Dear X:

[ranix2k]

Dear X,

I can't wait till we see each other again, I'm so turned on thinking about it

Hope we can get a time that suits, I've emailed you my thoughts!

ranix x

 

[EmpressFi]

Dear Master,

I miss you so much it's nearly palpable.

Sometimes I worry that it's not enough, that I'm not enough. Sometimes I worry that it's too much - this pain we feel in being apart - is too much for you to bear.

I just miss you.

Merry Christmas

Your pet loves you

Me

 

[bholderman]

Dear X,

Its Christmas, these are your children. You havent done a single holiday thing since Halloween outside of eating my Thanksgiving dinner.

Its Chrismas Eve, not a single "Lets go see holiday lights," "Can I join you at the Christmas Carnival?" No phone calls on the days you dont see them. There isnt a single present from you under the tree. You want to come over to have Christmas morning with them.

Do not come empty handed.

 

[twysted73]

Dear X...

I saw you today and it had been a while. I wasn't sure what my heart would do when I did again.

What it did was smile. I didn't feel the emptyness I had felt before. I didn't feel the loss of what was or could have been.
I felt the love and the friendship that has survived out break up. And it's a healthy love.

Not tainted by hurt or anger. I on;y thought about your new guy and you together once. And even then I was happy for you.

You look content. You look like the happy mother and content S/O you've always wanted to be.
I am glad that 2007 has has brought you all the things you had hoped for. And, I suppose, that's what made me happy the most.
That you're taken care of better then what I could have offered before.

makes me think of a country song.

 

[NALA CAYENNE]

Dear X

i carry you in my spirit no matter what is going on in my day.

when we interact, my whole self lights up.

i think of you more than i think of myself and when we don't interact for more than an hour, i miss you more than you could ever know.

thank you for your gift

 

[sinnocence]

Dear X,

I miss You as usual. And I wish I was there. But just know that You're always in my head and heart. I can't wait until I'm with You.

I love You.

 

[HottieMama]

Dear Brad,

With every post i read of yours, i admire you more and more. i think you are an amazing person and a wonderful father. Your children are truly blessed to have you. i hope you have a wonderful Christmas and that you remember that there are many that care about you, even when life seems its' darkest.

Sincerely,
Me.

Dear "Mr. Bawstun,"

Thank you for what you did. Without it, i wouldn't be nearly as happy as i am now.

Me.

Dear All of my friends here at Lit,

i can't tell you how much i appreciate you always being there for me when i have needed you, and i hope that i have returned the favor in some small way. May you all have a blessed holiday.

Love,
Me

And last...and most importantly...

Dear "You,"

Yes, you...silly. In you...in us...i have found the most important gift of all. LOVE. You know all the rest, i won't say it here...but know...above ALL else, that i love You...to the moon and back. Thank you...for everything.

Always,
n

 

[the captians wench]

Dear Xs, aka "the bous"

Thank you for quiting this morning. You do not know how relieved I was that I wouldn't have to fire you on christmas eve. I was really struggling with that but you kept pushing me, you know what your job is, I should have to tell you to bring your uniform to work. I know you think that you left me in a tough spot, but really, you didn't, you really did do me a favor, as now I can enjoy my holiday with out the guilt of knowing you don't have a job because of me.

honestly, thank you.

the bitchy boss lady

PS that thing thru the drive thru, that was good too. We laughed all day at how stupid you were to think that I wouldn't notice your car in the pictures.

 

[BiBunny]

Dear Santa,

I know there are a lot presents under the tree with my name on them. I really appreciate that. But there's one thing I long for more than anything in this world. It looks like there's no way in hell I'll ever get it, but...could you try for me, anyway? Call the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy for help if you need to. I'll leave extra milk and cookies for the reinforcements.

~The Generally Good Bunny

 

[SubKekiLee]

My heart fills more and more everyday when I think of you.. It has been a busy couple of days for both of us.. I hope that your kids enjoy all the stuff they got from you.. and thank you for being you and being my Sir.... it means the world to me..

My friends here at lit you guys amaze me always there for me and I hope you got all you wanted today and if you are with your loved ones thats greast if not, They are thinking of you I am sure no matter what thank you for being who you are.. and being my friend..

Dear Mom
FOR once in your life does it really gave to be about you... WE gave up alot to be with you today and now you want to cancel until you can get your ass out of bed we arent waiting I am cooking if your here grand and great if not.. Im sorry to say we are going on with out you.. GET some help you need it

 

[minx1]

Dear x

Just to hear those words even if you don't mean them would mean so much to me right now. I am finding this difficult today. I have tried my very best and held it together really well....until now. I'm on my own at the moment and need your arms around me.....even virtually. I just need to know you are thinking about me, that you are glad I am here, that you love me.


Me

 

[Essene]

Dear X,

Thanks for nothing. This was a horrible last Christmas together. Maybe next year I'll actually have a real Christmas with people who love me and care about me.

 

[Sprinkles22]

Dear X:

Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday! Sadly, I cannot wish you either of those things personally because you are out of the country .... but I am positive you know I am thinking about you .... just as I know you are definitely thinking about me today.

Be safe while exploring, but have as much fun as possible. We will have our chance to belatedly celebrate this day soon.

Hugs, kisses and love to You ... wherever you are.

~Me

 

[ecstaticsub]

Dear X,

I have typed this out and erased it then retyped and erased it again. I know how you feel about discussing things with others. I typed it out again , copied it to an email to you but I can't send it. I know what your response will be...that it was for my own good, for my family, but...

Here it is Christmas and I am surrounded by my family, everyone is happy..but I am so hurt inside I feel like I am breaking. I am sorry I am so needy sometimes...but honestly you know I don't need much. One tiny off-line message would have made all the difference.

Sometimes I really wish I didn't love you so much.

~~J

Edited to add: And the only reason I am writing anything is that I am trying so hard to be the happy holiday Mom I need to be, and writing sometimes helps..I'm sorry.

 

[Chained_Enigma]

Dear M,

Is it wrong that I think about You when I'm with him? You have showed me a side to myself that I was too afraid to share with anyone else. You embraced that side of me and showed me that it was nothing to be ashamed off. Thank You for helping me find myself. Thank You for not pushing me away. It scares me that it's so easy for You to get into my head, I swear You know what I'm thinking before I say it and I'm afraid You'll know how I truly feel about You before I admit it to myself. I don't expect You to leave her for me, and I know You don't think I'd leave him. But sometimes I wonder, if You snapped Your fingers, I think I'd come running. You know too much about me.

Anyway, I was thinking about You again last night... and I just wanted to say thank You.

Love,
Your pet

 

[EmpressFi]

Dear X,

I have typed this out and erased it then retyped and erased it again. I know how you feel about discussing things with others. I typed it out again , copied it to an email to you but I can't send it. I know what your response will be...that it was for my own good, for my family, but...

Here it is Christmas and I am surrounded by my family, everyone is happy..but I am so hurt inside I feel like I am breaking. I am sorry I am so needy sometimes...but honestly you know I don't need much. One tiny off-line message would have made all the difference.

Sometimes I really wish I didn't love you so much.

~~J

Edited to add: And the only reason I am writing anything is that I am trying so hard to be the happy holiday Mom I need to be, and writing sometimes helps..I'm sorry.

Dont be sorry.. I'm the same way, sometimes writing it out is the only way to get it off my heart.. *hugs* I know how that needy feeling is.. and how much the little I loves you mean.. I hope the days get better for you

 

[BiBunny]

Dear Santa,

I know there are a lot presents under the tree with my name on them. I really appreciate that. But there's one thing I long for more than anything in this world. It looks like there's no way in hell I'll ever get it, but...could you try for me, anyway? Call the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy for help if you need to. I'll leave extra milk and cookies for the reinforcements.

~The Generally Good Bunny

Dear Santa,

I knew it was too much to hope for. I knew I wasn't going to get my wish, so I'm not disappointed.

Too much.

~Bunny

 

[Bi_Kitty]

Dear Santa,

I knew it was too much to hope for. I knew I wasn't going to get my wish, so I'm not disappointed.

Too much.

~Bunny

Dear Bunny,

Santa wanted me to give you a message: (Sorry that I didn't get you the message earlier!)
Dear Bunny,
Don't give up just yet. You caught me during a really busy season; I'm still working on your wish. I even have two of my elves helping me achieve your wish. Please give my elves and me some more time.
Love, Santa
-Kitty

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Random X's

Dear X~

I miss you, I wish you were her. I am saddened that you are not. My heart is a fluttery mess and I have been fighting back tears all fucking day. *sigh* Of course, I play the *I am so fine* role. Nothing is wrong with me, oh no. I hate feeling helpless, I hate being needy, I wish I could be stronger..but I am just too damned tired.

Me


Dear X~

Thank you for the good day, papi. I know there were fifty thousand things you would have rather done...but thank you for putting me and our children first. If nothing else has proven your changes, the last few holidays have. I love you papi ...always have, always will.

With all my heart
Yours


Dear X~

I hope your holiday went well. I hope you come back renewed and better. Quite frankly, if you don't..I think I may lose my mind.

Me

 

[LittleJade]

Dear Mom,

Yes, you've put on some weight. They told you the chemo would do that. Yes, your face is a little puffy- the chemo is doing that, too. But y'know? I didn't notice either of those things, until you mentioned them. I noticed your eyes- your eyes are different. You're still the joyful, energetic, strong woman you always were... but this chemo is taking your vibrancy, and is leeching it from you. Your eyes, beautiful as they are, were dulled, muted. It was harder for me to see your eyes that first time, than it was for me to sit with you through your latest chemo consult. It was harder for me to try to photograph them looking dead like that, than it was for me to feel the hardened veins in your arm and leg... and to hear about how the new chemo will make your finger and toe nails fall off. Seeing your bald head... that was nothing. It was easy- you have a lovely, bowling-ball perfect head. But your eyes... they speak volumes. They speak of your sadness at your appearance. They speak of your exhaustion. They speak of your fighting, and of how tired you're getting of fighting. They speak of how you want it to be over, but that you must persevere. Your eyes show the battle you're fighting, even when your smile doesn't. Even when you raise a glass and toast the season and hug your kids, and dance with your lover, and laugh with all of us... your eyes aren't fully with us... which means you aren't fully with us.

This is not a criticism, beautiful mother. This is simply something I've noticed- this is simply an observation... and it is a vocalizing of what I held in all weekend.

I love you so utterly much. I love you so much I can't even articulate it. You are the most beautiful woman I know- inside and out. You are the most sweet, caring, kind person I know. You are amazing- you are so full of fight, even if you haven't the passion you once had. You inspire me- you give me perspective. You give me so much joy. I couldn't have spent too much time with you these last few days- I haven't seen you for months...

I am SO lucky that you are my mother.

God was good to me, when he gave me you.

 

[malinborn]

((*cries and hugs you*))

 

[ShyVixen]

Dear X,

I want you, but can’t have you.

I care for you, but you care for another.

I’m dangerously close to asking you the one question I swore I’d never ask, even though I know the answer would be ‘no’.

It’s killing me. I’m hurt and jealous, and I hate feeling this way. Every time you mention her it cuts me a little. I don’t blame you. You didn’t do anything to make me feel this way except be the wonderful person you are. I ‘fell’ for you. This is my problem.

Maybe it’s time for some space. Maybe it’s time to walk away. I don’t know. I’m confused as hell. I just know I can’t carry on in this stasis of wanting you.

~D

 

[EmpressFi]

Dear X and X,

Neither of you will ever see this because while you do read lit, you only read the stories...

My heart is sick. I dont know what to do with either of you right now. I am not a marriage counselor. I'm just a concerned friend who wants to listen. If I've been where you are, I might share what has worked for me.

X, you want a surface piercing in your cleavage. This would join all the other piercings you have and yet for some reason, he says this one is ugly and disgusting and if you get it, he'll never touch you again. I suggested asking him why he felt so strongly instead of just his blanket ultimatums. His answer, "because I like smooth skin, would be a shame to ruin your cleavage with something so ugly".

So as you and I are chatting, I tell you how adamantly I opposed Malin getting his tongue pierced, how I came up with every reason in the book to not have it done... to the point where if someone would ask him about it, his first answer was, "My wife wont let me". So I explained to you that I finally understood that it was his body and if HE wanted it, despite hearing my objections, that it was his choice.

So now you want me to talk to him about it. See if I can change his mind. Him. THe most stubborn boy on the planet. And I say boy because as much as I like him, his attitudes are very childish. The way he reacts to you when he's married, "well fine, you can come to the apartment but I wont be here when you get here.".. etc. He seems to conveniently forget that he gave up his role as your Master and released you as his slave. He can suggest things, he can express his concerns, but he cannot demand and expect you to comply just because he said so

you both are frustrating me to no end. There's a big part of me that says.. go ahead and get it done, it's your body, if you want, but live with the consequences. And there's a big part of me right now that wants to slap him and tell him what a little shit he's being. In the grand scope of pressures that affect a marriage, especially the shit in YOUR marriage right now, the deal breaker cant be, should not be, a piercing.

Mr X, you are married. You're a grown up now. Right now, you're that dried up stubborn stick and your marriage is in a maelstorm. And although I hate being so cliche, if you dont learn to bend sometimes, you're going to snap your marriage in half. And it wont be her fault for not giving in to everything you say and it wont be my fault for partially agreeing with her on this one... you're the one that never bends and if you dont learn that there are some battles that matter and some that dont, you're not going to make it

 

[minx1]

Dear X,

I have typed this out and erased it then retyped and erased it again. I know how you feel about discussing things with others. I typed it out again , copied it to an email to you but I can't send it. I know what your response will be...that it was for my own good, for my family, but...

Here it is Christmas and I am surrounded by my family, everyone is happy..but I am so hurt inside I feel like I am breaking. I am sorry I am so needy sometimes...but honestly you know I don't need much. One tiny off-line message would have made all the difference.

Sometimes I really wish I didn't love you so much.

~~J



Edited to add: And the only reason I am writing anything is that I am trying so hard to be the happy holiday Mom I need to be, and writing sometimes helps..I'm sorry.

*hugs* I know how you must be feeling...I hope your christmas turned out ok Ecstaticsub

 

[bholderman]

Dear X,

I was thinking about you, and how for some reason I still miss you as I picked up this new electronic toy of our daughter's. Its called 20 q, its a simple thing that guessses what you are thinking by asking 20 questions.

The questions seemed oddball at times, some straightforward. After the 20th question, I sat in silence and looked at this little contraption as it asked me, "Are you looking for a soulmate?"

I thought that was you.