I feel extremely blah today...
One of the worst feelings in the world to me is when you share so much of yourself with someone and then they shit all over you. Any of you ever feel that way?
One of the other worst feelings is that sense of "unworthiness" that only a select few can bring out in someone with a normally decent level of self esteem...
Now imagine... a person capable of making you feel BOTH of those things... "Blah" comes to mind... for me anyway...
*sigh*
I have tried to shake the "blah"... but it does not seem to want to go away and so once again my wanderlust hath returned... I have spent most of my day contemplating where I would like to move, to save up money and then move from THAT place to some foreign country and die in a blissful culture shock for all eternity.
I have worked out, eaten, written a song, taken a bath, sang, played my online computer game, attempted calling an old friend who wasn't there, tried to call some current friends... all of whom have plans tonight, checked my email... I am running out of ideas... all suggestions much appreciated... I am seriously considering going out for a night on the town all by myself... but then, that would be stupid b/c around here that just isn't safe. So really, as you can see, all I could do, as pathetic as it may seem, was come to lit... thanks for reading.
*little wave*
One of the worst feelings in the world to me is when you share so much of yourself with someone and then they shit all over you. Any of you ever feel that way?
One of the other worst feelings is that sense of "unworthiness" that only a select few can bring out in someone with a normally decent level of self esteem...
Now imagine... a person capable of making you feel BOTH of those things... "Blah" comes to mind... for me anyway...
*sigh*
I have tried to shake the "blah"... but it does not seem to want to go away and so once again my wanderlust hath returned... I have spent most of my day contemplating where I would like to move, to save up money and then move from THAT place to some foreign country and die in a blissful culture shock for all eternity.
I have worked out, eaten, written a song, taken a bath, sang, played my online computer game, attempted calling an old friend who wasn't there, tried to call some current friends... all of whom have plans tonight, checked my email... I am running out of ideas... all suggestions much appreciated... I am seriously considering going out for a night on the town all by myself... but then, that would be stupid b/c around here that just isn't safe. So really, as you can see, all I could do, as pathetic as it may seem, was come to lit... thanks for reading.
*little wave*