Dear X:

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Dear X,

You asked what my intuition is telling me...

It's telling me not to waste a single second of any opportunity I can grab hold of to spend time with the two of you.
It's telling me to take in every moment, every touch, every sensation.
It's telling me to hold it all as close to my heart as I can...
Because I'll need it to help stay sane when the two of you move on.

I meant what I said about being forgettable. And we're looking at the possibility of plenty of time to forget.

:rose:
 
dear x&y

If you don't like my facebook status, don't bother replying to say how wrong I am, or belittle my feelings. Neither of you have any actual problems, so dont fucking go saying that mine only seem worse than everyone elses because they dont broadcast them to the world. How about you fuck off, go back to your perfect little lives, and mind your own business. perhaps I'll just get twitter, and only invite people who have compassion and empathy.
Tossers.
 
Dear X

I've laid my heart on the line, even down to the selfish parts.

It's all yours, go nuts.

Me

XXX
 
Dear Beta Male

Dear Beta Male,

All the times I denied sex to you, was because I wanted you to rape me. (I told you that) You never did. I left when you started begging.

Love,
Beta Girl
 
Dear X,

What should I say when you whine and try to create guilt because "the family" isn't what you wanted and hoped it would be?

Do I tell you the truth? You tore it apart with your own ongoing behavior? No amount of money, gifts or anything but changing that behavior is going to help?

I'd love to tell you that. I'd love to clear up your confusion on the issue. There is just one problem. You keep trying to kill yourself. So my honestly would very likely equal your depression and slide you to yet another suicide attempt.

I would LOVE to have the kind of family you think you want too. I really would. Just about every minute I spend with you is painful. I don't think it needs to be but it always is.

I mean we can be having a nice lunch and you verbally berate me, my husband, my kids or all of us.

Oh and when will you get it through your head that you can't control or buy people? Psst . . . that means I can't either. I don't want to.

I know your love language and mine has to be different. That has to be part of the problem. I know you say I'm the most important thing to you. Why then must you always lash out?

I told you nearly twenty years ago when you began trying to kill yourself. Seek my attention in positive ways or it's not going to work. I will no longer be your servant to clean up your messes.

You hated it. You still do. The thing is, you have to make choices in this life. I chose to survive you for the sake of my husband and kids, no matter what crap you pulled. I'll make that choice again, every single time it comes up.

So, if you can act decently with us ever. I suspect we'll be able to be much more of the family we'd both like. Until then, I guess you'll continue to "not understand" and be sad, angry and vengeful.

Some people do become introspective in a constructive way though. Some even grow up a bit. With all of your "counseling" I'd think you might have figured that out.

I so wish I had the mother that used to make me feel (at times) comforted back.

Love,

FF

:rose:
 
Dear x,
I like it when you're completely absorbed and excited by painting, and possessed by the muse. I'm wondering about a threesome with your muse. Is she hot?

---Me
 
Dear Apartment God/Goddess,

Please allow Bunny and I to find "our" apartment tomorrow. That would be one we can afford the security deposit and the pet deposit, plus the pro-rated rent that we are going to have to pay. Oh, and pass the application process on whatever ones we put in for. Please allow it to be a decent apartment, unlike all of our previous apartment experiences.

I know I'm probably asking A LOT from you, but I've had a really good week. I mean 2 interviews in 2 days and getting to spend time with the Owners. Please allow us this, this is all I ask of you. For now, anyway.

~Kitty
 
Dear Apartment God/Goddess,

Please allow Bunny and I to find "our" apartment tomorrow. That would be one we can afford the security deposit and the pet deposit, plus the pro-rated rent that we are going to have to pay. Oh, and pass the application process on whatever ones we put in for. Please allow it to be a decent apartment, unlike all of our previous apartment experiences.

I know I'm probably asking A LOT from you, but I've had a really good week. I mean 2 interviews in 2 days and getting to spend time with the Owners. Please allow us this, this is all I ask of you. For now, anyway.

~Kitty

Add me to this chorus.
 
Dear Apartment God/Goddess,

Please allow Bunny and I to find "our" apartment tomorrow. That would be one we can afford the security deposit and the pet deposit, plus the pro-rated rent that we are going to have to pay. Oh, and pass the application process on whatever ones we put in for. Please allow it to be a decent apartment, unlike all of our previous apartment experiences.

I know I'm probably asking A LOT from you, but I've had a really good week. I mean 2 interviews in 2 days and getting to spend time with the Owners. Please allow us this, this is all I ask of you. For now, anyway.

~Kitty

Ok....now you're just pissing me off Apartment God/Goddess.

We found one that we could afford monthly and even the security deposit. But it doesn't allow pets.

Which isn't a big deal but I love my Louie; I would give him up if I could find someone to take him but fuck you, Apartment God/Goddess, this isn't even fair.

*upset kitty*
 
Ok....now you're just pissing me off Apartment God/Goddess.

We found one that we could afford monthly and even the security deposit. But it doesn't allow pets.

Which isn't a big deal but I love my Louie; I would give him up if I could find someone to take him but fuck you, Apartment God/Goddess, this isn't even fair.

*upset kitty*

Well, you know, since the dickweed who wants us here so badly isn't willing to take our cats, I think we should just find another place at home. We don't want to live in this shithole of a town, anyway, and all we've heard the last God knows how many weeks is "Don't worry about it." Fine, I won't worry. I'll go somewhere I know I can find a place. The very reason we can't find anything now is because these assholes wouldn't let us come over and look THREE WEEKS AGO like I told them we should.

We should've gotten a place in Atlanta with K. At least she gives a shit if we have a fucking place to live or not. I'm so pissed right now, I can't even see straight.
 
We should've gotten a place in Atlanta with K. At least she gives a shit if we have a fucking place to live or not. I'm so pissed right now, I can't even see straight.

Come to Texas with me in August. I need roommates to afford a decent place, and y'all seem like cool girls. :D

Seriously, though, the apartment hunting thing really does suck hardcore. Hope y'all find something that'll work out quickly, and without any more headaches.
 
Dear x

I hope you do find this. I hope you are following me around, and if you do find this, I hope it makes you mad. You jealous awful bitch.

I will say this, you had better treat him good. Cause karma's a fucking bitch if you don't. He's given up friendships for you, and I hope you know what he's lost for you.

Go ahead and keep this thought in the back of your head, he came back to me because of you. No one else. You. you did it.

In the meantime, stay the hell away from me. I have no use for you or your games. It's done and over. I will have nothing else to do with either of you.

Thank you,
me.
 
Dear X,

I am resisting posting to you directly because you won't listen but my compationate nature makes it too hard not to let it bubble out somewhere.

To loose all hope is a very sad thing, but no one is going to cry for you. We might empathize, but you won't believe that anyway. I have been in a dark spot like that before. I thought I'd never love again when my husband left me. No he didn't die, he chose to leave. For a long time I delt with why my high school sweet heart, my first lover, my everything would choose to leave me. Something had to be wrong with me. And the world went from sunshine and rainbows to a very dark place.

After months of believing this new negitive attitude was the way the world worked. I looked for some one to bring me out of this. It was months before I realized that I am the only one in control of my emotions. No one can make me hope any more than they can take it away. I have to give them that power, I have to choose not to hope.

I still have moments, but I'm in control of my bubbly impish outlook on life and I won't loose that again.

signed
troll
 
Dear X,

I am resisting posting to you directly because you won't listen but my compationate nature makes it too hard not to let it bubble out somewhere.

To loose all hope is a very sad thing, but no one is going to cry for you. We might empathize, but you won't believe that anyway. I have been in a dark spot like that before. I thought I'd never love again when my husband left me. No he didn't die, he chose to leave. For a long time I delt with why my high school sweet heart, my first lover, my everything would choose to leave me. Something had to be wrong with me. And the world went from sunshine and rainbows to a very dark place.

After months of believing this new negitive attitude was the way the world worked. I looked for some one to bring me out of this. It was months before I realized that I am the only one in control of my emotions. No one can make me hope any more than they can take it away. I have to give them that power, I have to choose not to hope.

I still have moments, but I'm in control of my bubbly impish outlook on life and I won't loose that again.

signed
troll

5 bucks says your post in the diversity thread gets a 'more evidence of obsessive-compulsive harassment from the casual community' response
 
You're a better woman than I.

I'm working on it. Can't outright ignore just yet because of all the other funny stuff going on :D


Changing your life is busy work!

If I wanna make costuming my career, I'm going to have to dicipline myself more. I can't always rely on some one else to kick me in the ass when I need it.
:eek:

But yeah, DGE and DTMLG have really put some smiles on my face. I'll miss that.
 
Dear Management:

I'm never going back to that Subway again. Your employee had the creepy rapist vibe going HARDCORE and the last thing I want is for him to be touching my food again. *shudder* :(
 
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