more Mara

[murmurmara]

add some silk, and most things get better...

 

[scotluvsoral]

I'm feeling discouraged. The girls are flaming red, swollen, and tender. Doctor says it's not infection, which is a relief. He calls it just a reaction to surgical trauma -- and says it could take weeks or even months to subside. I'm back in bandages, and having trouble sleeping. My appointment with the radiation oncologist was delayed a week. All this is tough for a control freak who doesn't have many control possibilities these days. I cling to the illusion of control, the schedule. I want to get on with it -- the radiation treatment, the healing, the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I'm in the lucky 1% of those struggling with the Big C -- perspective is valuable -- but some days that just doesn't help.

My massage was the only wonderful thing about Wednesday. Oh, and a fabulous swordfish and asparagus dinner!

I can't wait for it to be light enough to go to the river and lay my troubles down...

It sucks things aren't going as you hoped sweet Mara. Sometimes the only real control we have when fighting this disease is how much positive we bring to each day. So, healing is slower than you want...but believe your healing is almost destiny and this shit is just slowing it down a bit! *giving you a supersized hug* FYC!! FYC!!FYC!!!

 

[scotluvsoral]

add some silk, and most things get better...

Extremely suckable nipple Mara

 

[jasonmason]

I'm feeling discouraged. The girls are flaming red, swollen, and tender. Doctor says it's not infection, which is a relief. He calls it just a reaction to surgical trauma -- and says it could take weeks or even months to subside. I'm back in bandages, and having trouble sleeping. My appointment with the radiation oncologist was delayed a week. All this is tough for a control freak who doesn't have many control possibilities these days. I cling to the illusion of control, the schedule. I want to get on with it -- the radiation treatment, the healing, the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I'm in the lucky 1% of those struggling with the Big C -- perspective is valuable -- but some days that just doesn't help.

My massage was the only wonderful thing about Wednesday. Oh, and a fabulous swordfish and asparagus dinner!

I can't wait for it to be light enough to go to the river and lay my troubles down...

You can't get discouraged. I know you just want to go from point A to point B with no deviations, but sometimes those side trips are well worth the journey. Keep a positive attitude and know that a whole community is behind you. Pulling for you to get through this ordeal. Don't worry about being upset, but just don't let a negative attitude invade you.

 

[jasonmason]

oh... the surgical tape which was supposed to help with healing and scarring and which I was supposed to wear for six weeks had to be removed due to the inflammation. At last I had a good look at my nipples which are healing well. The areolas are substantially reduced in size, but I do have nipple sensation.... plus I have so many pics from before surgery to enjoy.

Good to hear your sensation is still there. I am thinking we need to see more of those pics. Because, after all it is, all about the Breasts!!!!

 

[jasonmason]

add some silk, and most things get better...

I think it is add some of Mara's Breasts and everything gets better.

 

[ohverbatum7]

A warm hug from this side of the pond, you really are inspirational, sweet Mara.

 

[ndoorfin]

add some silk, and most things get better...

I am sure there would be a que to kiss it better

 

[RjThoughts]

add some silk, and most things get better...

Add some milk, cereal is better
(And yes, I AM a smartass )

 

[HBAlex]

Well hey there, sexy. Glad I stepped into this thread again...

Such gorgeous breasts and nipples. Truly worthy of tongues and fingers...

 

[Ric87]

Very lovely

add some silk, and most things get better...

Mara,
I can't help but have naughty thoughts.

 

[bristolbabcock]

nice

nice set!

 

[murmurmara]

The Pollyanna Post

Thanks so much for the wonderful support you shower down upon me! After post 2594, I wanted to make clear that mostly I focus on gratitude. I was feeling discouraged so I let it out. It feels right to me to experience and express the full range of emotions, not paper things over with platitudes.

Bottom line, I am in the 1% of those dealing with cancer. Most of the cancer club has to cope with much more serious disease and significantly more challenging treatment. I am almost apologetic usually when talking about this. I feel like an imposter in the cancer club. BUT I am having my own experience of cancer, and it is still hard physically and harder emotionally.

I am becoming pretty good at reframing:

So my breasts are swollen, bright red, and oozing -- at least I don't have an antibiotic-resistant infection!

So I'm not walking with my usual briskness -- 18-20 minute miles are still movement. I'm grateful I have the determination and energy to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and walk 3-6 miles a day.

So I'm sleeping more than usual and not reading as much -- I'm fortunate not to have to go to work daily, and I'm loving my bed and my naps.

So there are tugs and stabs with every breath, with every step -- sensation is better than numbness... YAY for sensation.

I still feel well cared for and thoroughly cared about.
Rushing out the door, so replies later, but wanted to balance the discouragement post with the Pollyanna post.

 

[murmurmara]

and a pic before I fly away

 

[scotluvsoral]

The Pollyanna Post

Thanks so much for the wonderful support you shower down upon me! After post 2594, I wanted to make clear that mostly I focus on gratitude. I was feeling discouraged so I let it out. It feels right to me to experience and express the full range of emotions, not paper things over with platitudes.

Bottom line, I am in the 1% of those dealing with cancer. Most of the cancer club has to cope with much more serious disease and significantly more challenging treatment. I am almost apologetic usually when talking about this. I feel like an imposter in the cancer club. BUT I am having my own experience of cancer, and it is still hard physically and harder emotionally.

I am becoming pretty good at reframing:

So my breasts are swollen, bright red, and oozing -- at least I don't have an antibiotic-resistant infection!

So I'm not walking with my usual briskness -- 18-20 minute miles are still movement. I'm grateful I have the determination and energy to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and walk 3-6 miles a day.

So I'm sleeping more than usual and not reading as much -- I'm fortunate not to have to go to work daily, and I'm loving my bed and my naps.

So there are tugs and stabs with every breath, with every step -- sensation is better than numbness... YAY for sensation.

I still feel well cared for and thoroughly cared about.
Rushing out the door, so replies later, but wanted to balance the discouragement post with the Pollyanna post.

Sorry for preachy post Mara...I was worried you might be getting discouraged in general...should have known better! As for feeling like an imposter...no way kiddo! When people get lucky enough for just a surgical solution, we all are cheered by that. You faced down the diagnosis and the accompanying fear. Thank God for a surgical solution and know that all who face this, wish for the same good fortune! FYC! Big Hugs and Kisses!

 

[scotluvsoral]

and a pic before I fly away

Lovely ass!

 

[valdo]

sooo .....

and a pic before I fly away

fuckably irresistible....
Love you Mara...
xxx

 

[talikat]

I'm feeling discouraged. The girls are flaming red, swollen, and tender. Doctor says it's not infection, which is a relief. He calls it just a reaction to surgical trauma -- and says it could take weeks or even months to subside. I'm back in bandages, and having trouble sleeping. My appointment with the radiation oncologist was delayed a week. All this is tough for a control freak who doesn't have many control possibilities these days. I cling to the illusion of control, the schedule. I want to get on with it -- the radiation treatment, the healing, the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I'm in the lucky 1% of those struggling with the Big C -- perspective is valuable -- but some days that just doesn't help.

My massage was the only wonderful thing about Wednesday. Oh, and a fabulous swordfish and asparagus dinner!

I can't wait for it to be light enough to go to the river and lay my troubles down...

Hugs Mara

 

[Inspirinious]

The Pollyanna Post

Thanks so much for the wonderful support you shower down upon me! After post 2594, I wanted to make clear that mostly I focus on gratitude. I was feeling discouraged so I let it out. It feels right to me to experience and express the full range of emotions, not paper things over with platitudes.

Bottom line, I am in the 1% of those dealing with cancer. Most of the cancer club has to cope with much more serious disease and significantly more challenging treatment. I am almost apologetic usually when talking about this. I feel like an imposter in the cancer club. BUT I am having my own experience of cancer, and it is still hard physically and harder emotionally.

I am becoming pretty good at reframing:

So my breasts are swollen, bright red, and oozing -- at least I don't have an antibiotic-resistant infection!

So I'm not walking with my usual briskness -- 18-20 minute miles are still movement. I'm grateful I have the determination and energy to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and walk 3-6 miles a day.

So I'm sleeping more than usual and not reading as much -- I'm fortunate not to have to go to work daily, and I'm loving my bed and my naps.

So there are tugs and stabs with every breath, with every step -- sensation is better than numbness... YAY for sensation.

I still feel well cared for and thoroughly cared about.
Rushing out the door, so replies later, but wanted to balance the discouragement post with the Pollyanna post.

Thank you for being open and sharing your experience with us. I think we all have challenges in life, some are just more threatening and difficult than others. We don't get to pick our challenges, so no need to apologize for your situation or your responses.

One year ago yesterday I had surgery on my neck. Nothing compared to dealing with cancer, but fuck, it was surgery on my spine, removing a herniated disk and fusing two vertebrae together. I was very fortunate that the surgery went well and I was immediately "healed". I had put up with three months on constant intense pain before finally having the surgery. In hindsight I wondered why I waited so long. Okay, I did know. I knew of other people that had very poor outcomes from spinal surgery. So I was scared. But it did all work out for me.

So, no need to apologize. You had cancer. You need treatments. And you are still experiencing side effects which have a negative impact upon your quality of life.

We are here to listen and to be supportive. I hope everything gets better and that you heal properly.

Best wishes sweet sexy lady.

 

[jc1213]

The Pollyanna Post

Thanks so much for the wonderful support you shower down upon me! After post 2594, I wanted to make clear that mostly I focus on gratitude. I was feeling discouraged so I let it out. It feels right to me to experience and express the full range of emotions, not paper things over with platitudes.

Bottom line, I am in the 1% of those dealing with cancer. Most of the cancer club has to cope with much more serious disease and significantly more challenging treatment. I am almost apologetic usually when talking about this. I feel like an imposter in the cancer club. BUT I am having my own experience of cancer, and it is still hard physically and harder emotionally.

I am becoming pretty good at reframing:

So my breasts are swollen, bright red, and oozing -- at least I don't have an antibiotic-resistant infection!

So I'm not walking with my usual briskness -- 18-20 minute miles are still movement. I'm grateful I have the determination and energy to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and walk 3-6 miles a day.

So I'm sleeping more than usual and not reading as much -- I'm fortunate not to have to go to work daily, and I'm loving my bed and my naps.

So there are tugs and stabs with every breath, with every step -- sensation is better than numbness... YAY for sensation.

I still feel well cared for and thoroughly cared about.
Rushing out the door, so replies later, but wanted to balance the discouragement post with the Pollyanna post.

It may be a tough rode for a while, but keep plugging away and it will get better

 

[jc1213]

and a pic before I fly away

You have such a gorgeous ass. Seeing it freshly spanked and ready for soothing kisses and/or riding is very sexy

 

[allstarhockeynut]

hi Mara, have a great weekend and love the sexy hand print butt, makes me want to leave my mark too

 

[jasonmason]

and a pic before I fly away

Love the red!!!! But that is not all I am loving!!!!

 

[murmurmara]

Always so hot mara.

thanks for making me smile!

Mmmm Yummy!

laughing... well patent leather doesn't exactly "go" with this costume, but barefoot woman finally wears heels!

Mara....you are keeping the situation under control just fine...and together with your external and inner beauty it will help you to see the end of this ordeal quiet swiftly....As always you are my inspiration and source for many past and future hard-ons....

Love, hugs and kisses
Valdo
xxxxxx

awww sweetie, I love being inspirational!!! hugs and kisses back to you...

Not when you're wearing it

good thing, RJ! I seem to have gone purple mad the past few weeks...

Sensitivity is awesome!!!!!!

yay hooray!!!

Many hugs and kisses sexy Mara

just what I needed to lift my heart, dear Jake

 

[murmurmara]

It sucks things aren't going as you hoped sweet Mara. Sometimes the only real control we have when fighting this disease is how much positive we bring to each day. So, healing is slower than you want...but believe your healing is almost destiny and this shit is just slowing it down a bit! *giving you a supersized hug* FYC!! FYC!!FYC!!!

I love this, Scot! With all my pondering of control, I had not put positivity in that context. It helps to think of it this way... Plus the shit merely slowing down the destined healing... Thanks so much, especially for the hug.

FC indeed! I can't put the Y in there without a comma, I'm such a comma queen. Or should we say pedant -- HA

Extremely suckable nipple Mara

oh yeah, that's what I like to hear!

You can't get discouraged. I know you just want to go from point A to point B with no deviations, but sometimes those side trips are well worth the journey. Keep a positive attitude and know that a whole community is behind you. Pulling for you to get through this ordeal. Don't worry about being upset, but just don't let a negative attitude invade you.

thanks, Jason for the encouragement and the reminder ∞∞∞:

Good to hear your sensation is still there. I am thinking we need to see more of those pics. Because, after all it is, all about the Breasts!!!!

YESSS

I think it is add some of Mara's Breasts and everything gets better.

works for me!!!