look, let's face it, I give you far too much leeway as it is. Shall we discuss all the mischief you get us into?

Yeah, that's what I thought.

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed your fun ski weekend and all the goodies I fed you. Now, please try to get along with all the other alter egos including Sheba the Dancing Queen of the Desert. (I know she's a little silly but she's fun at parties).

Hugs and kisses,
Good K

Dear Bad K,

Just do what she says :mad:

(we'll sneak you out at night when the Good K is sleeping. As for Sheba ... somehow I think she can be won over to the Dark Side :D)

;)
 
Dear self,

Stop trying to sabotage yourself. You did it before and you can do it again. Plus this time you won't let medication pull you so far down again. I know you're feeling down because of the major setback in progress but just keep going moment by moment. You'll get there again.

You can get everything going in a positive direction at the same time.

Dear umb,

listen to yourself.
and me: one step at the time and you'll get anywhere you wish to be.

:rose:
 
Dear x,

Today I read this and it helped

This is a time of waiting and the two wait well, for waiting is only an acceptance of the ways of time.
Occasionally slow and other occasions faster, yet in truth always the same pace, time flows forward towards one shining moment or another, toward the place where they will fully belong then, as they fully belong in this place now


It made me realise how important acceptance is. Accepting the place you are at and accepting that it will evolve in time. Instead of always fighting to get to another point and continually searching for somewhere to ''belong''; finding contentment in the moment you are in now and realising that this is where you belong.

I understand it and I like the concept. now to try and do it.

And you know me.....easier said than done :eek:

xx
 
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Dear x,

Today I read this and it helped

This is a time of waiting and the two wait well, for waiting is only an acceptance of the ways of time.
Occasionally slow and other occasions faster, yet in truth always the same pace, time flows forward towards one shining moment or another, toward the place where they will fully belong then, as they fully belong in this place now


It made me realise how important acceptance is. Accepting the place you are at and accepting that it will evolve in time. Instead of always fighting to get to another point and continually searching for somewhere to ''belong''; finding contentment in the moment you are in now and realising that this is where you belong.

I understand it and I like the concept. now to try and do it.

And you know me.....easier said than done :eek:

xx

MINX!!!!

Hugs & Hugs!
Being thinking of you.

As for the above?
Realizing it, you are already a step ahead.

:rose:
 
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