Depression. It's a silent killer.

Morning all. I hope you’re having the best day you can.
I’ve been dealing with an injury that has messed up my back and hip and is taking a long time to heal due to life. My spirit is down and all interest in sexy stuff is pretty much gone as well as motivation for much of anything.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
We got some really bad news late yesterday. We both had really bad sleep.

Today it was my wife who was really struggling. Just feeling sad and hopeless. So I pushed her today. We cleaned the garage, our pole barn and then spilt and stacked firewood at our farm.

Then we went for a walk and took in the colors on the trails in the woods.

She thanked me… I think the distraction helped her.

Echibekkia.

Maples

Maple and sycamore.

Trail
 
I’m not sure if it’s the weather or the the alignment of the planets but I simply have no energy.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
I had an interesting conversation with a coworker over the weekend. We don't speak much, but we were both trying to get to the same crowded area together. Soon afterwards, everyone left, leaving us alone. The conversation went as follows:

Him: "I wish I could clear a room like that more often!"

Me: "I've done it a few times, especially when it comes to women! I have always been such a girl repellant that women scatter whenever I show up."

Him: "You're better off, man. After my divorce, I had to work three jobs for 14 years to pay child support, and I could still barely afford to feed myself and pay rent!"

That conversation made think of that old saying "the grass is always greener on the other side". Please don't take this as a diss toward relationships, that is not my intention. All I'm saying is that this made me feel that I should count my own blessings instead of envying what other people have.

Anyway, that's my tidbit for the day, hope everyone is doing well!
 
Last edited:
I came across a quote by Theodore Roosevelt about 5 years ago that has really helped me.
“Comparison is the thief of happiness.”
I try to remember that when I begin to envy others.
I may not have been the one to choose my way in the past but I’m consciously making my own choices now.
Have the best day you can. Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
Friends, I'm not doing well.

It's not just the shock of the last few days, watching history repeat itself on multiple levels. Losing respect for friends and family members. What kills me most is that in a few months, a regime will be in place that wants to make my livelihood a crime.

I've spent 25 years serving the public and students in libraries. Fighting disinformation, helping kids too frightened to let their parents know they are LGBTQ find resources. Hell, even kids who want to read Harry Potter because their zealot parents think even a hint of the word Witchcraft makes something of the devil.

If what they have planned goes into effect, what is written plainly in their magnum opus of fascism, just by having my job, Im at risk of being legally labeled a sex offender or jailed. Why? Because I have the nerve to present people facts.

They want the masses ignorant. They want to erase anyone they see as other, and 70mil Americans are willing to let them because they think they'll save some money.
 
I’m not doing well at the moment. I can feel the spiral starting. I’m doing my best but it’s not working. I’ll call my therapist in the morning and try to get in to see her.
Stay safe out there.
Care
Glad you have a therapist
Make the call
 
If anyone ever needs someone to talk to im normally around. I know it can be hard just to get an ear sometimes.
 
Friends, I'm not doing well.

It's not just the shock of the last few days, watching history repeat itself on multiple levels. Losing respect for friends and family members. What kills me most is that in a few months, a regime will be in place that wants to make my livelihood a crime.

I've spent 25 years serving the public and students in libraries. Fighting disinformation, helping kids too frightened to let their parents know they are LGBTQ find resources. Hell, even kids who want to read Harry Potter because their zealot parents think even a hint of the word Witchcraft makes something of the devil.

If what they have planned goes into effect, what is written plainly in their magnum opus of fascism, just by having my job, Im at risk of being legally labeled a sex offender or jailed. Why? Because I have the nerve to present people facts.

They want the masses ignorant. They want to erase anyone they see as other, and 70mil Americans are willing to let them because they think they'll save some money.
Care
One glimmer of hope is the fact that most extreme ideas are empty promises
 
Back
Top