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I will not share my experience in detail.
A. I have never really discussed it. What happened, happened. My father offered to call the police, but there were so many involved, and nothing actually "happened" that I told him to let it go. We were all young, and they were stupid. I chalk it up to that.I am thankful I am a quick talker and despite only being 5'2" can raise my hackles if needed and a least seem a bit scarier than I really am.
B. Despite this being an "anonymous" forum, I tend to think I am all over the place here. (not exactly trying to hide, if you catch my drift) If I thought my story would help someone in any way, I'd have said something a long time ago.
I'd never confuse unwanted with wanted, either. I'll be the first to admit, I can't wait til I have a Daddy who loves me enough and is proud enough, AND CONFIDENT enough in me and my love for HIM that he might enjoy a little playdate with someone else. But the key to this scenario (for me anyway) is you have Daddy there to protect. You always belong to one Daddy, and if both of you don't agree to it, then it's a NO-GO. Daddy will not make you do anything he does not think you are prepared to handle.. PERIOD.
People who think they can take whatever they want by force or fear are a different breed.They should be punished. Even though I did nothing wrong, I can still see how I might have been made out to be deserving of what happened. I recall after the fact that one of the boys MOTHERS made comments all over town about how I was one of the only girls out there that night, and she could only imagine what I was doing with all those "boys"..
I was like, are you kidding me? I played football with these "boys" for years...I shot slingshots and climbed trees with these boys for years.. NOTHING gave them the right to do what they did, and I had NO way of knowing I was "putting myself" at risk with guys I'd grown up with.. Yet, this woman found some way to exonerate her child's behavior at my expense.
Whatever..#irritated at the gaul of some people...
In any event, I'm very protective both of myself and others.(big D'OH there
This, once again, reaffirms why I love you in that strictly platonic sisterly sort of way.
*big hugs*
I consider myself lucky in some ways, because I was only a child when these things happened to me, and both acts were committed by adult men. There was no "blaming the victim" in the sense that I was treated like I deserved it. I will not pretend to know what that feels like, just know that you ladies are all in my thoughts.
As for my family, only a few of them care to talk to me. The rest are cordial at family functions, and that's fine by me. Perhaps the best thing to happen lately though, was due to a rather sad event. My grandfather(father's father) had a heart attack on February 14th. When he fell, he hit his head, and due to the loss of oxygen and head bump, he was left in a coma. He passed away 8 days later. All 3 of his sons flew in from out of state to be with him in those final moments, including the uncle who molested me. My father, who initially did not believe me when the events all came out, told my uncle that he was to leave the hospital for at least 2 hours so that I may come and say my final goodbyes without needing to feel uncomfortable with his presence. It was a sad comfort for me, to see my uncle being treated as the black sheep of the family for a change, instead of me. It only took losing my grandfather for the family to realize where the loyalties should lie.
Enough of my nonsensical ramblings. I hope you all have a wonderful day!
And thank you all, again, for such a warm, comforting place to vent. I feel safe with my Daddy, but I also feel very safe here. 
