A Journey In Vulnerability

[Elgirldani]

Beautiful

 

[EndlessNameless]

Sorry for your loss. Went through this a couple of months ago. The important thing is you have still have memories of her, especially of her laughing and having a good time. It's always good to reminisce on the good memories you have.

 

[Elgirldani]

Sorry for your loss. Went through this a couple of months ago. The important thing is you have still have memories of her, especially of her laughing and having a good time. It's always good to reminisce on the good memories you have.

Thank you. I’m sorry for yours as well

 

[EndlessNameless]

Thank you. I’m sorry for yours as well

Actually, the hardest thing about it was lying in bed at night alone with nothing but your thoughts. You can kind of "turn off" during the day by keeping yourself busy or occupied, but at night it's a different story.

 

[Elgirldani]

Actually, the hardest thing about it was lying in bed at night alone with nothing but your thoughts. You can kind of "turn off" during the day by keeping yourself busy or occupied, but at night it's a different story.

Very true. That’s why I ended up posting so late last night.

 

[Toddc226]

So classy

I am so very sorry for your loss. In dealing with my own mortality currently dying of heart failure, I hope daily for someone to carry on my memory and honor whom I was on this earth.

The respect you've shown and the wonderful picture shown in remembrance touched me greatly.

I am respectfully a huge fan of you and your 'bear'.
Ol Todd

 

[Elgirldani]

I am so very sorry for your loss. In dealing with my own mortality currently dying of heart failure, I hope daily for someone to carry on my memory and honor whom I was on this earth.

The respect you've shown and the wonderful picture shown in remembrance touched me greatly.

I am respectfully a huge fan of you and your 'bear'.
Ol Todd

Thank you. I'm very sorry to hear of your personal tragedy. Life is such a precious thing, and in the end, all any of us can hope for is that we leave behind something a little bit good... happy memories, people who loved us and will celebrate our lives rather than mourn away their own... Just my thoughts. Peace to you, friend. Stop by here anytime

 

[TANSTAAFL58]

Today was a sad day for me. Or I should say yesterday, since it's after midnight. One of my great Aunts passed away very unexpectedly in the morning. I wasn't prepared for how hard it hit me. We weren't around each other a lot but I always admired her so much, and I like to think I was always a bit of a favorite of hers.

I was just thinking about how strong of a woman my Aunt was. She didn't take shit from anyone and was always in control of any situation she found herself in, but she also had the biggest heart. She hugged like she meant it, and her laughter filled whatever room she was in. I remember being a shy, wallflower teenager and wishing to be like her when I got older. I had this idea that I would take a picture to honor my memory of her as one of the strongest people I knew, and to try and encapsulate the essence of that strength, but also to show the softer side as well. But maybe what it shows is more of that wallflower teenager feeling. Caught between seeing what I wanted to be like and not believing that I had it in me...

Either way, she'd probably think I was insane for posting a photo like this in her memory. But this is how I process my emotions, so I'm doing it anyway. I can see the look she'd give me now, before she would slap me playfully and burst out laughing, and the thought makes me smile. I'll miss you Aunt S. I'm still trying to be like you when I get older.

Im still catching up from being away, so please excuse the lateness of this. I am sorry for your loss. Clearly she was a huge influence on you, and clearly you grew from that influence.

The picture fits with your written tribute and bridges to the glimpses you have permitted of who you are so far. Wall flower perhaps, but clearly a very deep person and an attractive package as well. Thanks for sharing. Share more if and when you are ready.

 

[Elgirldani]

Im still catching up from being away, so please excuse the lateness of this. I am sorry for your loss. Clearly she was a huge influence on you, and clearly you grew from that influence.

The picture fits with your written tribute and bridges to the glimpses you have permitted of who you are so far. Wall flower perhaps, but clearly a very deep person and an attractive package as well. Thanks for sharing. Share more if and when you are ready.

Thank you.

 

[Elgirldani]

A lot of thoughts tonight. In a twist of irony from the woman who's all about sharing, a lot of them feel too personal for posting here. In an effort to stem the flow of "You have nothing to hate, you're beautiful, sexy, blah blah blah" posts, I will say this: I don't have the perfect body, but it's mine and I'm as happy with it as the next slightly out of shape person is with theirs. This photo is much more about the emotional struggle I, and others, deal with. I'm very lucky to have an amazing man who I can talk to about this sort of thing, but not everyone has that safe place to turn to. It occurs to me that this post may come across as defensive or confrontational. It's not meant that way, but I admit to not being in a 100% positive frame of mind right now. And as hard as it is for me, I'm trying to be better at not apologizing for how I feel about things. Anyway, thanks for listening, as always, and lots of

 

[Smoothshavendad]

A lot of thoughts tonight. In a twist of irony from the woman who's all about sharing, a lot of them feel too personal for posting here. In an effort to stem the flow of "You have nothing to hate, you're beautiful, sexy, blah blah blah" posts, I will say this: I don't have the perfect body, but it's mine and I'm as happy with it as the next slightly out of shape person is with theirs. This photo is much more about the emotional struggle I, and others, deal with. I'm very lucky to have an amazing man who I can talk to about this sort of thing, but not everyone has that safe place to turn to. It occurs to me that this post may come across as defensive or confrontational. It's not meant that way, but I admit to not being in a 100% positive frame of mind right now. And as hard as it is for me, I'm trying to be better at not apologizing for how I feel about things. Anyway, thanks for listening, as always, and lots of

You are a brave, honest and thoughtful young woman. Wishing you peace tonight.

 

[Elgirldani]

You are a beautiful woman and your soul shines through. It's one of the things that made me fall for you. I love all of your posts and this one hits a special place in me. Your Bear loves you very much.

I love you too, Bear

 

[Elgirldani]

You are a brave, honest and thoughtful young woman. Wishing you peace tonight.

Thank you

 

[tastylover]

One of the hardest things for someone who has struggled their whole life with depression and self worth, is hearing and accepting praise. A lot of people don't understand that. So from one to one, You look amazing, and I'm sure I wouldn't be brave enough to ask someone as pretty as you hello on the street So there!

 

[Elgirldani]

One of the hardest things for someone who has struggled their whole life with depression and self worth, is hearing and accepting praise. A lot of people don't understand that. So from one to one, You look amazing, and I'm sure I wouldn't be brave enough to ask someone as pretty as you hello on the street So there!

Lol, well that’s showed me

Thank you

 

[TANSTAAFL58]

Lol, well that’s showed me

Thank you

The new av and profile pic are wonderful. You look great. Perfect? No. Leave the negative self-doubt behind. Most people are imperfect. The fact that you choose to express yourself in this way says that there is a certain level of confidence. Build on that. (The confidence is valid; your legion of admirers attest to that. The tone of most of the comments says people are actually reading your thoughts.)

The Love vs Hate pictures are stark and meaningful. The two identical sides of life as it were. Thanks.

Can I be so bold as to ask: are you a dancer? You seem to be on your toes a great deal of the time.

 

[Elgirldani]

The new av and profile pic are wonderful. You look great. Perfect? No. Leave the negative self-doubt behind. Most people are imperfect. The fact that you choose to express yourself in this way says that there is a certain level of confidence. Build on that. (The confidence is valid; your legion of admirers attest to that. The tone of most of the comments says people are actually reading your thoughts.)

The Love vs Hate pictures are stark and meaningful. The two identical sides of life as it were. Thanks.

Can I be so bold as to ask: are you a dancer? You seem to be on your toes a great deal of the time.

Thank you.

No, I’m not a dancer. I think it’s a nervous habit, or maybe an unconscious desire to be taller? Lol

 

[Followmenow6969_2]

A lot of thoughts tonight. In a twist of irony from the woman who's all about sharing, a lot of them feel too personal for posting here. In an effort to stem the flow of "You have nothing to hate, you're beautiful, sexy, blah blah blah" posts, I will say this: I don't have the perfect body, but it's mine and I'm as happy with it as the next slightly out of shape person is with theirs. This photo is much more about the emotional struggle I, and others, deal with. I'm very lucky to have an amazing man who I can talk to about this sort of thing, but not everyone has that safe place to turn to. It occurs to me that this post may come across as defensive or confrontational. It's not meant that way, but I admit to not being in a 100% positive frame of mind right now. And as hard as it is for me, I'm trying to be better at not apologizing for how I feel about things. Anyway, thanks for listening, as always, and lots of

You have NOTHING to apologize for and your body ROCKS

 

[Elgirldani]

You have NOTHING to apologize for and your body ROCKS

Thank you

 

[Elgirldani]

A few not so random thoughts

I just wanted to say that I really appreciate everyone’s comments and support on all of my posts, but the last one especially was very personal to me.

I want to just reiterate that it wasn’t about me hating my body, but more that I wanted to express that there are two sides to everything, and just because someone may look put together or a hot mess at any given time, that doesn’t necessarily mean that they feel that way. It’s about the emotional pain that may be hiding underneath, and the constant battles we all wage within ourselves, no matter what they may be about.

Anyway, last thing I wanted to do was see if there would be any interest from anyone here in an idea that I’ve had percolating the last couple days. I’ve just this week started back on my weight loss journey, and I was thinking of creating a thread dedicated to that. A place where not only I, but anyone who wanted to could post updates about their successes, and find support when they are struggling. Photos would be encouraged, but not necessarily the focus. I haven’t really gotten much past just having this idea in the back of my mind, so if this thread already exists or doesn’t really seem to be of interest, that’s cool, just tell me that. Lol

As always

 

[Youneverknow81]

Hope you are well! There’s no wrong way to grieve, I lean towards dark humor and trying to make it logical. To each their own!

 

[Elgirldani]

Hope you are well! There’s no wrong way to grieve, I lean towards dark humor and trying to make it logical. To each their own!

Hey, haven’t seen you around here in a while

I’m doing good, yeah! Trying to let life flow atm.

 

[TANSTAAFL58]

I just wanted to say that I really appreciate everyone’s comments and support on all of my posts, but the last one especially was very personal to me.

I want to just reiterate that it wasn’t about me hating my body, but more that I wanted to express that there are two sides to everything, and just because someone may look put together or a hot mess at any given time, that doesn’t necessarily mean that they feel that way. It’s about the emotional pain that may be hiding underneath, and the constant battles we all wage within ourselves, no matter what they may be about.

Anyway, last thing I wanted to do was see if there would be any interest from anyone here in an idea that I’ve had percolating the last couple days. I’ve just this week started back on my weight loss journey, and I was thinking of creating a thread dedicated to that. A place where not only I, but anyone who wanted to could post updates about their successes, and find support when they are struggling. Photos would be encouraged, but not necessarily the focus. I haven’t really gotten much past just having this idea in the back of my mind, so if this thread already exists or doesn’t really seem to be of interest, that’s cool, just tell me that. Lol

As always

Im intrigued. Sexybritches has a similar thread in the PG, but that's not a reason to not do this.

 

[ncfreak269]

A lot of thoughts tonight. In a twist of irony from the woman who's all about sharing, a lot of them feel too personal for posting here. In an effort to stem the flow of "You have nothing to hate, you're beautiful, sexy, blah blah blah" posts, I will say this: I don't have the perfect body, but it's mine and I'm as happy with it as the next slightly out of shape person is with theirs. This photo is much more about the emotional struggle I, and others, deal with. I'm very lucky to have an amazing man who I can talk to about this sort of thing, but not everyone has that safe place to turn to. It occurs to me that this post may come across as defensive or confrontational. It's not meant that way, but I admit to not being in a 100% positive frame of mind right now. And as hard as it is for me, I'm trying to be better at not apologizing for how I feel about things. Anyway, thanks for listening, as always, and lots of

You are sexy baby!!!

 

[Elgirldani]

You are sexy baby!!!

Don’t call me baby.