Dear X:

[SubKekiLee]

Dear X
Oh MY today takes the cake.... of all the time since this started.. this was the best... it truly was... it amazes me it really does 4 years of my life.... you still hear what you want.. this isnt about love.. it really isnt..

BTW
this ISNT about DS...

 

[bholderman]

Im a moron! I know!
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QUOTE=SubKekiLee;27012159]Dear X
Oh MY today takes the cake.... of all the time since this started.. this was the best... it truly was... it amazes me it really does 4 years of my life.... you still hear what you want.. this isnt about love.. it really isnt..

BTW
this ISNT about DS...[/QUOTE]

 

[the_pet]

Dear X

...uncle

 

[EmpressFi]

Im a moron! I know!
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QUOTE=SubKekiLee;27012159]Dear X
Oh MY today takes the cake.... of all the time since this started.. this was the best... it truly was... it amazes me it really does 4 years of my life.... you still hear what you want.. this isnt about love.. it really isnt..

BTW
this ISNT about DS...

stop it.. you're not a moron.

 

[intothewoods]

stop it.. you're not a moron.[/QUOTE]

Lol, what's going on in your AV, Fi?

 

[EmpressFi]

stop it.. you're not a moron.

Lol, what's going on in your AV, Fi?

well.. my AV is what happens to submissive wives when they stand on the edge of the bathtub to paint the corners and then go "AHHHHHhhhhhh" and pretend to fall, and in doing so scare their husbands.

It was going to be my nose..but I begged out of that.. so he wrote "wife" on my forehead in primer

 

[intothewoods]

well.. my AV is what happens to submissive wives when they stand on the edge of the bathtub to paint the corners and then go "AHHHHHhhhhhh" and pretend to fall, and in doing so scare their husbands.

It was going to be my nose..but I begged out of that.. so he wrote "wife" on my forehead in primer

I knew there had to be a good story in there!

 

[DVS]

well.. my AV is what happens to submissive wives when they stand on the edge of the bathtub to paint the corners and then go "AHHHHHhhhhhh" and pretend to fall, and in doing so scare their husbands.

It was going to be my nose..but I begged out of that.. so he wrote "wife" on my forehead in primer

If I might interject...too bad it wasn't a white handprint on your ass. Or, was it the second picture, that you're just not showing us?

 

[EmpressFi]

If I might interject...too bad it wasn't a white handprint on your ass. Or, was it the second picture, that you're just not showing us?

DVS... dont give him any ideas..

and when I showed it to Master, he said, "LOL but there are better words I'd use"

 

[faeriefire]

Dear X

Sometimes I wish there were a way to reach past your outer bulwark and rewire your brain so you could understand how I think. You've pushed so hard, for so long without even realizing you were doing it. It was hard to watch your unhappiness. You didn't know it bothered me. I'm nervous about seeing you again, about how you will react to the circumstances that bring me back. Time is our friend, but it could also become an enemy if you aren't ready to forgive and move on. So much has comes before and some we will never forget. Shared memory is powerful and in our case it is also painful. My deepest wish is to move beyond the hurt and the accusations. To make music together again. To while away hours in shared company and easy silence. As ever it is hope that drives me. Optimism is my guidepost. Because I know that one year is nothing in the grand context of a lifetime. Please don't dash this hope. It is the inner light that shines through my eyes. I don't want it to be snuffed out...

 

[TeachMeSir]

Dear ***************
I don't ask myself "why" anymore. I know the anser. It's because you're a Sick F***. You took advantage of my vulnerabilities. Now I can't even hate you. It's your fault, and I am not to blame. I was a child for crying out loud! Sometimes though I feel like I almost pity you. I know you have had a tough life. Perhaps it's because you're such a wanker and karma finally caught up with you. But even now, you're "inappropiate", you are blind to how you make my skin crawl.
Argh.... you just make me want to hit something!


Dear Self...
Stop thinking about it! You're going to give yourself nightmares. Either have a Red Bull and spend the night watching movies, or have a Vodka and sleep deeply.
Myself

ETA:
Dear Me,
I did well last night. No Red Bull & no vodka was necessary. I know it took me a long time to settle down and finally get into bed, and then I effectively lost myself in my book. I know it's hard to admit to myself because I am fairly proactive, but sometimes avoidance is the key to a good night sleep. And those terrible dreams in the middle of the night weren't so bad after all. It's strange how I have learnt the things that make me more comfortable, secure, centered; like my tether & wearing pajamas, like that extra layer is some sort of protection. And then to make it all the easeier to deal with I wasn't alone, sure, apart from a 50lbs poodle and another 30lb dog, there wasn't any person actually physically in the bed with me. But in my half sleep state I knew I wasn't alone.
..........................................

 

[SubKekiLee]

Dear X
Oh MY today takes the cake.... of all the time since this started.. this was the best... it truly was... it amazes me it really does 4 years of my life.... you still hear what you want.. this isnt about love.. it really isnt..

BTW
this ISNT about DS...

UUUH brad this isnt about you either and YOU arent a MORON!STOP it !!

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Dear X,

you wont leave without making me feel quilty and shit firtst, will ya???

I can say your stressed, but so am i.... why you wanna bring me down. sigh

We are almost there!! or was.... SHIT!!!!

~your ex



You wanna cry over how nobody loves you, how nobody cares. Cant you tell this to someone else than me? Talk to me like this might be good for you, i dont think its so good for me tho.... I dont wanna feel sorry for you, i would let you stay then ffs.

I DONT WANT THAT!! You dont love me. Just GO OMG

please.......................

 

[SubKekiLee]

Dear X,

you wont leave without making me feel quilty and shit firtst, will ya???

I can say your stressed, but so am i.... why you wanna bring me down. sigh

We are almost there!! or was.... SHIT!!!!

~your ex



You wanna cry over how nobody loves you, how nobody cares. Cant you tell this to someone else than me? Talk to me like this might be good for you, i dont think its so good for me tho.... I dont wanna feel sorry for you, i would let you stay then ffs.

I DONT WANT THAT!! You dont love me. Just GO OMG

please.......................

Kate.. {{{{bighug}}}}} I am sorry you are going thru this.. We are both going thru this type of stuff right now..
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Dear X,

3 weeks ago you walked out of my life, you told me you couldnt accept me for me. That same weekend you asked someone out who took it as a romantic outing.. You say it was a friendship only type of thing. Then 2 weeks ago you meet a girl, you spend the evening with her and take her to "breakfast". Dont you know discretion is the better part of Valor. So now you tell me you miss your wife but I should change ? Ive told you time and time again I cannot change thats what got us here in the first place.. I didnt plan on what happend happening it just did I am sorry I am "immoral and wrong" but again you have your fantasies and fetishes and no one is chastizing you... Please lets just end this no more fighting.. no more arguing.. Just let it end for our sanity and for the kids.. this isnt about love.... This is about just letting us moving on and growing..

SIGNED
ME

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Kate.. {{{{bighug}}}}} I am sorry you are going thru this.. We are both going thru this type of stuff right now..
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Dear X,

3 weeks ago you walked out of my life, you told me you couldnt accept me for me. That same weekend you asked someone out who took it as a romantic outing.. You say it was a friendship only type of thing. Then 2 weeks ago you meet a girl, you spend the evening with her and take her to "breakfast". Dont you know discretion is the better part of Valor. So now you tell me you miss your wife but I should change ? Ive told you time and time again I cannot change thats what got us here in the first place.. I didnt plan on what happend happening it just did I am sorry I am "immoral and wrong" but again you have your fantasies and fetishes and no one is chastizing you... Please lets just end this no more fighting.. no more arguing.. Just let it end for our sanity and for the kids.. this isnt about love.... This is about just letting us moving on and growing..

SIGNED
ME

Yea i know we're going thro similiar shits. sigh

*HUGGS BACK SKL*

 

[Evil_Geoff]

Dear SKL and BiF, BH, myself (and anyone else going through the end of a relationship),

It ain't easy. There WILL be pain. How we act, or react to that pain is a measure of our character. Some will lash out. Some will suppress it. Some will weep unconsolably. Some learn to experience the pain, process it, then let it flush through their system and let it go.

The end is rarely all one person's fault. Almost always both parties contributed to the end. Needs were not met, desires were ignored, communication was broken, not enough words were spoken, or the ones that were spoken were not listened to or acted upon.

Sometimes... sometimes it's no one's fault except the demon Change that works it's awful magic on people over time, and they grow slowly apart, until one day they realize that they are living in different worlds, different circles, and what once felt like unity now feels like singularity.

We'll survive. We'll grow. And with luck, love will blossom once again.

 

[intothewoods]

Dear SKL and BiF, BH, myself (and anyone else going through the end of a relationship),

It ain't easy. There WILL be pain. How we act, or react to that pain is a measure of our character. Some will lash out. Some will suppress it. Some will weep unconsolably. Some learn to experience the pain, process it, then let it flush through their system and let it go.

The end is rarely all one person's fault. Almost always both parties contributed to the end. Needs were not met, desires were ignored, communication was broken, not enough words were spoken, or the ones that were spoken were not listened to or acted upon.

Sometimes... sometimes it's no one's fault except the demon Change that works it's awful magic on people over time, and they grow slowly apart, until one day they realize that they are living in different worlds, different circles, and what once felt like unity now feels like singularity.

We'll survive. We'll grow. And with luck, love will blossom once again.

You and Janey aren't breaking up, are you?

 

[Light Ice]

Dear X,

It's so difficult to know where to begin when you never expected it to come to an end. You were a tremendous part of my life, and I miss you. I know that right now you feel alone because I will not speak to you for long on the phone, and I will not agree for us to get together. I'm sorry.

You are a remarkably beautiful and wonderful woman, and for the last few weeks of our break-up I've sincerely questioned whether or not I can truly be happy with anyone. If there was a human being that I could appreciate and have patience with, it was you. I wonder, quietly and frequently, if I've not made a terrible decision.

I can't let you know that I feel this way, because I intend to hold onto this decision and I do not wish you to feel like there is a chance. I don't want you to go through the back and forth that I went through in making this decision. Each day was harder than the one before, and at times I still doubt with shocking frequency just how wise my decision will prove to be.

We never shouted at one another. I'll remember that always. I've never respected a woman more in my life for her ability to keep her emotions in check for the sake of the other beside them, and for the last two years you were an absolutely solid and supportive partner. You have a unique ability to soften situations until their malleable, easily shifted and molded into something positive and enriching.

I meant it all those times that I told you that you were the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. We met over ten years ago and I've always felt that way, and I imagine I always will.

I'm going to miss you in ways that I doubt I've even fully imagined, and already this house seems so cold without you here. I probably have taken for granted just how full you helped me make my life. My most brilliant of hopes is that when some of this has passed with time we can be friends again, perhaps closer for the trial.

But I don't think we will ever live the life we wished to live, because we are so different. I need to be active and fit, and I need to enjoy some of the silly and insignificant things in life to not concern myself with the more grave. I began to want a woman who would go to the gym with me, sit at the baseball games with me. A woman who would play X-Box with me, or go walk my dogs with me. A woman who would spark her own activities out of mid-air, and a woman who was more motivated in advancing herself professionally so she knew how to support me in my ventures.

You're a tremendous woman, but in the end I feel I can find a wonderful woman who will do these things as well. Just as I feel you will find a wonderful man who will do things for you that I did not.

I love you helplessly, even now. Part of me wishes you could be here so I wouldn't have to keep it inside and go through this adjustment alone, but I know that it'd be a kind of selfish that I've no interest in being.

Please, be good to yourself. I expect you to be angry with me for breaking your heart. I won't let it effect me and I won't hold it against you. But I only wish I could tell you how badly it hurts to know that I had to be the one to make this decision. I wish you knew how much it broke my heart to ask you to go.

I love you always, truly,
-LI

 

[LunarKitten]

Dear Princess J_,

How is it after all this time and all that has happened, I am still stupidly madly in love with you?

*huggs* You loved her and married her and had kids with her. It will take a while, or maybe never, to get over that. Just because things externally change, doesn't mean your emotions can turn on a dime, too.

 

[Evil_Geoff]

You and Janey aren't breaking up, are you?

Breaking? No. Broken? Yes. Engagement ring taken back and collar returned. No cheating or incidents, just not enough of whatever we needed/were looking for. We remain friends, we will remain housemates (at least for the time being), but are no longer Master/slave.

This is something that was a long time coming and honestly, I've been struggling with my own inner demons and ignoring janey and her needs for too long. She needed this for her own sanity and happiness, and I needed it to make me realize how far up my own ass I had stuck my head.

Perhaps in time things will change between us again, perhaps not.

I need to spend time working on my own issues and getting healthy again.

 

[intothewoods]

Breaking? No. Broken? Yes. Engagement ring taken back and collar returned. No cheating or incidents, just not enough of whatever we needed/were looking for. We remain friends, we will remain housemates (at least for the time being), but are no longer Master/slave.

This is something that was a long time coming and honestly, I've been struggling with my own inner demons and ignoring janey and her needs for too long. She needed this for her own sanity and happiness, and I needed it to make me realize how far up my own ass I had stuck my head.

Perhaps in time things will change between us again, perhaps not.

I need to spend time working on my own issues and getting healthy again.

I'm sorry to hear that, EG. I hope whatever getting healthy means for you, you're able to achieve it.

 

[LunarKitten]

Breaking? No. Broken? Yes. Engagement ring taken back and collar returned. No cheating or incidents, just not enough of whatever we needed/were looking for. We remain friends, we will remain housemates (at least for the time being), but are no longer Master/slave.

This is something that was a long time coming and honestly, I've been struggling with my own inner demons and ignoring janey and her needs for too long. She needed this for her own sanity and happiness, and I needed it to make me realize how far up my own ass I had stuck my head.

Perhaps in time things will change between us again, perhaps not.

I need to spend time working on my own issues and getting healthy again.

*Huggles and snuggles*

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

Breaking? No. Broken? Yes. Engagement ring taken back and collar returned. No cheating or incidents, just not enough of whatever we needed/were looking for. We remain friends, we will remain housemates (at least for the time being), but are no longer Master/slave.

This is something that was a long time coming and honestly, I've been struggling with my own inner demons and ignoring janey and her needs for too long. She needed this for her own sanity and happiness, and I needed it to make me realize how far up my own ass I had stuck my head.

Perhaps in time things will change between us again, perhaps not.

I need to spend time working on my own issues and getting healthy again.

I am sorry to hear about you and Janey Geoff. Hope things will get better soon for you two!!

*HUGGS*

 

[SubKekiLee]

Breaking? No. Broken? Yes. Engagement ring taken back and collar returned. No cheating or incidents, just not enough of whatever we needed/were looking for. We remain friends, we will remain housemates (at least for the time being), but are no longer Master/slave.

This is something that was a long time coming and honestly, I've been struggling with my own inner demons and ignoring janey and her needs for too long. She needed this for her own sanity and happiness, and I needed it to make me realize how far up my own ass I had stuck my head.

Perhaps in time things will change between us again, perhaps not.

I need to spend time working on my own issues and getting healthy again.

Ahhh EG
Must be in the water... Your words are so powerful and I love reading them I am sorry you too are going thru this.... I wish I could change the way things worked out for myself.. but it is who I am... I am submissive and I cannot change that and I am bisexual... that I cannot change... EG-I commend you on realizing how change effects everyone and that it isnt all one or the other.. I know at times I did wrong.. but he thinks so different than me.. {{{{EG}}}}

HUGS
SKL

 

[Netzach]

dear money gods

what did I do wrong? why am so busy yet so broke?

is this how everyone has to learn "right pricing?"

signed, me.