Dear X:

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Dear you,

I really can't stay mad at you. Which I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. But no matter what I will *always* love you.

Love,
Me
 
Dear You,

i'm sorry that You ever had to get mad in the first place...ever. i never want to upset You again. i don't deserve the love and patience You give so willingly. i will *always* love You though.

Love,
me
 
Dear insecure self,

Get a grip. Its not fair to put this on someone else...its your own insecurities that cause these feelings. You know that things are good. Focus on that.

You are only feeling this way today because of everything that is happening. The way your mind works sometimes is ridiculous. Talk about an overactive imagination....what on earth do you base those thoughts on??! and for heaven sake stop analysing. You are feeling vulnerable and a bit out there thats all. and that word will return. Have faith.

You know you will be more than fine. Look at how far you have come.

Love

sensible head
 
Dear Bert,

I don't even know where to begin. You are too young to be gone. You were so smart, so funny, and one of the most inspiring men I've known. Growing up with you was probably the only thing that made my youth bareable. You were my play-mate, my confidant, my friend. I wish I had known you were in trouble- I wish we had stayed in touch... mebbe then I would have known and could have been there for you. It's just the way of our family though- to drift apart and lose touch. I can't help but hate so much right now. I hate her for dragging you down to that horrid place where you felt drugs were your only option. I hate the person that convinced you to leave rehab and I hate the person that fed you that last hit that ended your young life. I hate myself for not calling when I found out you were in rehab. I hate you for not being strong enough or able to love yourself enough to rise above this. I would do about anything to go back and savor the moments of our childhood again. To play those silly games and ride bikes together on those warm summer days. To whisper our childhood secrets again and to get it right this time. To stay close as we grew up and pretect you from the darkness that took you away. I miss you so much right now and I don't know whether to hate God for this or praise Him for taking you so swiftly. I know you may well have suffered.... but I'm glad you aren't suffering now. I never got to say good bye so please, God, tell him I love him and I always will.

Good bye, Bert.

Love always and forever-
Nicole
 
Dear Self,

If you want sex, you need to ask for it. Why are you getting upset with him for? He doesn't have the drive you do, and you need to communicate with him. Stop thinking that he'll read your mind. He doesn't know how.

Quit torturing yourself and try talking with him.

Love,

Me
 
Dear that time of the month....

Oh why did you come, just as when I was looking forward to the kinky play with my guy tomorrow? Damn you to hell!

Now, we have to postphone it to next week.....

Still....time will fly past so quickly!

:D

Caz x
 
Dear MD

I'll keep my promise

r/t/y

I am hurting
I've hurt You
I know it will get better
it has to get better
and yet I am hurting
and I've hurt You
and I've to mourn alone
 
Dear Bert,

I don't even know where to begin. You are too young to be gone. You were so smart, so funny, and one of the most inspiring men I've known. Growing up with you was probably the only thing that made my youth bareable. You were my play-mate, my confidant, my friend. I wish I had known you were in trouble- I wish we had stayed in touch... mebbe then I would have known and could have been there for you. It's just the way of our family though- to drift apart and lose touch. I can't help but hate so much right now. I hate her for dragging you down to that horrid place where you felt drugs were your only option. I hate the person that convinced you to leave rehab and I hate the person that fed you that last hit that ended your young life. I hate myself for not calling when I found out you were in rehab. I hate you for not being strong enough or able to love yourself enough to rise above this. I would do about anything to go back and savor the moments of our childhood again. To play those silly games and ride bikes together on those warm summer days. To whisper our childhood secrets again and to get it right this time. To stay close as we grew up and pretect you from the darkness that took you away. I miss you so much right now and I don't know whether to hate God for this or praise Him for taking you so swiftly. I know you may well have suffered.... but I'm glad you aren't suffering now. I never got to say good bye so please, God, tell him I love him and I always will.

Good bye, Bert.

Love always and forever-
Nicole


Words are often meaningless in those circumstances.
But still, I wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts ...
:rose:
 
Dear.. dear who? I dunno...

I had a spare hour today, and took more time than usual to peruse Lit's forum, not only the latest posts I subscribed to.
I realised how many people are in pain around here… physical pain, moral pain, emotional pain, pain, pain, pain. And not the pain some crave, no, the deep, hurting pain.
I'm thinking about those who have issues with their relationships, with their health, who are lost, betrayed, cheated, hurt.
It sort of... tainted my current happiness… Not really pissed me off, but still… like a mild pain the spoils the pleasure of the day. So much loneliness around here…
I wish I could do something. I know, it's a stupid idea, for I still have things to sort and cure and heal on my own. Egoistically, it made me realize how happy I am, at least. Maybe not happy as I thought I would be one day, but peaceful. Peaceful with my inner, often angry in the past, self. With my family. With my wife.
Call it a sudden surge of empathy.
Wishing you all better times. The darkest hour is just before dawn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nxBJNNQbeAs )
 
I realised how many people are in pain around here… physical pain, moral pain, emotional pain, pain, pain, pain. And not the pain some crave, no, the deep, hurting pain.
I'm thinking about those who have issues with their relationships, with their health, who are lost, betrayed, cheated, hurt.

I've noticed this myself. It makes me wonder what is different int the lives of those who seem perpetually in distress and those who are perpetually not. Is it a function of the individual, a result of their upbringing, or simply Fortune smiling upon those who are not so weighed down.

Regardless, those of you in pain have my sympathies. I, too, wish I could ease your burdens. :(
 
Both of you are so sweet. You know, nothing says you care like a credit card with no limit. Just sayin'.
 
" When it comes to feelings.. most of us don’t know what to say .. don’t know how to express their feelings in words.. a simple skill to make beautiful things .. to impress the one you love .. to deliver a massage that you have always wanted to say .. to answer questions that you have always been asked .. to reveal your inside soul .. don’t hesitate to show or write down your own feelings .. just relax .. play nice and smooth music .. try to find out what the music is trying to say .. and then integrate your own feelings with that music .. and the outcome will be something beautiful .. something coming from your soul .. your feelings now free for you to read out .. and for others to enjoy.. "

I can relate to this very well and I can just say this word is to busy. People are to busy to listen, to care, to love and then they are suprised when a friend of them suecide cuz he just couldnt bear the pain anymore. Some saying he should have been stronger - I am saying the people around him failed. As a family, as friends, as lovers.

I think hurting people always look for help, always look for a cure, for a helping hand, but sadly this world is like this: the rich dislikes the poor, the happy dislikes the sad, thouse who have big dreams and visions dislikes those who have lost theirs dreams, but they never care why.

I think theres people wo deal easy with things and people who deal harder with things. There are people who are okay on their own and then there are people who just missing motivation even to live if anyone care of them. There are people who are leaders and people who just follow. Those who care and those who need to be cared for. Those who listen but who also need to be listened to.

One can so easily lose their dreams if you put your trust into wrong person. You can so easily ruin your life if you make a wrong decision. You might be a nice person and one day when you're in need it doesnt matter anything to anyone. One day you just realise you are left on your own. Your friends are gone, your family just dont care as they should or as you would if they needed help and all you have is just yourself.

Is it a shame when people need someone? I dont think so. I think everybody needs somebody, but sadly not everybody is that lucky. Such people then or deal with it or they dont. Or they are strong enough and win that battle or they give up and live sad lonely lifes, or suecide or living on the streets forever forgoten by those who suposed to be their family and care for them.

I have many friends who hate when they hear someone talk negative or see someone down and I hate when I hear them saying "you're always down" or "omg think possitive" or shits like that. People are not sad for fun, their are not hurting cuz they wished to go thro certain things. I am saying if you are not willing listen to such a peeps then at least shut the fuck up and let them breath cuz you have no clue what they are going thro. Never deprive someone of a hope, it might be all they have.



As for chauderlos and Homburg I can just say that a nice word is all it takes sometimes and I am sure there are people to whom your posts put a smile on their face. I am surely one of them. :rose:
 
Both of you are so sweet. You know, nothing says you care like a credit card with no limit. Just sayin'.


*giggles* you always know how to make me laugh, toots. :)

yeah that would make me feel TONS better right now... any one game to spot me?
 
Dear X

I just put my collarme profile back up *sigh*. Maybe I will have some interesting inquries. LOL, yeah right!
 
Dear.. dear who? I dunno...

I had a spare hour today, and took more time than usual to peruse Lit's forum, not only the latest posts I subscribed to.
I realised how many people are in pain around here… physical pain, moral pain, emotional pain, pain, pain, pain. And not the pain some crave, no, the deep, hurting pain.
I'm thinking about those who have issues with their relationships, with their health, who are lost, betrayed, cheated, hurt.
It sort of... tainted my current happiness… Not really pissed me off, but still… like a mild pain the spoils the pleasure of the day. So much loneliness around here…
I wish I could do something. I know, it's a stupid idea, for I still have things to sort and cure and heal on my own. Egoistically, it made me realize how happy I am, at least. Maybe not happy as I thought I would be one day, but peaceful. Peaceful with my inner, often angry in the past, self. With my family. With my wife.
Call it a sudden surge of empathy.
Wishing you all better times. The darkest hour is just before dawn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nxBJNNQbeAs )


I read this, and as self centered as it may sound, it's me.

I put on my mask of happy and pretend that it doesn't bother me so. But it does. :(
 
Dear D,

Thank you for acknowledging mine and Mick's efforts yesterday. Thank you for being so giving and allowing us to have a wonderfully fun party. I can hardly wait to the Casper slide again next year. And yes, next year you will also do the Macarena with me.

Dear K,

Thanks for being a sweetie and dancing the first dance with me even though you weren't drunk. I wish you could have stayed longer but I enjoyed talking and dancing and hugging with you (I wasn't expecting the latter).

Dear C,

Thank you soooo much for driving me. You showed me you cared and just allowed me to go and have a good time. I needed that. I will repay the favor, I promise. Thanks, little sissy, I love you lots.

Dear X,

I really don't know what to make of you. I need to see something redeeming soon.

Dear K&K,

I want to go on vacation with you guys next year so bad! I wish you didn't live so far away.

Dear M,

I'm so sorry you were sick and couldn't make it. We would have had so much fun. Please take care of yourself. I'm worried about you.

-K
 
Dear x

The more I learn about you, or not...as the case may be *soft smile*, the more I love the person you are.
I feel so much pride. Teach me things. Please

Me
 
Dear X,

Though we're on hiatus while you work through your feelings, you still make me smile...I needed you to know that.

I miss you.
 
Dear X,
I know I threw a lot at you last night. But I have to be true to myself and pretending I don't have feelings when I really do just doesn't work for me anymore. Actually, it never really worked for me... I just finally decided to get the cahones to speak up about it.
What we have is not something I come across often. I just can't keep on fucking things up.

M.
 
Dear X,
I know I threw a lot at you last night. But I have to be true to myself and pretending I don't have feelings when I really do just doesn't work for me anymore. Actually, it never really worked for me... I just finally decided to get the cahones to speak up about it.
What we have is not something I come across often. I just can't keep on fucking things up.

M.

I can relate, coy, and I send you hugs in sharing the feeling *HUGS*:rose:
 
I read this, and as self centered as it may sound, it's me.

I put on my mask of happy and pretend that it doesn't bother me so. But it does. :(

Sometimes it's hard to be happy! We battle our life circumstances, genetics (brain chemistry, propensity for depression/anxiety/etc.), and as women, we often put everyone else's needs before our own. Conquering your inner demons feels so good though. It's worth the medication, therapy, reading, thinking, talkin, and venting.

Life is short. Choose happiness.
 
I love that.. may I use it?

Of course! I'm sure it's not mine. The Dalai Lama's book - The Art of Happiness? I haven't read it, but I understand it's basically that idea. ITW, Dalai Lama...essentially the same mind, right? :p
 
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