Dear X:

[kiten69]

Dear BDSM Cafe:

I snagged this from the AH because it was such an entertaining idea, and a way to vent at the same time (thank you Cloudy). Write as many letters as you like; get it out of your system whatever the emotion may be. The letter can be to anyone and be about anything. Go ahead, you'll feel better.


kiten

 

[kiten69]

I'll go first...

Dear S.O.B. of an ex,

Could you please explain to me the exact moment in time that you became such a cold hearted bastard? For years upon years I was your doormat, an object for you to wipe your feet on and toss to the side, your personal maid and slave. You made me feel inadequate, like I wasn't able to make it without you, without someone to support me. Well eat your words asshole, I may be struggling but I am making it...WITH OUT YOU.

I've put up with alot of garbage from you since the day I decided to kick your sorry ass out of MY house, but the way you treat the kids is beyond repulsive. You treating me like shit is nothing new, nothing I'm not used to, but to treat YOUR kids like this...you really don't have a heart do you?

Well I'll have you know this dickwad. These kids, OUR kids, are the best things that have ever happened to me. Many times in my life they were my reason for not giving up, they are the reason I'm not giving up now. You may think that since they are kids they are oblivious to how you are treating them, how you are tossing them aside. But let me let you in on a little secret genius, they are not blind. They can see that their Dad is spending as little time with them as possible, they are getting used to the broken promises and missed appointments. Someday I hope you look back and realize how badly you fucked up with them, of course by then they will already have an honerable, loving, caring man they call "Daddy". And I hope you see how much they will love that man, how much fun they have with him, and I hope it hurts like hell you deserve it.



kiten

 

[Brandii]

Dear men of my past

Why could you not have found something in me that was worthy of your love and attention?
I never understood how a heart that was so open to you was just something for you to stamp on and grind into the dust with your boots.
Oh, I am impulsive. I know it. I am also over obsessive when I fall in love and always tend to over romantize every little thing about you.
I paint a picture of you with rose coloured glasses and try to ignore your faults, zeroing in on your good points instead.
I try to be flexible and even change who I am, to be who you want me to be hoping then you'll want me. It never works, but I do it anyway.
You know I would have loved you and been faithful to you til the end of my days. I would have been supportive of every venture you undertook. I would have been your friend, your lover and an ongoing mechenism of all round support. I would never have put you down or judged you when you thought you had failed.
I even remained chaste so you would not have to worry about "masculine" comparisons and felt more secure within yourself.
I am going on 50 now and I know my chances of finding true love with a male are next to none. I have given up my dream of being a wife and now I settle for whatever men will offer me. I know I will probably die never finding what I yearn for most. I just wish I knew why I was good enough for any of you.

 

[Xelebes]

Huh? What?

 

[myinnerslut]

on the brighter side of things...

to my friends,

i will probably never get a chance to tell each and every one of you why you are amazing, but you are. you are the people who became my family. you are the ones who can always make me smile or luagh, or let me cry and hold me though the bad times. you are what makes the days fun, and the ones who make my memories lasting. when i miss A terribly, or feel hurt or sick, or need someone to sit with me in the emergency room, or just need a hug, i know i can count on you. thank you all.

 

[satindesire]

Dear Sir,

Although we have had trials and tribulations that might have torn apart another couple, here we are, past a year together and I still get butterflies when I see you. Living as part of this couple, part of this relationship, has given my life more substance and more meaning than any other experience in my years. I know I am young, and you are young, and the odds are against us...but as long as my heart belongs to you and yours to me, I will stand faithfully by you with ever fiber of my being, be loyal and trustworthy to the depths of my heart, and love you truly and wholly to the end of my soul.

 

[Marquis]

Dear bitches:

Thanks in advance for the tandem blowjob you're about to give me. You guys are just swell.



M

 

[BlueSugar]

Dear Cloudy and Kiten,

woot! this was totally me bringing Dear X, to Lit.

I'm tooting my own horn so I stop thinking about how the love of my life said he'd "call me later" sometime around 11:30pm and now its 4:30am and I'm still awake.
And how much I hate how he says "i want to come home" and can't because he is stuck in florida dealing with a shitty law system. And how much I hate missing him. And how I haven't had a hug from him since January. And how I hate the phone nowadays bc I'm sick of hearing him through it. And how I hate cell phones bec we're broke and argue about calling 'when its free', and how we fight over stupid things because we miss one another ... and how everything would be OK if we could just hug sometime soon.


Woot for Dear X,
blue

 

[Netzach]

Dear USPS

please stop trying to ruin my small biz. If I fuck up I like to do it myself.

Signed
control freak.

 

[WriterDom]

Dear Lady Dawgs,

Please beat Perdue tonight. Crush the cunts. Twist off their nipples.

 

[myinnerslut]

Dear A,

i fainted in front of a group of friends.
i was in the emergency room for three and a half hours.
i think i may have sprained my neck when i fell becuase its swollena nd hurts like hell.

and when i tell you all of this, what do you say : its always something with you, somethings always wrong and then you have to go the hospital, and you always have to get evrything checked out...

!!!!!!!!!

i do NOT enjoy being in the hospital. as a matter of fact i hate hospitals and i hate doctors. i spent far too much time in the hospital growing up. for most of my middle and high school years i was in hospitals or doctors at least twice a week, usually more. i cant stand them. the emergency response team had to plead with me to go to the hospital on friday after i declined an ambulence. i avoid hospitals and doctors as much as i can.

so im a klutz! that doesnt mean i do this to myself on purpose! does it seem like i like being sick and miserable?!?!?!

i know its harder to be supportive of things like this when we are five states away from each other, when we cant hold each other, or speak face to face, but i feel like you are discounting what is wrong and making it my fualt, like i did something. i love you and i will probably tell you this in person in a much more respectful way. i know you are glad im ok, but why do you discount me like this when i am hurt?

*yourpuppy*

 

[amadaun]

Dear cup of yogurt,

Thank you for being sooooooooo full of yogurt when I met you.

I'll be dead soon.

Sincerely,
amadaun, esq.

 

[HottieMama]

Dear Stupid fucking house phone...

You were working perfectly yesterday...Then around midnight you decided you didn't want to have a dial tone anymore...WHY is that? I need you. I hate cell phones, but I like talking to people...and not being able to do that comfortably fucking blows. I have tried to fix you myself, but it seems like you want to wait for the SBC man to come out and check you....you fucking bitch. You suck, you worthless piece of shit.

Signed,

Pissed off bitch who really hates making long distance calls on her cell phone.

 

[ammre]

Dear E.
I had no hard feelings to you moving out. I had hard feelings about you turning in the room request forms before you even mentioned the possibility of moving out to me. I had hard feelings when you lied and said you were packing your stuff becasue you were going to put it in storage. I had hard feelings when I overheard you talking to one of our other roommates about how you were intentionally making one of the bathroom sinks as scuzzy as possible because you know i'm a clean freak and it would bother the shit out of me. I had hard feelings that you left a lot of your crap here like we were some sort of storage facility. I had hard feelings about the way you approached me about moving out. You made it seem like I was being a cold bitch when in reality I was becoming reclusive because I was very depressed and I didnt feel like I could get any support from you. I had hard feelings about the fact that I would spend hours atthe hospital with you when your family memebers were sick, but when my dad died you couldn't even come to the wake. I had hard feelings that you often abandoned me on those few fun nights we had left to go get drunk or high and fuck your boyfriend. I had hard feelings that you thought my hatred of your boyfriend was unfounded. The reason i dind't like your boyfriend was becasue you became a shittier person after you started to date him. When he cheated on you and broke your heart, I was the one who took you to mcd's and the beach because you haden't eaten or stopped crying in three days.
Finally, I have hard feelings because no matter what i say to you or how well I explain myself, you will still find some way to consider me a horrible person. I know you, you like to be the victim.

Maybe someday you'll realize the amazing friendship you threw away, and you'll cry, and whoever is near you who's currently sticking their penis in you, will comfort you and you'll yet again, be the poor girl.


-Love
a.

 

[Toa_lin]

Dear Life In General.

I congratualte thee on your most omniscient undertaking of irrevocably becomning the quintescence of destruction and mayhem of every good thing that hath come my way. I thank thee for vindicating me from my, apparently in thine eyes, depressingly wonderfull relationship with mine brother. I thank thee for allowing me and mine Father to finally begin to understand one another, and become capable of spending wonderfull ammounts of time coherently with out the slightest mishap and with-out misconstrueing what the other hath said, and then send him to his early grave. I applaud thee in coercing friend after friend to come to me, and then pass on into the next world with-out a chance to say good-bye, or even a "fair thee well". I bow down to thine omnipotence in twisting the eyes of one lover after another onto some other man for whom she then fell for and left me to wither and rot. For reminding me how simply I can end my time here, by sending those I care for; in that immensely suicidal way. I find myself undeniably accepting thou art the compass of mine ship, and the wind by which I sail. But now I must confesseth to you, I now smash mine compass and furl my sails, I shall travel by the line and log, by the oars of mine strength and passion, and keep this fairest beauty whom i hath found this way, as mine, and away from thine over-powering "grace" shall i take her. My pet shalt always hide in mine shadow away from thy light, for I shalt fight thee to the end of thy boundless universe to keep thine hands away from her. She shalt be def to thine whispers of endearment, and she shalt be numb to thine nudges of encouragement. For I shalt cast off every other article of mine to thy will, but she shalt be mine for all time.

In defiant reverance, thine humble enemy.

 

[kiten69]

Dear Cloudy and Kiten,

woot! this was totally me bringing Dear X, to Lit.

blue

Yup...Cloudy thanked you over in the AH...fantastic idea!

 

[BiBunny]

Dear B.,

I love you. You know this. You care about me, too.

So why the fuck do you have to be such a shithead sometimes?

Randi

 

[MelancholyBaby]

Dear A,

Please take good care of yourself. I hope you know how much I care for you. I hope I have done nothing to ruin our friendship.

I am going to say goodbye for now. It is not as much as a goodbye but as a "the ball is in your court now" type thing. I would love nothing more than to hear your voice again in my ears instead of haunting my dreams. But it's your turn now. I love you.

Love,
Miss K/lb

 

[lil_slave_rose]

Dear T,
we've been best friends for what, 17 years? we've seen alot of hard times together, cried through alot of shitty situations on each others shoulders. i finally find the one person who i am happy with, who loves me very much, the one man i've trusted with my complete and total being. and you, you can't accept Him. i get that you don't understand the dynamic of our relationship, i also understand that you tried the same type of relationship and got burned, but i assure you not all Dom's are like the one who hurt you. not only can you not accept Master, but you also stop talking to me, i'm not sure why, but you did. you have always been so jealous of anyone else who comes into my life. we are adults now, and i'm not sure why you feel that i cannot have any other friends besides you. good god T, they are not ever going to take your place..ever. but you don't see that, and i guess you never will. you see everyone as a threat.

you called me last night, after atleast a month, and instead of saying HEY! how are ya?? you say, oh hi, i was just checking to see if my phone worked, it wasn't working earlier, i'll let you go so you can get back to whatever you were doing. i tell you no, it's ok i'm not doing anything. we sit on the phone for probably 15 minutes with just a few words here and there, and then finally when i get sick of i tell you i'm going to go so i can put the kids to bed. and that was it! i miss you, i truly do, but it's like you are poison to me. i am a different person when i'm around you. i feel like i can't be myself because you will make fun of that part of me. when i had my job you continually made jokes about it because it was a telemarketing job. you'd say mean things like 'oh some of us have REAL jobs' you are a cashier at a discount chain for crying out loud!

why? why is it everytime something goes right for me you have to put me down instead of saying, 'wow, congrats, i'm happy for you, hope it works out' that's what a real friend would do. but then, when my entire world crashed down on me, you were the first one to be there to hold my hand. you were the only one who realized i had not eaten in 3 days and took and spent your last 5.00 to get me something to eat. also during that time you took off work so you could be with me, take me to appts. etc...i just dont' understand you, i don't get it. but i cannot let you poison my life anymore, and i guess we have already kind of moved on, you have your friends and i have mine now. i miss you and i hope one day we can work this out, but for now, for my own sanity and self confidence, i have to move forward.

i truly love and miss you
and will forever,
A

 

[rozezwild]

Dear BDSM Cafe:

I snagged this from the AH because it was such an entertaining idea, and a way to vent at the same time (thank you Cloudy). Write as many letters as you like; get it out of your system whatever the emotion may be. The letter can be to anyone and be about anything. Go ahead, you'll feel better.


kiten

Wow this is great -- i know i am going to be needing it soon

Thanks

 

[Evil_Geoff]

Thank you

Thank you God, Lord, Goddess, Higher Power, Supreme Being, Creator, Or Whatever Name You Wish To Be Addressed As.

Thank you for today. It was a good day. I got to share a gorgeous afternoon with a bunch of kinky people doing the kinds of things friends do.

Thank you for janey. I don't know what I did to deserve her but whatever it was, THANK YOU!

Thank you for smacking me with a heart attack August 22. Yeah, it was a helluva bitchslap, but I wasn't paying attention, you had to use the big clue by four. My bad, really. But I survived that and the skilled medical team that did my quad bypass did a bang-up job so I get a real second chance to take care of myself and live a long, happy life. I know a lot of folks don't get that second chance so every day is a good one.

Thank you for the challenges you've placed before me so I can grow as a man and Dominant. Thank you for partners who've come into my life that want to experience the pain I want to give them. Is that awesome, or what?

Thank you for this electronic medium where I can share my heart, my thoughts, my feelings with people around the globe. My leather tribe reaches the far corners of the world!

Thank you for creating a Universe that is mind-bogglingly huge and complex and breathtakingly beautiful. Carl Sagan may not have been a believer, but even he appreciated that beauty to be found out there. Thank you for allowing me the wisdom to understand that MY terribly limited senses and mind can't encompass You or Your Creation, and that it's hubris of the worst sort for anyone to pretend they can actually speak for you. You may have a Master Plan, but it's for damn sure no one on this dustball we call Earth has a clue what it is...

Thank you for always being there, for always listening, for always giving me strength to carry on. Even on my bad days.

Thank you!

 

[EternalSufferin]

Thank you God, Lord, Goddess, Higher Power, Supreme Being, Creator, Or Whatever Name You Wish To Be Addressed As.

Thank you for today. It was a good day. I got to share a gorgeous afternoon with a bunch of kinky people doing the kinds of things friends do.

Thank you for janey. I don't know what I did to deserve her but whatever it was, THANK YOU!

Thank you for smacking me with a heart attack August 22. Yeah, it was a helluva bitchslap, but I wasn't paying attention, you had to use the big clue by four. My bad, really. But I survived that and the skilled medical team that did my quad bypass did a bang-up job so I get a real second chance to take care of myself and live a long, happy life. I know a lot of folks don't get that second chance so every day is a good one.

Thank you for the challenges you've placed before me so I can grow as a man and Dominant. Thank you for partners who've come into my life that want to experience the pain I want to give them. Is that awesome, or what?

Thank you for this electronic medium where I can share my heart, my thoughts, my feelings with people around the globe. My leather tribe reaches the far corners of the world!

Thank you for creating a Universe that is mind-bogglingly huge and complex and breathtakingly beautiful. Carl Sagan may not have been a believer, but even he appreciated that beauty to be found out there. Thank you for allowing me the wisdom to understand that MY terribly limited senses and mind can't encompass You or Your Creation, and that it's hubris of the worst sort for anyone to pretend they can actually speak for you. You may have a Master Plan, but it's for damn sure no one on this dustball we call Earth has a clue what it is...

Thank you for always being there, for always listening, for always giving me strength to carry on. Even on my bad days.

Thank you!

Damn Geoff....Just damn....and well damn Lol.....Alot to think about in that one...Thanks for sharing that.!!!

 

[MasterPhoenix]

Dear L,

Its been over a decade since I last saw your face and heard your voice. I loved you with a love that was deep and complex. I understand that you didn't feel the same way about me. Hell with the person I was back then, I fully understand. But regardless of that you were one of the best friends I have ever had. You introduced me to Buddhism, listened when I needed someone, and helped me see that despite what I saw at the time, I was a good person.

I do not believe in regret, as everything I have been though has made me who I am today, and to regret that means I regret myself. But I do regret how we ended. I do regret that I listened to RQ as she played both ends against the middle and ended up driving a wedge between me and someone who I truly loved. I am pretty damn sure you never read this forum, but I have to release these thoughts somehow. I am truly sorry that I listened to RQ and never talked to you. I am sorry that I treated you bad after I was filled with her lies. I am sorry that I believed her bullshit.

I wish that I could somehow get a hold of you to tell you all of this, even a myspace or e-mail. A chance to say that I am sorry. A chance to say that I did love you. A chance to say that you were a very special part of my life. A chance for you to see how I have grown and changed since those times I have known you. A chance for you to see me with my love, and a chance for you to have been happy for me.

Maybe back then you knew something of what I was. I remember some comments you made when I would listen to NIN. Maybe you knew that below the surface I was a kinky one.

Even all these years later you cross my mind from time to time, and I chant that you are OK and happy.

Love,
P

 

[MasterPhoenix]

Dear RQ,

I hope that you realized that you are fucking insane and have finally gotten the psychological help you needed. I doubt it tho as you are a lying manipulative psychotic bitch. Sometimes I can still hear your words or voice echo though my head, and that is when I know that I am off the path I need to be on. Your words were nothing more than manipulative lies.

I am glad I have not seen nor heard from you in forever. In fact, if I ever fucking see you again it will be too fucking soon. I let you get into my head because I believed you were my friend and you loved me. Instead anything I confided in you was used against me until you had me convinced I was insane. You are the crazy fucking bitch.

Funny, we both joined the temple together and you had a fucking fit at me because I didn't put you down as a referral. Funny, no one around the temple has seen or heard from you in forever. I am glad, because any time I head down there I get fucking paranoid that I will hear your crooked tongue speak to me. I don't ever want to see your fucking face or hear your voice again.

I have carried your bullshit around in my goddamn head for a fucking decade. You are a true betrayer. We are both Buddhists, at least I still am and you were. Karma is a bitch.

Frankly, I don't give a shit what you would think of me now. I know you would start your stupid shit if I were to run into you, and I would tell you I don't give a fuck and walk away. Maybe I would linger long enough to blow smoke in your face before I walked away.

You can take this we are connected bullshit you used to talk and shove it up your useless cunt sideways. You can take your "who else would do this for you?" And cram it up your fucking ass.

Disrespectfully,
P

 

[jadefirefly]

Hello.

Do you have any idea how difficult it was, to not rise to your goading, your taunts, your incessant guilt trips? To not respond when you insulted my friends, and insulted me using such skillful, veiled language that nobody who didn't know you as I do would notice?

Do you have any idea how much harder it made it when you kept contacting me, each time swearing it was the last, only to return a few months later? Sure, it was always for a good reason. But do you realize all of the things you accused ME of doing -- oh, yes, I realize it was just one of many "options", but it was clear which option you believed to be true -- do you realize YOU were the most likely candidate to be doing these things? Believe me, I'm well aware you were angry enough to have considered it, to have found the perfect way to invade my life, my privacy, without doing anything that could be considered harrassment, without doing anything I had the skills to track.

I loved you. I would have done anything, absolutely anything for you.

My biggest irrational fear right now is that I still would.

I just want you to let me go. I've accepted that there is no forgiveness. I've accepted that you're gone. But you haven't made your peace yet, and it shows.