Still Can't Get Over That One Person Who Abruptly Left My Life

[BBW_T&A_Lover]

It sucks when you meet someone and you have an instant connection, only for that person to leave without a trace.

I met a very beautiful woman on here in 2015. It was actually a week before my birthday. I was 40, she was 52. Had the looks, personality, every thing I had been looking for in a woman. She was so beautiful. We considered each other soul mates and planned to marry one day. This was going on for almost two years. We talked in some form every day. She even gave me money to buy a bed so I could move back home after I broke up with my ex.

Next thing I know, she was gone. No emails, no texts, wouldn't answer her cell. It's like she disappeared off the planet.

This was almost two years ago. Why does it still hurt just as much as the next week? To this day, I still can't get her out of my mind. There are times where I cry because of the sheer loneliness. Even as I type this, I feel my eyes welling up. I find myself going to the white pages to find her husband's name in the hopes one of the numbers will lead to her.

It's hard for me because I'm disabled. I can't drive. I live with my parents now and I can't get in a car. I sit home all day and stare out the window.

I feel like such a fool sometimes that I just can't take it.

 

[Spenser41]

It sucks when you meet someone and you have an instant connection, only for that person to leave without a trace.

I met a very beautiful woman on here in 2015. It was actually a week before my birthday. I was 40, she was 52. Had the looks, personality, every thing I had been looking for in a woman. She was so beautiful. We considered each other soul mates and planned to marry one day. This was going on for almost two years. We talked in some form every day. She even gave me money to buy a bed so I could move back home after I broke up with my ex.

Next thing I know, she was gone. No emails, no texts, wouldn't answer her cell. It's like she disappeared off the planet.

This was almost two years ago. Why does it still hurt just as much as the next week? To this day, I still can't get her out of my mind. There are times where I cry because of the sheer loneliness. Even as I type this, I feel my eyes welling up. I find myself going to the white pages to find her husband's name in the hopes one of the numbers will lead to her.

It's hard for me because I'm disabled. I can't drive. I live with my parents now and I can't get in a car. I sit home all day and stare out the window.

I feel like such a fool sometimes that I just can't take it.

Let me share something with you. I married when I was your and although I was deeply in love with her, she was not with me and we lived together for the kids. But she finally told me she never really loved me and so we ended it. I remarried and that has not worked out well either... But still together. I met someone on here and thought wow... I finally found the ONE! I was madly in love... but she moved to AL and I am still where I am and I am not leaving my child behind... and that was the end of us. I still have feelings but it is over... and that is it. I finally realized that sometimes we meet people and they are there for a season... and you have to enjoy and remember the season and the memories for what they were.

If they left you, it was because they were never supposed to be the One... Please do not live in the past because if you stay back there, you will never have the chance for someone else because you are still hung up on the what could have been. Just accept it for what it was ... learn from it... remember fondly and move on and be ready for the next woman that gets to discover the kind of person you are will want to spend their life with you.