calling all transgendered

[Tymeless]

not sure if this is against the rules or not but if anyone wants to reach me u can reach me on yahoo = stmacsall2 aim TymelessEQ or www.myspace.com/stmacsall since it emails me when someone leaves a comment!!!

 

[Gi_Venus]

not sure if this is against the rules or not but if anyone wants to reach me u can reach me on yahoo = stmacsall2 aim TymelessEQ or www.myspace.com/stmacsall since it emails me when someone leaves a comment!!!

I may be dropping you a line.


gi

 

[TransJason]

Any transmen out there (FTMs)

Hi everyone,

I am a transman, and havent seen any erotic fiction for us yet..I will have to write some maybe !

Would any one be interested if I did,,?

Jas...All man !

 

[Gi_Venus]

Hi everyone,

I am a transman, and havent seen any erotic fiction for us yet..I will have to write some maybe !

Would any one be interested if I did,,?

Jas...All man !

Hi Jas, are you FTM or MTF? If MTF there are some stories I have been told, maybe you could try changing your search words. I know they are always taking submissions. I would be interested. I have my own story but....laughing I may use a pen name as it's nature is not of the highest quality.
Gi

 

[TransJason]

HI,

I am a transman ( F2M), I always get a bit pissed off as the MTFs seem to nick all the "trans" words ! they are transwomen.

Ask me any questions..I'll answer if i can...have a whole bunch of real stories I can tell before and after the full surgery.

I am fully transitioned, so no extra holes ! just a regular guy now with a rather larger cock..2" thick and 7" long, made to order !

 

[Gi_Venus]

HI,

I am a transman ( F2M), I always get a bit pissed off as the MTFs seem to nick all the "trans" words ! they are transwomen.

Ask me any questions..I'll answer if i can...have a whole bunch of real stories I can tell before and after the full surgery.

I am fully transitioned, so no extra holes ! just a regular guy now with a rather larger cock..2" thick and 7" long, made to order !

Hello Jason
I bet they would love to have your stories. I would submit a few. I thought you might be FTM from the way you worded everything. But I did not want to make a mistake and assume anything. Laughing I am going the opposite direction. Do they have you on hormone therapy? I would assume so. Glad to have you with us.

Gi

 

[TransJason]

HI there...

I am all finished now, just take testosterone to keep my levels up, had the phalloplasty and everything else done..so fully functioning male physically now, mind and boy as one finally !

Hoe your doing OK, you started on the hormones ?

 

[Gi_Venus]

HI there...

I am all finished now, just take testosterone to keep my levels up, had the phalloplasty and everything else done..so fully functioning male physically now, mind and boy as one finally !

Hoe your doing OK, you started on the hormones ?

Yes around four to five months now. changes are happening.....my skin is softer and dryer, I am less hairy, breasts are growing, starting to loose muscle mass, laughing I had a hard time opening a jar today...that never used to happen. Smiling, I am moody as hell though.

You must be very excited, how long did the entire process take?

Gi

 

[TransJason]

For me officially it took 4years, but I had a odd time from puberty and produced excess androgens that were masculinizing me. Thats why it only has taken 4 years to have it all done, normally it would be around 8, as I didnt have to do the RLT for 2 years,

I am glad your OK and enjoying whats happening, as I know MTFs who dont enjoy what the estrogen does to their moods and mental state !..in fact I know 2 who have stopped taking it after a number of years once theyb have completed the SRS.

 

[siren319]

I'm not trans... but I do love to write so I would be happy to team up with someone here to piece together some erotica for lit.

 

[Gi_Venus]

For me officially it took 4years, but I had a odd time from puberty and produced excess androgens that were masculinizing me. Thats why it only has taken 4 years to have it all done, normally it would be around 8, as I didnt have to do the RLT for 2 years,

I am glad your OK and enjoying whats happening, as I know MTFs who dont enjoy what the estrogen does to their moods and mental state !..in fact I know 2 who have stopped taking it after a number of years once theyb have completed the SRS.

Laughing...I can see that happening.....my mood down swings are killing me.
With MTF hormone therapy it takes about 4 years

Gi

 

[TransJason]

Yes I think you gilrs have a nuch tougher time as you go through female puberty ! eck !!!!! not an easy on that.

We just have a fine time with a higher sex drive and better immune system and no mood swigs (unless you take an awful lot of extra T..) you dont generally get a depressed transman once they start T.

wish you all the best, and hang in there, it takes years to change the hormonal system over completely, and only finally does it come to rest with a transwoman once she has had the full SRS.

 

[Gi_Venus]

Yes I think you gilrs have a nuch tougher time as you go through female puberty ! eck !!!!! not an easy on that.

We just have a fine time with a higher sex drive and better immune system and no mood swigs (unless you take an awful lot of extra T..) you dont generally get a depressed transman once they start T.

wish you all the best, and hang in there, it takes years to change the hormonal system over completely, and only finally does it come to rest with a transwoman once she has had the full SRS.

Laughing, I have no sex drive now....of course I have not been romanced either.
It is funny you should mention female puberty that is exactly how my therapist refers to it. We get in trouble with men, laughing...we are flirtatious....and I need to refine myself on using makeup......which I do not use in public.....
and clothing......Help! Right now it is hide myself.
Looking down....is that the beginning of a shelf?

Glad it is working well for you. If you post any stories I would love to read them.

Gi

 

[Gi_Venus]

I'm not trans... but I do love to write so I would be happy to team up with someone here to piece together some erotica for lit.

Hello siren, sorry it took so long to get to you. Laughing....many distractions to my distractable nature. What kind of things do you like? Right now I have a story that a good friend is helping me on, I am not good with the technical stuff and I am hopeing to get it posted on LIT. I like writing too but I have never worked with someone.

Gi

 

[Tymeless]

this august i'm supposed to start seeing my therapist again and i think i'm gonna push for hormones i tried just being male and dealing with a feminie side but i continually end up wanting to be female constantly even cried myself to sleep a couple nights now!

 

[TransJason]

The thing it comes down to is :

Have you always been female minded and have dysphoria over you body not being female...or is it you want to BE a female.

Two different things, one is "I am a woman and I am distressed that my mind and body dont fit together", but the other is "I want to Be a female and i desire the feminine/female" which isnt the same....

One is transsexualism and one is paraphalia fetish.

If you have been going to a therapist it may be clearer now, but its best to go see a psychiatrist in the gender dysphoria field.

I really wish you well

 

[Gi_Venus]

Hello Jason, I hope this does not mean good bye. I would say in my case it is my mind and body do not fit. Of course I lived a lie most of my life as a result trying to fit in, now I am going to be as I was meant to be.....but it will not be as my family will want me.....and quite likely all old friends will disappear to. But that is okay as I want to loved as I am not some wrong sexed fake. I do not hate my male body as some of the TGs I have met do. But it feels un-natural

Gi

 

[TransJason]

Yes thats the point..you feel out of kilter with mind and body..thats gender dysphoria/transsexualism as its diagnosed.

You may not lose anyone, I didnt !..everyone I new was happy that I had "finally got round to it !" ...one thing I did was check with my surviving relatives to see what they remembered of me as a child and they all agreed that I was a "boy " then and now and and my personality hadnt changed..they were very supportive. The odd thing that happened was that people cried and apologised for not helping me as they didnt know what to do...

If you are just natural about it and matter of fact, and just be a woman that you are , not inventing a female manner as such, then its fine ..those that start putting on some odd new almost drag version of being female freak people out, like a transman being overtly "hello mate" and to macho before his voice has broken !

A fvriedn who is MTF just softend her voiuce and wore clothes she normally did that she was comfortable in and as the changes came, slowly built up a wardrobe of female attire, and no one noticed !..freinds and family after a year said thats the way she always was to them !...it felt natural and not a forced and the transition wrked very well for her.

All my best .... its a BIG learning curve.

Jason

 

[TransJason]

Hey Tymless...I think anyoine who is trans can relate to the "I vried myself to sleep" i would do that every night when i was a child as i felt such dispair at being a boy and trapped as a girl to the outside world.

I used to pray to God every night to change me back to being a boy...I would have bouts of this dispair right up until I started the hormones, then it left me.

I know the feeeling and I should think Ms Venus here does too.

 

[Gi_Venus]

If you are just natural about it and matter of fact, and just be a woman that you are , not inventing a female manner as such, then its fine ..those that start putting on some odd new almost drag version of being female freak people out, like a transman being overtly "hello mate" and to macho before his voice has broken !

A fvriedn who is MTF just softend her voiuce and wore clothes she normally did that she was comfortable in and as the changes came, slowly built up a wardrobe of female attire, and no one noticed !..freinds and family after a year said thats the way she always was to them !...it felt natural and not a forced and the transition wrked very well for her.

All my best .... its a BIG learning curve.

Jason

Thank you Jason, my family is too conservative I have no doubt as to their reaction but your friend used that same strategy that I plan on using......to allow for gradual change......most stories I have heard are of the nightmarish quality where all is lost because they tried to change to quickly, smiling, your friends story is one of the most positive I have heard.......my theory is that they made it too sudden and tried to force it..... I know after all those years of living falsely I am anxious to get on with it.....but....it is just not my life to consider, for now it will be slow change......I shall be "odd" to those around me but I shall not out myself until the time is right maybe never.

Gi

 

[Gi_Venus]

Hey Tymless...I think anyoine who is trans can relate to the "I vried myself to sleep" i would do that every night when i was a child as i felt such dispair at being a boy and trapped as a girl to the outside world.

I used to pray to God every night to change me back to being a boy...I would have bouts of this dispair right up until I started the hormones, then it left me.

I know the feeeling and I should think Ms Venus here does too.

You had a healthier view of it in your youth, mine own was a thing of self loathing, I did not like being male with all the feelings and such so when the hormones surged I was very unhappy. In my case I would not allow myself to even think of the reasons for my unhappiness because I knew what my parents would think, so for me it induced a lot of self conflict, denial, aversion, self hate......the only times I felt right was when I acted as a woman and of course that was not allowed in my environment.. The false male bravado to attempt bonding with males.....all felt wrong.....Women sensed something different in me....so I did not experiment much there......a chaotic and lost time. I did finally start seeing a therapist and was able to sort out other aspects of my life......but even then I could not confront myself. I am sorry I did not mean to go on so long. It is finally at this stage of my life that I can see where I should have been all along. Denial can prolong one's angst. Laughing.....I should have said yes I do know that feeling of despair.
Tymeless be true to your nature.

Gi

 

[Tymeless]

i pray nightly to wake up as a female i again don't hate my maleness what i hate is the expectations that come with the male body that are not me. Just as much of me is female as is male but i feel my body is wrong and as such i feel wrong when in large groups etc because i feel i have to hide the true me which is tiffany which is a very girlish tomboy!

 

[Gi_Venus]

i pray nightly to wake up as a female i again don't hate my maleness what i hate is the expectations that come with the male body that are not me. Just as much of me is female as is male but i feel my body is wrong and as such i feel wrong when in large groups etc because i feel i have to hide the true me which is tiffany which is a very girlish tomboy!

((((Tymeless)))) Awww, you just gave a very good description of how I felt about myself. I am not 100% in my definition of self as a woman, but part of that is not allowing myself to explore being myself in that role to determine that. Denial is a powerful thing, in my case the knowledge of rejection in my homophobic environment is a very powerful manipulation as to my aspirations. In other words I denied myself experimentation for safety sake. I have not lived as myself and have suffered because of it. I would suggest placing yourself in a favorable environment to be yourself if possible.
I would do this for myself but for a child involved. So for me I am secretly transitioning physically and transitioning personality wise semi-openly, which for me, being gentle and affectionate to begin with, is not that great of a change except I get to do more fem things....grinning..I like that. Everyone asks why I am growing my hair long....I just smile.
You have my IMing right? You can talk to me anytime I am online.

Gi

 

[Tymeless]

i had grown my hair for 11 months i just got it cut to go on family vacation and boy was that a mistake if i learned anything from this whole family vacation is that doing something that makes me unhappy to make someone else happy is never the way to go i was miserable for 2 weeks trying to live up to the male expectation that is me and trust me a family vacation in vegas and san fransisco is no easy thing to do when u would definately prefer shopping just like the girls but are still closeted that u are a woman and not ready to reveal that to the fam.

 

[TransJason]

Also remember that as an MTF once you start taking hormones your hair will stop growing...its a side effect. Hence why you see many transwomen with wigs.

If I were you I would grow it again, then start the hormones but never do this "on the quiet"....you have to tell your partner. if you dont your whole world will fall apart when they realies whats happen and they will feel betrayed as you didnt trust them enough to confide.

Best way is the direct way, a real good chat on your own with them, on a weekend away. start with "i love" you, and then tell them what its been like from childhood....bring them in, an dmake them part of it.They will of cousre be shocked, and confused, but honesty is the best policy if you want to be you and be free.

if it goes pear shaped at least you are still in control....its better than than not telling them. Even if you seperate for a while, many do and come back again.

You have to REALLY be desperate for transition, if not then hold back and wait.

Your sexuality isnt the same as your gender so explain the difference.

Many people have done it before you and there are support groups out there, which I recommend you join for psychological back up.

Good luck