Confessions: What Are Yours?
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PolyLvr
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I generally lurk and have never started a thread of any kind and I try to avoid the animosity of the general board. However, given a recent turn of events I almost started a thread to rant about the spineless, hypocritical shitbag that blackmailed _Lorelei_into deleting her entire AmPic thread and more importantly, leaving Lit
I want to hope I might hear from her again but can't help but doubt that I willGiven the short time I communicated with her, even a dullard such as myself could see that her beauty is far more than skin deep. Wherever she's gone, my greatest hope for her is that the person she's with appreciates the treasure he has in her, and treats her accordingly
That pisses me off. When someone intimidates or coerces another I just want to beat, and not stop for several aeons.
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sounds good to me...
I think that's a common sentiment and probably is why the culprit worked anonymously
I think that's a common sentiment and probably is why the culprit worked anonymously
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TheBigandBaldGuy
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I confess a very good friend of mine was treated disrespectfully last night. I hate it when a person is used, more so when I care for that person. This makes me very mad, and I am not nice when I am mad.
Spill it!
PolyLvr
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I'm sure most of you will be intrigued, disgusted, or contemptuous.
insert____here
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i think you don't give people here enough credit....so spill already...
I agree! Let's hear it!
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well that's quite the confession...you may be offended at the ambivalence though. as long as you're not too screwed up and you have dealt with it then ok. yes it's horrible that it happened to you, but why would you think anyone here was going to be disgusted or contemptuous towards you for it?? i'd want to know how you are before deciding to feel anything about it.
PolyLvr
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I am........ambivalent. I feel at times robbed, titilated, angry, or elightened.
We never spoke of it after that summer, and when I tried to forgive her on her death bed, she acted innocent. As if we didn't do those things.
It's shaped me, although I am not haunted by it. It is nice to be able to talk about it though.
I have a 20 something daughter and I have never had any thoughts in that regard for her. Her friends are another story though,
Although the subject continues to fascinate me, in a third person sort of way.
Honey, it wasn't your fault. I, of all people, understand this. I was abused by my teen girl neighbor when I was far from my teens. Anyone that judges you is shit, in my opinion *hugs*
PM me if you ever need to.insert____here
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I am........ambivalent. I feel at times robbed, titilated, angry, or elightened.
We never spoke of it after that summer, and when I tried to forgive her on her death bed, she acted innocent. As if we didn't do those things.
It's shaped me, although I am not haunted by it. It is nice to be able to talk about it though.
I have a 20 something daughter and I have never had any thoughts in that regard for her. Her friends are another story though,
Although the subject continues to fascinate me, in a third person sort of way.
then i'd say (given that small amount of info) that you're doing alright and carry on. no ire from my end. glad that you feel ok to talk about it at last though. pm me if you need a non judgmental ear to spew or vent on.
TalondeKarrde
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If they did I still wouldn't read them. I always put things together without the manual. LOL
I usually put it together backwards.
See I knew there was something about you
and I love the way you put things together
welatshaw
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in my humble opinion
I feel bad for you that something so horrible happened to you, but from the little that has thus far been said, it seems as if you're dealing with it. I happen to know 2 people who have had similar experiences; one of them is dealing with it and leading a "normal" life, the other one is seriously messed up, to the point that she's been in and out of inpatient and outpatient psych care for years. Have you spoken to anyone in a professional capacity regarding this?
I am........ambivalent. I feel at times robbed, titilated, angry, or elightened.
We never spoke of it after that summer, and when I tried to forgive her on her death bed, she acted innocent. As if we didn't do those things.
It's shaped me, although I am not haunted by it. It is nice to be able to talk about it though.
I have a 20 something daughter and I have never had any thoughts in that regard for her. Her friends are another story though,
Although the subject continues to fascinate me, in a third person sort of way.
I feel bad for you that something so horrible happened to you, but from the little that has thus far been said, it seems as if you're dealing with it. I happen to know 2 people who have had similar experiences; one of them is dealing with it and leading a "normal" life, the other one is seriously messed up, to the point that she's been in and out of inpatient and outpatient psych care for years. Have you spoken to anyone in a professional capacity regarding this?
That is tragic and you are blameless.
The blame sits squarely on the shoulders of your mother and one of the most heinous of crimes a person can commit is to rob a child of their innocence!
Have you gone to the cops?
Sorry but I am what I am and this type of crime makes my blood boil. If nothing else they can put you in touch with support agencys...
Failing that I'll listen to you if you want to talk.
draconus_infernus
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I confess that I'm tired. I'm tired of being led on, and I'm tired of being thrown aside like yesterday's garbage!
Is there something wrong with me? Really? Is there? I'm up front about things when I enter into a relationship with a woman. I don't hide the fact that I'm married and that my wife knows about this.
Is it so much to ask that, if you decide you want to call it quits, you have the common fucking decency to just tell me?! When I have to practically drag it out of you in IM, well, it's beyond fucked up.
I confess that I should stop admitting when things are going well, because that's a sure sign that all the shit will hit the fan. I confess that, right now, I feel absolutely fucking worthless because, yet again, someone I was really starting to care for decided that it wasn't working out, and seemed to think that basically ignoring me for a week was a perfectly acceptable way of letting me know.
Last but not least, I confess that I give up. I'm tired of being walked all over like this. It's been happening too much. I'm just tired of it. Maybe I should just do myself and the world a favor and go find a nice cave to hide in. I'm done.
Is there something wrong with me? Really? Is there? I'm up front about things when I enter into a relationship with a woman. I don't hide the fact that I'm married and that my wife knows about this.
Is it so much to ask that, if you decide you want to call it quits, you have the common fucking decency to just tell me?! When I have to practically drag it out of you in IM, well, it's beyond fucked up.
I confess that I should stop admitting when things are going well, because that's a sure sign that all the shit will hit the fan. I confess that, right now, I feel absolutely fucking worthless because, yet again, someone I was really starting to care for decided that it wasn't working out, and seemed to think that basically ignoring me for a week was a perfectly acceptable way of letting me know.
Last but not least, I confess that I give up. I'm tired of being walked all over like this. It's been happening too much. I'm just tired of it. Maybe I should just do myself and the world a favor and go find a nice cave to hide in. I'm done.
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this is not nice. we've all been there and can sympathise fully. i'm sure that mrs draconus can cheer you up. big hugs and a hot chocolate with extra marshmallows on the way.....
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I confess that I will totally kick her in the knee - you are far too sweet & good natured to be treated so poorly, button.
If you had been hiding in a cave, non of us would have met you. And that would be a shame. You are a dear, sweet man and don't deserve to be treated like that. But I know how you feel. I made a similar post a few weeks ago. We shouldn't let others put a value on us but we do. We need to stop using others to define who we are and what we're worth. You would do no one a favor to hide. You'd be depriving the world of someone special. She's the one that should be hiding in shame. If she's so callous and cowardly that she can't behave as an adult, she shouldn't be pursuing adult relationships like that. I'm so sorry she hurt you. PM me if you need to talk
i confess i am moved by what was above me we all are diferent in ways but we make up the world to hide in a cave would remove a peice of the puzzle stay out in the light somebody will miss you hope i said that right not the best at putting things down
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Honey, it wasn't your fault. I, of all people, understand this. I was abused by my teen girl neighbor when I was far from my teens. Anyone that judges you is shit, in my opinion *hugs*
It's odd. At times I am pissed about the lost innocence. But I was never very angry. I think being a somewhat twisted individual has maybe lessened it's impact. I am/was more upset by the fact they misled me, than by the actual acts.
I do know my Mom was bothered by what they had done, for many years. I also know that they both where in similar situations with older siblings, when they were kids. My mother had 3 older brothers who started on her before she was 10. My father had an uncle, a brother and a sister on him.
I never spoke to police about it, nor any therapists. Mom is dead, we had good relationship otherwise, right to the end. It's funny, but other than that summer, she was almost a saint. All their deviant siblings are dead, too.
One thing I do realize, being as close to this subject as I am, is how much it can change someone. Sitting here typing this, I think maybe I am bothered more than I thought, simply because I think about it almost daily. No drama or anything, but it's there. Anyways, I am absolute death on a.) Children. I love children and I am so thankful that I don't love them THAT way, after what happened. Consequently, IMO anyone who rapes or abuses a child deserves death. Period.
B.) People that take advantage of others. I have an abnormal hatred of thieves of all sorts. I'm a very laid back kind of guy most of the time, but I feel, a lot.
I also ramble apparently. This kind of thing goes on far more than anyone realizes. Some people come out almost unfazed. Some people get really messed up.
Anyways, thanks for listening/reading.
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