genderqueerness, sexual politics, BDSM status, female reticence, and shit like that

[Stella_Omega]

So, a week later, I've finally remembered that I promised an update.

We did the demo, last friday. There's a book. I recommend it. There were twenty-five, thirty people watching. There was a Fairy Wand vibrator with a couple of really ugly but really effective attachments. I squirted twice or maybe three times...

Regarding my worries about sharing orgasmic energy, I didn't worry about it much during the event, but you will notice that it's taken me a week to share it in any specific way, here-- that reticence thing again. So odd and interesting!

So umm... ask questions, maybe, and I can talk about it easier that way.

 

[ultramarineblue]

What places did your mind go during the experience? Since you had a difficult time deciding, have you had any regrets since?

 

[Stella_Omega]

What places did your mind go during the experience? Since you had a difficult time deciding, have you had any regrets since?

My mind stayed right in the moment, right with my body. The moment he read my reactions, that I like being slapped and stuff- he went that way, it was awesome.

In fact, I haven't done much penetrative sex lately, so there were times when I could feel interior muscles twinging as they struggled to hold on to their accustomed shape while Bob was busy stretching them. Plus, I like to talk-- you probably never noticed that-- so I was corroborating what he was saying, or adding my impressions. I treasure getting a laugh from the audience He asked that the model be a noisy woman-- my throat was hoarse, at the end, lemme tell you.

It was an instant friendship. I imagine that's true of him with many many people he works with in scenes. I wouldn't say we "made love" but we definitely made a connection. I asked him to pick out one of my wooden toys, to bring back to his Owner, and i hope that he'll have some time to mentor me in some of his many skills.

And nope-- no regrets. Except that a couple of folk who missed it, i wish they had been able to be there.

One thing that I didn't expect-- I squirted twice-and-a-half, so to speak-- buckets full! And i noticed for a couple of days following how easy it was to piss. three days later, without any squirting, it felt like my skenes gland was congested and my stream of piss wasn't as clean and controllable anymore. Prostate health FTW!