boytoyblue
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Not sure how to start this so I am going to jump in.
I have been requested to post the following by my Mistress.
I met my Mistress under the pretense of showing her the ropes of being a Domme. "Pretense" from her point of view. From mine, I was helping another interested in D/s and answering questions. While she hasn't said, I get the feeling what has unfolded has been according to her plan.
I am a Dom. I have accepted and know of my kink for a few years. Reading all the post by the bright people of Lit helped a lot. I have had, and currently have, a few subs. I get tremendous enjoyment out of being a Dom and connecting with a sub. It is a very rewarding experience. Then about six months ago, I was asked to mentor a budding Domme. She was curious about the life style and had a ton of questions. I am comfortable in a teaching role so the relationship was rewarding for both of us.
[Edit - In the beginning, this budding Domme, requested to be my sub. I accepted her as my sub. Looking back now, I believe it was part of Mistresses plan but it also could be Mistress wanted to find out what type of Dom I was. Either way, Mistress was a most enthusiastic sub and was very eager to please and serve me.]
[side note - I am not an expert on D/s and have never claimed to be. In all "teaching' roles, I always advise to read and talk to others - and that my comments are based on my experience (no need to flame here I am just trying to set the scene).]
All was going well. She was experimenting with a few subs and I was giving her pointers and suggestions, and she was performing tasks for me.
Then one weekend, I started sensing something in her that touched something in me.
Her tone had changed. She was more insistent. Her questions became requests.
My tone and the way I reacted to her new tone also changed. I responded in a less than dominate nature. In addition, I liked responding to her in this new way.
To say I fought this new feeling is a massive understatement. I didn't know what these thoughts and urges meant. I got scared. I am always in control. I feel comfortable in control.
But the emails we exchanged since that weekend took on an interesting tone. Rereading them now, you would think the roles were reversed. I, the usual Dom, had the tone of passivity, of meekness, of a submissive nature. She, the usual timid and unsure one, had the tone of aggressiveness, of power, of a dominate nature. As the emails progressed, so did our roles into these new positions.
And because Mistress has requested honesty here, I must say the sub-ness she caused me to feel was intoxicating. I would get lost in the lust.
I opened a part of me I usually didn't open.
I suppose most of you are mentality beaming the term "switch" at the computer monitor in front of you. Its obvious now. But for a person living it and knowing only one side of the D/s coin, the concept felt like part of me was getting lost. I fought it. Hard.
Mistress then requested a phone session. That first time we talked in our new roles was like a drug for us both. I never felt anything like it. There was no turning back.
However, I still fought it. I tried to end the entire relationship once. I was honestly scared.
How could I be a sub?
Fast forward a few months - I have since stopped fighting, and have let Mistress own my submissive self.
The pleasure I feel under her influence and control is just too strong to resist.
It has been an interesting experience and one, at the beginning, I would not have asked for. But from where I kneel now, I am happy and I believe I am pleasing Mistress as only I can.
The Dom still peaks out from time to time. But he turns around, shakes his head, and retreats to another room.
btb
I have been requested to post the following by my Mistress.
I met my Mistress under the pretense of showing her the ropes of being a Domme. "Pretense" from her point of view. From mine, I was helping another interested in D/s and answering questions. While she hasn't said, I get the feeling what has unfolded has been according to her plan.
I am a Dom. I have accepted and know of my kink for a few years. Reading all the post by the bright people of Lit helped a lot. I have had, and currently have, a few subs. I get tremendous enjoyment out of being a Dom and connecting with a sub. It is a very rewarding experience. Then about six months ago, I was asked to mentor a budding Domme. She was curious about the life style and had a ton of questions. I am comfortable in a teaching role so the relationship was rewarding for both of us.
[Edit - In the beginning, this budding Domme, requested to be my sub. I accepted her as my sub. Looking back now, I believe it was part of Mistresses plan but it also could be Mistress wanted to find out what type of Dom I was. Either way, Mistress was a most enthusiastic sub and was very eager to please and serve me.]
[side note - I am not an expert on D/s and have never claimed to be. In all "teaching' roles, I always advise to read and talk to others - and that my comments are based on my experience (no need to flame here I am just trying to set the scene).]
All was going well. She was experimenting with a few subs and I was giving her pointers and suggestions, and she was performing tasks for me.
Then one weekend, I started sensing something in her that touched something in me.
Her tone had changed. She was more insistent. Her questions became requests.
My tone and the way I reacted to her new tone also changed. I responded in a less than dominate nature. In addition, I liked responding to her in this new way.
To say I fought this new feeling is a massive understatement. I didn't know what these thoughts and urges meant. I got scared. I am always in control. I feel comfortable in control.
But the emails we exchanged since that weekend took on an interesting tone. Rereading them now, you would think the roles were reversed. I, the usual Dom, had the tone of passivity, of meekness, of a submissive nature. She, the usual timid and unsure one, had the tone of aggressiveness, of power, of a dominate nature. As the emails progressed, so did our roles into these new positions.
And because Mistress has requested honesty here, I must say the sub-ness she caused me to feel was intoxicating. I would get lost in the lust.
I opened a part of me I usually didn't open.
I suppose most of you are mentality beaming the term "switch" at the computer monitor in front of you. Its obvious now. But for a person living it and knowing only one side of the D/s coin, the concept felt like part of me was getting lost. I fought it. Hard.
Mistress then requested a phone session. That first time we talked in our new roles was like a drug for us both. I never felt anything like it. There was no turning back.
However, I still fought it. I tried to end the entire relationship once. I was honestly scared.
How could I be a sub?
Fast forward a few months - I have since stopped fighting, and have let Mistress own my submissive self.
The pleasure I feel under her influence and control is just too strong to resist.
It has been an interesting experience and one, at the beginning, I would not have asked for. But from where I kneel now, I am happy and I believe I am pleasing Mistress as only I can.
The Dom still peaks out from time to time. But he turns around, shakes his head, and retreats to another room.
btb
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