Appealing?

[Kitschshaman]

oh my ...

dear lady you should do whatever it is in life that you have more energy after you've done it than when you began. According to Joseph Campbell, that is your bliss and what you are intended to do. Let that thought settle on your mind for a while. Don't try to overthink it, just let the thought drift along and after a while the answer will come. Don't mean to get all mystic on you, not really my forte, but sometimes a little self-exploration (yess, that too, but that's not what I'm talking about NOW) is a good thing and it's not a good thing to rush that.
pardon the epistle, keep coming and keep writing.

 

[txconfidential]

Sweet Lady,

I was going to bed , when storm came up. So was checking what is going on . When saw your smile

Hope you will stay... once a week ..month.. to chat and share... btw I do have index if you like a copy, just drop me a note.

hugs kisses

fred

You are so kind and thoughtful, Fred. I appreciate all of your effort - not just for me, but for so many of the lovely ladies here on Lit.

I also appreciate how you respect my decision to NOT have an index posted on my thread. Someone here earlier (or in a PM?) mentioned that my thread attracts a nice group of men. I think it does, too - intelligent, caring, thoughtful. I don't know why, but I feel that had I indexed this thread - I probably would have not have enjoyed the interaction as much as I have.

You're a treasure, Fred.

Hey TX
That smile...helen of Troy comes to mind. What a warm picture. Thank you. Love your musings and I hope they never stop. Beauty to boot but I'll take a sexy mind over anything else. Thanks for making me smile...just by smiling

SAMMYIAMMY!!!!! I haven't seen you around in ages. So nice to see that you are around.

Helen of Troy ... hmmm, wonder what destruction and havoc my smile will wreak.

Wow... that smile is one heck of a Saturday treat!!

Thanks, MrAnyGuy. Happy to share it.

beauty was meant to be shared , thats why you have so much !

Softey, this is one of the nicest comments you've made - thank you.

Its always great to see you smile

Aww, thanks, Deltha. I'm glad you think so, because I think it's great to smile. Works out well, no?

dear lady you should do whatever it is in life that you have more energy after you've done it than when you began. According to Joseph Campbell, that is your bliss and what you are intended to do. Let that thought settle on your mind for a while. Don't try to overthink it, just let the thought drift along and after a while the answer will come. Don't mean to get all mystic on you, not really my forte, but sometimes a little self-exploration (yess, that too, but that's not what I'm talking about NOW) is a good thing and it's not a good thing to rush that.
pardon the epistle, keep coming and keep writing.

Oh KSHaman! You certainly hit the nail on the head on this one. I have a history of letting ego, obligation and pragmatism play too large a role in too many choices in life.

I've been talking to a good friend about this, and he has been very generous and encouraging in trying to get me to see beyond that and find what you call "my bliss".

I'm sure it's out there - it may be what I'm doing, if I restructure it (and myself) a bit. But, I think what I'm doing doesn't have enough interaction for me. And there is often such a long interval between my work and seeing the results - it's anticlimatic. (I like instant gratification).

So, yes. I'm keeping those options open as well. Even actively exploring alternatives while trying to figure out how to make this work.

Ugh - that being said, I feel I should get back to work.

Happy Labor Day, all!

 

[sammyIammy]

Long time

Yes I've been a stranger for a while but you're just so damn compelling I had to stop by and say hello. Best advice I've ever been given is "you have to find your bliss," so I second the sentiment.

Sincerely,

Bliss

 

[kdb]

It been a while

TxCon,

I have not checked in for a while, so much reading needs to be done to get current. I do hope all is well with you and I see you are looking as fantasic as ever.

 

[BackInYourArms]

.....

 

[txconfidential]

Yes I've been a stranger for a while but you're just so damn compelling I had to stop by and say hello. Best advice I've ever been given is "you have to find your bliss," so I second the sentiment.

Sincerely,

Bliss

Well, if you see my "bliss" while you're out and about, tell it to hightail itself to Texas.

TxCon,

I have not checked in for a while, so much reading needs to be done to get current. I do hope all is well with you and I see you are looking as fantasic as ever.

Good to see you KDB! Thanks for the compliment. Hope the reading isn't too boring.

Get the earthquake too, girl. Then the earth really will move for you.

You deserve that. Hell, everyone deserves that. It's such a shame, to my mind, that so many people don't respect themselves enough and settle for second best because they don't think they deserve better.*

*and by better, I mean "more compatible"

YES! The earthquake too.

You know - I wonder.... maybe it's not a matter of respecting themselves. Maybe it's simply a case of throwing in the towel so they don't have to be alone.

I "do" alone, but I don't do it well. At one point one of my jobs involved some wonderful, luxurious adventure travel. And since it was for work, of course my husband didn't come along. Though I saw some magnificent sites and met some wonderful people - I realized then that what I enjoyed most was sharing the experience with someone I loved. The people I traveled with were fun, we laughed a lot and got along well - but it's not the same. After the trip, we all went our separate ways - and without being able to revisit the memories - they soon faded away.

Guess I'm hyperfocused on that topic - memories. The shared experiences that add depth and meaning to relationships. But without the rest --- it doesn't seem like creating the memories would be worth it.

It may be a chicken and egg situation... but I don't think so.

 

[sammyIammy]

Bliss

Bliss is out there...but you never know what form it will take. Now a little Sammy might take some of the edge off! Wait, little and Sammy don't sound so good together

 

[Kitschshaman]

Good to see you ...

I'm afraid I did get all mystical on you, didn't I? Couldn't sleep tonight, so I'm staying up to watch the sunrise. Finding your bliss isn't as easy as old Joe would have you believe. I've been looking for mine for a while now, find bits and pieces of it every now and again. Sometimes I find that when I look back it seems I was in the middle of my bliss but it didn't seem like it at the time for some reason. Perhaps because I was looking for the proverbial greener grass and not living in the moment. Like trying to make love to a woman but you can tell her mind is elsewhere, it's just not the same when we're distracted from what's happening around us and to us.
Pardon the excessive philosophizing.
Hmm... instant gratification, hmm? That thought and your smile bring some reallllly interesting visuals to mind.
take care,

 

[purfecthost]

Hope all is well with you sweetie

 

[ohverbatum7]

I "do" alone, but I don't do it well.

Hi Ms TX,
I read again your explosive vesuvious of come post. (Page 6) It had some effect on me. I can envisage your fingers flying over the keys by the tone of your words. Do you feel a different person since you lobbed that handgrenade at all of us.
Wishing you well.
Alex

 

[the_apocalypse]

Hiya tx

Just wanted to drop by and wish you a wonderful Monday.

Hope everything is good with you.

 

[Karamazov]

Great photos. You are a walking playground ;0)

 

[labelfireball]

Love coming back to this thread and seeing pics I haven't seen yet

 

[raphy]

YES! The earthquake too.

You know - I wonder.... maybe it's not a matter of respecting themselves. Maybe it's simply a case of throwing in the towel so they don't have to be alone.

I suspect the two are related - As you put it, throwing in the towel. Settling for second best. For me, at least, that's directly related to how much I value my self-worth.

I "do" alone, but I don't do it well. At one point one of my jobs involved some wonderful, luxurious adventure travel. And since it was for work, of course my husband didn't come along. Though I saw some magnificent sites and met some wonderful people - I realized then that what I enjoyed most was sharing the experience with someone I loved. The people I traveled with were fun, we laughed a lot and got along well - but it's not the same. After the trip, we all went our separate ways - and without being able to revisit the memories - they soon faded away.

Guess I'm hyperfocused on that topic - memories. The shared experiences that add depth and meaning to relationships. But without the rest --- it doesn't seem like creating the memories would be worth it.

It may be a chicken and egg situation... but I don't think so.

It's obviously different for everybody - but I'd definitely agree that a shared experience can be greater than one experienced alone. William Gibson and Michael Swanwick co-wrote an excellent short story called 'Dogfight', about a man who betrays his two best friends in order to win an arcade game competition, and then at the end, realizes that he has no one to share the victory with. It's very bittersweet.

He needed to celebrate. To get drunk or stoned and talk it up, going over the victory time and again, contradicting himself, making up details, laughing and bragging. A starry old night like this called for big talk.

But standing there with all of Jackman's silent and vast and empty around him, he realized suddenly that he had nobody left to tell it to.

Nobody at all.

But at the same time, I'm torn. I'm a pretty solitary person, despite having a huge number of friends to call on to do things with. I'm not entirely sure how that works. I definitely see your point. I think my self-sufficient and solitary nature probably biases me on this issue.

 

[ohverbatum7]

Mmmmmm... interesting night.

I started out disappointed because I had missed the chance to connect with someone very dear to me. Sigh.

So, with an unexpected hour or so of free time on my hands, I remembered that a meteor shower (Geminids) was taking place last night.

I live in the country - low light pollution, lots of stars. We can even see the Milky Way. So, after the rest of the household went to bed, I grabbed a heavy quilt and headed for the lounge chair outside.

The temperature was absolutely perfect and the meteor shower was magical. As I watched, my mind wandered. As my mind wandered, my hands wandered.

It wasn't long before my imagination was full of memories, hopes and fantasies. And it wasn't long until my top and pants were on the ground next to me and I relished the cool air on my exposed skin.

Mmmmm... my nipples contracted instantly, without the slightest touch from me. I don't know if it was the cold - or the thoughts and images in my head. It was probably a combination - the cool air, my warm hands... remembering the touch of my first lover... anticipating the feel of my next.

And through it all... shooting stars.

And as I lay under the stars, I settled on an image - not a memory this time. But an image of what can be... what will be. Images shared and created together... connection, heat, passion and abandon. A mix of soft, tender lovemaking and all-oot-gasping-for breath-and-holding-on-for-dear-life fucking.

I couldn't believe how quickly I had become aroused... how hot and wet I was. Mmmm, - legs wide... fingers stroking, caressing, and thrusting... a cool breeze blew on my hot, wet, exposed lips... and triggered the most delicious, rolling, convulsing orgasm I've felt in some time. It seemed to last forever.

Since that experience and the possibilities that lie before me would not have been possible without this thread - I thought it only appropriate that I share it here.

xoxo
Tx

Surely this Ms Tx is you at your most poetic, a thousand men, and not a few women must have had an orgasmic experience when they first read this post.
I hope you don't mindthat I have posted it in full, but in your absence I have re-read some of your earlier stuff and found it even better on the second reading.

 

[frank1970]

Hello TX! Just wanted to drop in and say Hi! Hope you are doing well!

 

[txconfidential]

Bliss is out there...but you never know what form it will take. Now a little Sammy might take some of the edge off! Wait, little and Sammy don't sound so good together

Ha ha!

Yes, I'm sure bliss is out there. But as I've complicated some aspects of my life, I don't feel completely open to blissful possibilities at this point in time.

So for now I am focusing on other areas of my life. Rewarding, yes - just not necessarily "bliss inducing".

I'm afraid I did get all mystical on you, didn't I? Couldn't sleep tonight, so I'm staying up to watch the sunrise. Finding your bliss isn't as easy as old Joe would have you believe. I've been looking for mine for a while now, find bits and pieces of it every now and again. Sometimes I find that when I look back it seems I was in the middle of my bliss but it didn't seem like it at the time for some reason. Perhaps because I was looking for the proverbial greener grass and not living in the moment. Like trying to make love to a woman but you can tell her mind is elsewhere, it's just not the same when we're distracted from what's happening around us and to us.
Pardon the excessive philosophizing.
Hmm... instant gratification, hmm? That thought and your smile bring some reallllly interesting visuals to mind.
take care,

No pardon neccessary for the philosophizing. I enjoy hearing about others' experiences. Makes me feel not quite so alone in the experience.

Hope all is well with you sweetie

Thanks PH. Yes, all is as well as can be expected. I have been busy with work and travel. I'm thinking those are the best areas for me to focus right now.

I "do" alone, but I don't do it well.

Hi Ms TX,
I read again your explosive vesuvious of come post. (Page 6) It had some effect on me. I can envisage your fingers flying over the keys by the tone of your words. Do you feel a different person since you lobbed that handgrenade at all of us.
Wishing you well.
Alex

Do I feel different? Absolutely.

I was married at the time, living with my husband, hadn't had sex in 11 years and was in the midst of pulling my head out of the sand back then. Before my first post here, I really felt like it was sink or swim in terms of saving myself. Now please - don't take that in the overly-dramatic life-or-death pills-and-vodka kind of way. No.

I was just at a point where I had to decide if I was going to resign myself to being nothing more than a live-in nurse for the next ... 40 years (?) of my life. I had sspent the last 11 years burying aspects of myself bit by bit, piece by piece. And I was losing myself.

I lost my husband that way - bit by bit. First the physical - no intercourse, no activities like hiking, dancing, etc. we couldn't even hold hands walking down the street. Then I lost intimacy as he lost the will to connect emotionally, to converse, to engage with me. With each step, I lowered my expectations and did my best to turn off the parts of me that craved those activities and actions.

And by turning off those parts - I was losing myself. And I remember thinking - before my first post - about who I used to be. How different I was then. Full of joy, life, sensuality - always looking forward to the next adventure. And I as at risk of losing all that made me who I once was. I wanted "me" back.

That post was in the midst of me rediscovering all of those aspects that I had shut down. It was intoxicating and thrilling to realize that - not only were they still there, but men (some anyway) actually responded to them!

I truly didn't expect that.

And now? Now, I'm living alone for the first time in my life. I'm wondering if / when/ how I'll find a combination of location/environment/people that feels like home (while wishing I could be a nomad). I'm revelling in a glorious reintroduction to my sexuality (Yay!) and lamenting that it can't be more. And after so many years of giving my mind priority, I am reeling from giving reign to my heart.

Well "reeling" is probably too strong a word. But still... you get the idea.

So, yeah. I feel very different than I did then. And I'm sure a few months from now, I'll feel different again.

 

[removed021712]

Wow, lookachoo!

 

[txconfidential]

Hiya tx

Just wanted to drop by and wish you a wonderful Monday.

Hope everything is good with you.

Thanks Apocalypse! I love when you stop by. I appreciate the well wishes. I spent much of my Monday in airports and on highways. It wa a good trip, but too short. But then, I think every trip is too short.

Great photos. You are a walking playground ;0)

Ha ha! Thanks, Karamazov. A slight injury is making me a limping and lurching playground right now, but it's getting better, so yay! Glad you like hte photos.

Love coming back to this thread and seeing pics I haven't seen yet

Uh oh. Given that my camera has been gathering dust lately - I fear you are in for disappointment. Sorry.

It's obviously different for everybody - but I'd definitely agree that a shared experience can be greater than one experienced alone. William Gibson and Michael Swanwick co-wrote an excellent short story called 'Dogfight', about a man who betrays his two best friends in order to win an arcade game competition, and then at the end, realizes that he has no one to share the victory with. It's very bittersweet.

He needed to celebrate. To get drunk or stoned and talk it up, going over the victory time and again, contradicting himself, making up details, laughing and bragging. A starry old night like this called for big talk.

But standing there with all of Jackman's silent and vast and empty around him, he realized suddenly that he had nobody left to tell it to.

Nobody at all.

But at the same time, I'm torn. I'm a pretty solitary person, despite having a huge number of friends to call on to do things with. I'm not entirely sure how that works. I definitely see your point. I think my self-sufficient and solitary nature probably biases me on this issue.

That sounds like a great story. Loved the passage you shared.

It's odd - I'm starting to think that my self-image and my actual-self are two different people.

I always considered myself self-sufficient and solitary. But I've discovered that I am actually very social. And when I'm out - there are times when I reach out to share a thought or feeling - and ugh! it's terribly frustrating that the one I want to share it with isn't there. Someday I'll figure out how I want to handle that...

Surely this Ms Tx is you at your most poetic, a thousand men, and not a few women must have had an orgasmic experience when they first read this post.
I hope you don't mindthat I have posted it in full, but in your absence I have re-read some of your earlier stuff and found it even better on the second reading.

Ahhh - such a wonderful memory. And it seems so long ago. Funny - I never imagined that night that just a month later, I would be in the arms of the "dear friend" I missed connecting with that night.

Hello TX! Just wanted to drop in and say Hi! Hope you are doing well!

Hi Frank! Thanks for stopping by. All is well, thanks. Seems a few of the comments here have brought out my pensive side. Maybe I should go explore my dinner options before I break into full out sappy mode.

 

[txconfidential]

Wow, lookachoo!

NO! Look at YOU! LOVE the avatar. RAWR!

 

[morninwould]

Every time you go, away. . .

 

[VanGogh66]

Dropping by to say hello Tx.

 

[LuckyBuckYT]

Hi Tx! My first time popping in.

Just signed up here a couple of days ago, and I'm LOVING it here... Especially nice to see your pics; your body is very VERY "appealing" to me, and that smile of yours is dynamite!!

I'll be back!

 

[HeyAll]

RE: The previous page

You really need your own reality show or something...lol

Great to see you back and I hope you're doing well.

 

[txconfidential]

Every time you go, away. . .

Do I take a piece of you with me?

(Yeah, cheesey, I know - but now the song is stuck in my head.)

Dropping by to say hello Tx.

Hello to you Vangogh.

Hi Tx! My first time popping in.

Just signed up here a couple of days ago, and I'm LOVING it here... Especially nice to see your pics; your body is very VERY "appealing" to me, and that smile of yours is dynamite!!

I'll be back!

Ha ha! The "honeymoon" phase of Lit is SO much fun. Enjoy!

RE: The previous page

You really need your own reality show or something...lol

Great to see you back and I hope you're doing well.

NOOOOOO!!!

I SO don't need my own reality show. #1 it would be more fun to watch paint dry. Much of my life goes on inside my head. Too much of it.

#2 I suspect that my life really isn't much different than any other recently divorced 40-something year old woman's life. Well - except that I don't have children. And - well, most of them haven't posted naughty photos of themselves on the internet.

Speaking of posting naughty photos on the internet...