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RONIN
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Dear Litster-Who-Will-Never-Read-This,
Mistakes are inadvertent errors. I made them but I can no longer regret them. I am human and imperfect, so mistakes are inevitable on this level of life. All anyone can do in response to mistakes, is to take responsibility for them, apologize to any injured parties, try to work to undo what damage was done and act to do what is possible to ensure that the same mistakes are not repeated.
Because I did these things, I know I did what I could to repair our relationship. One thing I could never do is get you to accept my repeated apologies, or allow me to try to act to repair the damage. I couldn't even get you to talk with me about what happened. That will always make me sad, but not regretful; I know in my heart I did everything I could to make things right, or rebuild them on new ground.
One thing I do regret is accepting full responsibility for "killing us" by my two errors. I did need to accept responsibility for my errors and their impact - that part was true. Truthfully, I would have said anything at that point to try to save us and have a chance at repairing the damage I'd caused; I was and am deeply sorry that I caused you and us such pain.
But culpability in this case was shared, even if I bore the bulk of the blame. There were choices you made, words you could have spoken in the moment and actions you could have taken. You're big on "owning your shit." Well, I have owned mine; in this case, you never have.
I believe we could have repaired or rebuilt things, but one person can't make another try. I couldn't make you listen, or even respond. Silence in response to my 13 attempts stands in testament.
I didn't kill us. I injured us, and I'm deeply sorry for that. You let the injured body bleed to death on the floor, while I banged on the door with the EMS personnel.
Can I forward this to my ex-wife?
) where do you hike? Do that often? Just started back up, myself after my Summer break from it. Too hot here in TX. 



