Bi-curious? In the closet? Unsure…

[Friendlyhillbilly]

for what it's worth, may i suggest you think long and hard about that. hell hath no mercy like a tainted, jealous woman.

True, but she likes women and I give her, her freedom to play. And she talks about it when we play, so I'm hoping for the best.

 

[Deszos]

True, but she likes women and I give her, her freedom to play. And she talks about it when we play, so I'm hoping for the best.

i had not realized. but before i get off my soap box, your situation reminds me of the final years of my marriage. i was losing any interest in sex with her, fantasizing on gay passion. i was coaxing her to finger, rim and eat me, close to asking about a toy for her to penetrate me with. when she began with the degrading nonsense of me eating my sap from her cunt, i realized i best not venture farther. the degrading crap would be a terrible tool to be used against me. i'm not saying your mrs. would behave that way. just what i am thinking.

 

[Lemmetri]

I was curious for years. At the age of 46 I finally got the nerve and met a guy for nsa oral. After that encounter I turned fully bi. I still find woman attractive and lust after pussy and females. But all my real encounters are with other men. Honestly I prefer the sexual gratification with men. I enjoy sensual and intimate contact with men. Cock has turned me more Gay than straight. But as I get older ill take whate i can get. Often my fantasies are leaning toward gay sex.

Similar experience for me! Similar time line too.

 

[Sgts19]

I get more than enough sex with my wife and another woman but this is floating around in my mind, probably from stopping by this place lol. My wife loves BJ's and I'm aways curious what its like. Just the cock nothing to do with any other body part

 

[Lemmetri]

This is one of my favorite threads. I love reading about others journey. I can relate to the conflict between knowing our sexuality, accepting it, and the uncertainty of how others will react if we ever came out. Keep sharing your journeys. Thanks

 

[saintcero]

No longer curious. I am bi now. A confirmed submissive bottom but terrified because I don’t yet know the limits of my submission. If I let myself go, there may not be much left of the old me.

 

[wpbjax]

No longer curious as I have been a sex partner with three men now. (I am ignoring happy endings from masseurs for this count). Definitely in the closet as my wife must never know. I am eager to enjoy more M2M but hate cheating on my wife.

I'm a true bisexual (15 yrs) and HATE that we can't seem to properly recognize the male sex drive. I'm 65, still jerking off almost daily, and am sure we all remember how much more intense it was in our younger days. I'm thinking of writing a book as it seems women refuse to acknowledge it. How many times have we heard the old story from our friends about wifes/GF's, with lackluster sex drives, while their guy are still waking up with morning wood? I wish we were intelligent enough to TRULY separate love and sex. "Since you don't seem to be interested, I want to have sex with this person, but then I want to come home and be with you and my family." Dream on guys, we're no-where near that point...yet. Any questions, please let me know.

 

[wpbjax]

Sorry, I posted my comment incorrectly....I'm a true bisexual (15 yrs) and HATE that we can't seem to properly recognize the male sex drive. I'm 65, still jerking off almost daily, and am sure we all remember how much more intense it was in our younger days. I'm thinking of writing a book as it seems women refuse to acknowledge it. How many times have we heard the old story from our friends about wifes/GF's, with lackluster sex drives, while their guy are still waking up with morning wood? I wish we were intelligent enough to TRULY separate love and sex. "Since you don't seem to be interested, I want to have sex with this person, but then I want to come home and be with you and my family." Dream on guys, we're no-where near that point...yet. Any questions, please let me know.

 

[Deszos]

I am in the same boat. Read gay male stories that could happen with me. Watch only mature gay porn. I want to find a friend to play with. Someone who is like me. New to this. Or at least someone to flirt with online and fantasize with.

at the risk of appearing self-serving, i am divorced/single , live alone, have explored since my divorce and am so glad i did. i experienced some guy-guy-guy exploring when i was a teenager and loved it. i had to marry at 19. 24 years later we divorced. i revisited my curiosity and am so happy. i remain closeted because family would never accept the truth that i am a passionate, hungry receiver of male passion. ok, so i rambled. i apologize. my point is, should anyone want a friend, a sounding board, i am here. i'm no pro, but i am sincere and honest. den1@ptd.net is me, dennis

 

[Deszos]

The longer I’m single, the stronger my curiosity gets

that is totally understandable.

 

[FLBaseballguy]

West coast of Florida here, I have played a couple of times but it’s been probably 8 or 9 years.

 

[Deszos]

West coast of Florida here, I have played a couple of times but it’s been probably 8 or 9 years.

that's a long time. are you sure of your curiosity?

 

[FLBaseballguy]

that's a long time. are you sure of your curiosity?

Well I guess since I HAVE fooled around some I’m not technically curious anymore? Maybe in the closet bi?

 

[Deszos]

Well I guess since I HAVE fooled around some I’m not technically curious anymore? Maybe in the closet bi?

no, no. you are who and what you believe you are. no disparage intended. as a matter of fact, before cancer i considered myself bisexual. then came thorough cancer. surgery and daily meds changed things including where once i had rock hard pecs are now supple 34-C breasts that i keep smooth and soft. long story short, though on the outside i am relatively masc in appearance, in the bedroom and even in my heart i am a loving lady. anyway. just a thought. you are who you believe you are.

 

[FLBaseballguy]

no, no. you are who and what you believe you are. no disparage intended. as a matter of fact, before cancer i considered myself bisexual. then came thorough cancer. surgery and daily meds changed things including where once i had rock hard pecs are now supple 34-C breasts that i keep smooth and soft. long story short, though on the outside i am relatively masc in appearance, in the bedroom and even in my heart i am a loving lady. anyway. just a thought. you are who you believe you are.

Good for you! Everyone needs to be comfortable with whom they are!

 

[Deszos]

Good for you! Everyone needs to be comfortable with whom they are!

XOXOXO

 

[SPARTAN047]

There's so many of us, I think it's due to stigma and being in the closet.

 

[Deszos]

There's so many of us, I think it's due to stigma and being in the closet.

At times, like holidays and opportunity for celebration, it can be difficult to live dual lives. Family and community know me as the masculine, strong male, the father, the grandfather. My other side is the passionate, tender lover striving to be the perfect lady for one man.

 

[SPARTAN047]

At times, like holidays and opportunity for celebration, it can be difficult to live dual lives. Family and community know me as the masculine, strong male, the father, the grandfather. My other side is the passionate, tender lover striving to be the perfect lady for one man.

Great analysis. We do it because we want to let go of our stereotypical strong masculine role.

 

[Deszos]

Great analysis. We do it because we want to let go of our stereotypical strong masculine role.

I agree. Following my curiosity is one of the best choices I ever made in my life. I wish it didn't have to be hidden, this person I have become and want to be.

 

[SPARTAN047]

I agree. Following my curiosity is one of the best choices I ever made in my life. I wish it didn't have to be hidden, this person I have become and want to be.

I haven't told so many people About it myself.

 

[Deszos]

I haven't told so many people About it myself.

Good for you, that there are at least a few you can confide in. I would imagine there is comfort when being with them.

 

[SPARTAN047]

Good for you, that there are at least a few you can confide in. I would imagine there is comfort when being with them.

Yeah, only my trans friends .

 

[Deszos]

Yeah, only my trans friends .

I had a what-could-have -been a most embarrassing situation couple years ago. My car and I were T-boned on a highway. I was rushed to the ER. Very soon after, my two adult daughters arrived and were near when I was taken to a cubicle. My neck was fractured, and I was immobilized so there was little I could do. Anyway, when two nurses came in, they ushered my daughters out just as they began cutting my clothes off. Talk about professional, beneath my shirt and short pants they found a bra and bikini panty. Without saying One Single word, the bra was placed in one of my sneakers, with a sock atop it. The panty was placed in the other sneaker, with another sock atop it. Nothing was ever mentioned. I was revealed only a second or two after daughters walked out. Phew. I have several doctors unfortunately. They must know this side of me. No, I don't wear bra and panty to appointments but they all see my supple, smooth 34-C breasts upon examination. Often, when one would put their stethoscope on one breast, it will be held, I think, extra long a time. Sometimes, it can't be denied, a doctor will cup my breast, then the other, and hold them for a while. I get a Kick out of it.

 

[SPARTAN047]

I had a what-could-have -been a most embarrassing situation couple years ago. My car and I were T-boned on a highway. I was rushed to the ER. Very soon after, my two adult daughters arrived and were near when I was taken to a cubicle. My neck was fractured, and I was immobilized so there was little I could do. Anyway, when two nurses came in, they ushered my daughters out just as they began cutting my clothes off. Talk about professional, beneath my shirt and short pants they found a bra and bikini panty. Without saying One Single word, the bra was placed in one of my sneakers, with a sock atop it. The panty was placed in the other sneaker, with another sock atop it. Nothing was ever mentioned. I was revealed only a second or two after daughters walked out. Phew. I have several doctors unfortunately. They must know this side of me. No, I don't wear bra and panty to appointments but they all see my supple, smooth 34-C breasts upon examination. Often, when one would put their stethoscope on one breast, it will be held, I think, extra long a time. Sometimes, it can't be denied, a doctor will cup my breast, then the other, and hold them for a while. I get a Kick out of it.

Holy crap. And I've almost been seen in my dresses on camera by my family.