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[mayflowers]

Hello Literotica. I am a young woman in college at 20 years of age. I feel my sexuality is very immature. How I mean that is I do not enjoy sexual intercourse or getting oral sex. I have enjoyed giving oral sex if I am really into the person. Currently I have a boyfriend with benefits. I really like him as a friend and in order not to lose him we have sex now and again. I'm ok with it, but our relationship will never be more than what it is. Going back to early childhood my father was verbally abusive and I can remember being aged 6 and him calling me a whore and a slut. He eventually left us which is good. However, ever since I entered puberty I have fantasized about older men seeing me naked and complimenting me. Not like a strip club thing, more like a relationship where he is a friend or mentor and he loves being around me, not even in a dating sense, just two people with a big age difference who like one another. Eventually he shares with me that he has fantasies of seeing me naked like in classy type scenarios. For example walking down a staircase nude and then sitting with him in the living room talking politics. Is there anyone out there who has heard of anything like this? Am I totally messed up?

Jill

 

[talldad1]

Hello Literotica. I am a young woman in college at 20 years of age. I feel my sexuality is very immature. How I mean that is I do not enjoy sexual intercourse or getting oral sex. I have enjoyed giving oral sex if I am really into the person. Currently I have a boyfriend with benefits. I really like him as a friend and in order not to lose him we have sex now and again. I'm ok with it, but our relationship will never be more than what it is. Going back to early childhood my father was verbally abusive and I can remember being aged 6 and him calling me a whore and a slut. He eventually left us which is good. However, ever since I entered puberty I have fantasized about older men seeing me naked and complimenting me. Not like a strip club thing, more like a relationship where he is a friend or mentor and he loves being around me, not even in a dating sense, just two people with a big age difference who like one another. Eventually he shares with me that he has fantasies of seeing me naked like in classy type scenarios. For example walking down a staircase nude and then sitting with him in the living room talking politics. Is there anyone out there who has heard of anything like this? Am I totally messed up?

Jill

No, I don't think this is messed up, there are a few women that I have run across that like the thrill of being exposed to older and attractive men, and having those men want you sexually.

 

[gotfina]

it is not for me to judge if you are messed up. Do you like being the way you are? That`s all that matters. How do you feel about your own image and what do you feel others should or do think of you?

If you think your messed up I would recommend some tony robbins, if you think your fine... go find some older guys

 

[Prince Albert]

Hello Literotica. I am a young woman in college at 20 years of age. I feel my sexuality is very immature. How I mean that is I do not enjoy sexual intercourse or getting oral sex. I have enjoyed giving oral sex if I am really into the person. Currently I have a boyfriend with benefits. I really like him as a friend and in order not to lose him we have sex now and again. I'm ok with it, but our relationship will never be more than what it is. Going back to early childhood my father was verbally abusive and I can remember being aged 6 and him calling me a whore and a slut. He eventually left us which is good. However, ever since I entered puberty I have fantasized about older men seeing me naked and complimenting me. Not like a strip club thing, more like a relationship where he is a friend or mentor and he loves being around me, not even in a dating sense, just two people with a big age difference who like one another. Eventually he shares with me that he has fantasies of seeing me naked like in classy type scenarios. For example walking down a staircase nude and then sitting with him in the living room talking politics. Is there anyone out there who has heard of anything like this? Am I totally messed up?

Jill

Jill you are not messed up; (any more than everybody else is). You do have abandonment issues, some emotional abuse issues. Nothng that makes you "crazy". You seems to ahve a good grip on them, and theydo not appear to afect you life. I fthat starts to happen, then it would be wise to seek professional help.

 

[ChristopherMaxwell]

Bollocks! You're not as touched as you think. We all have scars and squicks. Don't force yourself to do what you dislike or even hate. Just enjoy what gets your knickers wet. Hmm...nice image there.

 

[klippert]

Everyone has a fetish...Yours, a little different than others. I would bet a dime, you could easily find and fulfill your fetish.

 

[5425TVR]

You are not messed up any more than anyone else. What you lack is experience; with experience comes confidence. You have a specific fantasy in mind. Take baby steps toward achieving your fantasy. You are in the perfect location to experiment to find out what you like. There should be a variety of ages of people attending your school. Make trips to the school cafe during lunch to strike up conversations with men you may be interested in. Take it slow. There is NO rush...take your time and do NOT get yourself into a situation you are uncomfortable in. This may be a fantasy for life or the beginnings of a new lifestyle. Good luck!