Justa Redux. Still nothing to see, is a redux ever better than the original

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

Oh, they most certainly have had some exciting adventures
Perhaps you'd like to hear... or rather read about one the next time?

I very much would. It would be awesome if something of mine was doing something exciting, even if only in the dreams of others.

 

[RjThoughts]

Parisians are the worst, they just mumble and trail off at the end of words/sentences. Apparently there's something wrong with Quebecois French, but it all sounds the same to me.

Oui! Parisians are terrible. My high school French teacher was Parisian, she did mumble.

I have relatives from Canada, the Kahnawake Mohawk Reserve and around Quebec City. The QC Quebecois is easily understood, but I go to Montreal and mais non! Turrible!

 

[RjThoughts]

I might know wine or some sort of alcohol in like 20 languages. Priorities lol.

I learned to say, "Yes grandma, thank you" in
Polish
French
Kanien'kehá(Mohawk)
Italian - for girlfriends
Greek - for work
Spanish - for neighborhood
Hindu - for neighborhood.

 

[Blueeyesrenee]

Awesome thread!!! Beautiful pictures. Thanks for sharing.

 

[Youneverknow81]

Maybe I will do that.

Sounds great to me, I envy anyone who might get to see that in person. Certainly the look on your face will be something that no man or woman would mistake for anything other than a woman allowing herself to enjoy who she is and give herself what she wants.

 

[JDredd711]

You disproved everything you said in that long post. Your writing is almost stream of consciousness honest, which is why, I suspect, many of you continue following you, even after we've seen you from every possible angle. You are way funnier and more interesting than anyone else on here.

As far as looks, you are amazing. The only criticism I would have is that you edit your pics way too much. Having photographed models nude from barely legal to in their 50s, I recognize that you are in the female doldrums right now. In a few years you will discover that the exhilaration and power of youth and beauty are fleeting and superficial. With age you have developed a class that makes you, your face, and your body way more attractive than any 20 something on Lit.

I know exactly what you are saying about video chat since I have experienced it myself. Sadly, most people are very selfish, so they don't actually listen. I could go on about the pluses and minuses of video chat, but it would only come across as trying to convince you to do it with me, and that is not my intent.

Like I have said before, I would love to have a chance to photograph you, just for the chance to show you just how amazing you are, both externally and within. If done right, a picture can capture your image as well as your soul.

 

[JDredd711]

*us not you

 

[scotluvsoral]

well you can request, but you won't receive lol.




oh another story request I won't actually honor.


ok, here is the deal guys. I never got around to writing. First night I decided to, I joined lit, then joined the forums so I could get assistance, bounce ideas, etc. Then I turned on pms because it is what you do when you join a community. Then bam, just 100s of messages like instantly. most are what do you look like, what are you desperate for, send a pic, want to cam, dick pics, aggressive pervy offers. it was funny, I got to use bizarre images that had been stored on my phone waiting for a reason. I got to use meatloaf baby...i had been holding meatloaf baby forever. thus I built a profile, so people would have an understanding of what I really am, and not this dream of some gorgeous 20 year old. that helped a little. in between, one of the messages was from someone who didn't seem like a creeper, wasn't trying to take care of me and advise me to change my name (which was important to me if I was going to write, because I wanted people to understand immediately the perspective I was coming from, unfortunately while women got it instantly, many men didn't). anyway, he seemed like he just wanted to talk with me, and it was nice. then, it, of course, went the way of wanting to video chat, which I desperately avoided. once he isolated why, which was I didn't want to be seen, he said he just wanted to listen to me cum, not even talk. I was going to do it anyway, so I covered the camera, and let him. Eventually he asked to see me, I was lit and agreed, and the world didn't end. he encouraged me to be more active and I posted a picture and again, it was all positive. met another guy who seemed fun, then immediately wanted a cam chat, and I am all what the fuck, I am at walmart, and he explained not like that, he just wanted to verify a was what I said I was in my profile (primarily female lol) so after a little encouragement I agreed, and the first thing he said was "oh my god, you're beautiful". so not only wasn't it conversation ending, it went well. Eventually led to a dirty video chat, not just a face to face conversation. ya know, whole body ugh, both getting off kind of thing, and again, first words were "oh my god, you are really fucking beautiful"and again, it felt good. so then there are multiple people whispering I should share more, so I share a tiny bit more, and it doesn't go badly. primarily girls without bras and cleavage. A few more video chats, they all go fine. none were quite right for me, but went well enough to make me cum at least. I am still grateful to the first two, even though I don't enjoy talking with them anymore (they both have the same fatal flaw, differently, but still the same...they don't listen to what I ask for, it is really all about what they want)

Along the way, I still am very uncomfortable with live video though, get cussed out by a wife, get caught right after a video chat by hubby who knows immediately (I was looking cute). But I am still posting pictures here little by little, and loving the response. It is so wrong but feels so good. I feel like the belle of the ball....the fucking pervy intoxicating ball. I brave things like titty tuesday. Everyone is always so positive. It reminds me how things used to be, when I really was truly close to conventional beauty. I mean I'd say 7 or 8, others have said 9 or 10 but the 10s are were just playing out of their league, 9 I don't maybe, if I was really put together and having an awesome day with good lighting, maybe. Don't get me wrong, beauty when you are young and naive is a really dangerous place to be. But once you understand the rules, there is a massive privilege to it. Hell, there is a power to it. I could go on and on, but I would sound like a sociopath if you hadn't truly been able to walk in my shoes for the making of the sociopathic years and beyond. Honestly, the whole journey is probably never anything a man could understand. Point is, I found it intoxicating coming from being a nothing, just a girl, completely powerless. Then, well, time is a bitch, someone calls you ma'am, the cop writes the ticket, doors stop opening automatically, you go to a bar and drinks don't appear, you carry you own things. Suddenly you are old, have a kid, body goes to hell, husband struggles with what you were and what you are. At least you've used the time to earn your own placement in life, and you accept that you have completely lost the privilege and power that goes with being aesthetically appealing, but the world has changed, you are older, and, at least, no longer just a girl. It's a new cliche, a better one, but still just a wife, just a mom, not powerless, but invisible. Invisible, well...It could be worse.

So, back to here. I meet a man I really just enjoy talking with, a lot. he is smart, funny, listens to me, seems to really enjoy me (and ghosts me... twice lol). I also meet a man who just really turns me on. He seem to have predilections so similar to my own, he is good looking (honestly out of my league as far as looks go), does nothing creepy, doesn't even need to listen to me in order to indulge my desires, because mine simply seem in line with his. Honestly, I don't think I stated my desires at all, he just worked. Meanwhile, I am still posting pictures here.

mmm picture 24 (thanks fred for the reference), like my third thong thursday contribution. I went to adjust the thong for the picture, I was so wet, so turned on by the thought of the men who would be enjoying it and how inappropriate it was to share it to begin with. My finger that was just trying to adjust the thong strap so it was visible, the mere brush of my finger had me so close to cumming, that I had to go with it. I was hooked and I still hear the whispers to share more, you should make your own thread (including the man with a similar predilection, who thinks I will enjoy it, and he was right)

Now I have my own thread, chats, am getting off on every second of it, multiple times a day. Here is the ass kicker though, I discover many of the reasons I dislike video chat. First, hubby, yeah that is not good. Second, I have gotten really good at projecting an illusion, well in my head anyway. Hell, I share what the illusions are, so I guess it really isn't an illusion. You know the heavy makeup, the arms up, side tilt, high tilt, low lighting, autofix, floor camera, almost never doing a full body shot because there is no angle that works for my whole body, muscle tensing, repeated smile. I can't hide live what I can hide on still. Maybe I am still hiding what has always been my biggest physical flaw, but for the most part I am hiding my age, weight, and general physical condition, only in my own head, as everyone already knows, so kind of pointless, but I like the illusion.

And the biggest thing, which is what I can't hide on a live chat, and the second biggest reason why I will never write a story here. I never learned how to use language to be erotic. One thing about pretty privileged, you don't have to say a word. A smile and a well placed hand is all that is needed. Hell, I can't even manage a remotely coordinated and graceful clothing removal, but I could still get by just fine. I thought if I was immersed in the culture, I could learn. Yet still, like 2 years later, any attempts at verbal or written seduction are just modified and regurgitate combinations of phrases I think others likely thought were erotic. If I think, "try to be erotic" the only thing that happens is a coy look, a blank mind, and a lack of clothing. yeah, sexy wears off real fast if you actually truly see me. All that is left is a dorky awkward woman badly pretending to be sexy. But she is a fucking laugh riot, so it isn't all that bad, but not so much erotic.

So there you have the poorly thought out, badly edited, poorly written, garrulous story of my first posting of an erotic image on the internet, my first attempt video chat, my first time trying to be virtually sexy, and the pure drunken truth (that might later get deleted) of why I will never write a story. It is exhilarating to me, but I will never be able to capture that

oh, and I am way more turned on and really get off on feeling like the belle of the pervy ball and would rather spend my time doing that than failing at erotic writing. that is a biggy.

also, doesn't help that a lot of my exhilarating firsts were between 16 and 17, so I'd have to start my stories with a lie, then I may struggle because I will be forced to rely on creativity, thus will smack right into "think sexy" versus capturing the emotion of the time, which would also require backstory, and fuck, it is just too hard.

and fuck, someone clearly needs to tell me to put down my wine, turn of my tablet, and go play with toys or some shit, because I obviously should not be sharing. lol.

Amazing sharing!!!

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

Oui! Parisians are terrible. My high school French teacher was Parisian, she did mumble.

I have relatives from Canada, the Kahnawake Mohawk Reserve and around Quebec City. The QC Quebecois is easily understood, but I go to Montreal and mais non! Turrible!

on the surface it sounds surprising but I guess not really. Take a French person who speaks English and have them go from Australia, to Canada, to England, to Boston, to the Bayou, to the Deep South and I am sure they can only understand English in half those areas. there is a big difference between the sounds of England and Cajun

I learned to say, "Yes grandma, thank you" in
Polish
French
Kanien'kehá(Mohawk)
Italian - for girlfriends
Greek - for work
Spanish - for neighborhood
Hindu - for neighborhood.

well honestly, grandma would be low on my priority list, but if it works for you

Awesome thread!!! Beautiful pictures. Thanks for sharing.

thank you

Sounds great to me, I envy anyone who might get to see that in person. Certainly the look on your face will be something that no man or woman would mistake for anything other than a woman allowing herself to enjoy who she is and give herself what she wants.

I can actually hide it quite well. wearable toys and all

You disproved everything you said in that long post. Your writing is almost stream of consciousness honest, which is why, I suspect, many of you continue following you, even after we've seen you from every possible angle. You are way funnier and more interesting than anyone else on here.

As far as looks, you are amazing. The only criticism I would have is that you edit your pics way too much. Having photographed models nude from barely legal to in their 50s, I recognize that you are in the female doldrums right now. In a few years you will discover that the exhilaration and power of youth and beauty are fleeting and superficial. With age you have developed a class that makes you, your face, and your body way more attractive than any 20 something on Lit.

I know exactly what you are saying about video chat since I have experienced it myself. Sadly, most people are very selfish, so they don't actually listen. I could go on about the pluses and minuses of video chat, but it would only come across as trying to convince you to do it with me, and that is not my intent.

Like I have said before, I would love to have a chance to photograph you, just for the chance to show you just how amazing you are, both externally and within. If done right, a picture can capture your image as well as your soul.

In a way that is the point though. Erotica is more fantasy than honesty. I can't write fantasy. I thought I might have a chance at simple telling my more exciting stories, but I don't know. Fantasy comes of more erotic than truth. I am sure that I can evoke emotion just I don't think I can evoke the emotional combination or really emotional simplicity of what is what one wants from erotic stories. Sure I might touch on eroticism and excitement which is what one reads these type of stories for, but odds are other contradictory emotions will seep in, from humor, to anger, to sadness, to apathy etc. My truth is rarely black and white and is almost always a big old messy hodgepodge. Messy hodgepodge is funny and interesting but it isn't really erotic. Most erotic stories barely have a touch of truth because fantasy is more erotic than non-fiction.

oh, as god is my witness, I shall never have filterless photos again lol. As I young girl I grew up deprived of filters. It wasn't until more recent years that I was able to access such a luxury. ok, seriously yeah it is bad. That is actually how I determine my keep photos from my trash photos on my phone. it automatically saves the edited copy in a different folder. currently in that folder are pictures of me, the kid, the christmas tree, a plant, food (oh yes food gets edited), even socks and homemade shrinky dinks. I am not capable of not hitting the autofix button after taking a picture of a piece of plastic. even dirt, yes dirt got edited, so I guess my dirt is maybe smoother and brighter, I don't know. It is a compulsion. fuck, I want an autofix button for life. I'd be hitting that bitch all the time. just like with picture, I could be completely happy with it, I'd still hit that button, just so I know what could be.

yeah yeah yeah, aging is a ray of sunshine with unicorns shooting glitter out their ass.

I don't blame people for being selfish. I am selfish. I full out admit it, openly and honestly. I believe that if I actually see the very rare, true selfless altruism, it is probably a sign of mental illness. However the is a general understanding that social contracts dictates a level of benefit to all parties involved and the terms may or may not be mutually exclusive. In cases where they are mutually exclusive, then in order to maintain the contract one must utilize selfish altruism. It is the only logical option if one wishes to maintain and reap the benefits of the social contract. Entitled is more the word, like they somehow believe the contract will maintain without the desired benefit to the other party. A selfish person (like myself) would hear that something is not working in the current state and adjust to make sure their needs were being met, in order to keep my needs being met. Alternatively, let it fall apart. I am actually ok with someone choosing to let it fall apart, that bothers me not, it was not working, work outweighs the benefits, cool, I get it. It is the hounding by people to continue to meet their needs when then repeatedly ignore my statements on mine. I seriously don't get how someone believes that could possibly work in their favor.

I do appreciate selfishness shown up front as thus I fully understand the terms, and as such I am open about it. I have had long term relationships where my terms were "you know I am just using you because I really like screwing, I have no interest in a relationship, cool with that?" are my terms mutually beneficial enough, do you need me to be tied up while wearing a feathered tutu at specific intervals, or could it just not work because you need the relationship. I am perfectly fine with selfish, as long as my needs are met, and I will meet yours in order to maintain my own.

like ok, I go to work and do my job so I can get paid. That is the contract. I am not here because I like to see the company profit because I am selfless. They stop paying me, I will say hey, whats up, I am not getting paid. If they don't fix it, I stop coming. If they call me and say, hey can you come in and work but still not get paid. I say no. If they say, ok we fixed it, sure I might come back, but next pay day, I still don't get paid, and we repeat. well then when they keep calling me, no matter what they say, I will not come back, as experience dictates that they will not listen the terms I require and I will not get the benefit I was after. No amount of calling, begging, anything will recover this contract. continuing to call or beg or threaten after I said no and to stop because my terms were repeatedly violated is simply harassment and continuing to violate my terms, which are now to talk to me. It is so fucking crazy and defies all logic and yeah infuriates me because I don't get it.

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

Amazing sharing!!!

thank you

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

so, today I am sharing my socks. like my fuzzy pink flamingos. My mom actually has a big think with unique socks. She works a factory line where they make surgical equipment. so clean rooms and all that, so she has pretty much no choice of wardrobe as a way to express her individuality besides socks. So I buy her some funky pairs as park of christmas. I couldn't help buy myself this pair too.

http://i.imgur.com/u9D83FEm.jpg

anywho this was my moms favorite pair. so we both got a good laugh when I told her where I bought them (Justice). If you don't know, Justice is a store directed at Tween Girls. So we now have a 40 year old and women in her mid 50s rocking pink fuzzy flamingo socks meant for 12 year old girls.

yeah here is a picture of me shopping at Justice, Wet Seal, or Forever 21
http://i.imgur.com/ajzjdq7m.jpg

oh and today is monday, so happy movie monday. I didn't make a special one, so it is just what I happened to take a little clip of Saturday. Enjoy my mom panties.
https://www.***********/s/0filg0v268d12ke/V_20190112_1656222.mp4?dl=0

Got to love how I bury the mom panty video in a post with fuzzy flamingos and cows

 

[scotluvsoral]

so, today I am sharing my socks. like my fuzzy pink flamingos. My mom actually has a big think with unique socks. She works a factory line where they make surgical equipment. so clean rooms and all that, so she has pretty much no choice of wardrobe as a way to express her individuality besides socks. So I buy her some funky pairs as park of christmas. I couldn't help buy myself this pair too.

http://i.imgur.com/u9D83FEm.jpg

anywho this was my moms favorite pair. so we both got a good laugh when I told her where I bought them (Justice). If you don't know, Justice is a store directed at Tween Girls. So we now have a 40 year old and women in her mid 50s rocking pink fuzzy flamingo socks meant for 12 year old girls.

yeah here is a picture of me shopping at Justice, Wet Seal, or Forever 21
http://i.imgur.com/ajzjdq7m.jpg

oh and today is monday, so happy movie monday. I didn't make a special one, so it is just what I happened to take a little clip of Saturday. Enjoy my mom panties.
https://www.***********/s/0filg0v268d12ke/V_20190112_1656222.mp4?dl=0

Got to love how I bury the mom panty video in a post with fuzzy flamingos and cows

A woman orgasming is such an erotic experience...so moving!

 

[JDredd711]

so, today I am sharing my socks. like my fuzzy pink flamingos. My mom actually has a big think with unique socks. She works a factory line where they make surgical equipment. so clean rooms and all that, so she has pretty much no choice of wardrobe as a way to express her individuality besides socks. So I buy her some funky pairs as park of christmas. I couldn't help buy myself this pair too.

http://i.imgur.com/u9D83FEm.jpg

anywho this was my moms favorite pair. so we both got a good laugh when I told her where I bought them (Justice). If you don't know, Justice is a store directed at Tween Girls. So we now have a 40 year old and women in her mid 50s rocking pink fuzzy flamingo socks meant for 12 year old girls.

yeah here is a picture of me shopping at Justice, Wet Seal, or Forever 21
http://i.imgur.com/ajzjdq7m.jpg

oh and today is monday, so happy movie monday. I didn't make a special one, so it is just what I happened to take a little clip of Saturday. Enjoy my mom panties.
https://www.***********/s/0filg0v268d12ke/V_20190112_1656222.mp4?dl=0

Got to love how I bury the mom panty video in a post with fuzzy flamingos and cows

That video is so hawt!!!

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

A woman orgasming is such an erotic experience...so moving!

thanks, and my post was very mooing too

That video is so hawt!!!

thanks, holy cow, right.


yeah I am totally going to see how long I can keep cow punning because well I don't know, I can.

 

[Joxlrg]

LOL.. Even Cow Punning sounds funny!!!

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

LOL.. Even Cow Punning sounds funny!!!

yes, I find cow punning quite amoosing

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

Thank you for the mom panties video.

You are welcome. though to be honest, I swear my videos really start to seem like a constant case of Deja-moo to me. same thing just a slightly different setting

 

[Joxlrg]

Thanks for helping me MILK my day!!

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

Thanks for helping me MILK my day!!

milk, does a body good

 

[Adre]

You are welcome. though to be honest, I swear my videos really start to seem like a constant case of Deja-moo to me. same thing just a slightly different setting

I cud see how you think that.

 

[Joxlrg]

Darn sure did yours good..
BTW.. I have read and do comprehend your posts.
I do understand your comments and feel it very refreshing to here such open honesty about feelings however those feelings are.
My fav after catching up from the weekend still has to be trying to compare Your northern upbringing and redneck bumblefuck to proper english.. I was going to comment but refrained as my thoughts have been possibly mistaken as of late..
Just know that you put a smile on my face and its refreshing to have your comments back.
It is your thread and you can post whatever you wish. I hope that you dont feel pressure by anyone to post more or more often that you wish to.. I would rather have posts your way than not at all..

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

I cud see how you think that.

I know, right. like I totally need some new ideas for mooooovie monday. but then I end up with sharks. well statistically speaking cows are more dangerous than sharks.

Darn sure did yours good..
BTW.. I have read and do comprehend your posts.
I do understand your comments and feel it very refreshing to here such open honesty about feelings however those feelings are.
My fav after catching up from the weekend still has to be trying to compare Your northern upbringing and redneck bumblefuck to proper english.. I was going to comment but refrained as my thoughts have been possibly mistaken as of late..
Just know that you put a smile on my face and its refreshing to have your comments back.
It is your thread and you can post whatever you wish. I hope that you dont feel pressure by anyone to post more or more often that you wish to.. I would rather have posts your way than not at all..

well my rants are udderly awesome.

now I am curious what was mistaken about your thoughts. inquiring minds want to know.
Also happy to bring a small, world needs more of it. Oh and erections, always happy to bring erections, I need more of it.

if I do feel pressure here, as in the thread, it is in my head. but I will say in some ways my thread is tied to my messaging. so like i feel bad coming to my thread and not looking at my messages here or elsewhere, especially since 99% of my messages don't bother me, some I really enjoy, but ya know there is always going to be that one. so yeah, I struggle with the range of excitement, mundane, dread, and rage.

 

[Shadow701]

Thanks for sharing your panties! I must say, I am a "huge" fan and love everything you post....even when it is well hidden with cows and socks!

 

[Joxlrg]

Well maybe the mistaken comment thing is all just.... Bull... In my head. However I greatly respect and cherish the woman to which they were directed to.. And I certainly would never wish to offend her at all.
The one thing Lit is not good at is showing a persons face when they see and comment to a persons post. If only she could see the feelings through my eyes when I comment.. Oh well.. Perhaps one day we can do that..LOL
That and Smellovision.. I sure wish when seeing other peoples food I could smell it also..
Told ya.. Im weird!!

 

[JDredd711]

Not falling for the cow puns, since you are so NOT a cow. Its udderly shameless to make such a comparison...