Depression. It's a silent killer.

[jsmiam]

A reality of how Literotica operates, is that discussing current events will cause the moderator to move this entire thread to the political forum.

Trust me when I say it’s best to choose avoiding getting this thread moved.

However, make your voice heard. Post and participate there too. Just don’t do it within this thread.

 

[AWonkyDonkey]

I have been a lurker in this thread for a while.
I've had depression in the past and thankfully, I haven't had it for a few years.

However over the last few weeks, my health has caused a depression to grow. Couple that with other issues and today I am just barely clinging on.

I'm going to bed to hopefully hide away for a few hours.

 

[Ssbbw4u1974]

I have been a lurker in this thread for a while.
I've had depression in the past and thankfully, I haven't had it for a few years.

However over the last few weeks, my health has caused a depression to grow. Couple that with other issues and today I am just barely clinging on.

I'm going to bed to hopefully hide away for a few hours

I understand. Take care of yourself the best you can..

 

[Ssbbw4u1974]

Does anyone also suffer from the dreaded seasonal affective disorder here?
Something is going on with me... It's either SAD, PMS, BPD, OR BIPOLAR2.
I'm starting chamomile and ashwangda so we'll see if that helps...

Yesterday I honestly thought I'd slip out of the depression.. Nope.

 

[her_secret]

Yesterday I honestly thought I'd slip out of the depression.. Nope.

I’m so sorry to hear…

 

[Wetkitty09]

I’m here to give this a bump. Even the smallest of things is difficult right now.
Be safe out there.

 

[Bassytian]

It's been a bit since I have posted, I hope everyone is well though I understand many are not. I'm okay, though recent events that I will not name have vindicated my dream of wanting to live as a hermit with little to no human contact, and that is all I'm going to say about it in this thread.

At least now I have a clear life goal, just need to figure out how to get there (still want electricity and internet, I would never survive living in a cave in the mountains lol). That will keep me going, and going strong!

 

[Wonderer67]

Today was Veterans Day. Not always an easy day. I am still friends with some people I was deployed and served with.

Traded texts with them.

Really nice day. It was beautiful out and I took the day off. My company gives veterans the day off as well as a $25 stipend for a meal on veteran day.

i don’t want to work. Just to enjoy the day. Went for a walk on a rail trail.

Nature is my anti depressant. I hope it helps you if you are struggling.

https://imgur.com/a/vpdRRLz

https://imgur.com/a/0feEiWU

https://imgur.com/a/ioyKN5l

 

[Wonderer67]

https://imgur.com/a/DeOrRZ7

https://imgur.com/a/h9bbgEH

https://imgur.com/a/ZBmXPqE

 

[Wetkitty09]

Keeping this thread going.
Be safe out there.

 

[TheDubbs]

Hey everyone, first time posting in this thread, but I’m really glad it’s here. I’ve been really having a hard time over the last week. Been barely holding myself from going into a spiral and breaking my sobriety, but it’s been tough. Seeing others here dealing with the same shit helps a whole lot though.

I’m glad you’re all here. This is a great community and the support I’m seeing here is just outstanding. It’s helping me for sure during a bad time, and I know it’s helping others too. Keep on keeping on everyone!

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning all. Still hanging in. Be safe out there.

 

[cutcrystal899]

Back as cutcrystal899, my new account. Formerly cutcrystal, until someone hacked the account and changed the password earlier this week.

CC899

 

[Massacre_]

The vicious insomnia/depression circle is in full force. Fml

 

[Deadfreak]

Depression is kicking my ass today..

I have BPD and bi polar 2. Relationships trigger me really bad...
Anyways, the depression of the combo is really kicking me...

Pain meds caused me horrible nightmare
Let's get through this
We have to
Just googled BPD because I didn't know. googling is dangerous because it leads you to believe you have whatever you are looking up. I have 4 1/2 of the 9 symptoms.
I have always known I lean toward the depression pit, but I always figured "if you really wanna depress me, tell me I have depression and pit me on pills" , so I have never been diagnosed with anything nor have I ever been tested. This is mostly due to not having insurance or any way to pay for any of that.
I imagine getting diag getting script then not affordable to fill can't go back to doc because in collections..........
Anyway, thank you for teaching me BPD, and I am sympathetic. I don't know why your post was the first one on my screen when I searched this thread after waking in panic, but it was.
I'm 4 1/2 on the google self-mis-diagnosis chart so ........... I'm gonna call you my half sister

 

[Deadfreak]

For all of us
Thank you Lit citizens for being here

 

[Wonderer67]

Hey everyone, first time posting in this thread, but I’m really glad it’s here. I’ve been really having a hard time over the last week. Been barely holding myself from going into a spiral and breaking my sobriety, but it’s been tough. Seeing others here dealing with the same shit helps a whole lot though.

I’m glad you’re all here. This is a great community and the support I’m seeing here is just outstanding. It’s helping me for sure during a bad time, and I know it’s helping others too. Keep on keeping on everyone!

Keep keeping on, brother.

Stay on the right road. Sometimes it is tough.
———-
This week has been really difficult. Lots of extraneous bullshit happening in my life. But I feel better today.

 

[Deadfreak]

Depression is kicking my ass today..

I have BPD and bi polar 2. Relationships trigger me really bad...
Anyways, the depression of the combo is really kicking me...

Thank you for reaching out
I hope you can find relief

 

[Deadfreak]

Hey everyone, first time posting in this thread, but I’m really glad it’s here. I’ve been really having a hard time over the last week. Been barely holding myself from going into a spiral and breaking my sobriety, but it’s been tough. Seeing others here dealing with the same shit helps a whole lot though.

I’m glad you’re all here. This is a great community and the support I’m seeing here is just outstanding. It’s helping me for sure during a bad time, and I know it’s helping others too. Keep on keeping on everyone!

Second that emotion

 

[saintcero]

Sharing helps. Knowing of others helps.

I tell myself that “I hate myself” maybe a dozen times a day. I wish I didn’t but I do. My wife and a friend think I am a good guy. They are my only anchors.

 

[Deadfreak]

Sharing helps. Knowing of others helps.

I tell myself that “I hate myself” maybe a dozen times a day. I wish I didn’t but I do. My wife and a friend think I am a good guy. They are my only anchors.

Good to have anchors

 

[Wetkitty09]

I’m looking for the bright spots in my life and doing my best to focus on them. Following my relief.
I’m glad to see that this thread is doing well.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[cutcrystal899]

Charming. Two contacts ghosted me. Vanished without a word. Another I have connected with for months likewise.

On antibiotics which have given me stomach upset and diarrhoea. Still no reply from Tech Support about someone hacking my previous Account.

Feel ill, pissed off
and depressed.

On the plus side, spending a day in the Cotswolds with a "flame" tomorrow. And finished drafting a powerful story today and motoring on with another. Got my replacement personal ads set up.

It's an ill wind that blows no good. And my old mate Jack Daniels is to hand too...

 

[Wonderer67]

Very tough week. I am finding things that help tho. Veterans day was tough and set the tone for the whole week.

Had a very tough visit with my mom later in the day. She’s in a nursing home and got really confused and then scared. It sucks seeing her this way.

I was able to clear my head a bit and break out my bow and do a little target shooting just before nightfall. Archery is a nice way to focus.

Saw “Meet the Parents” tonite. It was just what we needed, some mindless humor. College football to round things out.

Here some pics from the day. The flowers are still hanging in there. They bring me immense joy. I hope they bring you joy too.

Cosmo

https://imgur.com/a/SzRoVWB

Echabekkia

https://imgur.com/a/rwJxvUJ

A weirdly late coneflower

https://imgur.com/a/vbQ04WW

Anemone

https://imgur.com/a/XNAvcE3

Japanese Maple

https://imgur.com/a/98veUuT

 

[Wetkitty09]

I've been so low last few weeks I am just not depressed anymore. My anxiety has been replaced with absolute indifference. C'est la vie.

I’m numb too. I don’t care what happens next.