The Straight Guys that Fantasize about Cock Club! Part 2

I arranged to meet a younger man after chatting via email for a couple of weeks. My hope and intention would have been another novice married man such as myself but that seemed as though it was never going to happen. The guy I met (in a public place near to and then to his place) is an experienced gay man. Apart from that not being my ideal in terms of preference he had quite a hairy body and enjoys kissing. It was never my intention to kiss a man but I went with the flow for his sake. He was going to let me suck his cock after all.

Long and short of it is that, without going into the full details, we sucked each other endlessly. I discovered I have a weak gag reflex so it was rather fortunate for my first that he had quite a small cock. Problem is I was so nervous, actually shaking like a kitten, that I was unable to raise a full hard on (this had been a concern of mine due to nerves) and, although leaking pre cum like a tap, managed only a fairly weak semi which as time progressed seemed to get worse as I began suffering performance anxieties. Just my fucking luck I thought!! Anyway as much as I was determined to get him off his concern was for me bless him and neither of us had an orgasm!

So yes, I have sucked my first cock just yesterday morning. Did I enjoy it? Well given the above it might surprise you to hear that I did but with reservations due to the issues indicated. Will I do it again? I have to, I really want to but I got so pissed off with myself for failing to relax. He wants to see me again but I think I need a man who doesn't want to kiss and isn't so hairy. It's strange because I have always shied away from the idea of being with a gay man and when invited in the past on different sites I have declined. The reason being that I have always felt I would be a disappointment to an experienced and/or gay man. Yesterday may have suggested I was right and getting it on with another novice might have been so much easier as both of us would be experimenting together and perhaps would feel less pressure to 'perform' to a 'standard'.

I don't know but there you have the details of my first experience for what it's worth.

Don't be surprised to see this copied and pasted to similar threads on Lit.

Congratulations on taking the first step. Hopefully your nerves will settle next time allowing you to enjoy the whole experience much more, I know that it took a couple of attempts for me.
 
without going into the full details, we sucked each other endlessly. I discovered I have a weak gag reflex so it was rather fortunate for my first that he had quite a small cock. Problem is I was so nervous, actually shaking like a kitten, that I was unable to raise a full hard on (this had been a concern of mine due to nerves) and, although leaking pre cum like a tap, managed only a fairly weak semi which as time progressed seemed to get worse as I began suffering performance anxieties. Just my fucking luck I thought!! Anyway as much as I was determined to get him off his concern was for me bless him and neither of us had an orgasm!

That's without going into the details?! ;) Don't hold back on my account!

So yes, I have sucked my first cock just yesterday morning. Did I enjoy it? Well given the above it might surprise you to hear that I did but with reservations due to the issues indicated. Will I do it again? I have to, I really want to but I got so pissed off with myself for failing to relax. He wants to see me again but I think I need a man who doesn't want to kiss and isn't so hairy. It's strange because I have always shied away from the idea of being with a gay man and when invited in the past on different sites I have declined. The reason being that I have always felt I would be a disappointment to an experienced and/or gay man. Yesterday may have suggested I was right and getting it on with another novice might have been so much easier as both of us would be experimenting together and perhaps would feel less pressure to 'perform' to a 'standard'.

I don't know but there you have the details of my first experience for what it's worth.

Don't be surprised to see this copied and pasted to similar threads on Lit.

Happy for you! I'm betting your nerves only have to do with it having been your first time, not so much that he was experienced gay. He knows you're mostly straight, right? Talk to him about the kissing. (It's a peculiar contradiction, isn't it, that we get skeevy about the intimacy of kissing, but will put our mouths on cocks!)
 
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Congratulations on taking the first step. Hopefully your nerves will settle next time allowing you to enjoy the whole experience much more, I know that it took a couple of attempts for me.
Thank you. I hope the nerves will settle because I most definitely want to go for it again. I really want to be a cock sucker ;-)

Happy for you! I'm betting your nerves only have to do with it being your first time, not so much that he was experienced gay. He knows you're mostly straight, right? Talk to him about the kissing. (It's a peculiar contradiction, isn't it, that we get skeevy about the intimacy of kissing, but will put our mouths on cocks!)
He is certainly aware I'm straight. We spent a good while in email chat and he knows my love for my wife for sure. LOL at your last but sort of understand where you're coming from. He is a lovely gentle man. I think I need a bit more of a take charge kind of guy. Not in an aggressive manner but maybe telling me to "put it in your mouth and suck me" as opposed to "are you okay. Want to do more" in his lovely gentle way. Not sure that makes sense to you. Although had he been only a tad too take charge it may have frightened me off. Probably not explaining myself adequately but anybody contemplating getting into sucking cock or has very recently done it will I think understand. Who knows but there it is.
 
Thank you. In the right circumstances I will try again. I certainly want to.

Was certainly an interesting story...

And I too would be interested in sucking a more masculine cock...

Thanks for sharing your experiences.
 
Was certainly an interesting story...

And I too would be interested in sucking a more masculine cock...

Thanks for sharing your experiences.

No worries. If it helps anybody thinking about setting out on the same journey then good news. If it also helps somebody in a similar situation as I was in then it might help him to understand that he isn't alone in that it may not be all sugar and roses first time out.

I certainly wasn't trying to brag that I have sucked cock and big myself up in any way. All I would say is that if you are truly thinking about it then find the where with all and try to make it happen for you on your own terms.
Good luck.
 
No worries. If it helps anybody thinking about setting out on the same journey then good news. If it also helps somebody in a similar situation as I was in then it might help him to understand that he isn't alone in that it may not be all sugar and roses first time out.

I certainly wasn't trying to brag that I have sucked cock and big myself up in any way. All I would say is that if you are truly thinking about it then find the where with all and try to make it happen for you on your own terms.
Good luck.

The thought has crossed my mind a time or two. The problem is I'm so picky he'd had to be a super model, lol. Fit and smooth all over would be required......and hopefully hung as well. If the chance ever arises, who knows what I may do.

Thanks for the detailed story of your experience. It was very fun to read :)
 
I have a new story up called, "Mike, Helen, and Hannah" that's on this theme. It's about an 18-year old guy, who thinks of himself as entirely straight, who is bribed with sexual favors from two women into having oral sex with his gay best friend. Here's a link:

https://www.literotica.com/s/mike-helen-and-hannah

Hope you'll post a comment if you like it.

I should say, though, that this story has just as much straight sex as gay sex. I wanted to put it in First Time, since that's what it is, but the editors decided to put it in gay instead....

I enjoyed that one, are there more chapters to come?
 
Thank you. I hope the nerves will settle because I most definitely want to go for it again. I really want to be a cock sucker ;-)


He is certainly aware I'm straight. We spent a good while in email chat and he knows my love for my wife for sure. LOL at your last but sort of understand where you're coming from. He is a lovely gentle man. I think I need a bit more of a take charge kind of guy. Not in an aggressive manner but maybe telling me to "put it in your mouth and suck me" as opposed to "are you okay. Want to do more" in his lovely gentle way. Not sure that makes sense to you. Although had he been only a tad too take charge it may have frightened me off. Probably not explaining myself adequately but anybody contemplating getting into sucking cock or has very recently done it will I think understand. Who knows but there it is.

Everybody is entitled to their own tastes. Just realize that you can pigeon yourself into a corner where few men meet your standards to the point that you end up being frustrated. Likewise someone cannot read your mind, so you kind of have to tell them what you want.

If your adamant that you don't want to kiss, and this is a one time encounter, just tell him you are concerned that you have the early signs of a cold, and don't want to pass it on. However, to be honest, I'll never understand the taboo on kissing. People kiss who do not love each other, and other s only kill if they are in love. I'll never forget unfaithful gay guys who loved to suck and get fucked on the side. I seriously felt like asking them: So your love will despise you if he smells another man's spit intermingled with yours, but cum breath or a cummy asshole are acceptable if your lover finds out?

Also, be thankful that the guy was considerate. There are plenty who are not. Had he been the take charge kind of guy, but then he took too long or was to hung for what you wanted to do, would you still want him to take charge when it was past comfortable? Now if one day you are really experienced and know your limits, then you can worry less about the kind gentlemen, but until you get more experience under your belt, just be thankful you had someone who put your needs first on your first experience. Realize that when a decent guy has sex with a virgin man (just as with a virgin woman), there is pressure on HIM to make sure they enjoy it. For decent guys, worse than not getting off, is feeling like your partner may have made a mistake choosing you as her/his first. He may not have had erection problems, but I'd be willing to bet that he was very nervous if he knew it was your first time.

Also do realize that levels of sexual aggressiveness to vary even within the individual. It can depend on his mood, and how long it has been since the last orgasm. I pride myself on being a gentleman, but I am no saint. Examples:

a) My most shameful experience was after a so called partner had all but ditched me. I went out cruising and was determined just to "get off" to prove I could get someone else. I found someone all alone in the darkest part of the wooded park. I let him suck me for a while, but then I finally jacked off in his mouth and then I left. (99.9% of cock suckers cannot get me off thus the final jack off. Oral sex just is not intense enough to satisfy me to the point of orgasm. Perhaps if a man had no teeth, and could hold his breath for a couple of minutes. I just don't know. Regardless, there are simply times, that making love to a man's ass just isn't in the cards -- as was the case that night...)

I just used this stranger in the dark to get off and to prove a point that I too could just mess around casually. I wasn't violent nor mean to this guy; I was just focused on getting off for my own gratification only. The guy I "used" could have been anybody. He just happened to be the one at that place and time.

Well about 6 months later, I was so depressed about my relationships with men, as my luck in having some one special was going absolutely no where. So I had determined that I was going straight. I had a 3 part plan: a) see if I could fuck a woman. b) make sure I was fertile. c) go find a wife and start a family.

Well I had passed "a". It wasn't as hot as fucking a man, but neither was it gross. My biggest complaint was that it was so loose. Fucking a man is more intense because of the muscles at the asshole. Now, perhaps the fact that the woman I practiced with was middle aged and a mother could have affected her tightness. Plus I was nervous that her husband would change his mind and not want me fucking her in his presence... Nevertheless, it was time for the next step...

Now on step "b", I was having problems. I seemed to have a very low sperm count. So they finally did a biopsy, and I was waiting a few days for the results. I really was fed up with men as it seemed like they were so fickle and moody -- claiming they cared one moment, then the next moment they would turn around and get it on with anybody. (Funniest thing is that I don't recall a single one of them having a sex drive as strong as mine.) So anyway, I was in church, and even lit a candle praying for the biopsy to show that there was something fixable with my very low sperm count. Then suddenly this nervous, awkard, skinny, older, plain and unattractive man approached me. He knelt beside me, and whispered to me how wonderful I was - that I had been a God send to him. I had been the very first human being to have sex with him. I was completely caught off guard and had no idea what he was talking about. I was a closet case, and there was no way I would have picked him to have sex with as he wasn't my type. Thank goodness no one else was in the church to her him whisper to me... Anyway, he explained more details: He had been the man in the dark woods...

Here I was with a lit candle, on my knees, praying to God to be fertile so I could leave men behind since they had been so unfaithful and disrespectful to me. Yet beside me I was confronted by the fact that I too had been disrespectful to this man, yet he was PRAISING me. How ironic, and I felt so ashamed. I had only used that man as a cum dump. How could something so meaningless to me, have meant so much to him? I truly hope that if I did anything for him it was to get him to realize that he was entitled to have sex and could have sex, but should do it with someone who truly cared about him.

Now I wish I could say that after that experience all my sexual encounters could be considered putting the other person first. They were not all that way, but it was the beginning to realize that every time you have sex with an asshole, pussy, mouth, hand, etc., you are having sex with another human being. It isn't necessarily about giving every partner a engagement ring and then a weding ring, but realize that there is a heart and feelings behind whatever body part you crave. Again, I didn't learn this lesson over night, but this was the biggest slap in the face (Karma, God, whatever) that I ever had. There was nothing they could fix about my infertility. Part of me felt that I deserved to be infertile... I wanted so bad to have a son to prove that there wasn't something in my genes that made father/son relationships horrible as they had been between me and my dad, and between him and his father, etc. I also had only known one man who had ever loved me for who I was (my maternal grandpa -- nothing sexual in case you were wondering). I figured if m2m sex could never be about real love, then at least having children I would have a family to love. If the straight sex wasn't the greatest, I could always take matters into my own hands, if you get my drift.

I was going to give other examples, but I've written way too much. I have no idea what was behind your first partner's mindset, but I hope you see the good in him even if you don't want to have sex with him again. Who knows what could have influenced the man he was at the time you met. Maybe he was always considerate, or maybe like me he became considerate over the years after realizing that there is more to another human being than treating him as just a personal cum dump.

After all, more intoxicating than even reaching an orgasm inside a man, is having that man feeling that you chose HIM to absorb your cum, because HE was special and mattered to you.
 
Respect

After all, more intoxicating than even reaching an orgasm inside a man, is having that man feeling that you chose HIM to absorb your cum, because HE was special and mattered to you.

A lovely, wise post. Thank you. I told my son, "I do not care whether you choose boys, girls, or both. All I ask is that you respect those with whom you have sex."
 
The thought has crossed my mind a time or two. The problem is I'm so picky he'd had to be a super model, lol. Fit and smooth all over would be required......and hopefully hung as well. If the chance ever arises, who knows what I may do.

Mmmmmmm........I hear you on that. I think You're my guy! :):devil: LOL
 
I want to join the club

Thank you. I hope the nerves will settle because I most definitely want to go for it again. I really want to be a cock sucker ;-)


He is certainly aware I'm straight. We spent a good while in email chat and he knows my love for my wife for sure. LOL at your last but sort of understand where you're coming from. He is a lovely gentle man. I think I need a bit more of a take charge kind of guy. Not in an aggressive manner but maybe telling me to "put it in your mouth and suck me" as opposed to "are you okay. Want to do more" in his lovely gentle way. Not sure that makes sense to you. Although had he been only a tad too take charge it may have frightened me off. Probably not explaining myself adequately but anybody contemplating getting into sucking cock or has very recently done it will I think understand. Who knows but there it is.


I like your post and what you have to say here...I have not yet experienced sucking another guy's cock...yet... However, I too would like to suck someone who is "...Not in an aggressive manner but maybe telling me to "put it in your mouth and suck me" "..." I think I would enjoy being gently submissive, if that makes sense, to someone who's cock I want in my mouth.

And for me, you explained yourself quite nicely and I do understand ;)
 
Count me in

I've fantasied so much about sucking a cock that even though I've never done it, I just know I'd be such a good cocksucker. Unlike women that have blown me countless times as if they were doing me a favor, I'd treat a cock that I was sucking as if it was doing me the favor. I'd completely worship a man's cock, balls, ass, nipples, legs, feet etc.
Went through my whole life never thinking about sucking a cock, except sucking my own just to get off without all the female drama, and now I think of nothing else. Strange thing is that I never see men in everyday life and think about their cocks or anything sexual about them.

I'm definitely a member of this club!:kiss:
 
I've fantasied so much about sucking a cock that even though I've never done it, I just know I'd be such a good cocksucker. Unlike women that have blown me countless times as if they were doing me a favor, I'd treat a cock that I was sucking as if it was doing me the favor. I'd completely worship a man's cock, balls, ass, nipples, legs, feet etc.
Went through my whole life never thinking about sucking a cock, except sucking my own just to get off without all the female drama, and now I think of nothing else. Strange thing is that I never see men in everyday life and think about their cocks or anything sexual about them.

I'm definitely a member of this club!:kiss:

I feel the same way, it's like I'd like to make love to a cock with my mouth. I don't get the same feeling from the wife. She just does it because I like it.
 
Hi All

I always come back to this thread, but I'm the flip side of the coin, I constantly fantasise about having my cock sucked by a man, although I don't have a desire to do it in return, which may come across as very selfish. I hope not! The reason I often come back here with cock in hand, is to imagine a guy who has a desire to suck my cock.

As a few others have pointed out, I have yet to meet a woman who seems to want to do it purely because she enjoys the feeling, its always a 'favour'.

Whereas it appers many guys really get off on sucking cock, and god that turns me on. I fantasise about one (or more) guys sucking my cock from flaccid to erect, and then jerking and sucking me until I come, but then not stopping, and making me hard and making me come over and over until I was drained dry. Oh wow.
 
I always come back to this thread, but I'm the flip side of the coin, I constantly fantasise about having my cock sucked by a man, although I don't have a desire to do it in return, which may come across as very selfish. I hope not! The reason I often come back here with cock in hand, is to imagine a guy who has a desire to suck my cock.

As a few others have pointed out, I have yet to meet a woman who seems to want to do it purely because she enjoys the feeling, its always a 'favour'.

Whereas it appers many guys really get off on sucking cock, and god that turns me on. I fantasise about one (or more) guys sucking my cock from flaccid to erect, and then jerking and sucking me until I come, but then not stopping, and making me hard and making me come over and over until I was drained dry. Oh wow.

So, are you saying the line to do this for you starts over here? That's a hot fantasy and you are right, when the person gets off on performing an act for you it's more of a turn on for you both.
 
not alone

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I think we all need strategies to help us go through with it! I love cock but feel no desire or excitement to be with men.

What excites me is to dress as a girl and try feel what she feels to be in lingerie and anticipating the thrill of pleasuring men...
 
I always come back to this thread, but I'm the flip side of the coin, I constantly fantasise about having my cock sucked by a man, although I don't have a desire to do it in return, which may come across as very selfish. I hope not! The reason I often come back here with cock in hand, is to imagine a guy who has a desire to suck my cock.

As a few others have pointed out, I have yet to meet a woman who seems to want to do it purely because she enjoys the feeling, its always a 'favour'.

Whereas it appers many guys really get off on sucking cock, and god that turns me on. I fantasise about one (or more) guys sucking my cock from flaccid to erect, and then jerking and sucking me until I come, but then not stopping, and making me hard and making me come over and over until I was drained dry. Oh wow.

I fantasise about sucking guys off until they give up.
 
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