Dear X:

[chauderlos]

Geoff... I feel the same damn way..

Should we start a club or something?

As long as I can remember, I don't have good memories of Christmas...

Now I have kids, if different, but still, if I could just skip this part of year I wouldn't mind...

 

[myinnerslut]

Dear A,

im sore. and cranky. four more days? really?

*yourpuppy*

 

[the captians wench]

Dear X

Thank you, last night was a splended way to kill a few hours before bedtime. Tho I wanted face to face contact, you did keep me company in a special way. *grins* And you're right, we should do it more often, but I fear you are enjoying toying with this whole sentual sadist idea a little too much.

Okay, I admit it, I am rather enjoying it as well.

wenchie

 

[Jezebel77]

Dear X and X,

It was pure chance that the patient we are presenting is on dialysis and I just so happen to be in the kidney disease elective. I don't give a shit. I am not doing your research for you or telling you what to say.

I forwarded you the lectures that are pertinent to our patient and everyone in the class has 2,856 pages of Pharmacotherapy wisdom at their fingertips. I know I plan on using it, maybe you two should as well.

Worn out and irritated as hell
Jez

 

[fishercat]

Dear Santa -

You and I both know this is going to be a bad Christmas for me. My first Christmas without mom, my fourth without dad. I love my stepfamily, I'm grateful to have them in my life, but it's not the same.

This Christmas, all I want is for probate to finally close and for the house to sell. After months of dealing with contractors, creditors, lawyers and realtors, I'm exhausted. I have pushed away the grief, anger and guilt for almost a year, to get the legal issues settled before falling apart. I just want the freedom to grieve.

So this year, forget the yarn and the tech toys, the books and CDs. Even that new Richard and Linda Thompson concert CD that I've been wanting so badly. I know you can't bring mom back; I won't ask. But I do want to cry for her, and to move on with my life.

Hoping I'm on your list of good little girls,

fishercat

P.S. After Christmas, perhaps you could start work on finding me a Dom?

 

[northwoods_sub]

Dear Instrumental analysis homework,

YOU SUCK!

love always,
me

 

[the captians wench]

Dear X,

this sucks!

I know you know that. and I know that there is nothing any of us can do about it....but it still sucks.

*pouting*

giggles

 

[EmpressFi]

Dear X

I ... I really dont know what to say.

You always do this. You always put men and your own happiness before the happiness and wellbeing of your daughter. She's just a little girl for Christ's sake.

I'm so angry at you. You have been given this precious little person and all she wants is to love you. I know you love her, but why does she always get second place to whatever cock you have in your bed?

In a few short years, she'll realize your pattern. She'll look back at her life.. and at yours..and realize she always took the backseat to whomever you were "in love" with at the time... hell half the time she wasnt even in the vehicle with you because she doesnt know mummy has a new husband until long after you've made the drastic move. And when she realizes this pattern, I'm afraid she's not going to want to have anything to do with you.

You tell us that her therapist told you that it's good for her that you NOT tell her you married the sonofabitch. So right now, she thinks she's adjusting to the idea of having "Uncle Dickhead" in her life when he's really Daddy Dickhead...

I just wish that once.. just once.. you'd put her needs before yours, before his. You told me two months ago that he was pressuring you to get married... but now that story's changed into a "we decided it was time"... just once.. put her heart first before his dick.. you've been doing this same pattern for the entire 6 years that I've known you

I love you. I will always love you. It's just infuriating that you waste a gift that I wanted so desperately

love,

Sissy

 

[minx1]

Dear Fishercat,

*hugs* You sound like you have been through the mill hon. I am so sorry to hear about your mum. I lost my dad a couple of years ago and know exactly how awful this time of year can be. I hope you get everything on your wish list this year not least a new Dom for the new year!

Minx


Dear Santa,

I am really not too bothered about getting much this year. I am having a quiet one and am fine anyway.
Please give my share of good luck etc to Fishercat and can you please throw in a few good times with that too.

Thankyou sir,

minx

 

[SweetGigi]

To Minx and EmpressFi--

You two are such amazing women to take the time to show how much you care. Good blessings on you both.

 

[fishercat]

Dear Fishercat,

*hugs* You sound like you have been through the mill hon. I am so sorry to hear about your mum. I lost my dad a couple of years ago and know exactly how awful this time of year can be. I hope you get everything on your wish list this year not least a new Dom for the new year!

Minx


Dear Santa,

I am really not too bothered about getting much this year. I am having a quiet one and am fine anyway.
Please give my share of good luck etc to Fishercat and can you please throw in a few good times with that too.

Thankyou sir,

minx

Minx -

You are so sweet to lend me your Christmas good luck, and to share your hugs and sympathy with me. I have hope that Santa will be good to me this year, but no matter what happens, I'm glad to have found my true self and to have nice people like you here on Lit to learn from and share with.

fishercat

 

[nh23]

Dear D,
I understand your reasons, and you're right. I know that, this couldn't have gone on and this is for the best, it really is. But oh God, does it hurt. I never imagined that anything could hurt like this....


RASCAL FLATTS LYRICS

"What Hurts The Most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Dear D,
I remember very well the day I wrote that.. I remember that I was crying so hard that I could barely type. Knowing that after a year and a half.. I would never feel your touch again, that I would never hear your voice again. I understood the reasons things couldn't be..but it still hurt. You told me once that it was fate that brought us together. What were the chances of us ever meeting in the first place. That meant so much to me, and when we had to go our own ways, it is what I held onto. That maybe fate would allow our paths to cross again. I tried to move on..too quickly I know. I just needed to make myself believe that I could go on without you. I failed miserably. No matter how much I tried to tell myself that I was over you, that I could live without you..in the back of my mind I knew I was lying to myself.

And then...well you came back to me. I was so hesitant at first. Ignoring the messages you were sending me. I had held onto the idea that fate would bring you back..but I was so scared. Scared to open myself back up to you. Scared that you would just be taken away from me again. Scared to feel that pain again. I finally told myself that I had to do it. I had to talk to you again. You have no idea how happy I am that I did that. To have you back in my life means the world to me. I'm lost without you..

I know the circumstance that took us away from each other have changed. In a way I'm sad about that...yet in another I can't help but to be ecstatic. You told me that you looked into your future and couldn't imagine me not being there. You have no idea how much that means to me. It's exactly what I wanted to say to you when we parted ways, but couldn't let myself. I had to let you do what you thought was right.

I can't put into words how happy I am to have you back. To have the chance to be in your arms again..to hear your voice in my ear. My Dom, my lover, my best friend. There was such a void in my life before I met you, and I never realized just how big it was until you weren't there anymore. I love you so much...

 

[BiBunny]

Dear D,
I remember very well the day I wrote that.. I remember that I was crying so hard that I could barely type. Knowing that after a year and a half.. I would never feel your touch again, that I would never hear your voice again. I understood the reasons things couldn't be..but it still hurt. You told me once that it was fate that brought us together. What were the chances of us ever meeting in the first place. That meant so much to me, and when we had to go our own ways, it is what I held onto. That maybe fate would allow our paths to cross again. I tried to move on..too quickly I know. I just needed to make myself believe that I could go on without you. I failed miserably. No matter how much I tried to tell myself that I was over you, that I could live without you..in the back of my mind I knew I was lying to myself.

And then...well you came back to me. I was so hesitant at first. Ignoring the messages you were sending me. I had held onto the idea that fate would bring you back..but I was so scared. Scared to open myself back up to you. Scared that you would just be taken away from me again. Scared to feel that pain again. I finally told myself that I had to do it. I had to talk to you again. You have no idea how happy I am that I did that. To have you back in my life means the world to me. I'm lost without you..

I know the circumstance that took us away from each other have changed. In a way I'm sad about that...yet in another I can't help but to be ecstatic. You told me that you looked into your future and couldn't imagine me not being there. You have no idea how much that means to me. It's exactly what I wanted to say to you when we parted ways, but couldn't let myself. I had to let you do what you thought was right.

I can't put into words how happy I am to have you back. To have the chance to be in your arms again..to hear your voice in my ear. My Dom, my lover, my best friend. There was such a void in my life before I met you, and I never realized just how big it was until you weren't there anymore. I love you so much...

Dear N,

I know well how you feel about D. I know because I've been there myself. Your story is an inspiration to me. I think a lot of people don't know what this kind of thing feels like because only certain folks are lucky enough to experience that kind of love in their lifetimes, you know? I can't put it into words how happy I am for you. I get called cold and bitchy sometimes, but someone very special to me once told me that deep down under everything, I'm really just a hopeless romantic. I don't know if he was right or not, but that doesn't mean I can't appreciate a story like yours, anyway. I hope it's for forever this time.

~Randi

 

[nh23]

Dear N,

I know well how you feel about D. I know because I've been there myself. Your story is an inspiration to me. I think a lot of people don't know what this kind of thing feels like because only certain folks are lucky enough to experience that kind of love in their lifetimes, you know? I can't put it into words how happy I am for you. I get called cold and bitchy sometimes, but someone very special to me once told me that deep down under everything, I'm really just a hopeless romantic. I don't know if he was right or not, but that doesn't mean I can't appreciate a story like yours, anyway. I hope it's for forever this time.

~Randi

Randi,
Thank you so much. You've got me through a lot. I'll never be able to thank you enough. I know that you're a lot like me, and sometimes it's hard for us to show our emotion..and how we feel. I get called cold and bitchy a lot myself..lol. But, I know just like you..I feel love. Very deep love. I just have to keep a rational head about things too. Our storybook like moments don't always have a happy ending. I have to protect myself from that at times. I hope it's forever too..But, I know we have similar thoughts on this..right now I'm just happy for today.

I love you,
Nicole

 

[Bi_Kitty]

Dear Bunny,

I'm nervous! Not enough nervous that I don't want to do it because I'm doing it. I just need to find something to take my mind off it till then. *looks around to find something to occupy my mind "ahhhh yes I can study"*

Kitty

 

[doveofserenity]

Dear D,
I remember very well the day I wrote that.. I remember that I was crying so hard that I could barely type. Knowing that after a year and a half.. I would never feel your touch again, that I would never hear your voice again. I understood the reasons things couldn't be..but it still hurt. You told me once that it was fate that brought us together. What were the chances of us ever meeting in the first place. That meant so much to me, and when we had to go our own ways, it is what I held onto. That maybe fate would allow our paths to cross again. I tried to move on..too quickly I know. I just needed to make myself believe that I could go on without you. I failed miserably. No matter how much I tried to tell myself that I was over you, that I could live without you..in the back of my mind I knew I was lying to myself.

And then...well you came back to me. I was so hesitant at first. Ignoring the messages you were sending me. I had held onto the idea that fate would bring you back..but I was so scared. Scared to open myself back up to you. Scared that you would just be taken away from me again. Scared to feel that pain again. I finally told myself that I had to do it. I had to talk to you again. You have no idea how happy I am that I did that. To have you back in my life means the world to me. I'm lost without you..

I know the circumstance that took us away from each other have changed. In a way I'm sad about that...yet in another I can't help but to be ecstatic. You told me that you looked into your future and couldn't imagine me not being there. You have no idea how much that means to me. It's exactly what I wanted to say to you when we parted ways, but couldn't let myself. I had to let you do what you thought was right.

I can't put into words how happy I am to have you back. To have the chance to be in your arms again..to hear your voice in my ear. My Dom, my lover, my best friend. There was such a void in my life before I met you, and I never realized just how big it was until you weren't there anymore. I love you so much...

~grins and hugs you~
i am happy for you, NH. i remember our talk about Him, and you seem so much more happier now.
Life sometimes puts a hold on things, to make everyone take a breather; to make sure its the best...and your time away from Him has just made it so much better for you. Congratulations hon.

 

[doveofserenity]

~smiling softly~
Dear Sir,

Thank You. You took me places that i haven't allowed my body to go since His passing.

You said that at that point You just weren't letting me come back to this world because You were getting to know the "real" me. There is no more "real" than what You did and saw me become last night.

And once You finally did allow me to come back, the care and attention to make sure i have been able to handle coming back calmly enough to keep my wits about me; the phone calls checking in once i had to come home; it amazes me.

~blushes~And You saying i have a "purring complex"; ~giggling~ i cant help that Sir. i never knew anyone that knew how to trigger my purring motor from just touching my spine with the barest of finger touches.

As i know You ghost read the boards, i just wish to say Thank You Sir, for taking me to Heaven; and i am so looking forward to O/our next time together.

Yours in heart, body and soul,
tina

 

[nh23]

~grins and hugs you~
i am happy for you, NH. i remember our talk about Him, and you seem so much more happier now.
Life sometimes puts a hold on things, to make everyone take a breather; to make sure its the best...and your time away from Him has just made it so much better for you. Congratulations hon.

Thank You.. I appreciate it..and all you have done for me.

 

[nh23]

~smiling softly~
Dear Sir,

Thank You. You took me places that i haven't allowed my body to go since His passing.

You said that at that point You just weren't letting me come back to this world because You were getting to know the "real" me. There is no more "real" than what You did and saw me become last night.

And once You finally did allow me to come back, the care and attention to make sure i have been able to handle coming back calmly enough to keep my wits about me; the phone calls checking in once i had to come home; it amazes me.

~blushes~And You saying i have a "purring complex"; ~giggling~ i cant help that Sir. i never knew anyone that knew how to trigger my purring motor from just touching my spine with the barest of finger touches.

As i know You ghost read the boards, i just wish to say Thank You Sir, for taking me to Heaven; and i am so looking forward to O/our next time together.

Yours in heart, body and soul,
tina

I can only imagine how happy you must be..and how hard it must have been to get to this point. I'm very happy for you..

 

[doveofserenity]

Thank You.. I appreciate it..and all you have done for me.

Its ok hon, thats what friends are for. And dont mind me if i seem a lil goofy, i am still somewhat "purring".

 

[intothewoods]

Dear Crush,

Man, why do I let myself daydream about you? Argh. You are just a male slut and I must accept that no matter how hot you are, you are not every going to turn to me and say, wow, itw, I love you - let's run away together and make babies.

Crush, we would totally have the cutest babies! Oh well. Fine, be a male slut.

I don't really get why you don't think I'm the shiznit. We had that one night of hot dreamy sex. I'm hot. I've seen the other chicks you bang. I'm hotter! And I'm funny and smart!

You said originally you wanted a hot smart chick to settle down with. Well, what the fuck - that's me! I don't get it.

You make me so nervous. You are the only guy who intimidates me. I hate it. And the only one who makes me look twice, away from Mr. Man. Mr. Man is so good to me. Why do I even think about you?!

I even said I'd go to that sexy sex party next weekend on the off chance you'd go. Lame. I'm so lame! Why are you so hot? Argh.

love,
itw

 

[intothewoods]

Dear Crush,

Man, why do I let myself daydream about you? Argh. You are just a male slut and I must accept that no matter how hot you are, you are not every going to turn to me and say, wow, itw, I love you - let's run away together and make babies.

Crush, we would totally have the cutest babies! Oh well. Fine, be a male slut.

I don't really get why you don't think I'm the shiznit. We had that one night of hot dreamy sex. I'm hot. I've seen the other chicks you bang. I'm hotter! And I'm funny and smart!

You said originally you wanted a hot smart chick to settle down with. Well, what the fuck - that's me! I don't get it.

You make me so nervous. You are the only guy who intimidates me. I hate it. And the only one who makes me look twice, away from Mr. Man. Mr. Man is so good to me. Why do I even think about you?!

I even said I'd go to that sexy sex party next weekend on the off chance you'd go. Lame. I'm so lame! Why are you so hot? Argh.

love,
itw

Dear self,

You're a dork! Mister Man is awesome. Forget crush boy, and how hot he looks in a kilt and...

ARGH!

 

[northwoods_sub]

Dear X,

you don't get it and you never will. For 4 years I have tried to explain to you what I need and you never hear me. For 7 years I have tried to explain my psyche and you don't hear me.

Did you ever think that that might be the reason that I quit talking?

me

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Dear X,

Anytime I see you I see the quilt in your eyes. You look at me with those sad puppy eyes and you dunno what to say, I feel it... You did what you said you will never do again yes..but uhmm.. doh, forget about it....... I am okay. I don't want your sorrow and I don't want you as my comforter either.... Could you just pretend I have died or something? Don't look at me that sadly I am not mad at you anymore silly. It's just when I see you I don't feel like dancing, but I am glad you're happy.... do not worry about me, I know you do, but don't... please.

When I get sad I have my lil kitten to cuddle with and my bed to keep me warm. I am not maybe smiling that much, but thats nothing you should worry about. I hate when you see me like this...... I am sorry.

Your new gf.. I know her, I am not sure from where, but I know her. I know you just wanted show me who you love right now, but you and me we cannot be friends, I am sorry. Theres things about your life I don't wanna know and pic's I do not long to see, but I know you do not realise that... *sigh*

See you takes me all my energy, I need my bed. Hopefuly when I wake up I'll feel way different than I do now.

Erase me from your mind..... and just be happy okay.

love
me

 

[Chris_Xavier]

Dear X,

Doing good.. let's improve a bit shall we?

CX