ataxia.girl
D/s anarchist
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Dear X,
Who are you and will you bring me a presen?. Such a simple question.
amy
Who are you and will you bring me a presen?. Such a simple question.
amy
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Dear X,
Please....
Waiting to breathe again,
Bunny





Dear life,
your the bigest cranky CUNT ever!!
very tired
~me


Dear Love,
Only 65 days to go and I'm getting worried. I took my lappy in for repairs like you've been bugging me to do for a while, but it's going to take all of my trip money to fix it. Things are a bit tighter now with the new van and insurance payments, not to mention my med insurance. I'm just worried I'm not going to have the money I was planing on having. Okay I know I'm not going to have that much. I should have what you told me I'd need, but not much more than that. I just hate feeling like I'm a burden to you. I know that won't be the case, and I know you'll be happy to take care of me, but it's been a while since I've relyed on some one so heavily. You know? I mean, while I'm there I'm going to be completely lost. Hell before I get there I'll be completely lost. I"ve never traveled before. Never anywhere further than a day's drive. This will be my first flight, and my first time out of the country. That's scary to me, and the fact that I have no idea what we'll be doing or where we'll be going or even where I'm going to be sleeping when I get there also scares the shit out of me. I know you'll take care of me, and I trust you and have faith that you'll do what's best for me, but I'd kind of worry if I didn't have a little bit of these fears.
The whole moving thing is really starting to sink in as well. I mean, the idea of being in a strange country for a week is scary, but if I moved there, I would be totally dependant on you for a long while. I know you don't believe me, but I really am shy, and I don't make friends well. I'd be way too timid to ask any one else what bus goes where, and I don't have a clue where the better places to live would be. And shit, I don't even know how much I should expect, or ask for if McD's does pull this off.
I'm just getting nervous I guess. Neither one of us has been involved with some one like this before, let alone for such a great length of time. I've been yours longer than I was married, and you admited that you've never had a girl as long as you've had me. I don't know if that scares me or comforts me, the fact that you've never been that serious about a girl before. I guess it's not that strange to be late 30's and never married, but if I remember right you haven't even shaked up with a girl before. I guess I'm just worried that it'd turn out like my ex husband and you'd get bored with me and start wondering if you "still have it". I don't think I could deal with some one else abandoning me. Every man I have ever loved, in one form or another, has left me. And what happens if I do move there and after a year or so you fallow the same pattern? Where woulld that leave me?
I guess this is what mom was waiting for, reality to set in. I'm still excited, I still can't wait, but now those little fears are starting to creep up too. But I guess it wouldn't be a challenge if there was no fear. And there'd be no faith with out a bit of doubt. I love you baby, maybe more than I have ever loved anyone. Sure as hell never offered to even move cities for anyone before.
I'll calm down and just wait and see what October brings. There's part of me that still believes you're not going to want to keep me after putting up with me for a week.
~your silly slut


Dear Mc I,
I know it's only been a week and a half, but any news yet? I know these things take time, but ever since that first letter I've been flipping out wondering if you could really pull this off for me. You know, any news would make me feel better. Even a "nothing yet, but we're still working on it" or a "fuck off you damn yank you're too much trouble" what every you know? just something. I'm trying my best to be pacient, and I won't bug anyone with emails for a few more weeks, but shit man, I'm on pins and needles here!
-Mc Hopeful
Dear Love,
Only 65 days to go and I'm getting worried. I took my lappy in for repairs like you've been bugging me to do for a while, but it's going to take all of my trip money to fix it. Things are a bit tighter now with the new van and insurance payments, not to mention my med insurance. I'm just worried I'm not going to have the money I was planing on having. Okay I know I'm not going to have that much. I should have what you told me I'd need, but not much more than that. I just hate feeling like I'm a burden to you. I know that won't be the case, and I know you'll be happy to take care of me, but it's been a while since I've relyed on some one so heavily. You know? I mean, while I'm there I'm going to be completely lost. Hell before I get there I'll be completely lost. I"ve never traveled before. Never anywhere further than a day's drive. This will be my first flight, and my first time out of the country. That's scary to me, and the fact that I have no idea what we'll be doing or where we'll be going or even where I'm going to be sleeping when I get there also scares the shit out of me. I know you'll take care of me, and I trust you and have faith that you'll do what's best for me, but I'd kind of worry if I didn't have a little bit of these fears.
The whole moving thing is really starting to sink in as well. I mean, the idea of being in a strange country for a week is scary, but if I moved there, I would be totally dependant on you for a long while. I know you don't believe me, but I really am shy, and I don't make friends well. I'd be way too timid to ask any one else what bus goes where, and I don't have a clue where the better places to live would be. And shit, I don't even know how much I should expect, or ask for if McD's does pull this off.
I'm just getting nervous I guess. Neither one of us has been involved with some one like this before, let alone for such a great length of time. I've been yours longer than I was married, and you admited that you've never had a girl as long as you've had me. I don't know if that scares me or comforts me, the fact that you've never been that serious about a girl before. I guess it's not that strange to be late 30's and never married, but if I remember right you haven't even shaked up with a girl before. I guess I'm just worried that it'd turn out like my ex husband and you'd get bored with me and start wondering if you "still have it". I don't think I could deal with some one else abandoning me. Every man I have ever loved, in one form or another, has left me. And what happens if I do move there and after a year or so you fallow the same pattern? Where woulld that leave me?
I guess this is what mom was waiting for, reality to set in. I'm still excited, I still can't wait, but now those little fears are starting to creep up too. But I guess it wouldn't be a challenge if there was no fear. And there'd be no faith with out a bit of doubt. I love you baby, maybe more than I have ever loved anyone. Sure as hell never offered to even move cities for anyone before.
I'll calm down and just wait and see what October brings. There's part of me that still believes you're not going to want to keep me after putting up with me for a week.
~your silly slut
That whole post just made me want to give you a big hug.
(((((Wenchie)))))))
Fears are only nautral, hon.![]()
First off McI's is gonna be proud to have you..youll get it just breathe..
and in regards to your irish love... Trust me he will be there he wont abandon you in anyway..... He loves you ... and I know your fears are rightful and honest.. he will be good for you.. relying on someone isnt all that bad trust me Ive finally let go and let my heart go where it wants and I trust him , 9 months now..Here is a HUGE hug.. You know I am here if you want to talk..
SKL