A Journey In Vulnerability

[DarcyUK777]

What's hiding behind a smile. When something bad is so desperate to take over, and the only shield I have is too pretend everything is fine because if I let my guard down for a second, I could lose months, or years. The face you see, the image, the bright colors, and the sarcasm and sassy comments... It all means nothing. All just a shield. Only a few ever see behind it, and it terrifies me every time someone does. Because even I'm not always sure what they will find.

There is beauty in everything and more over when someone lets there guard down... it's how you're treated when you trust someone that much that really counts... Trust is earned and should never be squandered.

 

[Elgirldani]

There is beauty in everything and more over when someone lets there guard down... it's how you're treated when you trust someone that much that really counts... Trust is earned and should never be squandered.

Thank you for the kind words. Trust isn’t easy for me, but by some miracle I found my person and I trust him 100%.

 

[pj1412]

What's hiding behind a smile. When something bad is so desperate to take over, and the only shield I have is too pretend everything is fine because if I let my guard down for a second, I could lose months, or years. The face you see, the image, the bright colors, and the sarcasm and sassy comments... It all means nothing. All just a shield. Only a few ever see behind it, and it terrifies me every time someone does. Because even I'm not always sure what they will find.

Glad to hear things are going well for you. Very sexy photo

 

[Elgirldani]

Glad to hear things are going well for you. Very sexy photo

Thanks

 

[QuietCanadian]

Holy hell. Damn, so sexy.

 

[Elgirldani]

Holy hell. Damn, so sexy.

Thanks

 

[QuietCanadian]

Thanks

Oh, I believe the thanks are to you!

 

[Elgirldani]

Oh, I believe the thanks are to you!

Then, you’re welcome, I suppose.

 

[tastylover]

*Bump* Happy hump day, hope the weather over there is better than over here

 

[Elgirldani]

*Bump* Happy hump day, hope the weather over there is better than over here

Thanks for the bump and happy hump day to you! The weather is beautiful here, but I’ve been stuck at work all day so haven’t gotten to enjoy it. Yesterday I spent all morning outdoors though and it was perfect!

 

[Elgirldani]

Update

Hi everyone

I know it's been a few days. Life is crazy right now. I have a lot of things happening personally, and I don't have as much down time atm.

I wish I could say it was all good things keeping me busy, but as it goes with life, some of it is fairly shitty. The place where I live(I have decided it's not worth calling it home anymore) is being sold by the relative who owns it with no regard for those of us who live here. I get that it belongs to them and they have the right, but a little warning would have been nice. But anyway, that means that a lot of my time for the foreseeable future will be spent doing prep work on the house so that it's ready to sell. On top of that, I've finally had to acknowledge the fact that I won't be able to afford to go on a big family vacation we had planned for later this year. So it's been stressful, to say the least, and now no vacation to look forward to. But life... What can you do?

But sometimes even life feels like you have enough to deal with and maybe you could use a break. I caught the biggest break when I met my Bear. Everything that used to feel overwhelming and like it would drag me under is manageable now because of him. I still have dark days, but he helps me smile through them. Just goes to show that you never know when a random PM might be from your person, if only you take a chance and answer it, lol.

So anyway, with all of that said, I'm not really sure whether or not I'm going to keep this thread going. I love posting and interacting with you all, but it's definitely on the back burner atm. Hope you all are happy and staying well

 

[EndlessNameless]

Yeah, no notice is a dick move. Then you have to go through the process of sorting out somewhere else to stay, moving, turning on utilities, blahblahblah. It's much easier to manage when you know ahead of time. It will work out though.

 

[Elgirldani]

Yeah, no notice is a dick move. Then you have to go through the process of sorting out somewhere else to stay, moving, turning on utilities, blahblahblah. It's much easier to manage when you know ahead of time. It will work out though.

Yeah, it's a huge mess atm. Of course, we've been living out of boxes since just after Christmas, so I guess technically we have known that long. But the owner has changed her mind approximately 5 times since then, and just in the last week or two hired a realtor and got the process started. But you're right, somehow it will all work out. I hope, lol.

 

[EndlessNameless]

Yeah, it's a huge mess atm. Of course, we've been living out of boxes since just after Christmas, so I guess technically we have known that long. But the owner has changed her mind approximately 5 times since then, and just in the last week or two hired a realtor and got the process started. But you're right, somehow it will all work out. I hope, lol.

Wow, how frustrating. Indecisiveness surely adds to it all. Big decision to sell a house but I think someone should know whether or not they'll finally go through with it. Finding a place can be a real pain.

 

[Elgirldani]

Wow, how frustrating. Indecisiveness surely adds to it all. Big decision to sell a house but I think someone should know whether or not they'll finally go through with it. Finding a place can be a real pain.

Yup. It’s been frustrating. Especially since Other circumstances over the last year or so mad eit so that none of us can really afford traditional housing options. Which is why we lived here. Lol

 

[Hamster]

Prep Work?

And why on God's green Earth should you be doing ANY prep work other than preparing to find new digs? Your landlord, even if you are related doesn't deserve a minute of your time or labor. He left you in the lurch, time to do the same back.

Hi everyone

I know it's been a few days. Life is crazy right now. I have a lot of things happening personally, and I don't have as much down time atm.

I wish I could say it was all good things keeping me busy, but as it goes with life, some of it is fairly shitty. The place where I live(I have decided it's not worth calling it home anymore) is being sold by the relative who owns it with no regard for those of us who live here. I get that it belongs to them and they have the right, but a little warning would have been nice. But anyway, that means that a lot of my time for the foreseeable future will be spent doing prep work on the house so that it's ready to sell. On top of that, I've finally had to acknowledge the fact that I won't be able to afford to go on a big family vacation we had planned for later this year. So it's been stressful, to say the least, and now no vacation to look forward to. But life... What can you do?

But sometimes even life feels like you have enough to deal with and maybe you could use a break. I caught the biggest break when I met my Bear. Everything that used to feel overwhelming and like it would drag me under is manageable now because of him. I still have dark days, but he helps me smile through them. Just goes to show that you never know when a random PM might be from your person, if only you take a chance and answer it, lol.

So anyway, with all of that said, I'm not really sure whether or not I'm going to keep this thread going. I love posting and interacting with you all, but it's definitely on the back burner atm. Hope you all are happy and staying well

 

[Elgirldani]

And why on God's green Earth should you be doing ANY prep work other than preparing to find new digs? Your landlord, even if you are related doesn't deserve a minute of your time or labor. He left you in the lurch, time to do the same back.

I agree. 100%. And if it would just hurt her plans, I wouldn’t do a thing for her. But it’ll affect others who’ve been screwed over too, and they don’t deserve to be shit on twice.

 

[DarcyUK777]

I agree. 100%. And if it would just hurt her plans, I wouldn’t do a thing for her. But it’ll affect others who’ve been screwed over too, and they don’t deserve to be shit on twice.

I feel for you and keep us all updated with how you get on... the photo's are a nice addition but your life and well being are far more important than anything else. Good luck with it all.

 

[Elgirldani]

I feel for you and keep us all updated with how you get on... the photo's are a nice addition but your life and well being are far more important than anything else. Good luck with it all.

Thank you. I really appreciate you saying that

 

[tastylover]

Blessed Be wherever your journeys take you. You don't have any obligation to keep up daily posts on your thread. Just keep us as a back pocket resource for days when you might need to vent, or just have a bunch of free time and would enjoy some lavish praise

 

[Joxlrg]

I have heard that putting Sardines in the curtain rods, on your way out the door does wonders for the resale value of a home!!

 

[Elgirldani]

Blessed Be wherever your journeys take you. You don't have any obligation to keep up daily posts on your thread. Just keep us as a back pocket resource for days when you might need to vent, or just have a bunch of free time and would enjoy some lavish praise

Thanks

You make a good point. Some days just call for being worshipped

 

[Elgirldani]

I have heard that putting Sardines in the curtain rods, on your way out the door does wonders for the resale value of a home!!

Lol, thank you! I needed that laugh this morning

 

[Elgirldani]

Wishful Thinking

I can't wait to feel your arms wrap around me from behind as you pull me close to you. You'll tell me everything is going to be okay now that we are together. And I'll believe it. Then you'll give me five kisses from my shoulder up to my neck. That's what I want more than anything right now.

 

[planetbeat_]

I can't wait to feel your arms wrap around me from behind as you pull me close to you. You'll tell me everything is going to be okay now that we are together. And I'll believe it. Then you'll give me five kisses from my shoulder up to my neck. That's what I want more than anything right now.

This post is just so perfectly erotic, wonderful