it is deep inside

[kneelingagain]

There are times I try to move on and think this part of me is in the past but every time it comes back. There are aching and urges. I know it is deep inside me. It is part of my psyche. A part of my identity even when I can't explore and express it. It would be easier to go on without these submissive urges and the cravings for control but they will not wash away. I know that it is part of me. I cannot deny it, but I don't have an outlet for it at the moment either.

I have been told to make this confession here. Thank you for reading.

How do you deal with this part of your identity when you can't so actively explore it?

 

[passionomaha]

You have to embrace it and live it.

 

[NivKay]

There are times I try to move on and think this part of me is in the past but every time it comes back. There are aching and urges. I know it is deep inside me. It is part of my psyche. A part of my identity even when I can't explore and express it. It would be easier to go on without these submissive urges and the cravings for control but they will not wash away. I know that it is part of me. I cannot deny it, but I don't have an outlet for it at the moment either.

I have been told to make this confession here. Thank you for reading.

How do you deal with this part of your identity when you can't so actively explore it?

It is a challenge, for sure, but you something that grounds you, directs your focus - focus on needs, classify them. And work achieving one of these needs… ultimately, you must carry this burden.. but it’s tough.. do you have clubs or groups you can join? Bdsm communities?

 

[kneelingagain]

i must look for them, i guess that's why i keep returning here

 

[NivKay]

i must look for them, i guess that's why i keep returning here

Perhaps you could find some element of it here.. Apply yourself.

 

[Annelih]

There are times I try to move on and think this part of me is in the past but every time it comes back. There are aching and urges. I know it is deep inside me. It is part of my psyche. A part of my identity even when I can't explore and express it. It would be easier to go on without these submissive urges and the cravings for control but they will not wash away. I know that it is part of me. I cannot deny it, but I don't have an outlet for it at the moment either.

I have been told to make this confession here. Thank you for reading.

How do you deal with this part of your identity when you can't so actively explore it?

I know this feeling well

 

[Beth35s]

I do the same…promise myself I am not coming back, etc…but then I eventually return. If I were younger and single I would probably explore a bit but it’s difficult. My submissive fantasies have made me feel guilty but I am hoping to come more to terms with them. Being on here helps if nothing more than to realize you are not alone. For me, these feelings have been with me for years, in fact since I was quite young. Ironically, in real life I have never been promiscuous (not judging those who are, just was never for me) and am more “girl next door” for anyone to ever guess what lies beneath…the sub feelings ebb and flow, but the undercurrent is always there…

 

[LordofDargaardkeep]

I have been told to make this confession here.

If you don't have an outlet for these desires who is it telling you to confess here?

 

[AG31]

I do the same…promise myself I am not coming back, etc…but then I eventually return. If I were younger and single I would probably explore a bit but it’s difficult. My submissive fantasies have made me feel guilty but I am hoping to come more to terms with them. Being on here helps if nothing more than to realize you are not alone. For me, these feelings have been with me for years, in fact since I was quite young. Ironically, in real life I have never been promiscuous (not judging those who are, just was never for me) and am more “girl next door” for anyone to ever guess what lies beneath…the sub feelings ebb and flow, but the undercurrent is always there…

I hope you can shed your guilt. Here on Lit you get a good education about the wildly disparate paths sexuality can take. Let your fantasies take off. And embrace your real life as well. You're human.

 

[Greedy_lion]

Why can’t you explore and express it?
No worries if you’re not trying to get into that, I understand.

 

[SirSparky]

There are times I try to move on and think this part of me is in the past but every time it comes back. There are aching and urges. I know it is deep inside me. It is part of my psyche. A part of my identity even when I can't explore and express it. It would be easier to go on without these submissive urges and the cravings for control but they will not wash away. I know that it is part of me. I cannot deny it, but I don't have an outlet for it at the moment either.

I have been told to make this confession here. Thank you for reading.

How do you deal with this part of your identity when you can't so actively explore it?

I do the same…promise myself I am not coming back, etc…but then I eventually return. If I were younger and single I would probably explore a bit but it’s difficult. My submissive fantasies have made me feel guilty but I am hoping to come more to terms with them. Being on here helps if nothing more than to realize you are not alone. For me, these feelings have been with me for years, in fact since I was quite young. Ironically, in real life I have never been promiscuous (not judging those who are, just was never for me) and am more “girl next door” for anyone to ever guess what lies beneath…the sub feelings ebb and flow, but the undercurrent is always there…

@Beth35s and @kneelingagain if you both need to discuss how you feel further then please PM me. I would love to help explore this more with you both

 

[Primalex]

if you both need to discuss how you feel further then please PM me. I would love to help explore this more with you both

And SirSparky is an honourable man.

 

[BiBunny]

And SirSparky is an honourable man.

Brutal.

 

[SirSparky]

And SirSparky is an honourable man.

Very honourable with the right people

 

[Primalex]

I can relate to some parts of your post and others confuse me.

You could say that July 2007 was the month I accepted who I am, and signing up here was a result. Before that, there was inner turmoil because of the disconnect between how I wanted to treat women and how society said I should treat them. Honestly, I struggle to understand your problem. Women being submissive and pleasing men? Please, join the history-of-mankind queue over there. So what is there to move on from? Or is this about moving on from cheating on your partner with dominants?

 

[tpsmps]

I do the same…promise myself I am not coming back, etc…but then I eventually return. If I were younger and single I would probably explore a bit but it’s difficult. My submissive fantasies have made me feel guilty but I am hoping to come more to terms with them. Being on here helps if nothing more than to realize you are not alone. For me, these feelings have been with me for years, in fact since I was quite young. Ironically, in real life I have never been promiscuous (not judging those who are, just was never for me) and am more “girl next door” for anyone to ever guess what lies beneath…the sub feelings ebb and flow, but the undercurrent is always there…

congrats, you are a good person and hope you find the right guide to expàlore your deep personality!!

 

[tpsmps]

There are times I try to move on and think this part of me is in the past but every time it comes back. There are aching and urges. I know it is deep inside me. It is part of my psyche. A part of my identity even when I can't explore and express it. It would be easier to go on without these submissive urges and the cravings for control but they will not wash away. I know that it is part of me. I cannot deny it, but I don't have an outlet for it at the moment either.

I have been told to make this confession here. Thank you for reading.

How do you deal with this part of your identity when you can't so actively explore it?

I'm impressed!! you are great!! go further and never let down

 

[PG564E]

There are times I try to move on and think this part of me is in the past but every time it comes back. There are aching and urges. I know it is deep inside me. It is part of my psyche. A part of my identity even when I can't explore and express it. It would be easier to go on without these submissive urges and the cravings for control but they will not wash away. I know that it is part of me. I cannot deny it, but I don't have an outlet for it at the moment either.

I have been told to make this confession here. Thank you for reading.

How do you deal with this part of your identity when you can't so actively explore it?

I need to PM with you very badly. To share the same mental questions you have. Also to confess to a man my deep descent into primal homosexuality. Honesty is a must for me - almost as hot as gay sex.

Can I PM with you?

 

[kneelingagain]

im not a man

 

[PG564E]

im not a man

I'm sorry - but want to talk if you do. I am extremely submissive and learned this when I had only straight sex. When I had gay sex I found there were no boundaries that I would think about that would give me any self control.

I accept who and what I am sexually. I am not ashamed of being human. No one should. I like talking to women and I'm married.

 

[kneelingagain]

you can message me

 

[9to5]

I find nothing wrong being submissive, and yes feel guilty at times but here is where I can express my thought on it.
bondage ,chastity cant really talk to others in real life but here its ok

 

[EdwardsOtherSide]

There are times I try to move on and think this part of me is in the past but every time it comes back. There are aching and urges. I know it is deep inside me. It is part of my psyche. A part of my identity even when I can't explore and express it. It would be easier to go on without these submissive urges and the cravings for control but they will not wash away. I know that it is part of me. I cannot deny it, but I don't have an outlet for it at the moment either.

I have been told to make this confession here. Thank you for reading.

How do you deal with this part of your identity when you can't so actively explore it?

Post on the Literotica forum (and write stories for Lit)?

Framed flippantly, but the statement is sincere.
Lit is a great community, and very supportive.

Granted, I am more dom than sub, but I never feel judged for talking about my kinks.

 

[hulmule]

I need a good sub. Sexless marriage, i need serviced and would like to find a nice sub that would enjoy being on the receiving end of things

 

[PG564E]

Thank you so much!!

I have always been satisfied sexually by giving extreme sexual pleasure to women for 45 years. To be that giving was natural to me - it never bothered me to drive a girl wild with her sexual ecstasy being attained through intense foreplay, dirty talk, and uninhibited sex. It was (and still is) a thrill for me to "let go" and have the courage to also embrace male homosexual acts, giving my mouth and anus freely to men I do not know.

No one knows who I am sexually and I like privacy and am comfortable in my mind now that I am older (past 70 now). I have not had sex at all for over a year, I have overpowering urges to go to a gay bathhouse I've enjoyed the past 11 years to fall into states of sexual abandon and risk losing all that I have.

So I write gay male stories here on LIT (28 so far) and masturbate 4-5 times a week as I love sex so much.

How do you feel being aware of what you want sexually? I know how hard it is to be yourself with someone you have just met.

I am not feeling so lonely by talking to you. I hope we can keep messaging if you like,

My name is Tom.