Let love in...

[rubydlite]

and put a teeny tiny door in your big, giant wall.

This isn't a post for me to to talk about myself...but I will for a second.
A brief History...Once upon a time I fell in love with a man...more than I had with anyone online or in my everyday life. I was ruined for anyone else, consumed ...and when it ended (whatever our definition of it was) I cried and felt gutted for almost a year. A YEAR .....
His words...I never meant to hurt you...my words. You may love a butterfly and want to hold it, but kill it it the process.
I'm not placing any blame. ..just stating how I felt.

I read a post somewhere by someone and I felt the grief through the screen of my phone as I read her words.

This is not a post about ghosting, or lieing, or any of the debates about real vs not real so please don't bring it up.

This is a post about love. How it feels real to you and how you need to let it back in...any version that works for you.


So...back to my point in summary.
I loved a man more than ever.
I lost him.
I put the biggest baddest rule bound wall around me....and I stopped living life.
I stopped loving. I love to show love and I stopped.

I read THE post ...and I cried for her because she'll do the same.
BUT...put a door in your wall and someone will just sneak in when you least expect it.

Someone, I've casually known for a long time, found my door last week (don't be pervs). One comment and he broke through...
Will it be a fling, will it go down in flames or will we grow old together? Who the fuck knows. But I forgot how much I love to love and I will try to never deny myself that again.

So....
Build your walls if you must...but let love in.

 

[rubydlite]

All welcome...wall builders and wall breakers. Soft shoulders to cry on and a place to heal...friends to help you build a door!

 

[OldUncleJack]

what a beautiful post - so pleased for you Ruby!

 

[rubydlite]

what a beautiful post - so pleased for you Ruby!

Thank you. I'm happy for me too, but mostly I just wanted to tell those adding one more brick, I understand, I hear you, but don't give up.

 

[Sexybritches69]

I love this. Thank you for sharing this.

 

[rubydlite]

I love this. Thank you for sharing this.

You are very welcome ❤

 

[SoulAssasin247]

and put a teeny tiny door in your big, giant wall.

This isn't a post for me to to talk about myself...but I will for a second.
A brief History...Once upon a time I fell in love with a man...more than I had with anyone online or in my everyday life. I was ruined for anyone else, consumed ...and when it ended (whatever our definition of it was) I cried and felt gutted for almost a year. A YEAR .....
His words...I never meant to hurt you...my words. You may love a butterfly and want to hold it, but kill it it the process.
I'm not placing any blame. ..just stating how I felt.

I read a post somewhere by someone and I felt the grief through the screen of my phone as I read her words.

This is not a post about ghosting, or lieing, or any of the debates about real vs not real so please don't bring it up.

This is a post about love. How it feels real to you and how you need to let it back in...any version that works for you.


So...back to my point in summary.
I loved a man more than ever.
I lost him.
I put the biggest baddest rule bound wall around me....and I stopped living life.
I stopped loving. I love to show love and I stopped.

I read THE post ...and I cried for her because she'll do the same.
BUT...put a door in your wall and someone will just sneak in when you least expect it.

Someone, I've casually known for a long time, found my door last week (don't be pervs). One comment and he broke through...
Will it be a fling, will it go down in flames or will we grow old together? Who the fuck knows. But I forgot how much I love to love and I will try to never deny myself that again.

So....
Build your walls if you must...but let love in.

Love your post and I am truly happy for you.

 

[rubydlite]

Love your post and I am truly happy for you.

Thank you. Again...it could be a disaster...lol but I forgot I would rather love fully even if it meant getting hurt, than never loving at all.
*cue the cheesy music

 

[LostGirlTink]

and put a teeny tiny door in your big, giant wall.

This isn't a post for me to to talk about myself...but I will for a second.
A brief History...Once upon a time I fell in love with a man...more than I had with anyone online or in my everyday life. I was ruined for anyone else, consumed ...and when it ended (whatever our definition of it was) I cried and felt gutted for almost a year. A YEAR .....
His words...I never meant to hurt you...my words. You may love a butterfly and want to hold it, but kill it it the process.
I'm not placing any blame. ..just stating how I felt.

I read a post somewhere by someone and I felt the grief through the screen of my phone as I read her words.

This is not a post about ghosting, or lieing, or any of the debates about real vs not real so please don't bring it up.

This is a post about love. How it feels real to you and how you need to let it back in...any version that works for you.


So...back to my point in summary.
I loved a man more than ever.
I lost him.
I put the biggest baddest rule bound wall around me....and I stopped living life.
I stopped loving. I love to show love and I stopped.

I read THE post ...and I cried for her because she'll do the same.
BUT...put a door in your wall and someone will just sneak in when you least expect it.

Someone, I've casually known for a long time, found my door last week (don't be pervs). One comment and he broke through...
Will it be a fling, will it go down in flames or will we grow old together? Who the fuck knows. But I forgot how much I love to love and I will try to never deny myself that again.

So....
Build your walls if you must...but let love in.

Your post spoke to me as if it was written for me.

Thank you. Again...it could be a disaster...lol but I forgot I would rather love fully even if it meant getting hurt, than never loving at all.
*cue the cheesy music

I've been saying that a lot "It could be a disaster"

but then there's the part of me that whispers "But what if it's not"

 

[rubydlite]

Your post spoke to me as if it was written for me.


I've been saying that a lot "It could be a disaster"

but then there's the part of me that whispers "But what if it's not"

Awwww thank you. I'm glad it resonates ❤

"But what if it's not"...exactly!!!


It's like starving ourselves because we've eaten one bad apple.
So I say....Eat!

 

[SoulAssasin247]

Thank you. Again...it could be a disaster...lol but I forgot I would rather love fully even if it meant getting hurt, than never loving at all.
*cue the cheesy music

It's true, when loving you take a risk in trusting that person with the greatest treasure you can give, your heart. It' can be the greatest love or horrible pain, but just because it doesn't work out, doesn't mean you can't roll the dice and get what you deserve

 

[rubydlite]

It's true, when loving you take a risk in trusting that person with the greatest treasure you can give, your heart. It' can be the greatest love or horrible pain, but just because it doesn't work out, doesn't mean you can't roll the dice and get what you deserve

True story...I'm rolling!
https://fat.gfycat.com/CluelessDefinitiveBongo.gif

 

[DarkSimian]

Me and my weird brain: I'm thinking "Fortress Around Your Heart" by Sting

 

[rubydlite]

Me and my weird brain: I'm thinking "Fortress Around Your Heart" by Sting

Nothing weird about it!

 

[Angedesoleil]

*posts a like and moves on quietly*

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qgcb0e-pCmM

~Thanks S.A.

 

[SoulAssasin247]

True story...I'm rolling!
https://fat.gfycat.com/CluelessDefinitiveBongo.gif

That's right, you have to be in it to win it

 

[ExiledWelshman]

I would like to let love in.

I've got a lot of hurt still going on.

Don't get me wrong I can feel genuine, fierce affection and protection for someone.

But the L word... Scares me a bit now.

If Love wants to be let in it needs to stand outside my house with a boom box held above its head.

And that's just for starters.

 

[SoulAssasin247]

*posts a like and moves on quietly*

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qgcb0e-pCmM

~Thanks S.A.

No problem

 

[rubydlite]

*posts a like and moves on quietly*

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qgcb0e-pCmM

~Thanks S.A.

Feel free to stay. And let them in your house!

That's right, you have to be in it to win it

Well I'm in it anyway lol

 

[LostGirlTink]

I would like to let love in.

I've got a lot of hurt still going on.

Don't get me wrong I can feel genuine, fierce affection and protection for someone.

But the L word... Scares me a bit now.

If Love wants to be let in it needs to stand outside my house with a boom box held above its head.

And that's just for starters.

Fucking boombox that shit. Yes.
https://vignette.wikia.nocookie.net/warehouse-13-artifact-database/images/d/d5/Boombox_say_anythin.jpg/revision/latest?cb=20160709125601

And yeah. The L word gives me actual panic attacks sometimes. Even the idea of it. It's not just you.
But sometimes... you need to remember that it's actually a pretty beautiful thing.

 

[Smoothshavendad]

and put a teeny tiny door in your big, giant wall.

This isn't a post for me to to talk about myself...but I will for a second.
A brief History...Once upon a time I fell in love with a man...more than I had with anyone online or in my everyday life. I was ruined for anyone else, consumed ...and when it ended (whatever our definition of it was) I cried and felt gutted for almost a year. A YEAR .....
His words...I never meant to hurt you...my words. You may love a butterfly and want to hold it, but kill it it the process.
I'm not placing any blame. ..just stating how I felt.

I read a post somewhere by someone and I felt the grief through the screen of my phone as I read her words.

This is not a post about ghosting, or lieing, or any of the debates about real vs not real so please don't bring it up.

This is a post about love. How it feels real to you and how you need to let it back in...any version that works for you.


So...back to my point in summary.
I loved a man more than ever.
I lost him.
I put the biggest baddest rule bound wall around me....and I stopped living life.
I stopped loving. I love to show love and I stopped.

I read THE post ...and I cried for her because she'll do the same.
BUT...put a door in your wall and someone will just sneak in when you least expect it.

Someone, I've casually known for a long time, found my door last week (don't be pervs). One comment and he broke through...
Will it be a fling, will it go down in flames or will we grow old together? Who the fuck knows. But I forgot how much I love to love and I will try to never deny myself that again.

So....
Build your walls if you must...but let love in.

I don’t know why men leave your life, but reading this post, it’s easy to tell why they chose to enter it. Your words show your tender soul so eloquently. Thank you for sharing so honestly. I wish you luck and much love on your journey.

 

[ExiledWelshman]

Fucking boombox that shit. Yes.
https://vignette.wikia.nocookie.net/warehouse-13-artifact-database/images/d/d5/Boombox_say_anythin.jpg/revision/latest?cb=20160709125601

And yeah. The L word gives me actual panic attacks sometimes. Even the idea of it. It's not just you.

Thanks Tink

 

[rubydlite]

Hey Ruby, I’m sorry someone broke your heart, but if I could be so brazen as to add that We need more love in this world and a whole lot less death and destruction! And Not just romantic love, either. Just good, honest, selfless love with no hope of getting anything in return. The world would be a better place if everyone approached humanity that way.

Don't be too sorry for me. It was a long time ago. It was a deliberate break of my heart but a culmination of emotions and realizations and bla De bla bla bla...lol
But its true. ..just love in whatever way you can. I've held so many people at arms length because I fall in love easily. Not always in a sexual way...i care very deeply if you are in my life in any way.Some people find it scary but I don't care anymore.

I would like to let love in.
I've got a lot of hurt still going on.

Don't get me wrong I can feel genuine, fierce affection and protection for someone.

But the L word... Scares me a bit now.

If Love wants to be let in it needs to stand outside my house with a boom box held above its head.

And that's just for starters.

You can hurt for as long as you need to. It's a healing process. And the L word is just a thing we attach to those feelings. Call it whatever you like but continue to embrace it. If the hurt becomes too much come here and we will cheer you up with fluffy kitties and ice cream.

I also realized that love for me, does not have to be mutual. If I love someone I'm saying it. They don't have to say it back. I just want to embrace my own feelings and share them.

 

[PuckIt]

Rubydlite...

*sigh*

In my own world, I've got some stuff. I won't hijack your thread to discuss it since it's out there for anyone with even a modicum of curiosity to find.

All I will say is this; in my own recent experiences, I've come to find that a life without allowing myself to care was surviving more than living. And I owe it a sneaky Little One that somehow wormed her way through a chink in the cast iron sheathed stone walls I'd built around my own heart that I've come back from surviving to actually live. A little.

Ironically, she didn't want me to love her as much as I've come to. Nor does she return the feeling, at least that she will admit.


But, yeah, Rubydlite. I know what you mean. I'm not necessarily in it to win it, not anything specific any road. But, I am in it for whatever it is. And I'm skydiving again.

Any road, good on you for answering the knock at your heart's door.

 

[makemewet69]

I can relate. Cj felt like home to me, he was my rock, my lover, my best friend, etc. when things ended I didn’t handle it well. At all. Even now, I’m still heartbroken. I’ll never love someone the way I loved him again. What we had was too special. I hold those memories in a very special place, locked up, and only I have the key. Ugh, just typing about it now I’m in tears. We’ve both moved on, I’m getting married this fall to a great man whom I love very very much. But there will always be a special place in my heart and soul for Cj.

Breakups hurt. They suck, they suck bad. I’m just glad we’re able to maintain some level of friendship.

It was hard for me to move on, I didn’t want to and I certainly wasn’t looking for it when my now fiancé asked me out on a date. Then two months later he proposed. My heart wasn’t healed, I don’t know that it ever will be, but I do love my fiancé and I know he loves me.