Bunny's Stuffie Corner

[cascadiabound]

Know that I'm wishing you the best and I believe you've got a good head on your shoulders...
You'll make the right decision!

I concur.

I wish I had insight to help you solve this dilemma... just know that I have confidence that you'll make a good decision.

 

[Purple_Fronds]

So I have a work dilemma.

I am working independently and also for a company that is not busy at all. (Been there for over a month and just now only hit the payout minimum.)

There is another company that almost certainly has to be at least somewhat busier who wants me to fill out an application and interview with them.

This other place has a 25 hour minimum for part-time, which is fine. You do, however, have to keep a schedule and deal with a fucking chatroom (neither of which you have to do at my current place, and neither of which I am particularly fond of--the last place that I left had a chat that made me cry regularly because it was so busy and full of time-wasters).

I need some more money. The company I'm with now requires 30 hours a week. The company that wants me to interview with them requires 25. Realistically, there's no way I can do both because I wouldn't be allowed to do them at the same time, and the sleep problems make it impossible for me to manage to stay up long enough to work them separately. Whichever one I choose, I'll still be able to do my independent stuff.

I don't really wanna leave the place I'm with, but I'm also not an idiot. I'm not making enough money. I don't want to give up the freedom to make my own schedule and also not have to do a chat, but I know there would be more money at that company.

I don't have to make a decision immediately or anything. Just trying to figure out what to do. If anyone has any insight, I would love to hear it.

As others said, you ultimately are the one that knows best and you should trust your gut. One thing I always advice people though is to spend some time thinking and imaging where you want to be in a few years time. This is not a fantasizing exercise it should be rooted with both optimism and realism, after all for myself I’m not going to magically become doctor. Once you’ve done this it of course can change but it will provide a different view point, after all the direction to your goals are seldom straight. Switching to earn more money is sound, but balance that with the idea of if it brings you closer to your goal. Anyway I hope this helps and I wish you the best of luck.

 

[BiBunny]

Thanks, y'all! I really appreciate your help. I'm gonna think on it a few days to try and figure out what would be best to do.

Going back to the stitch and bitch tonight. Taking hand embroidery instead of crochet this time because I think it'll be easier to handle and transport. I'm really looking forward to it and hoping maybe someone besides me and the owners will be there this time!

 

[Boat1]

Thanks, y'all! I really appreciate your help. I'm gonna think on it a few days to try and figure out what would be best to do.

Going back to the stitch and bitch tonight. Taking hand embroidery instead of crochet this time because I think it'll be easier to handle and transport. I'm really looking forward to it and hoping maybe someone besides me and the owners will be there this time!

Have fun!
I went to several "Fly Tying" events at a local sporting goods shop (mainly bicycle) and had a great time!

 

[BiBunny]

Ok, so I think I've decided to wait until straits get a little more dire before I apply at the other company. The possibility of burnout--because they require both instant messaging AND a chatroom-- is high, and I don't want to walk away from yet another place because I can't handle it.

I'm currently looking at some lower-paying places where all you do is answer the phone. No marketing, no email, no interaction with the dudes outside of calls. I may decide against that, too, but a busyish, lower-paying place with no strings attached (and few minimum login hours) would probably work better for me right now.

The stitch and bitch last night was, honestly, not great. If that had been my first visit, I probably would not go back. There were these people there doing a new moon "ritual" that kind of overtook the stitch and bitch and ended with me a captive audience to a tarot card reading because they were all sitting on the floor front of the exit, and I couldn't figure out how to leave politely without stepping on someone.

However, the owner is still great, and I intend to go back again and hope that was just some weird one-off thing.

It is 6:40 pm. I have been up approximately 5 hours. It's all I can do to hold my eyes open. (I have had 5 caffeine pills and a cup of coffee today, for the record it. Without all that, I'd no doubt be unconscious right now.)

This is so ridiculous. I'll be extremely happy when my appointment comes, and I can beg for Provigil or Xywav or anything that might help this insanity.

 

[BiBunny]

Not much going on in the Stuffie Corner at the moment. My mom came and helped me finish cleaning my house. My dryer crapped out, then was fixed, then crapped out again, but the guy came back again and appears to have fixed it for real this time.

I'm thinking of going to a community meeting Friday at the same metaphysical shop where they do the stitch and bitch. It's probably gonna depend on where the financial situation stands at that point, but I'm considering going.

My mental health appointment is a week from today. My mood is basically fine, but I intend to bring up the excessive daytime sleepiness problem there and hope they can help me with it.

And that's about all that's happening here. Just working and trying to get by.

 

[BiBunny]

Going to the community meeting tonight, mostly because I want an excuse to get out of the house. I'm not really sure what goes on at these kinds of things, but I guess I'm about to find out, lol.

I have dishes to deal with, laundry to fold, a refrigerator to clean out, and blogs to write, just to name a few. And what am I doing? Sitting here loom knitting, lol.

 

[cascadiabound]

Going to the community meeting tonight, mostly because I want an excuse to get out of the house. I'm not really sure what goes on at these kinds of things, but I guess I'm about to find out, lol.

I have dishes to deal with, laundry to fold, a refrigerator to clean out, and blogs to write, just to name a few. And what am I doing? Sitting here loom knitting, lol.

How did it go?
And loom knitting is an awesome way to spend your time.

 

[BiBunny]

How did it go?
And loom knitting is an awesome way to spend your time.

Oh, it was fine. Only lasted about an hour. Got some info on some stuff that's going on, protests, economic boycotts, etc. Some helpful resources, too.

The owner emailed me last night (I didn't get it until this morning because I didn't check my email until then) to thank me for coming. That made my day.

 

[Azuldrgon]

https://ibb.co/Q3w7DFmk

new stuffie

 

[BiBunny]

https://ibb.co/Q3w7DFmk

new stuffie

Soooooooo cute, OMG!!!!!!

I love stuffies!

 

[Sol41]

https://ibb.co/84jMJHvD

Christmas present from my brother. I call him Charlie cause I grew up watching filmcow xD

 

[BiBunny]

https://ibb.co/84jMJHvD

Christmas present from my brother. I call him Charlie cause I grew up watching filmcow xD

LOVE!

 

[BiBunny]

So it turned out that today's appointment was actually a telehealth therapy appointment. I jumped through all the necessary hoops so that they would set me up to talk to the psychiatrist in a few weeks. (I want my Adderall, dammit.) But that doesn't help me with the immediate problem, which is the excessive sleepiness.

So I called the sliding scale clinic and made an appointment with a regular doctor. I'll be able to see her on Friday, and hopefully, she can hook me up with something to help this problem.

Everything else is just chugging along as usual. Hope everyone else is doing well!

 

[Qky75]

So it turned out that today's appointment was actually a telehealth therapy appointment. I jumped through all the necessary hoops so that they would set me up to talk to the psychiatrist in a few weeks. (I want my Adderall, dammit.) But that doesn't help me with the immediate problem, which is the excessive sleepiness.

So I called the sliding scale clinic and made an appointment with a regular doctor. I'll be able to see her on Friday, and hopefully, she can hook me up with something to help this problem.

Everything else is just chugging along as usual. Hope everyone else is doing well!

Jumping through the hoops to get what we need is the necessary evil. I don't like talking to the therapist. I like the medication results.... therefore dont Q...I put my right foot in. Nooooo I put my right foot out. * Sigh * I put my right foot in and I shake it all about. F M L I do the hokey pokey and I turn myself around. %$@# That's what it's all about. I hate this game.

 

[BiBunny]

Hi, guys.

My mom had a minor surgery on her eyelids today. She's fine, just has two black eyes now. I actually didn't go with her to have the surgery, which I felt bad about, but she insisted she didn't need me to come all the way down for that. She had her aunt drive her. I feel bad, but I'm going down there tomorrow morning to pick up some things she got for me and mostly to check on her.

Then, tomorrow afternoon, I have the doctor's appointment that I hope will be productive. I also hope the meds will be cheap, lol.

After that, I'm gonna come home, shower, see what time it is, maybe fold this mountain of clean laundry and put it away, and then go to the stitch and bitch at 6.

So busy day ahead, but hopefully, it'll be a good one in spite of it.

 

[BiBunny]

My mother is doing fine. Went down there yesterday, checked on her, picked up the stuff she got for me. Went to the doctor, where I was not given any meds and told to get a C-Pap machine, like I have the money for that. Luckily, I have a friend who's going to give me one, but you'd think being a patient at the sliding scale clinic with no insurance would clue the doctor in that I don't have money for a fucking C-Pap machine!

Anyway, I'm going to pick up the one my friend in Huntsville is giving me next Sunday.

Went to the stitch and bitch. There were a couple of college kids there, the owner, and me. The college kids left early (and they were very cool), so the owner told me about a bunch of drama that's going on amongst the various small businesses downtown. It's amazing how childishly adults can act!

Anyway, that's all the info I have now. Hopefully, I can get the machine and start using it soon.

 

[Purple_Fronds]

So it turned out that today's appointment was actually a telehealth therapy appointment. I jumped through all the necessary hoops so that they would set me up to talk to the psychiatrist in a few weeks. (I want my Adderall, dammit.) But that doesn't help me with the immediate problem, which is the excessive sleepiness.

So I called the sliding scale clinic and made an appointment with a regular doctor. I'll be able to see her on Friday, and hopefully, she can hook me up with something to help this problem.

Everything else is just chugging along as usual. Hope everyone else is doing well!

Glad you’re staying focused on your health

 

[BiBunny]

I woke up less than 4 hours ago. I have had 6 200-mg caffeine pills already. I'm already about to have to take a nap because I cannot function anymore.

I need about $1200 in 8 days to pay all my bills. I can't stay awake long enough to do it. I'm probably not even going to get the payout minimum this week, so I don't know how I'll get to Huntsville to get that stupid cpap machine the doctor insists I get before she'll help me pharmaceutically. (Most of my bloodwork was normal, except my A1C, which I fully expect I'll be lectured about, even though that's not exactly the problem right now.)

I'm in tears. I can't keep doing this.

 

[BiBunny]

In other news, my Daddy's liver is crapping out, surprising no one, and he also has some kind of immunodeficiency, also surprising no one, since at last count, he'd had Covid, I think, eight different times.

 

[BiBunny]

The Universe helped me out. A couple of people sent money for blogs today, so I can get my meds and go fetch the cpap machine on Sunday. Please, Universe, let it help!

 

[BiBunny]

I was able to view the doctor's notes from last week's visit in my patient portal today. She says I have this, which, while not exactly flattering, is at least some kind of answer. (She did not tell me this directly.)

I guess that was why the insistence on the cpap. It does give me a little more hope that the damn thing might actually help, though, as the Wiki article says it treats the problem by itself in more than 50% of patients. And the oversaturation of carbon dioxide in the blood is the reason I've been walking around feeling drugged most of the time.

We'll see how it goes after I go get the machine Sunday. I'm hoping it'll help, and then I can also get my Adderall again at the psych appointment on April 2nd. If I could stay awake and have Adderall to keep me pointed in the right direction, I could accomplish things like a normal human being.

On a serious note, even if I could afford it, I refuse to have weight loss surgery to help this. I will literally die on that hill. It's barbaric.

On a less serious note, it's kinda funny that they originally named the syndrome after a Dickens character. (I love 19th century novels, and Dickens ranks up there as one of my favorite writers.) Again, not flattering, but kind of amusing. Sometimes, you have to laugh.

 

[FreckledSprite]

I was able to view the doctor's notes from last week's visit in my patient portal today. She says I have this, which, while not exactly flattering, is at least some kind of answer. (She did not tell me this directly.)

I guess that was why the insistence on the cpap. It does give me a little more hope that the damn thing might actually help, though, as the Wiki article says it treats the problem by itself in more than 50% of patients. And the oversaturation of carbon dioxide in the blood is the reason I've been walking around feeling drugged most of the time.

We'll see how it goes after I go get the machine Sunday. I'm hoping it'll help, and then I can also get my Adderall again at the psych appointment on April 2nd. If I could stay awake and have Adderall to keep me pointed in the right direction, I could accomplish things like a normal human being.

On a serious note, even if I could afford it, I refuse to have weight loss surgery to help this. I will literally die on that hill. It's barbaric.

On a less serious note, it's kinda funny that they originally named the syndrome after a Dickens character. (I love 19th century novels, and Dickens ranks up there as one of my favorite writers.) Again, not flattering, but kind of amusing. Sometimes, you have to laugh.

I love that you got answers!

 

[BiBunny]

I love that you got answers!

Me, too. I just hope it's the *right* answer, lol.

 

[BiBunny]

Cpap machine acquired.

I only slept about 4 hours last night, so I'm going to take a (hopefully brief) nap with it on and then get up and try to work. Hopefully, I'll feel better than I do right now!