Lil_Jenni's Adventures, Past and Present...

[13Fantasies]

Nothing new to add about Dimples. We are still enjoying texting that's a bit risqué but isn't quite sexting. But it will get there.

I don't have a date yet to go Vegas as my baby sitters (my parents and in-laws) there have conflicting schedules. Well, the in-laws mainly. My mom was so excited that I might leave the kids with her for a day that she said she would drop anything else she might be doing to make time. My MIL, however, would shit a brick if she had to change plans or if she missed time with the kids. So... working on it.

In other news, we seem to have hit on a hard limit for my Hubby. Yesterday in a different thread here, I posted a short clip of a young woman who looks a fair bit like I looked when I was her age (different hair color and a few other minor differences, but otherwise, especially in the eyes, its kinda eerie) getting slapped pretty hard while servicing her man. I sent it to Hubby too, hoping to get him in the mood for some rough stuff. Well... that fucking backfired. Seems it bothered him watching someone who looked a fair bit like me getting slapped that hard. Hell, it wasn't even really that hard. There wasn't a red mark or bruise or anything, and I think she might have been trying to sell it as harder than it was, but...

As you might imagine, not only did I not get anything rough last night, I doubt I will be getting anything rough anytime soon, especially slapping. Sometimes its a pain in the ass loving someone who is so fucking considerate. And yeah, I know that sounds bad to say, and it is, of course. I should be happy he cares about me and doesn't want to hurt me, but part of it is that he wants to protect me from myself. And I don't fucking need that!

But I know who he is and accepted that he will not always indulge my darker desires, and I really love how much he loves and cares for me. But that doesn't mean it doesn't frustrate the fuck out of me sometimes.

But also... + > , so...

Guess you'll have to get together with Dimples even sooner. You're gonna be needy with all that love, attention, and protection you receive at home.

 

[lil_jenni]

Guess you'll have to get together with Dimples even sooner. You're gonna be needy with all that love, attention, and protection you receive at home.

They really need to include in the reaction emoji selection...

 

[13Fantasies]

They really need to include in the reaction emoji selection...

It sucks that your husband isnt willing to give you what you want

 

[lil_jenni]

It sucks that your husband isnt willing to give you what you want

People have their limits. I respect that. I wish it were different, but I respect it.

Oh, and I still got off a couple of times last night, so no complaints... other than that he is working late tonight because he took off early last night because we had someplace we had to be. I kinda miss when he had a more regular hours job. But he'll be home soon, and tonight... well, I bet I'll get off some more.

 

[13Fantasies]

People have their limits. I respect that. I wish it were different, but I respect it.

Oh, and I still got off a couple of times last night, so no complaints... other than that he is working late tonight because he took off early last night because we had someplace we had to be. I kinda miss when he had a more regular hours job. But he'll be home soon, and tonight... well, I bet I'll get off some more.

Attagirl! Enjoy your night.

 

[Purple_Fronds]

Nothing new to add about Dimples. We are still enjoying texting that's a bit risqué but isn't quite sexting. But it will get there.

I don't have a date yet to go Vegas as my baby sitters (my parents and in-laws) there have conflicting schedules. Well, the in-laws mainly. My mom was so excited that I might leave the kids with her for a day that she said she would drop anything else she might be doing to make time. My MIL, however, would shit a brick if she had to change plans or if she missed time with the kids. So... working on it.

In other news, we seem to have hit on a hard limit for my Hubby. Yesterday in a different thread here, I posted a short clip of a young woman who looks a fair bit like I looked when I was her age (different hair color and a few other minor differences, but otherwise, especially in the eyes, its kinda eerie) getting slapped pretty hard while servicing her man. I sent it to Hubby too, hoping to get him in the mood for some rough stuff. Well... that fucking backfired. Seems it bothered him watching someone who looked a fair bit like me getting slapped that hard. Hell, it wasn't even really that hard. There wasn't a red mark or bruise or anything, and I think she might have been trying to sell it as harder than it was, but...

As you might imagine, not only did I not get anything rough last night, I doubt I will be getting anything rough anytime soon, especially slapping. Sometimes its a pain in the ass loving someone who is so fucking considerate. And yeah, I know that sounds bad to say, and it is, of course. I should be happy he cares about me and doesn't want to hurt me, but part of it is that he wants to protect me from myself. And I don't fucking need that!

But I know who he is and accepted that he will not always indulge my darker desires, and I really love how much he loves and cares for me. But that doesn't mean it doesn't frustrate the fuck out of me sometimes.

But also... + > , so...

I always enjoy your posts and it’s lovely to see your life going so well for you.

 

[lil_jenni]

So, things with Dimples have escalated to full on cybersex, including some really naughty texting while I was helping Beth with another open house this past weekend. I may have gotten myself off in a bathroom of the house after the open house ended and before the owners returned.

My Vegas plans are a bit fucked, however, as my in-laws have shit going on until late August, and the kiddo will be in school by then. He might have to stay with Hubby and I can just take the twins to see their grandparents. But that would probably be in September at this point.

But I'll make it work. I'm just really wanting some girl/girl time. It's been a bit, because I've not been with Misty since she got with her girlfriend. I'm horny in a way that Hubby and masturbation can't completely satisfy.

 

[deft]

Fingers crossed for Dimplesex!

 

[13Fantasies]

So, things with Dimples have escalated to full on cybersex, including some really naughty texting while I was helping Beth with another open house this past weekend. I may have gotten myself off in a bathroom of the house after the open house ended and before the owners returned.

My Vegas plans are a bit fucked, however, as my in-laws have shit going on until late August, and the kiddo will be in school by then. He might have to stay with Hubby and I can just take the twins to see their grandparents. But that would probably be in September at this point.

But I'll make it work. I'm just really wanting some girl/girl time. It's been a bit, because I've not been with Misty since she got with her girlfriend. I'm horny in a way that Hubby and masturbation can't completely satisfy.

Hopefully its worth the wait.

I know we are all anxiously awaiting it. And we aren't even invited.

Was Beth at the house too?

 

[lil_jenni]

Hopefully its worth the wait.

I know we are all anxiously awaiting it. And we aren't even invited.

Was Beth at the house too?

During the texting? For some of it. For the jilling? Nope. I was cleaning everything up while she had gone to show another property.

 

[deft]

During the texting? For some of it. For the jilling? Nope. I was cleaning everything up while she had gone to show another property.

Did you collaborate on any of the replies you sent?

 

[13Fantasies]

During the texting? For some of it. For the jilling? Nope. I was cleaning everything up while she had gone to show another property.

Could have been interesting had she come back and caught you.

 

[lil_jenni]

Did you collaborate on any of the replies you sent?

Nah. That was just me, since Beth's kinda my mentor for this real estate stuff, and I do kinda have some boundaries. Plus, I'm pretty sure Beth is mainly straight. I say, mainly, because she was a stripper, and I've never met a stripper (female or male) that wasn't at least a little bi/pan. But Misty has known Beth a lot longer than I have, and she says she's never heard of her being with another. So...

 

[13Fantasies]

Nah. That was just me, since Beth's kinda my mentor for this real estate stuff, and I do kinda have some boundaries. Plus, I'm pretty sure Beth is mainly straight. I say, mainly, because she was a stripper, and I've never met a stripper (female or male) that wasn't at least a little bi/pan. But Misty has known Beth a lot longer than I have, and she says she's never heard of her being with another. So...

Probably good nothing happened. But when one day the student becomes the teacher..

 

[lil_jenni]

Probably good nothing happened. But when one day the student becomes the teacher..

Nope. I'm kinda liking having a female friend I'm not interested in fucking. Not that she's not hot. She is. But... it's nice. Other than in college, it's been hard for me to have many female friends, and it's gotten worse since I accepted I'm bi, because either I do like or am worried I'm going to like someone as more than friends, or I'm worried about a potential friend not wanting to be friends because I'm bi. The latter is probably much more my anxiety than reality, but I worry about it.

Beth knows I'm bi and does not seem at all worried or thinking I'm hitting on her or anything. We just get along really well.

 

[deft]

Nah. That was just me, since Beth's kinda my mentor for this real estate stuff, and I do kinda have some boundaries. Plus, I'm pretty sure Beth is mainly straight. I say, mainly, because she was a stripper, and I've never met a stripper (female or male) that wasn't at least a little bi/pan. But Misty has known Beth a lot longer than I have, and she says she's never heard of her being with another. So...

I think my pornbrain was kicking in... my apologies!

 

[lil_jenni]

I think my pornbrain was kicking in... my apologies!

No worries, especially given the context of Lit.

 

[13Fantasies]

Nope. I'm kinda liking having a female friend I'm not interested in fucking. Not that she's not hot. She is. But... it's nice. Other than in college, it's been hard for me to have many female friends, and it's gotten worse since I accepted I'm bi, because either I do like or am worried I'm going to like someone as more than friends, or I'm worried about a potential friend not wanting to be friends because I'm bi. The latter is probably much more my anxiety than reality, but I worry about it.

Beth knows I'm bi and does not seem at all worried or thinking I'm hitting on her or anything. We just get along really well.

Glad to hear it.

 

[lil_jenni]

I figured I should give an update. Other than Hubby bringing his A game to rough sex the other night, my life is boring... to talk about. It's hectic as fuck to live, with two newly minted toddlers always going in different directions.

I'm loving my online real estate classes and helping out with open houses. I've been hit on twice more, once very blatantly by a single man looking at a small house, and once much more covertly by the man of a couple when his wife was herding two young children.

Dimples and I are hot and heavy via text, email, and video, but as of yet I still don't have firm plans for a vegas trip to see her. I have dropped a hint to my old roommates that maybe Dimples, who all three of them know (she got my contact from one of them), should go on that fall cruise with us. All three, even the one who put us in touch, are against it since it's supposed to be our reunion and they think I'll just go off with Dimples if she comes along. They're probably right.

Misty has cheated on her long distance girlfriend at least three times that she's told me about, and she's hinted she and I can return to FWB status. I don't think I'm going to do that. I mean, she's a fucking fantastic lay, but I so don't need the fucking drama.

And last, and unfortunately least in terms of interesting updates, nothing new with Paula. We have lunch every few weeks. I try to flirt. She either doesn't notice or just isn't interested. And I always chicken out being more forward.

 

[bobb_sledd]

I figured I should give an update. Other than Hubby bringing his A game to rough sex the other night...

You go Girl! Enjoy when you get it.
This lowly observer's opinion? Stick to the established friends for the cruise. You don't want to alienate them by bringing someone you know will become a distraction. Find time to pursue Dimples later.

 

[13Fantasies]

The more kids you add, the harder it is to be more exciting.

Congratulations on the realty success.

 

[lil_jenni]

A happy milestone today -- I am under 120 lb again. I mean, 119.8 is under 120...

I'm kinda shooting for 115, although I may not make it a definite goal. I'm not really unhappy with my weight now. On the other hand, I'm going to have to wait until I'm done nursing before I know what my body will be like post twin pregnancy.

My weight typically fluctuated between 104 and 107 when I got pregnant this time. Before my first pregnancy, I was usually around 100 to 104. The funny thing is, I was actually a bit thinner after I lost the weight from my first pregnancy, because I had more lean muscle mass. Same size clothes, but a bit looser fit at 107 post pregnancy than 104 pre pregnancy. And more angular with respect to my features, and thinner but more toned arms and legs.

This time, I'm guessing I'm about the same lean muscle mass now I was when I got pregnant. It's 12.8+ extract pounds of fat. Well, and a bit on account of milk production, but really that's not significant.

I have a bit more curve to my hips and bust. And since I tend to gain wait quicker in my upper torso than in my thighs and butt, I'm certainly a bit top heavier rather than my more hourglass pre twin pregnancy proportions. I would like to get back to the same bust and hip measurements, but that may not be my body anymore. We shall see.

Anyway, I may be hyper fixating. I need to let myself be happy at 119.8 and see where the rest of this journey takes me before knowing where I want to end up. Or so I keep telling myself.

 

[13Fantasies]

Im sure you look fabulous as always.

But if you need an intervention, I can come stage one with your husband for you.

 

[lil_jenni]

Im sure you look fabulous as always.

But if you need an intervention, I can come stage one with your husband for you.

I'm not hating the way I look. But I am having to be a bit more thoughtful about my clothes. My waist and tummy need a bit of disguising, in my opinion.

 

[lil_jenni]

I'm not hating the way I look. But I am having to be a bit more thoughtful about my clothes. My waist and tummy need a bit of disguising, in my opinion.

I'm not disguising the bigger chest, however. That's a bonus.