Andreina
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Today I sat in the kitchen with two of my friends.... we are all in our final year at University, in fact we have about 10 weeks at Uni left. Non of us has any idea what to do after Uni - the economy is down, our degrees are not especially "economic", nor do we want to go into accountancy. We are three smart cookies - brainy, friendly and more or less good looking, albeit confused and with mixed feelings.
As we sat in the kitchen - we did so for 4hrs - we not only watched the sun go under over the sea, but we also really realised for the first time how everything is going to change for us. Not only will we leave the sheltered, almost village-like atmosphere of our University, we will leave the mile-long white beach behind, the North Sea and our youth, really.
The most depressing thing, apart from not having a job nor money, will be leaving your friends. I will move back to a different country knowing that my heart will always belong to Scotland, that I have adopted a certain way of life, that I feel not comfortable anymore talking in the language I was raised with.
It may sound ridiculous but we will watch our support system disintegrate - because in the end that's what friends are for. There will be no more days when the three of us can annoy our friend John. There will be no more eating crackers in our beds watching E.R. or going to Edinburgh to go clubbing. There will be no more Sunday session where we stay in Jammies all night long and snuggle up together. Or slagging off the people we dont like.
No more partying on Friday and Saturday together and curing our hangovers with Bacon Sandwiches the next morning.
University, although sometimes a pain in the arse, especially now that we are almost done, has changed all of us. It is hard to put into words but although we are happy that we have done what we did, it will take a lot of thinking what to do next.
I spent 4 wonderful years of my life here - laughed and cried here and learnt a lot, not only for academia but for 'life' itself. It is hard to see everything fall into pieces during Graduation Week. Especially because we have friends who will not graduate this year but next year or in two years. To leave them behind is almost like parting with your friends who graduate with you. We are all going to miles apart from each other, we are going to be in different countries, living different lives. Okay, we will keep in touch via the net and the phone but it wont be the same.
It seems trivial, I know but our hearts ache. Uncertainty is a bitch.
[/almost-graduate ramblings]
Halo
, who is in-between things and confused
As we sat in the kitchen - we did so for 4hrs - we not only watched the sun go under over the sea, but we also really realised for the first time how everything is going to change for us. Not only will we leave the sheltered, almost village-like atmosphere of our University, we will leave the mile-long white beach behind, the North Sea and our youth, really.
The most depressing thing, apart from not having a job nor money, will be leaving your friends. I will move back to a different country knowing that my heart will always belong to Scotland, that I have adopted a certain way of life, that I feel not comfortable anymore talking in the language I was raised with.
It may sound ridiculous but we will watch our support system disintegrate - because in the end that's what friends are for. There will be no more days when the three of us can annoy our friend John. There will be no more eating crackers in our beds watching E.R. or going to Edinburgh to go clubbing. There will be no more Sunday session where we stay in Jammies all night long and snuggle up together. Or slagging off the people we dont like.
No more partying on Friday and Saturday together and curing our hangovers with Bacon Sandwiches the next morning.
University, although sometimes a pain in the arse, especially now that we are almost done, has changed all of us. It is hard to put into words but although we are happy that we have done what we did, it will take a lot of thinking what to do next.
I spent 4 wonderful years of my life here - laughed and cried here and learnt a lot, not only for academia but for 'life' itself. It is hard to see everything fall into pieces during Graduation Week. Especially because we have friends who will not graduate this year but next year or in two years. To leave them behind is almost like parting with your friends who graduate with you. We are all going to miles apart from each other, we are going to be in different countries, living different lives. Okay, we will keep in touch via the net and the phone but it wont be the same.
It seems trivial, I know but our hearts ache. Uncertainty is a bitch.
[/almost-graduate ramblings]
Halo
, who is in-between things and confused
.... and I see why school-days are truly 'the best days of your life' (can't believe i just said that 
)
