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[drtshare]

on your cheek.


The Borg in your avatar - is that Hugh or which character?

yes, its Hugh. thank you for the kiss. I'm looking for new home.

hug

fred

 

[drtshare]

Well my friends if you believe in a higher power or just luck. ask or wish me... a better time that my stomach heal more. When I was 2yrs old my dad had his 2/3 of his stomach removed.(1957) As it was the only thing they could do to fix it. He die 6 months later... just could not handle it. just eatting 2 or 3 oz's at a time 6 to 10 times a day. I have had same problem since I was born, I have lasted.. hell a lot longer than anyone though. One because they have more tools to work with today, and my will to live. I spend 2yrs eatting drinking .. this mix of stuff they made up every 2 hours, I was the walking dead. the alarm would go off evey 2 hours I would drink a 2 to 4oz at a time until qt bottle was gone.. sleep.. wake up drink .. sleep wakeup over and over again. I had surgery a few weeks back, and now doc is talking about taking stomach out if the surgery doesn't work.

So I hope and pray it will work, but so far its not healing very fast. I'm on a lot of pain meds.


fred

 

[DiJiT]

wow! I hope everything works out and you feel better buddy

 

[drtshare]

wow! I hope everything works out and you feel better buddy

Thanks guy. Its not looking to well.

I have been sending emails to old friends.. so many lost contact with.

Only one out of 15 has written back.

Guess its about time to turn the lights off and just dance in the dark

 

[Que]

I admire you finding pride in surviving the odds & recognizing the light and joy that you do have in your life.

I was estranged from my parents for a number of years until my teenage daughter persuaded me to reconnect with them. Right around that time my dad developed an inability to produce cells in his marrow. Weak and tired all the time, but I don't think he was in a lot of pain which you seem to suffer from.

His faith brought him a lot of comfort. He was actually looking forward to seeing his lost relatives on the other side he said. I wasn't aware somehow but my brother that lives near him has become part of the lay clergy of the church. He officiates weddings funerals that sort of thing so he is in a position of ecclesiastical authority of sorts.

Anyway my brother is also a medical doctor was talking to my dad about towards the end. Dads kind of a control freak you actually typed up his own funeral announcement and include the date on it as well which he conveniently manage to die exactly on that day. (Last week).

My brother asked him dad aren't you a little bit worried? Like for example what if you get over there in the Buddhist had it right? My dads take on it was "Well I did the best I could with the way I understood it was supposed to work so I'm sure that if its the Buddhist they'll give me a pass is well."

I've enjoyed your indexing over the years as well as you're gentle banter with the posters. It sounds like you already have a lot of experience enjoying the life such as you have I hope that continues for you for a long time or at least until the end.

Take care, fred.

 

[drtshare]

I admire you finding pride in surviving the odds & recognizing the light and joy that you do have in your life.

I was estranged from my parents for a number of years until my teenage daughter persuaded me to reconnect with them. Right around that time my dad developed an inability to produce cells in his marrow. Weak and tired all the time, but I don't think he was in a lot of pain which you seem to suffer from.

His faith brought him a lot of comfort. He was actually looking forward to seeing his lost relatives on the other side he said. I wasn't aware somehow but my brother that lives near him has become part of the lay clergy of the church. He officiates weddings funerals that sort of thing so he is in a position of ecclesiastical authority of sorts.

Anyway my brother is also a medical doctor was talking to my dad about towards the end. Dads kind of a control freak you actually typed up his own funeral announcement and include the date on it as well which he conveniently manage to die exactly on that day. (Last week).

My brother asked him dad aren't you a little bit worried? Like for example what if you get over there in the Buddhist had it right? My dads take on it was "Well I did the best I could with the way I understood it was supposed to work so I'm sure that if its the Buddhist they'll give me a pass is well."

I've enjoyed your indexing over the years as well as you're gentle banter with the posters. It sounds like you already have a lot of experience enjoying the life such as you have I hope that continues for you for a long time or at least until the end.

Take care, fred.

Thank you, Sorry to hear of your dad's passing. My pain is cause from the fall I had 16yrs ago. It was at that time I was messed up. Lost a eye, broke 32 bones. If it was not for a hospital being across street I would have die. Yes, lost of bone marrow to make blood cells does make you weak and tried, also hard to fight infection. With all the surgeries I have gotten a few bugs they can control to a point but not kill off totally.

Yes, I did enjoy life. I travel around the world, saw wonder places and met great people. But sadly now I have lost contact with many or out lived many. I have no family left. I do enjoy doing indexes, it help kept my mind working.

So enjoy your friends and family for when they are gone you will be alone and that is not a fun time. Take joy in a smile.. a simple touch... a hug


off to dance in the dark

 

[DiJiT]

Thanks guy. Its not looking to well.

I have been sending emails to old friends.. so many lost contact with.

Only one out of 15 has written back.

Guess its about time to turn the lights off and just dance in the dark

Never give up my friend. You never know what is around the corner.

I myself actually was contacted out of the blue by an old Lit friend we had lost contact with YEARS ago. We missed her so much and were REALLY worried about her so to have her back in our lives after six years is an amazing feeling.

...We now have a pact. If anything happens in any of our three lives we will NOT disappear. We will come together and all nine of us (Three of us and their kids) will form our own little family. We are determined to NEVER lose each other again.

 

[BlackCashmere]

Well my friends if you believe in a higher power or just luck. ask or wish me... a better time that my stomach heal more. When I was 2yrs old my dad had his 2/3 of his stomach removed.(1957) As it was the only thing they could do to fix it. He die 6 months later... just could not handle it. just eatting 2 or 3 oz's at a time 6 to 10 times a day. I have had same problem since I was born, I have lasted.. hell a lot longer than anyone though. One because they have more tools to work with today, and my will to live. I spend 2yrs eatting drinking .. this mix of stuff they made up every 2 hours, I was the walking dead. the alarm would go off evey 2 hours I would drink a 2 to 4oz at a time until qt bottle was gone.. sleep.. wake up drink .. sleep wakeup over and over again. I had surgery a few weeks back, and now doc is talking about taking stomach out if the surgery doesn't work.

So I hope and pray it will work, but so far its not healing very fast. I'm on a lot of pain meds.


fred

I just red your posts...You sure have endured so much in your precious life...I am so sorry you have had to endure this...makes my heart break to read that...

I so love though, your positive and uplifting spirit...to look for the beautiful moments, and in the small things that most take for granted, but really are the HUGE things in our heart and lives...day to day...and moment to moment...

I will pray for healing health for you, and for your spirit to remain strong and peaceful...

Bless you...

 

[BlackCashmere]

I admire you finding pride in surviving the odds & recognizing the light and joy that you do have in your life.

I was estranged from my parents for a number of years until my teenage daughter persuaded me to reconnect with them. Right around that time my dad developed an inability to produce cells in his marrow. Weak and tired all the time, but I don't think he was in a lot of pain which you seem to suffer from.

His faith brought him a lot of comfort. He was actually looking forward to seeing his lost relatives on the other side he said. I wasn't aware somehow but my brother that lives near him has become part of the lay clergy of the church. He officiates weddings funerals that sort of thing so he is in a position of ecclesiastical authority of sorts.

Anyway my brother is also a medical doctor was talking to my dad about towards the end. Dads kind of a control freak you actually typed up his own funeral announcement and include the date on it as well which he conveniently manage to die exactly on that day. (Last week).

My brother asked him dad aren't you a little bit worried? Like for example what if you get over there in the Buddhist had it right? My dads take on it was "Well I did the best I could with the way I understood it was supposed to work so I'm sure that if its the Buddhist they'll give me a pass is well."

I've enjoyed your indexing over the years as well as you're gentle banter with the posters. It sounds like you already have a lot of experience enjoying the life such as you have I hope that continues for you for a long time or at least until the end.

Take care, fred.

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your dad...Bless you too, and I pray for your heart to heal ...

(((((hugs)))))

 

[Que]

Never give up my friend. You never know what is around the corner.

I myself actually was contacted out of the blue by an old Lit friend we had lost contact with YEARS ago. We missed her so much and were REALLY worried about her so to have her back in our lives after six years is an amazing feeling.

...We now have a pact. If anything happens in any of our three lives we will NOT disappear. We will come together and all nine of us (Three of us and their kids) will form our own little family. We are determined to NEVER lose each other again.

I find with friendships online and offline there is no difference. They both require maintenance and it's amazing how quickly I missed call or a misunderstanding results in somebody deciding that they weren't as bad as they actually were.

When I was young a friend of mine had a steady girlfriend that just sort of all the sudden flaked on him was returning calls... in hindsight knowing what I know now just about people in general I suspect that she probably had some sort of a dalliance, felt guilty who knows.

When they finally sort of reconnected in a just friends sort of way. She expressed that she had missed him deeply but the more time that it past the harder it was to reach out. She described it like when you have an overdue library book the longer it stays over do the less you want to face the librarian.

I'm a bit isolated where I am and my recent job operating heavy equipment put me in contact with the guy who worked at the fuel dock taking care of her fluids and feeling me up and so forth. A lot of people sort of looked down on him it seemed like the way people sort of ignore waiters you're sort of supposed to. ( I don't I talked everyones ear off). In the infinite wisdom of this company we had a really odd rotating shifts he also had an auto rotating shift but it didn't rotate with any of the crews that he worked with.

Turned out he was feeling somewhat lonely and isolated. Now the reality is because his schedule doesn't coincide with any of the four cruise he has an opportunity once or twice a month to socialize with just about anyone on any crew... but it's tough to build a friendship with someone that you're going to see 12 to 24 times a year at the most.

Fortunately for he and I, I have a habit of getting into trouble. I get fired on a yearly basis. Up until this last time when I decided I would simply retiring think of something else to do I always got it back because of my productivity.

I would say in so-called real life is definitely my best friend he's very dependable and we have a lot of interest in common. But if one or two days go by and somebody misses somebody's text I've noticed that he tends to think that he is imposing himself upon me.... which is silly I'm going through a bit of clinical depression and welcome the company.

The thing that makes these online friendships so hard to maintain is there is an ever an opportunity to just bump into somebody and you never know who's lost access to what email, who has relationship drama in the background...


It used to really bother me that I would form what seemed to be fairly meaningful attachments to people online and then all the sudden they would just disappear nothing seeming to have precipitated it.

I've decided that one can't have too many experiences with too many people so I just constantly reach out and connect to people and it lasts as it lasts.

I think the flurry of distraction available in modern life has a lot to do with the failure to maintain on and offline friendships.

Obviously Fred were all hoping for the best. You're gentle presence is always been appreciated.
Are there people in so-called real life that could be able to reach out to one or more of us to let us know if you've passed on to whatever awaits us all in the next phase of existance? I'm not much of a drinker but I'd be proud to hoist a shot of jameson at your wake. Grin.

 

[drtshare]

Well watching the Kentucky Derby, I remember going and enjoying the day. Today I in bed not able to stand. Wonder if I can stay a wake for the race..



old borg fred









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[drtshare]

Well watching the Kentucky Derby, I remember going and enjoying the day. Today I in bed not able to stand. Wonder if I can stay a wake for the race..



old borg fred

did not stay a wake

 

[drtshare]

Been sleeping about 20 hours a day for better than a month

guess soon it will be 24/7

when none

 

[drtshare]

I wonder how long before I am missed

will anyone care

 

[drtshare]

hear the music in the dark and dance

 

[drtshare]

Well I had updated Breast size thread last night, send some PM's . Did not feel right so got up to see nurse when I step thru door way and had a seizure... nurse came running to help. But not before I hit the floor... broke my bridge out .. black eye and broke my nose again. Sad thing is before that happen was feeling good because I had gain a pound. Though I was getting better... well lost 5 from seizure. I have to take drug to live but at time level get to high and I have seizures.

old borg fred

 

[drtshare]

Well in 7 days, I will be 61 yrs old. I see surgeon and infectious disease doc, to talk over what to do. Had MRI done after bone infection in my jaw was found. It showed 3 major site and 4 other spots to check. I have had major problems with many of the antibiotics used to fight infections. To the point last time they tried to fight the infections ..super bugs I have it stopped my heart. To many hospital stays.

To tell the true this old borg is afraid.

So think it is time to just go dancing in the dark

old borg fred

 

[meop79]

*HUGS*

I am so sorry to hear of your struggles... I will be praying for you.

 

[barefootgirl69]

Six more days until you4 birthday now, Fred! Are we going dancing?

 

[drtshare]

*HUGS*

I am so sorry to hear of your struggles... I will be praying for you.

Thank you.

 

[drtshare]

Six more days until you4 birthday now, Fred! Are we going dancing?

Lovely Lady, I would love too. Thank you

 

[drtshare]

Six more days until you4 birthday now, Fred! Are we going dancing?

Well Pretty Lady, they let me out of hospital so I could spend in at home on my birthday. So I'm turning off the light.. have one candle burning.. bow to the sweet lady and begin to dance the night away... this will not do.. sit down remove shoe socks... better ... you look wonderful in the candle light... dance you over to dark corner ... kiss the lovely lady.. thank you for the dance.



old 61yrs borg fred

 

[drtshare]

Lets go dance in the dark and jump in the snow. tell the world to go to hell. How can it be a holiday time when people treat each other and their friends like hell. Turn the damn cell off and talk to each other. Try taking the time to write a paper letter or card and mail it.. hell take the time to write a email something more than five word... not a damn text but a real letter. Forget posting on facebook ... call your friends... go see them face to face that is the real way to tell each other things. the world does not need to know about your life 24/7.. only love ones care about you. When was it you told your wife.. girlfriend.. your lover that you loved them.. hit you take the time today to give them a kiss a hug hold their hand did you tell them you loved them face to face?

Be with peace and enjoy life

old borg fred