Never to Have a Chance...

[sirgary]

 

[SexSweetheart]

to be with that special person who would turn my life around

 

[Krystal_Diva]

Yes I can totally relate to this.

I met a man, he was charming , lovely , funny, he gave me so muh attention , he made me feel like I was the only girl he could see....then after a while he became distant. I couldn't understand it.

It was only after I learned he was married, despite him telling me he wasn't. It hurt like hell, but you will get over it. The important thing is that you need to remember not all men are the same.

Take care xx

 

[BlackWolf65]

I apologize for reviving this ancient thread. I hope that whspr doesn't mind too much.

What I'm feeling right now seems to fit here, so here goes...

It was ten years. Actually, it was exactly ten years, just a few weeks ago. And then, a few days ago…

I lost everything.

Oh, not like that – I still have a place to live, I still have an income, I still have food. But still… The other day, I lost everything…

I have waited for the moment that you would be free for so long.

Ten years…

And it finally came. And went.

And it took you with it…

I’ve known, I suppose, for some time now. Things changed, subtly. A difference in your tone. A change in the way you signed your messages. How it took days, even weeks, for you to see a message from me.

And of course, “There’s something I need to talk to you about.”

Ten years, and now you’ve gone away…

My strength, my steadfastness, my stubbornness have all gone.

I am broken…

And I don’t think I can mend this time…

 

[BlackWolf65]

One more, then I need to get out of this place...

Why am I back here in this place again…?

I suppose because this is the place where it all began. The Den… The Grove…

“I double-dog dare ya!”

Then there was a road trip.

And I was never the same.

I shouldn’t be here, I know… It’s actually pretty stupid and pathetic. Seriously, at my age, I’ve returned to the place we met, the better to torture myself with what might have been.

See? Pathetic…

But it’s safe for me here, too. No one knows me here any longer. Most of the people I know haven’t been active in this place for years. And if they do see me, I don’t care – I have nothing to hide from those who know us.

And I know that it’s almost completely outside the realm of possibility that I’ll see you here again.

Not now. Not since… Well, yeah…

So I’ve come to let my guard down for a little while. To let myself hurt.

To cry, I suppose…

In all the years that I’ve known you, this is the one thing that was able to blind-side me. Yes, I knew something had changed in the last year – and perhaps, I just didn’t want to know the truth. But it remains a fact that this…

This was the last thing I expected to hear you say to me.

It will take time for me to accept, a lot of time. So much time, so much time…

And so many bridges burned.

Now my fear is that after all this time… I won’t know how to make my way back. And I’m trying not to think about it, but… Have you ever consciously tried to not think about something?

Exercise in futility.

I can’t turn it off…

Fuck but I miss you so much…

 

[Azuldrgon]

Have you ever met someone and things just really clicked?
You think this is the person who can change your life. You
fall in love and things are going perfect....

Then with one sentence, the whole thing changes. Without a
chance to really explain, he just backs up and says ...no can do.
You bare your soul to him...but he doesn't hear what you
really said.

I hope you never have to hear that....it hurts like hell. Maybe
the best thing to do would be....build up walls and don't let anyone close. This hurts too bad.

whspr

I have fucked up many times it's true.
It's really easy to do.
I start something good
As I wish I could
And it all turns into poo.

I have walls I put up around me
Some people don't get to see
what I try to hide
cause I keep it inside
so some could never hurt me.

But lately I've been tryin to do more
So I'm not just a hug whore
I try to bare
to anyone that cares
It's the effort i am striving for.

 

[Azuldrgon]

One more, then I need to get out of this place...

Why am I back here in this place again…?

I suppose because this is the place where it all began. The Den… The Grove…

“I double-dog dare ya!”

Then there was a road trip.

And I was never the same.

I shouldn’t be here, I know… It’s actually pretty stupid and pathetic. Seriously, at my age, I’ve returned to the place we met, the better to torture myself with what might have been.

See? Pathetic…

But it’s safe for me here, too. No one knows me here any longer. Most of the people I know haven’t been active in this place for years. And if they do see me, I don’t care – I have nothing to hide from those who know us.

And I know that it’s almost completely outside the realm of possibility that I’ll see you here again.

Not now. Not since… Well, yeah…

So I’ve come to let my guard down for a little while. To let myself hurt.

To cry, I suppose…

In all the years that I’ve known you, this is the one thing that was able to blind-side me. Yes, I knew something had changed in the last year – and perhaps, I just didn’t want to know the truth. But it remains a fact that this…

This was the last thing I expected to hear you say to me.

It will take time for me to accept, a lot of time. So much time, so much time…

And so many bridges burned.

Now my fear is that after all this time… I won’t know how to make my way back. And I’m trying not to think about it, but… Have you ever consciously tried to not think about something?

Exercise in futility.

I can’t turn it off…

Fuck but I miss you so much…

I'm sorry, old friend.
I wish i could say something to ease the pain.
All I can do is offer prayers for you to find peace.

 

[BlackWolf65]

I'm sorry, old friend.

Azuldrgon...

**BRO HUGS**

How are you, my friend?

 

[BlackWolf65]

If anyone here knows how to contact whspr in her RL, could you please let her know that BW is looking for her here?

 

[Azuldrgon]

Azuldrgon...

**BRO HUGS**

How are you, my friend?

I am good.
Feels weird though.

 

[BlackWolf65]

I am good.
Feels weird though.

What's that?

 

[LIVINRFANTASIES]

Denny & Dollie

Why did our lives turn out so well? Why did we meet and stay together when nearly everyone said it won't last?

Hell maybe it won't. We've only been together since 1956.

 

[Azuldrgon]

What's that?

Life in general.
The way things happen and why they happen.

 

[BlackWolf65]

Life in general.
The way things happen and why they happen.

Yeah, I'm with you on that.

Only thing we all know for certain is that life is unpredictable...

And it can throw a hell of a curve ball, too...

 

[Mrtenant]

Have you ever met someone and things just really clicked?
You think this is the person who can change your life. You
fall in love and things are going perfect....

Then with one sentence, the whole thing changes. Without a
chance to really explain, he just backs up and says ...no can do.
You bare your soul to him...but he doesn't hear what you
really said.

I hope you never have to hear that....it hurts like hell. Maybe
the best thing to do would be....build up walls and don't let anyone close. This hurts too bad.

whspr

You're obviously not alone in this, sweetheart. Happens alot it seems. I've been on the recieving end of that as well. Does hurt.

From my experiences...one has to decide how long they want to hurt about it, then move on. Better than being locked in a situation beyond your control.

Can't make other people do stuff to get past their block, maybe. But you can take charge of yourself. In the end ...sounds cliche...but true...time heals all wounds.

Good fortune to you.

 

[BlackWolf65]

She once said - here in Lit, as a matter of fact, "I have never been kissed like that before..."

I wish I could forget that kiss...